CHAPTER 1
Jonathan Harker's Journal
3 May. Bistritz.—Left Munich at 8:35 P.M., on 1st May, arriving
at Vienna early next morning; should have arrived at 6:46, but train was an
hour late. Buda-Pesth seems a wonderful place, from the glimpse which I got
of it from the train and the little I could walk through the streets. I
feared to go very far from the station, as we had arrived late and
would start as near the correct time as possible.
The impression I had was that we were leaving the West and entering the
East; the most western of splendid bridges over the Danube, which is here of
noble width and depth, took us among the traditions of Turkish rule.
We left in pretty good time, and came after nightfall to
Klausenburgh. Here I stopped for the night at the Hotel Royale. I had
for dinner, or rather supper, a chicken done up some way with red
pepper, which was very good but thirsty. (Mem. get recipe for
Mina.) I asked the waiter, and he said it was called "paprika hendl," and
that, as it was a national dish, I should be able to get it anywhere along
the Carpathians.
I found my smattering of German very useful here, indeed, I don't know
how I should be able to get on without it.
Having had some time at my disposal when in London, I had visited the
British Museum, and made search among the books and maps in the library
regarding Transylvania; it had struck me that some foreknowledge of the
country could hardly fail to have some importance in dealing with a
nobleman of that country.
I find that the district he named is in the extreme east of the
country, just on the borders of three states, Transylvania, Moldavia, and
Bukovina, in the midst of the Carpathian mountains; one of the wildest and
least known portions of Europe.
I was not able to light on any map or work giving the exact locality of
the Castle Dracula, as there are no maps of this country as yet to compare
with our own Ordance Survey Maps; but I found that Bistritz, the post town
named by Count Dracula, is a fairly well-known place. I shall enter here some
of my notes, as they may refresh my memory when I talk over my travels with
Mina.
In the population of Transylvania there are four distinct
nationalities: Saxons in the South, and mixed with them the Wallachs, who are
the descendants of the Dacians; Magyars in the West, and Szekelys in the East
and North. I am going among the latter, who claim to be descended from
Attila and the Huns. This may be so, for when the Magyars conquered the
country in the eleventh century they found the Huns settled in it.
I read that every known superstition in the world is gathered into the
horseshoe of the Carpathians, as if it were the centre of some sort of
imaginative whirlpool; if so my stay may be very interesting. (Mem., I must
ask the Count all about them.)
I did not sleep well, though my bed was comfortable enough, for I had
all sorts of queer dreams. There was a dog howling all night under my
window, which may have had something to do with it; or it may have been the
paprika, for I had to drink up all the water in my carafe, and was still
thirsty. Towards morning I slept and was wakened by the continuous knocking
at my door, so I guess I must have been sleeping soundly then.
I had for breakfast more paprika, and a sort of porridge of maize
flour which they said was "mamaliga", and egg-plant stuffed with
forcemeat, a very excellent dish, which they call "impletata". (Mem., get
recipe for this also.)
I had to hurry breakfast, for the train started a little before
eight, or rather it ought to have done so, for after rushing to the
station at 7:30 I had to sit in the carriage for more than an hour before
we began to move.
It seems to me that the further east you go the more unpunctual are the
trains. What ought they to be in China?
All day long we seemed to dawdle through a country which was full of
beauty of every kind. Sometimes we saw little towns or castles on the
top of steep hills such as we see in old missals; sometimes we ran by rivers
and streams which seemed from the wide stony margin on each side of them to
be subject ot great floods. It takes a lot of water, and running strong, to
sweep the outside edge of a river clear.
At every station there were groups of people, sometimes crowds, and in
all sorts of attire. Some of them were just like the peasants at home
or those I saw coming through France and Germany, with short jackets, and
round hats, and home-made trousers; but others were very picturesque.
The women looked pretty, except when you got near them, but they were
very clumsy about the waist. They had all full white sleeves of some
kind or other, and most of them had big belts with a lot of strips of
something fluttering from them like the dresses in a ballet, but of course
there were petticoats under them.
The strangest figures we saw were the Slovaks, who were more barbarian
than the rest, with their big cow-boy hats, great baggy dirty-white trousers,
white linen shirts, and enormous heavy leather belts, nearly a foot wide, all
studded over with brass nails. They wore high boots, with their trousers
tucked into them, and had long black hair and heavy black moustaches. They
are very picturesque, but do not look prepossessing. On the stage they would
be set down at once as some old Oriental band of brigands. They are,
however, I am told, very harmless and rather wanting in natural
self-assertion.
It was on the dark side of twilight when we got to Bistritz, which is a
very interesting old place. Being practically on the frontier—for the
Borgo Pass leads from it into Bukovina— it has had a very stormy existence,
and it certainly shows marks of it. Fifty years ago a series of great
fires took place, which made terrible havoc on five separate occasions. At
the very beginning of the seventeenth century it underwent a siege of three
weeks and lost 13,000 people, the casualties of war proper being assisted by
famine and disease.
Count Dracula had directed me to go to the Golden Krone Hotel, which I
found, to my great delight, to be thoroughly old-fashioned, for of course I
wanted to see all I could of the ways of the country.
I was evidently expected, for when I got near the door I faced a
cheery-looking elderly woman in the usual peasant dress— white undergarment
with a long double apron, front, and back, of coloured stuff fitting almost
too tight for modesty. When I came close she bowed and said, "The Herr
Englishman?"
"Yes," I said, "Jonathan Harker."
She smiled, and gave some message to an elderly man in white
shirtsleeves, who had followed her to the door.
He went, but immediately returned with a letter:
"My friend.—Welcome to the Carpathians. I am anxiously expecting
you. Sleep well tonight. At three tomorrow the diligence will start for
Bukovina; a place on it is kept for you. At the Borgo Pass my carriage
will await you and will bring you to me. I trust that your journey from
London has been a happy one, and that you will enjoy your stay in my
beautiful land.— Your friend, Dracula."
4 May—I found that my landlord had got a letter from the
Count, directing him to secure the best place on the coach for me; but on
making inquiries as to details he seemed somewhat reticent, and pretended
that he could not understand my German.
This could not be true, because up to then he had understood it
perfectly; at least, he answered my questions exactly as if he did.
He and his wife, the old lady who had received me, looked at each other
in a frightened sort of way. He mumbled out that the money had been
sent in a letter,and that was all he knew. When I asked him if he knew Count
Dracula, and could tell me anything of his castle, both he and his wife
crossed themselves, and, saying that they knew nothing at all, simply refused
to speak further. It was so near the time of starting that I had no time to
ask anyone else, for it was all very mysterious and not by any means
comforting.
Just before I was leaving, the old lady came up to my room and said in a
hysterical way: "Must you go? Oh! Young Herr, must you
go?" She was in such an excited state that she seemed to have lost her
grip of what German she knew, and mixed it all up with some other language
which I did not know at all. I was just able to follow her by asking many
questions. When I told her that I must go at once, and that I was
engaged on important business, she asked again:
"Do you know what day it is?" I answered that it was the fourth of
May. She shook her head as she said again:
"Oh, yes! I know that! I know that, but do you know what day it
is?"
On my saying that I did not understand, she went on:
"It is the eve of St. George's Day. Do you not know that
tonight, when the clock strikes midnight, all the evil things in the world
will have full sway? Do you know where you are going, and what you are
going to?" She was in such evident distress that I tried to comfort
her, but without effect. Finally, she went down on her knees and
implored me not to go; at least to wait a day or two before starting.
It was all very ridiculous but I did not feel comfortable. However,
there was business to be done, and I could allow nothing to interfere with
it.
I tried to raise her up, and said, as gravely as I could, that I thanked
her, but my duty was imperative, and that I must go.
She then rose and dried her eyes, and taking a crucifix from her
neck offered it to me.
I did not know what to do, for, as an English Churchman, I have been
taught to regard such things as in some measure idolatrous, and yet it seemed
so ungracious to refuse an old lady meaning so well and in such a state of
mind.
She saw, I suppose, the doubt in my face, for she put the rosary round
my neck and said, "For your mother's sake," and went out of the room.
I am writing up this part of the diary whilst I am waiting for the
coach, which is, of course, late; and the crucifix is still round my
neck.
Whether it is the old lady's fear, or the many ghostly traditions of
this place, or the crucifix itself, I do not know, but I am not feeling
nearly as easy in my mind as usual.
If this book should ever reach Mina before I do, let it bring my
goodbye. Here comes the coach!
5 May. The Castle.—The gray of the morning has passed, and
the sun is high over the distant horizon, which seems jagged, whether with
trees or hills I know not, for it is so far off that big things and little
are mixed.
I am not sleepy, and, as I am not to be called till I awake, naturally I
write till sleep comes.
There are many odd things to put down, and, lest who reads them may
fancy that I dined too well before I left Bistritz, let me put down my dinner
exactly.
I dined on what they called "robber steak"—bits of bacon, onion, and
beef, seasoned with red pepper, and strung on sticks, and roasted over the
fire, in simple style of the London cat's meat!
The wine was Golden Mediasch, which produces a queer sting on the
tongue, which is, however, not disagreeable.
I had only a couple of glasses of this, and nothing else.
When I got on the coach, the driver had not taken his seat, and I saw
him talking to the landlady.
They were evidently talking of me, for every now and then they looked at
me, and some of the people who were sitting on the bench outside the
door— came and listened, and then looked at me, most of them pityingly. I
could hear a lot of words often repeated, queer words, for there were many
nationalities in the crowd, so I quietly got my polyglot dictionary from my
bag and looked them out.
I must say they were not cheering to me, for amongst them
were "Ordog"—Satan, "Pokol"—hell, "stregoica"—witch, "vrolok"
and "vlkoslak"—both mean the same thing, one being Slovak and the other
Servian for something that is either werewolf or vampire. (Mem., I must ask
the Count about these superstitions.)
When we started, the crowd round the inn door, which had by this time
swelled to a considerable size, all made the sign of the cross and pointed
two fingers towards me.
With some difficulty, I got a fellow passenger to tell me what they
meant. He would not answer at first, but on learning that I was
English, he explained that it was a charm or guard against the evil
eye.
This was not very pleasant for me, just starting for an unknown place to
meet an unknown man. But everyone seemed so kind-hearted, and so
sorrowful, and so sympathetic that I could not but be touched.
I shall never forget the last glimpse which I had of the inn yard and
its crowd of picturesque figures,all crossing themselves, as they stood round
the wide archway, with its background of rich foliage of oleander and orange
trees in green tubs clustered in the centre of the yard.
Then our driver, whose wide linen drawers covered the whole front of the
boxseat,—"gotza" they call them—cracked his big whip over his four small
horses, which ran abreast, and we set off on our journey.
I soon lost sight and recollection of ghostly fears in the beauty of the
scene as we drove along, although had I known the language, or rather
languages, which my fellow-passengers were speaking, I might not have been
able to throw them off so easily. Before us lay a green sloping land full of
forests and woods, with here and there steep hills, crowned with clumps of
trees or with farmhouses, the blank gable end to the road. There was
everywhere a bewildering mass of fruit blossom— apple, plum, pear,
cherry. And as we drove by I could see the green grass under the trees
spangled with the fallen petals. In and out amongst these green hills of what
they call here the "Mittel Land" ran the road, losing itself as it
swept round the grassy curve, or was shut out by the straggling ends of
pine woods, which here and there ran down the hillsides like tongues of
flame. The road was rugged, but still we seemed to fly over it with a
feverish haste. I could not understand then what the haste meant, but the
driver was evidently bent on losing no time in reaching Borgo Prund. I was
told that this road is in summertime excellent, but that it had not yet been
put in order after the winter snows. In this respect it is different from the
general run of roads in the Carpathians, for it is an old tradition that
they are not to be kept in too good order. Of old the
Hospadars would not repair them, lest the Turk should think that they were
preparing to bring in foreign troops, and so hasten the war which was always
really at loading point.
Beyond the green swelling hills of the Mittel Land rose mighty slopes of
forest up to the lofty steeps of the Carpathians themselves. Right and left
of us they towered, with the afternoon sun falling full upon them and
bringing out all the glorious colours of this beautiful range, deep blue and
purple in the shadows of the peaks, green and brown where grass and rock
mingled, and an endless perspective of jagged rock and pointed crags, till
these were themselves lost in the distance, where the snowy peaks rose
grandly. Here and there seemed mighty rifts in the mountains, through
which, as the sun began to sink, we saw now and again the white gleam of
falling water. One of my companions touched my arm as we swept round
the base of a hill and opened up the lofty, snow-covered peak of a mountain,
which seemed, as we wound on our serpentine way, to be right before us.
"Look! Isten szek!"—"God's seat!"—and he crossed himself
reverently.
As we wound on our endless way, and the sun sank lower and lower behind
us, the shadows of the evening began to creep round us. This was emphasized
by the fact that the snowy mountain-top still held the sunset, and seemed to
glow out with a delicate cool pink. Here and there we passed Cszeks and
slovaks, all in picturesque attire, but I noticed that goitre was painfully
prevalent. By the roadside were many crosses, and as we swept by, my
companions all crossed themselves. Here and there was a peasant man or woman
kneeling before a shrine, who did not even turn round as we approached, but
seemed in the self-surrender of devotion to have neither eyes nor ears for
the outer world. There were many things new to me. For instance,
hay-ricks in the trees, and here and there very beautiful masses of weeping
birch, their white stems shining like silver through the delicate green of
the leaves.
Now and again we passed a leiter-wagon—the ordinary peasants's cart—with
its long, snakelike vertebra, calculated to suit the inequalities of the
road. On this were sure to be seated quite a group of homecoming
peasants, the Cszeks with their white, and the Slovaks with their coloured
sheepskins, the latter carrying lance-fashion their long staves, with axe at
end. As the evening fell it began to get very cold, and the growing twilight
seemed to merge into one dark mistiness the gloom of the trees, oak, beech,
and pine, though in the valleys which ran deep between the spurs of the
hills, as we ascended through the Pass, the dark firs stood out here and
there against the background of late-lying snow. Sometimes, as the road
was cut through the pine woods that seemed in the darkness to be
closing down upon us, great masses of greyness which here and there
bestrewed the trees, produced a peculiarly weird and solemn effect, which
carried on the thoughts and grim fancies engendered earlier in the
evening, when the falling sunset threw into strange relief the ghost-like
clouds which amongst the Carpathians seem to wind ceaselessly through the
valleys. Sometimes the hills were so steep that, despite our driver's
haste, the horses could only go slowly. I wished to get down and
walk up them, as we do at home, but the driver would not hear of it. "No,
no," he said. "You must not walk here. The dogs are too
fierce." And then he added, with what he evidently meant for grim
pleasantry— for he looked round to catch the approving smile of the
rest—"And you may have enough of such matters before you go to
sleep." The only stop he would make was a moment's pause to light his
lamps.
When it grew dark there seemed to be some excitement amongst the
passengers, and they kept speaking to him, one after the other, as though
urging him to further speed. He lashed the horses unmercifully with his long
whip, and with wild cries of encouragement urged them on to further
exertions. Then through the darkness I could see a sort of patch of
grey light ahead of us,as though there were a cleft in the hills. The
excitement of the passengers grew greater. The crazy coach rocked on its
great leather springs, and swayed like a boat tossed on a stormy sea. I
had to hold on. The road grew more level, and we appeared to fly
along. Then the mountains seemed to come nearer to us on each side and to
frown down upon us. We were entering on the Borgo Pass. One by one
several of the passengers offered me gifts, which they pressed upon me with
an earnestness which would take no denial. These were certainly of an
odd and varied kind, but each was given in simple good faith, with a kindly
word, and a blessing, and that same strange mixture of
fear-meaning movements which I had seen outside the hotel at
Bistritz— the sign of the cross and the guard against the evil eye. Then,
as we flew along, the driver leaned forward, and on each side the passengers,
craning over the edge of the coach, peered eagerly into the darkness.
It was evident that something very exciting was either happening or expected,
but though I asked each passenger, no one would give me the slightest
explanation. This state of excitement kept on for some little time. And at
last we saw before us the Pass opening out on the eastern side. There
were dark, rolling clouds overhead, and in the air the heavy, oppressive
sense of thunder. It seemed as though the mountain range had separated two
atmospheres, and that now we had got into the thunderous one. I was now
myself looking out for the conveyance which was to take me to the
Count. Each moment I expected to see the glare of lamps through the
blackness, but all was dark. The only light was the flickering rays of our
own lamps, in which the steam from our hard-driven horses rose in a white
cloud. We could see now the sandy road lying white before us, but
there was on it no sign of a vehicle. The passengers drew back with
a sigh of gladness, which seemed to mock my own disappointment. I was
already thinking what I had best do, when the driver, looking at his watch,
said to the others something which I could hardly hear, it was spoken so
quietly and in so low a tone, I thought it was "An hour less than the
time." Then turning to me, he spoke in German worse than my own.
"There is no carriage here. The Herr is not expected after all. He
will now come on to Bukovina, and return tomorrow or the next day, better the
next day." Whilst he was speaking the horses began to neigh and snort
and plunge wildly, so that the driver had to hold them up. Then,
amongst a chorus of screams from the peasants and a universal crossing of
themselves, a caleche, with four horses, drove up behind us, overtook us, and
drew up beside the coach. I could see from the flash of our lamps as the rays
fell on them, that the horses were coal-black and splendid animals.
They were driven by a tall man, with a long brown beard and a great black
hat, which seemed to hide his face from us. I could only see the
gleam of a pair of very bright eyes, which seemed red in the lamplight, as
he turned to us.
He said to the driver, "You are early tonight, my friend."
The man stammered in reply, "The English Herr was in a hurry."
To which the stranger replied, "That is why, I suppose, you wished him
to go on to Bukovina. You cannot deceive me, my friend. I know too
much, and my horses are swift."
As he spoke he smiled,and the lamplight fell on a hard-looking
mouth, with very red lips and sharp-looking teeth, as white as ivory. One
of my companions whispered to another the line from Burger's "Lenore".
"Denn die Todten reiten Schnell." ("For the dead travel fast.")
The strange driver evidently heard the words, for he looked up with
a gleaming smile. The passenger turned his face away, at the same time
putting out his two fingers and crossing himself. "Give me the Herr's
luggage," said the driver, and with exceeding alacrity my bags were handed
out and put in the caleche. Then I descended from the side of the coach, as
the caleche was close alongside, the driver helping me with a hand which
caught my arm in a grip of steel. His strength must have been
prodigious.
Without a word he shook his reins, the horses turned, and we swept into
the darkness of the pass. As I looked back I saw the steam from the
horses of the coach by the light of the lamps,and projected against it the
figures of my late companions crossing themselves. Then the driver cracked
his whip and called to his horses, and off they swept on their way to
Bukovina. As they sank into the darkness I felt a strange chill, and a
lonely feeling come over me. But a cloak was thrown over my shoulders, and a
rug across my knees, and the driver said in excellent German—"The night is
chill, mein Herr, and my master the Count bade me take all care of
you. There is a flask of slivovitz (the plum brandy of the
country) underneath the seat, if you should require it."
I did not take any, but it was a comfort to know it was there all the
same. I felt a little strangely, and not a little frightened. I think
had there been any alternative I should have taken it, instead of prosecuting
that unknown night journey. The carriage went at a hard pace straight
along, then we made a complete turn and went along another straight
road. It seemed to me that we were simply going over and over the same ground
again, and so I took note of some salient point, and found that this was
so. I would have liked to have asked the driver what this all meant, but
I really feared to do so, for I thought that, placed as I was, any
protest would have had no effect in case there had been an intention to
delay.
By-and-by, however, as I was curious to know how time was passing, I
struck a match, and by its flame looked at my watch. It was within a few
minutes of midnight. This gave me a sort of shock, for I suppose the
general superstition about midnight was increased by my recent
experiences. I waited with a sick feeling of suspense.
Then a dog began to howl somewhere in a farmhouse far down the road, a
long, agonized wailing, as if from fear. The sound was taken up by another
dog, and then another and another, till, borne on the wind which now sighed
softly through the Pass, a wild howling began, which seemed to come from
all over the country, as far as the imagination could grasp it through the
gloom of the night.
At the first howl the horses began to strain and rear, but the
driver spoke to them soothingly, and they quieted down, but shivered and
sweated as though after a runaway from sudden fright. Then, far off in the
distance, from the mountains on each side of us began a louder and a sharper
howling, that of wolves, which affected both the horses and myself in the
same way. For I was minded to jump from the caleche and run, whilst they
reared again and plunged madly, so that the driver had to use all his great
strength to keep them from bolting. In a few minutes, however, my own ears
got accustomed to the sound, and the horses so far became quiet that the
driver was able to descend and to stand before them.
He petted and soothed them, and whispered something in their ears, as I
have heard of horse-tamers doing, and with extraordinary effect, for under
his caresses they became quite manageable again, though they still
trembled. The driver again took his seat, and shaking his reins,
started off at a great pace. This time, after going to the far side or the
Pass, he suddenly turned down a narrow roadway which ran sharply to the
right.
Soon we were hemmed in with trees, which in places arched right over the
roadway till we passed as through a tunnel. And again great frowning rocks
guarded us boldly on either side. Though we were in shelter, we could hear
the rising wind, for it moaned and whistled through the rocks, and
the branches of the trees crashed together as we swept along. It grew
colder and colder still, and fine, powdery snow began to fall, so that soon
we and all around us were covered with a white blanket. The keen wind
still carried the howling of the dogs, though this grew fainter as we went on
our way. The baying of the wolves sounded nearer and nearer, as though
they were closing round on us from every side. I grew dreadfully afraid, and
the horses shared my fear. The driver, however, was not in the least
disturbed. He kept turning his head to left and right, but I could not
see anything through the darkness.
Suddenly, away on our left I saw a fain flickering blue flame. The
driver saw it at the same moment. He at once checked the horses, and, jumping
to the ground, disappeared into the darkness. I did not know what to
do, the less as the howling of the wolves grew closer. But while I
wondered, the driver suddenly appeared again, and without a word took his
seat, and we resumed our journey. I think I must have fallen asleep and kept
dreaming of the incident, for it seemed to be repeated endlessly, and now
looking back, it is like a sort of awful nightmare. Once the flame appeared
so near the road, that even in the darkness around us I could watch the
driver's motions. He went rapidly to where the blue flame arose, it must
have been very faint, for it did not seem to illumine the place around it
at all, and gathering a few stones, formed them into some device.
Once there appeared a strange optical effect. When he stood between me
and the flame he did not obstruct it, for I could see its ghostly flicker all
the same. This startled me, but as the effect was only momentary, I
took it that my eyes deceived me straining through the darkness. Then for
a time there were no blue flames, and we sped onwards through the gloom, with
the howling of the wolves around us, as though they were following in a
moving circle.
At last there came a time when the driver went further afield than he
had yet gone, and during his absence, the horses began to tremble worse than
ever and to snort and scream with fright. I could not see any cause for
it, for the howling of the wolves had ceased altogether. But just then the
moon, sailing through the black clouds, appeared behind the jagged crest of a
beetling, pine-clad rock, and by its light I saw around us a ring of wolves,
with white teeth and lolling red tongues, with long, sinewy limbs and shaggy
hair. They were a hundred times more terrible in the grim silence which
held them than even when they howled. For myself, I felt a sort of paralysis
of fear. It is only when a man feels himself face to face with such
horrors that he can understand their true import.
All at once the wolves began to howl as though the moonlight had had
some peculiar effect on them. The horses jumped about and reared, and
looked helplessly round with eyes that rolled in a way painful to see.
But the living ring of terror encompassed them on every side, and they had
perforce to remain within it. I called to the coachman to come, for it seemed
to me that our only chance was to try to break out through the ring and to
aid his approach, I shouted and beat the side of the caleche, hoping by
the noise to scare the wolves from the side, so as to give him a chance of
reaching the trap. How he came there, I know not, but I heard his voice
raised in a tone of imperious command, and looking towards the sound, saw him
stand in the roadway. As he swept his long arms, as though brushing aside
some impalpable obstacle, the wolves fell back and back further
still. Just then a heavy cloud passed across the face of the moon, so that
we were again in darkness.
When I could see again the driver was climbing into the caleche, and the
wolves disappeared. This was all so strange and uncanny that a dreadful
fear came upon me, and I was afraid to speak or move. The time seemed
interminable as we swept on our way, now in almost complete darkness, for the
rolling clouds obscured the moon.
We kept on ascending, with occasional periods of quick descent, but in
the main always ascending. Suddenly, I became conscious of the fact
that the driver was in the act of pulling up the horses in the courtyard of a
vast ruined castle, from whose tall black windows came no ray of light,and
whose broken battlements showed a jagged line against the sky.
CHAPTER 2
Jonathan Harker's Journal Continued
5 May.—I must have been asleep, for certainly if I had been fully awake
I must have noticed the approach of such a remarkable place. In the gloom the
courtyard looked of considerable size, and as several dark ways led from it
under great round arches, it perhaps seemed bigger than it really is. I
have not yet been able to see it by daylight.
When the caleche stopped, the driver jumped down and held out his hand
to assist me to alight. Again I could not but notice his prodigious
strength. His hand actually seemed like a steel vice that could have
crushed mine if he had chosen. Then he took my traps, and placed them
on the ground beside me as I stood close to a great door, old and
studded with large iron nails, and set in a projecting doorway of massive
stone. I could see even in th e dim light that the stone was massively
carved, but that the carving had been much worn by time and weather. As I
stood, the driver jumped again into his seat and shook the reins. The horses
started forward,and trap and all disappeared down one of the dark
openings.
I stood in silence where I was, for I did not know what to do. Of bell
or knocker there was no sign. Through these frowning walls and dark
window openings it was not likely that my voice could penetrate. The
time I waited seemed endless, and I felt doubts and fears crowding upon
me. What sort of place had I come to, and among what kind of
people? What sort of grim adventure was it on which I had embarked? Was
this a customary incident in the life of a solicitor's clerk sent out to
explain the purchase of a London estate to a foreigner? Solicitor's
clerk! Mina would not like that. Solicitor, for just before leaving
London I got word that my examination was successful, and I am now a
full-blown solicitor! I began to rub my eyes and pinch myself to see if I
were awake. It all seemed like a horrible nightmare to me, and I
expected that I should suddenly awake, and find myself at home, with the
dawn struggling in through the windows, as I had now and again felt in the
morning after a day of overwork. But my flesh answered the pinching test, and
my eyes were not to be deceived. I was indeed awake and among the
Carpathians. All I could do now was to be patient, and to wait the coming
of morning.
Just as I had come to this conclusion I heard a heavy step approaching
behind the great door, and saw through the chinks the gleam of a coming
light. Then there was the sound of rattling chains and the clanking of
massive bolts drawn back. A key was turned with the loud grating noise
of long disuse, and the great door swung back.
Within, stood a tall old man, clean shaven save for a long white
moustache, and clad in black from head to foot, without a single speck of
colour about him anywhere. He held in his hand an antique silver lamp,
in which the flame burned without a chimney or globe of any kind, throwing
long quivering shadows as it flickered in the draught of the open
door. The old man motioned me in with his right hand with a courtly
gesture, saying in excellent English, but with a strange intonation.
"Welcome to my house! Enter freely and of your own free will!" He
made no motion of stepping to meet me, but stood like a statue,as though his
gesture of welcome had fixed him into stone. The instant, however, that I had
stepped over the threshold, he moved impulsively forward, and holding out his
hand grasped mine with a strength which made me wince, an effect which was
not lessened by the fact that it seemed cold as ice, more like the hand of a
dead than a living man. Again he said.
"Welcome to my house! Enter freely. Go safely, and
leave something of the happiness you bring!" The strength of the
handshake was so much akin to that which I had noticed in the driver, whose
face I had not seen, that for a moment I doubted if it were not the same
person to whom I was speaking. So to make sure, I said interrogatively,
"Count Dracula?"
He bowed in a courtly was as he replied, "I am Dracula, and I bid you
welcome, Mr. Harker, to my house. Come in, the night air is chill, and
you must need to eat and rest."As he was speaking, he put the lamp on a
bracket on the wall, and stepping out, took my luggage. He had carried
it in before I could forestall him. I protested, but he insisted.
"Nay, sir, you are my guest. It is late, and my people are not
available. Let me see to your comfort myself."He insisted on carrying my
traps along the passage, and then up a great winding stair, and
along another great passage, on whose stone floor our steps rang
heavily. At the end of this he threw open a heavy door, and I rejoiced to
see within a well-lit room in which a table was spread for supper, and on
whose mighty hearth a great fire of logs, freshly replenished, flamed and
flared.
The Count halted, putting down my bags, closed the door, and
crossing the room, opened another door, which led into a small octagonal
room lit by a single lamp, and seemingly without a window of any
sort. Passing through this, he opened another door, and motioned me to
enter. It was a welcome sight. For here was a great bedroom well
lighted and warmed with another log fire, also added to but lately, for the
top logs were fresh, which sent a hollow roar up the wide chimney. The
Count himself left my luggage inside and withdrew, saying, before he closed
the door.
"You will need, after your journey, to refresh yourself by making your
toilet. I trust you will find all you wish. When you are ready, come
into the other room, where you will find your supper prepared."
The light and warmth and the Count's courteous welcome seemed to have
dissipated all my doubts and fears. Having then reached my normal
state, I discovered that I was half famished with hunger. So making a hasty
toilet, I went into the other room.
I found supper already laid out. My host, who stood on one side of
the great fireplace, leaning against the stonework, made a graceful wave of
his hand to the table, and said,
"I pray you, be seated and sup how you please. You will I
trust, excuse me that I do not join you, but I have dined already, and I
do not sup."
I handed to him the sealed letter which Mr. Hawkins had entrusted to
me. He opened it and read it gravely. Then, with a charming smile, he
handed it to me to read. One passage of it, at least, gave me a thrill
of pleasure.
"I must regret that an attack of gout, from which malady I am a
constant sufferer, forbids absolutely any travelling on my part for some time
to come. But I am happy to say I can send a sufficient substitute, one in
whom I have every possible confidence. He is a young man, full of
energy and talent in his own way, and of a very faithful disposition. He
is discreet and silent, and has grown into manhood in my service. He shall be
ready to attend on you when you will during his stay, and shall take your
instructions in all matters."
The count himself came forward and took off the cover of a dish, and I
fell to at once on an excellent roast chicken. This, with some cheese and a
salad and a bottle of old tokay, of which I had two glasses, was my
supper. During the time I was eating it the Count asked me many
question as to my journey, and I told him by degrees all I had
experienced.
By this time I had finished my supper,and by my host's desire had
drawn up a chair by the fire and begun to smoke a cigar which he offered
me, at the same time excusing himself that he did not smoke. I had now an
opportunity of observing him, and found him of a very marked
physiognomy.
His face was a strong, a very strong, aquiline, with high bridge of the
thin nose and peculiarly arched nostrils, with lofty domed forehead, and hair
growing scantily round the temples but profusely elsewhere. His eyebrows were
very massive, almost meeting over the nose, and with bushy hair that seemed
to curl in its own profusion. The mouth, so far as I could see it under the
heavy moustache, was fixed and rather cruel-looking, with peculiarly
sharp white teeth. These protruded over the lips, whose
remarkable ruddiness showed astonishing vitality in a man of his
years. For the rest, his ears were pale, and at the tops extremely
pointed. The chin was broad and strong, and the cheeks firm though
thin. The general effect was one of extraordinary pallor.
Hitherto I had noticed the backs of his hands as they lay on his knees
in the firelight, and they had seemed rather white and fine. But seeing them
now close to me, I could not but notice that they were rather coarse, broad,
with squat fingers. Strange to say, there were hairs in the centre of the
palm. The nails were long and fine, and cut to a sharp point. As the Count
leaned over me and his hands touched me, I could not repress a shudder.
It may have been that his breath was rank, but a horrible feeling of nausea
came over me, which, do what I would, I could not conceal.
The Count, evidently noticing it, drew back. And with a grim
sort of smile, which showed more than he had yet done his protruberant
teeth, sat himself down again on his own side of the fireplace. We were
both silent for a while, and as I looked towards the window I saw the first
dim streak of the coming dawn. There seemed a strange stillness over
everything. But as I listened, I heard as if from down below in the
valley the howling of many wolves. The Count's eyes gleamed, and he
said.
"Listen to them, the children of the night. What music they
make!" Seeing, I suppose, some expression in my face strange to him, he
added, "Ah, sir, you dwellers in the city cannot enter into the
feelings of the hunter." Then he rose and said.
"But you must be tired. Your bedroom is all ready, and tomorrow
you shall sleep as late as you will. I have to be away till the
afternoon, so sleep well and dream well!" With a courteous bow, he opened for
me himself the door to the octagonal room, and I entered my bedroom.
I am all in a sea of wonders. I doubt. I fear. I think
strange things, which I dare not confess to my own soul. God keep me, if only
for the sake of those dear to me!
7 May.—It is again early morning, but I have rested and enjoyed the
last twenty-four hours. I slept till late in the day, and awoke of my
own accord. When I had dressed myself I went into the room where we had
supped, and found a cold breakfast laid out, with coffee kept hot by the pot
being placed on the hearth. There was a card on the table, on which
was written—"I have to be absent for a while. Do not wait for me. D."
I set to and enjoyed a hearty meal. When I had done, I looked for a bell, so
that I might let the servants know I had finished, but I could not find
one. There are certainly odd deficiencies in the house, considering the
extraordinary evidences of wealth which are round me. The table service is of
gold, and so beautifully wrought that it must be of immense value. The
curtains and upholstery of the chairs and sofas and the hangings of my bed
are of the costliest and most beautiful fabrics, and must have been of
fabulous value when they were made, for they are centuries old, though in
excellent order. I saw something like them in Hampton Court, but they
were worn and frayed and moth-eaten. But still in none of the rooms is there
a mirror. There is not even a toilet glass on my table, and I had to
get the little shaving glass from my bag before I could either shave or
brush my hair. I have not yet seen a servant anywhere, or heard a sound
near the castle except the howling of wolves. Some time after I had finished
my meal, I do not know whether to call it breakfast of dinner, for it was
between five and six o'clock when I had it, I looked about for something to
read, for I did not like to go about the castle until I had asked the
Count's permission. There was absolutely nothing in the room, book,
newspaper, or even writing materials, so I opened another door in the room
and found a sort of library. The door opposite mine I tried, but found
locked.
In the library I found, to my great delight, a vast number of English
books, whole shelves full of them, and bound volumes of magazines and
newspapers. A table in the center was littered with English magazines and
newspapers, though none of them were of very recent date. The books
were of the most varied kind, history, geography, politics, political
economy, botany, geology, law, all relating to England and English life and
customs and manners. There were even such books of reference as the London
Directory, the "Red" and "Blue" books, Whitaker's Almanac, the Army and Navy
Lists, and it somehow gladdened my heart to see it, the Law List.
Whilst I was looking at the books, the door opened, and the Count
entered. He saluted me in a hearty way, and hoped that I had had a good
night's rest. Then he went on.
"I am glad you found your way in here, for I am sure there is much that
will interest you. These companions," and he laid his hand on some of
the books, "have been good friends to me, and for some years past, ever since
I had the idea of going to London, have given me many, many hours of
pleasure. Through them I have come to know your great England, and to
know her is to love her. I long to go through the crowded streets of your
mighty London, to be in the midst of the whirl and rush of humanity, to
share its life, its change, its death, and all that makes it what it
is. But alas! As yet I only know your tongue through books. To you,
my friend, I look that I know it to speak."
"But, Count," I said, "You know and speak English thoroughly!" He bowed
gravely.
"I thank you, my friend, for your all too-flattering estimate, but yet I
fear that I am but a little way on the road I would travel. True, I know the
grammar and the words, but yet I know not how to speak them.
"Indeed," I said, "You speak excellently."
"Not so," he answered. "Well, I know that, did I move and speak in
your London, none there are who would not know me for a stranger. That
is not enough for me. Here I am noble. I am a Boyar. The common
people know me, and I am master. But a stranger in a strange land, he is no
one. Men know him not, and to know not is to care not for. I am
content if I am like the rest, so that no man stops if he sees me, or
pauses in his speaking if he hears my words, `Ha, ha! A stranger!' I
have been so long master that I would be master still, or at least that none
other should be master of me. You come to me not alone as agent of my friend
Peter Hawkins, of Exeter, to tell me all about my new estate in
London. You shall, I trust, rest here with me a while, so that by
our talking I may learn the English intonation. And I would that
you tell me when I make error, even of the smallest, in my speaking. I am
sorry that I had to be away so long today, but you will, I know forgive one
who has so many important affairs in hand."
Of course I said all I could about being willing, and asked if I might
come into that room when I chose. He answered, "Yes, certainly," and
added.
"You may go anywhere you wish in the castle, except where the doors are
locked, where of course you will not wish to go. There is reason that
all things are as they are, and did you see with my eyes and know with my
knowledge, you would perhaps better understand." I said I was sure of this,
and then he went on.
"We are in Transylvania, and Transylvania is not England. Our ways are
not your ways, and there shall be to you many strange things. Nay, from
what you have told me of your experiences already, you know something of what
strange things there may be."
This led to much conversation, and as it was evident that he wanted to
talk, if only for talking's sake, I asked him many questions regarding things
that had already happened to me or come within my notice. Sometimes he
sheered off the subject, or turned the conversation by pretending not to
understand, but generally he answered all I asked most frankly. Then as time
went on, and I had got somewhat bolder, I asked him of some of the strange
things of the preceding night, as for instance, why the coachman went to the
places where he had seen the blue flames. He then explained to me that it was
commonly believed that on a certain night of the year, last night, in fact,
when all evil spirits are supposed to have unchecked sway, a blue flame is
seen over any place where treasure has been concealed.
"That treasure has been hidden," he went on, "in the region through
which you came last night, there can be but little doubt. For it was the
ground fought over for centuries by the Wallachian, the Saxon, and the
Turk. Why, there is hardly a foot of soil in all this region that has
not been enriched by the blood of men, patriots or invaders. In the old
days there were stirring times, when the Austrian and the Hungarian came up
in hordes, and the patriots went out to meet them, men and women, the aged
and the children too, and waited their coming on the rocks above the passes,
that they might sweep destruction on them with their artificial
avalanches. When the invader was triumphant he found but little, for
whatever there was had been sheltered in the friendly soil."
"But how," said I, "can it have remained so long undiscovered, when
there is a sure index to it if men will but take the trouble to look? "The
Count smiled, and as his lips ran back over his gums, the long, sharp, canine
teeth showed out strangely. He answered.
"Because your peasant is at heart a coward and a fool! Those flames only
appear on one night, and on that night no man of this land will, if he can
help it, stir without his doors. And, dear sir, even if he did he would not
know what to do. Why, even the peasant that you tell me of who marked the
place of the flame would not know where to look in daylight even for his
own work. Even you would not, I dare be sworn, be able to find these
places again?"
"There you are right," I said. "I know no more than the dead where
even to look for them." Then we drifted into other matters.
"Come," he said at last, "tell me of London and of the house which you
have procured for me." With an apology for my remissness, I went into
my own room to get the papers from my bag. Whilst I was placing them in order
I heard a rattling of china and silver in the next room, and as I passed
through, noticed that the table had been cleared and the lamp lit, for it was
by this time deep into the dark. The lamps were also lit in the
study or library, and I found the Count lying on the sofa, reading, of all
things in the world, and English Bradshaw's Guide. When I came in he cleared
the books and papers from the table, and with him I went into plans and deeds
and figures of all sorts. He was interested in everything, and asked me a
myriad questions about the place and its surroundings. He clearly had
studied beforehand all he could get on the subject of the
neighborhood, for he evidently at the end knew very much more than I
did. When I remarked this, he answered.
"Well, but, my friend, is it not needful that I should? When I go
there I shall be all alone, and my friend Harker Jonathan, nay, pardon
me. I fall into my country's habit of putting your patronymic first, my
friend Jonathan Harker will not be by my side to correct and aid me. He will
be in Exeter, miles away, probably working at papers of the law with my other
friend, Peter Hawkins. So!"
We went thoroughly into the business of the purchase of the estate at
Purfleet. When I had told him the facts and got his signature to the
necessary papers, and had written a letter with them ready to post to Mr.
Hawkins, he began to ask me how I had come across so suitable a place. I
read to him the notes which I had made at the time, and which I inscribe
here.
"At Purfleet, on a byroad, I came across just such a place as seemed to
be required, and where was displayed a dilapidated notice that the place was
for sale. It was surrounded by a high wall, of ancient structure, built
of heavy stones, and has not been repaired for a large number of years. The
closed gates are of heavy old oak and iron, all eaten with rust.
"The estate is called Carfax, no doubt a corruption of the old Quatre
Face, as the house is four sided, agreeing with the cardinal points of the
compass. It contains in all some twenty acres, quite surrounded by the
solid stone wall above mentioned. There are many trees on it, which
make it in places gloomy, and there is a deep, dark-looking pond or small
lake, evidently fed by some springs, as the water is clear and flows
away in a fair-sized stream. The house is very large and of all periods
back, I should say, to mediaeval times, for one part is of stone immensely
thick, with only a few windows high up and heavily barred with iron. It
looks like part of a keep, and is close to an old chapel or church. I could
not enter it, as I had not the key of the door leading to it from the house,
but I have taken with my Kodak views of it from various points. The house had
been added to, but in a very straggling way, and I can only guess at the
amount of ground it covers, which must be very great. There are but few
houses close at hand, one being a very large house only recently added to and
formed into a private lunatic asylum. It is not, however, visible from the
grounds."
When I had finished, he said, "I am glad that it is old and big. I
myself am of an old family, and to live in a new house would kill me. A
house cannot be made habitable in a day, and after all, how few days go to
make up a century. I rejoice also that there is a chapel of old times. We
Transylvanian nobles love not to think that our bones may lie amongst the
common dead. I seek not gaiety nor mirth, not the bright voluptuousness
of much sunshine and sparkling waters which please the young and gay. I
am no longer young, and my heart, through weary years of mourning over the
dead, is attuned to mirth. Moreover, the walls of my castle are
broken. The shadows are many, and the wind breathes cold through the
broken battlements and casements. I love the shade and the shadow, and
would be alone with my thoughts when I may." Somehow his words and his look
did not seem to accord, or else it was that his cast of face made his smile
look malignant and saturnine.
Presently, with an excuse, he left me, asking me to pull my papers
together. He was some little time away, and I began to look at some of the
books around me. One was an atlas, which I found opened naturally to
England, as if that map had been much used. On looking at it I found in
certain places little rings marked, and on examining these I noticed that one
was near London on the east side, manifestly where his new estate was
situated. The other two were Exeter, and Whitby on the Yorkshire coast.
It was the better part of an hour when the Count returned. "Aha!" he
said. "Still at your books? Good! But you must not work
always. Come! I am informed that your supper is ready." He took
my arm, and we went into the next room, where I found an excellent supper
ready on the table. The Count again excused himself, as he had dined
out on his being away from home. But he sat as on the previous night, and
chatted whilst I ate. After supper I smoked, as on the last evening, and the
Count stayed with me, chatting and asking questions on every conceivable
subject, hour after hour. I felt that it was getting very late indeed,
but I did not say anything, for I felt under obligation to meet my host's
wishes in every way. I was not sleepy, as the long sleep yesterday had
fortified me, but I could not help experiencing that chill which
comes over one at the coming of the dawn, which is like, in its way, the
turn of the tide. They say that people who are near death die generally
at the change to dawn or at the turn of the tide. Anyone who has when tired,
and tied as it were to his post, experienced this change in the atmosphere
can well believe it. All at once we heard the crow of the cock coming up
with preternatural shrillness through the clear morning air.
Count Dracula, jumping to his feet, said, "Why there is the morning
again! How remiss I am to let you stay up so long. You must make
your conversation regarding my dear new country of England less
interesting, so that I may not forget how time flies by us," and with a
courtly bow, he quickly left me.
I went into my room and drew the curtains, but there was little to
notice. My window opened into the courtyard, all I could see was the warm
grey of quickening sky. So I pulled the curtains again, and have
written of this day.
8 May.—I began to fear as I wrote in this book that I was getting
too diffuse. But now I am glad that I went into detail from the first,
for there is something so strange about this place and all in it that I
cannot but feel uneasy. I wish I were safe out of it, or that I had never
come. It may be that this strange night existence is telling on me, but
would that that were all! If there were any one to talk to I could bear
it, but there is no one. I have only the Count to speak with, and he—I
fear I am myself the only living soul within the place. Let me be
prosaiac so far as facts can be. It will help me to bear up, and imagination
must not run riot with me. If it does I am lost. Let me say at
once how I stand, or seem to.
I only slept a few hours when I went to bed,and feeling that I could not
sleep any more, got up. I had hung my shaving glass by the window, and
was just beginning to shave. Suddenly I felt a hand on my shoulder, and
heard the Count's voice saying to me, "Good morning." I started, for it
amazed me that I had not seen him, since the reflection of the glass covered
the whole room behind me. In starting I had cut myself slightly, but did not
notice it at the moment. Having answered the Count's salutation, I
turned to the glass again to see how I had been mistaken. This time there
could be no error, for the man was close to me, and I could see him over my
shoulder. But there was no reflection of him in the mirror! The
whole room behind me was displayed, but there was no sign of a man in it,
except myself.
This was startling, and coming on the top of so many strange things, was
beginning to increase that vague feeling of uneasiness which I always have
when the Count is near. But at the instant I saw the the cut had bled a
little, and the blood was trickling over my chin. I laid down the
razor, turning as I did so half round to look for some sticking
plaster. When the Count saw my face, his eyes blazed with a sort of
demoniac fury, and he suddenly made a grab at my throat. I drew away and his
hand touched the string of beads which held the crucifix. It made an
instant change in him, for the fury passed so quickly that I could hardly
believe that it was ever there.
"Take care," he said, "take care how you cut yourself. It is more
dangerous that you think in this country." Then seizing the shaving glass, he
went on, "And this is the wretched thing that has done the mischief. It
is a foul bauble of man's vanity. Away with it!" And opening the
window with one wrench of his terrible hand, he flung out the glass, which
was shattered into a thousand pieces on the stones of the courtyard far
below. Then he withdrew without a word. It is very annoying, for I do
not see how I am to shave, unless in my watch-case or the bottom of the
shaving pot, which is fortunately of metal.
When I went into the dining room, breakfast was prepared, but I could
not find the Count anywhere. So I breakfasted alone. It is strange that
as yet I have not seen the Count eat or drink. He must be a very peculiar
man! After breakfast I did a little exploring in the castle. I
went out on the stairs, and found a room looking towards the South.
The view was magnificent, and from where I stood there was
every opportunity of seeing it. The castle is on the very edge of a
terrific precipice. A stone falling from the window would fall a
thousand feet without touching anything! As far as the eye can reach is a sea
of green tree tops, with occasionally a deep rift where there is a
chasm. Here and there are silver threads where the rivers wind in
deep gorges through the forests.
But I am not in heart to describe beauty, for when I had seen the view I
explored further. Doors, doors, doors everywhere, and all locked and
bolted. In no place save from the windows in the castle walls is there
an available exit. The castle is a veritable prison, and I am a
prisoner!
CHAPTER 3
Jonathan Harker's Journal Continued
When I found that I was a prisoner a sort of wild feeling came over
me. I rushed up and down the stairs, trying every door and peering out
of every window I could find, but after a little the conviction of my
helplessness overpowered all other feelings. When I look back after a few
hours I think I must have been mad for the time, for I behaved much as a rat
does in a trap. When, however, the conviction had come to me that I was
helpless I sat down quietly, as quietly as I have ever done anything in my
life, and began to think over what was best to be done. I am thinking still,
and as yet have come to no definite conclusion. Of one thing only am I
certain. That it is no use making my ideas known to the Count. He
knows well that I am imprisoned, and as he has done it himself, and has
doubtless his own motives for it, he would only deceive me if I trusted him
fully with the facts. So far as I can see, my only plan will be to keep my
knowledge and my fears to myself, and my eyes open. I am, I know,
either being deceived, like a baby, by my own fears, or else I am in
desperate straits, and if the latter be so, I need, and shall need, all my
brains to get through.
I had hardly come to this conclusion when I heard the great door below
shut, and knew that the Count had returned. He did not come at once
into the library, so I went cautiously to my own room and found him making
the bed. This was odd, but only confirmed what I had all along thought,
that there are no servants in the house. When later I saw him through the
chink of the hinges of the door laying the table in the dining room, I was
assured of it. For if he does himself all these menial offices, surely it is
proof that there is no one else in the castle, it must have been the
Count himself who was the driver of the coach that brought me here. This
is a terrible thought, for if so, what does it mean that he could control the
wolves, as he did, by only holding up his hand for silence? How was it that
all the people at Bistritz and on the coach had some terrible fear for
me? What meant the giving of the crucifix, of the garlic, of the wild
rose, of the mountain ash?
Bless that good, good woman who hung the crucifix round my neck! For it
is a comfort and a strength to me whenever I touch it. It is odd that a thing
which I have been taught to regard with disfavour and as idolatrous should in
a time of loneliness and trouble be of help. Is it that there is something in
the essence of the thing itself, or that it is a medium, a tangible help, in
conveying memories of sympathy and comfort? Some time, if it may be, I
must examine this matter and try to make up my mind about it. In the
meantime I must find out all I can about Count Dracula,as it may help me to
understand. Tonight he may talk of himself, if I turn the conversation that
way. I must be very careful, however, not to awake his suspicion.
Midnight.—I have had a long talk with the Count. I asked him a few
questions on Transylvania history, and he warmed up to the subject
wonderfully. In his speaking of things and people, and especially of
battles, he spoke as if he had been present at them all. This he
afterwards explained by saying that to a Boyar the pride of his house and
name is his own pride, that their glory is his glory, that their fate is his
fate. Whenever he spoke of his house he always said "we", and spoke
almost in the plural, like a king speaking. I wish I could put down all
he said exactly as he said it, for to me it was most fascinating. It
seemed to have in it a whole history of the country. He grew excited as he
spoke, and walked about the room pulling his great white moustache and
grasping anything on which he laid his hands as though he would crush it by
main strength. One thing he said which I shall put down as nearly as I
can, for it tells in its way the story of his race.
"We Szekelys have a right to be proud, for in our veins flows the
blood of many brave races who fought as the lion fights, for
lordship. Here, in the whirlpool of European races, the Ugric tribe bore
down from Iceland the fighting spirit which Thor and Wodin game
them, which their Berserkers displayed to such fell intent on the
seaboards of Europe, aye, and of Asia and Africa too, till the peoples
thought that the werewolves themselves had come. Here, too, when they
came, they found the Huns, whose warlike fury had swept the earth like
a living flame, till the dying peoples held that in their veins ran the
blood of those old witches, who, expelled from Scythia had mated with the
devils in the desert. Fools, fools! What devil or what witch was
ever so great as Attila, whose blood is in these veins?" He held up his
arms. "Is it a wonder that we were a conquering race, that we were
proud, that when the Magyar, the Lombard, the Avar, the Bulgar, or the Turk
poured his thousands on our frontiers, we drove them back? Is it strange that
when Arpad and his legions swept through the Hungarian fatherland he found us
here when he reached the frontier, that the Honfoglalas was completed
there? And when the Hungarian flood swept eastward, the Szekelys were
claimed as kindred by the victorious Magyars, and to us for centuries was
trusted the guarding of the frontier of Turkeyland. Aye, and more than that,
endless duty of the frontier guard, for as the Turks say, `water sleeps, and
the enemy is sleepless.' Who more gladly than we throughout the Four
Nations received the `bloody sword,' or at its warlike call flocked quicker
to the standard of the King? When was redeemed that great shame of my nation,
the shame of Cassova, when the flags of the Wallach and the Magyar went down
beneath the Crescent? Who was it but one of my own race who as Voivode
crossed the Danube and beat the Turk on his own ground? This was a
Dracula indeed! Woe was it that his own unworthy brother, when he had
fallen, sold his people to the Turk and brought the shame of slavery on
them! Was it not this Dracula, indeed, who inspired that other of his
race who in a later age again and again brought his forces over the great
river into Turkeyland, who, when he was beaten back, came again, and
again, though he had to come alone from the bloody field where his troops
were being slaughtered, since he knew that he alone could ultimately
triumph! They said that he thought only of himself. Bah! What
good are peasants without a leader? Where ends the war without a brain
and heart to conduct it? Again, when, after the battle of Mohacs, we
threw off the Hungarian yoke, we of the Dracula blood were amongst their
leaders, for our spirit would not brook that we were not free. Ah,
young sir, the Szekelys, and the Dracula as their heart's blood, their
brains, and their swords, can boast a record that mushroom growths like
the Hapsburgs and the Romanoffs can never reach. The warlike days are
over. Blood is too precious a thing in these days of dishonourable
peace, and the glories of the great races are as a tale that is told."
It was by this time close on morning, and we went to bed. (Mem., this
diary seems horribly like the beginning of the "Arabian Nights," for
everything has to break off at cockcrow, or like the ghost of Hamlet's
father.)
12 May.—Let me begin with facts, bare, meager facts, verified by
books and figures, and of which there can be no doubt. I must not confuse
them with experiences which will have to rest on my own observation, or my
memory of them. Last evening when the Count came from his room he began by
asking me questions on legal matters and on the doing of certain kinds of
business. I had spent the day wearily over books, and, simply to keep
my mind occupied, went over some of the matters I had been examined in at
Lincoln's Inn. There was a certain method in the Count's inquiries, so I
shall try to put them down in sequence. The knowledge may somehow or
some time be useful to me.
First, he asked if a man in England might have two solicitors or more. I
told him he might have a dozen if he wished, but that it would not be wise to
have more than one solicitor engaged in one transaction, as only one could
act at a time, and that to change would be certain to militate against his
interest. He seemed thoroughly to understand, and went on to ask if
there would be any practical difficulty in having one man to attend, say, to
banking, and another to look after shipping, in case local help were needed
in a place far from the home of the banking solicitor. I asked to explain
more fully, so that I might not by any chance mislead him, so he said,
"I shall illustrate. Your friend and mine, Mr. Peter Hawkins, from
under the shadow of your beautiful cathedral at Exeter, which is far from
London, buys for me through your good self my place at London.
Good! Now here let me say frankly, lest you should think it strange
that I have sought the services of one so far off from London instead of some
one resident there, that my motive was that no local interest might be served
save my wish only, and as one of London residence might, perhaps, have some
purpose of himself or friend to serve, I went thus afield to seek my
agent, whose labours should be only to my interest. Now, suppose
I, who have much of affairs, wish to ship goods, say, to Newcastle, or
Durham, or Harwich, or Dover, might it not be that it could with more ease be
done by consigning to one in these ports?"
I answered that certainly it would be most easy, but that we solicitors
had a system of agency one for the other, so that local work could be done
locally on instruction from any solicitor, so that the client, simply placing
himself in the hands of one man, could have his wishes carried out by him
without further trouble.
"But," said he, "I could be at liberty to direct myself. Is it not
so?"
"Of course, " I replied, and "Such is often done by men of business, who
do not like the whole of their affairs to be known by any one person."
"Good!" he said,and then went on to ask about the means of making
consignments and the forms to be gone through, and of all sorts of
difficulties which might arise, but by forethought could be guarded
against. I explained all these things to him to the best of my ability, and
he certainly left me under the impression that he would have made a
wonderful solicitor, for there was nothing that he did not think of or
foresee. For a man who was never in the country, and who did not evidently
do much in the way of business, his knowledge and acumen were
wonderful. When he had satisfied himself on these points of which he had
spoken, and I had verified all as well as I could by the books
available, he suddenly stood up and said, "Have you written since your first
letter to our friend Mr. Peter Hawkins, or to any other?"
It was with some bitterness in my heart that I answered that I had
not, that as yet I had not seen any opportunity of sending letters to
anybody.
"Then write now, my young friend," he said, laying a heavy hand on my
shoulder, "write to our friend and to any other, and say, if it will please
you, that you shall stay with me until a month from now."
"Do you wish me to stay so long?" I asked, for my heart grew
cold at the thought.
"I desire it much, nay I will take no refusal. When your
master, employer, what you will, engaged that someone should come on his
behalf, it was understood that my needs only were to be consulted. I have
not stinted. Is it not so?"
What could I do but bow acceptance? It was Mr. Hawkins' interest,
not mine, and I had to think of him, not myself, and besides, while Count
Dracula was speaking, there was that in his eyes and in his bearing which
made me remember that I was a prisoner, and that if I wished it I could have
no choice. The Count saw his victory in my bow, and his mastery in the
trouble of my face, for he began at once to use them, but in his own smooth,
resistless way.
"I pray you, my good young friend, that you will not discourse of things
other than business in your letters. It will doubtless please your friends to
know that you are well, and that you look forward to getting home to
them. Is it not so?" As he spoke he handed me three sheets of note
paper and three envelopes. They were all of the thinnest foreign
post, and looking at them, then at him, and noticing his quiet smile, with
the sharp, canine teeth lying over the red underlip, I understood as well as
if he had spoken that I should be more careful what I wrote, for he would be
able to read it. So I determined to write only formal notes now, but to write
fully to Mr. Hawkins in secret, and also to Mina, for to her I could write
shorthand, which would puzzle the Count, if he did see it. When I had written
my two letters I sat quiet, reading a book whilst the Count wrote several
notes, referring as he wrote them to some books on his table. Then he
took up my two and placed them with his own, and put by his writing
materials, after which, the instant the door had closed behind him, I leaned
over and looked at the letters, which were face down on the table. I felt
no compunction in doing so for under the circumstances I felt that I should
protect myself in every way I could.
One of the letters was directed to Samuel F. Billington, No. 7, The
Crescent, Whitby, another to Herr Leutner, Varna. The third was to
Coutts & Co., London, and the fourth to Herren Klopstock & Billreuth,
bankers, Buda Pesth. The second and fourth were unsealed. I was just
about to look at them when I saw the door handle move. I sank back in my
seat, having just had time to resume my book before the Count, holding still
another letter in his hand, entered the room. He took up the letters on the
table and stamped them carefully, and then turning to me, said,
"I trust you will forgive me, but I have much work to do in private this
evening. You will, I hope, find all things as you wish." At the door he
turned, and after a moment's pause said, "Let me advise you, my dear young
friend. Nay, let me warn you with all seriousness, that should you
leave these rooms you will not by any chance go to sleep in any other part of
the castle. It is old, and has many memories, and there are bad dreams
for those who sleep unwisely. Be warned! Should sleep now or ever
overcome you, or be like to do, then haste to your own chamber or to these
rooms, for your rest will then be safe. But if you be not careful in this
respect, then," He finished his speech in a gruesome way, for he motioned
with his hands as if he were washing them. I quite understood. My only
doubt was as to whether any dream could be more terrible than the unnatural,
horrible net of gloom and mystery which seemed closing around me.
Later.—I endorse the last words written, but this time there is no
doubt in question. I shall not fear to sleep in any place where he is
not. I have placed the crucifix over the head of my bed, I imagine that
my rest is thus freer from dreams, and there it shall remain.
When he left me I went to my room. After a little while, not
hearing any sound, I came out and went up the stone stair to where I could
look out towards the South. There was some sense of freedom in the vast
expanse, inaccessible though it was to me,as compared with the narrow
darkness of the courtyard. Looking out on this, I felt that I was indeed in
prison, and I seemed to want a breath of fresh air, though it were of the
night. I am beginning to feel this nocturnal existence tell on me. It is
destroying my nerve. I start at my own shadow, and am full of all sorts
of horrible imaginings. God knows that there is ground for my terrible
fear in this accursed place! I looked out over the beautiful expanse, bathed
in soft yellow moonlight till it was almost as light as day. In the soft
light the distant hills became melted, and the shadows in the valleys and
gorges of velvety blackness. The mere beauty seemed to cheer me. There
was peace and comfort in every breath I drew. As I leaned from the
window my eye was caught by something moving a storey below me, and
somewhat to my left, where I imagined, from the order of the rooms, that
the windows of the Count's own room would look out. The window at which I
stood was tall and deep, stone-mullioned, and though weatherworn, was still
complete. But it was evidently many a day since the case had been there. I
drew back behind the stonework, and looked carefully out.
What I saw was the Count's head coming out from the window. I did not
see the face, but I knew the man by the neck and the movement of his back and
arms. In any case I could not mistake the hands which I had had some
many opportunities of studying. I was at first interested and somewhat
amused, for it is wonderful how small a matter will interest and amuse a man
when he is a prisoner. But my very feelings changed to repulsion and terror
when I saw the whole man slowly emerge from the window and begin to crawl
down the castle wall over the dreadful abyss, face down with his cloak
spreading out around him like great wings. At first I could not believe
my eyes. I thought it was some trick of the moonlight, some weird
effect of shadow, but I kept looking, and it could be no delusion. I saw
the fingers and toes grasp the corners of the stones, worn clear of the
mortar by the stress of years, and by thus using every projection and
inequality move downwards with considerable speed, just as a lizard moves
along a wall.
What manner of man is this, or what manner of creature, is it in the
semblance of man? I feel the dread of this horrible place overpowering
me. I am in fear, in awful fear, and there is no escape for me. I am
encompassed about with terrors that I dare not think of.
15 May.—Once more I have seen the count go out in his lizard
fashion. He moved downwards in a sidelong way, some hundred feet down, and
a good deal to the left. He vanished into some hole or window. When his
head had disappeared, I leaned out to try and see more, but without
avail. The distance was too great to allow a proper angle of
sight. I knew he had left the castle now, and thought to use the
opportunity to explore more than I had dared to do as yet. I went back to the
room, and taking a lamp, tried all the doors. They were all locked, as I had
expected, and the locks were comparatively new. But I went down the
stone stairs to the hall where I had entered originally. I found I
could pull back the bolts easily enough and unhook the great chains.
But the door was locked, and the key was gone! That key must be in the
Count's room. I must watch should his door be unlocked, so that I may get it
and escape. I went on to make a thorough examination of the various
stairs and passages, and to try the doors that opened from them. One or
two small rooms near the hall were open, but there was nothing to see in them
except old furniture, dusty with age and moth-eaten. At last, however, I
found one door at the top of the stairway which, though it seemed locked,
gave a little under pressure. I tried it harder, and found that it was not
really locked, but that the resistance came from the fact that the
hinges had fallen somewhat,and the heavy door rested on the floor. Here
was an opportunity which I might not have again, so I exerted myself,and with
many efforts forced it back so that I could enter. I was now in a wing of the
castle further to the right than the rooms I knew and a storey lower
down. From the windows I could see that the suite of rooms lay along to
the south of the castle, the windows of the end room looking out both west
and south. On the latter side, as well as to the former, there was a great
precipice. The castle was built on the corner of a great rock, so that
on three sides it was quite impregnable, and great windows were placed
here where sling, or bow, or culverin could not reach, and consequently light
and comfort, impossible to a position which had to be guarded, were
secured. To the west was a great valley, and then, rising far away,
great jagged mountain fastnesses, rising peak on peak, the sheer rock studded
with mountain ash and thorn, whose roots clung in cracks and crevices and
crannies of the stone. This was evidently the portion of the castle occupied
by the ladies in bygone days, for the furniture had more an air of comfort
than any I had seen.
The windows were curtainless, and the yellow moonlight, flooding in
through the diamond panes, enabled one to see even colours, whilst it
softened the wealth of dust which lay over all and disguised in some measure
the ravages of time and moth. My lamp seemed to be of little effect in the
brilliant moonlight, but I was glad to have it with me, for there was a dread
loneliness in the place which chilled my heart and made my nerves
tremble. Still, it was better than living alone in the rooms which I
had come to hate from the presence of the Count, and after trying a little
to school my nerves, I found a soft quietude come over me. Here I am, sitting
at a little oak table where in old times possibly some fair lady sat to pen,
with much thought and many blushes, her ill-spelt love letter, and writing in
my diary in shorthand all that has happened since I closed it last. It is
the nineteenth century up-to-date with a vengeance. And yet, unless my senses
deceive me, the old centuries had, and have, powers of their own which mere
"modernity" cannot kill.
Later: The morning of 16 May.—God preserve my sanity, for to
this I am reduced. Safety and the assurance of safety are things of the
past. Whilst I live on here there is but one thing to hope for, that I may
not go mad, if, indeed, I be not mad already. If I be sane, then surely it is
maddening to think that of all the foul things that lurk in this hateful
place the Count is the least dreadful to me, that to him alone I can look for
safety, even though this be only whilst I can serve his purpose. Great
God! Merciful God, let me be calm, for out of that way lies madness
indeed. I begin to get new lights on certain things which have puzzled
me. Up to now I never quite knew what Shakespeare meant when he
made Hamlet say, "My tablets! Quick, my tablets! `tis meet that
I put it down," etc., For now, feeling as though my own brain
were unhinged or as if the shock had come which must end in its undoing, I
turn to my diary for repose. The habit of entering accurately must help
to soothe me.
The Count's mysterious warning frightened me at the time. It
frightens me more not when I think of it, for in the future he has a fearful
hold upon me. I shall fear to doubt what he may say!
When I had written in my diary and had fortunately replaced the book and
pen in my pocket I felt sleepy. The Count's warning came into my mind,
but I took pleasure in disobeying it. The sense of sleep was upon me, and
with it the obstinacy which sleep brings as outrider. The soft
moonlight soothed, and the wide expanse without gave a sense of freedom which
refreshed me. I determined not to return tonight to the gloom-haunted
rooms, but to sleep here, where, of old, ladies had sat and sung and lived
sweet lives whilst their gentle breasts were sad for their menfolk away in
the midst of remorseless wars. I drew a great couch out of its place near the
corner, so that as I lay, I could look at the lovely view to east and
south,and unthinking of and uncaring for the dust, composed myself for
sleep. I suppose I must have fallen asleep. I hope so, but I
fear, for all that followed was startlingly real, so real that now sitting
here in the broad, full sunlight of the morning, I cannot in the least
believe that it was all sleep.
I was not alone. The room was the same, unchanged in any way since
I came into it. I could see along the floor, in the brilliant
moonlight, my own footsteps marked where I had disturbed the long
accumulation of dust. In the moonlight opposite me were three young
women, ladies by their dress and manner. I thought at the time that I must be
dreaming when I saw them, they threw no shadow on the floor. They came
close to me, and looked at me for some time, and then whispered
together. Two were dark, and had high aquiline noses, like the Count, and
great dark, piercing eyes, that seemed to be almost red when contrasted with
the pale yellow moon. The other was fair,as fair as can be, with great
masses of golden hair and eyes like pale sapphires. I seemed somehow to
know her face, and to know it in connection with some dreamy fear, but I
could not recollect at the moment how or where. All three had brilliant white
teeth that shone like pearls against the ruby of their voluptuous lips.
There was something about them that made me uneasy, some longing and
at the same time some deadly fear. I felt in my heart a
wicked, burning desire that they would kiss me with those red lips. It is
not good to note this down, lest some day it should meet Mina's eyes and
cause her pain, but it is the truth. They whispered together, and then they
all three laughed, such a silvery, musical laugh, but as hard as though the
sound never could have come through the softness of human lips. It was
like the intolerable, tingling sweetness of waterglasses when played on by a
cunning hand. The fair girl shook her head coquettishly, and the other
two urged her on.
One said, "Go on! You are first, and we shall follow. Yours' is
the right to begin."
The other added, "He is young and strong. There are kisses for us
all."
I lay quiet, looking out from under my eyelashes in an agony of
delightful anticipation. The fair girl advanced and bent over me till I
could feel the movement of her breath upon me. Sweet it was in one sense,
honey-sweet, and sent the same tingling through the nerves as her voice, but
with a bitter underlying the sweet, a bitter offensiveness, as one smells in
blood.
I was afraid to raise my eyelids, but looked out and saw perfectly
under the lashes. The girl went on her knees, and bent over me, simply
gloating. There was a deliberate voluptuousness which was both thrilling and
repulsive, and as she arched her neck she actually licked her lips like an
animal, till I could see in the moonlight the moisture shining on the
scarlet lips and on the red tongue as it lapped the white sharp
teeth. Lower and lower went her head as the lips went below the range of
my mouth and chin and seemed to fasten on my throat. Then she
paused, and I could hear the churning sound of her tongue as it licked her
teeth and lips, and I could feel the hot breath on my neck. Then the skin of
my throat began to tingle as one's flesh does when the hand that is to tickle
it approaches nearer, nearer. I could feel the soft, shivering touch of
the lips on the super sensitive skin of my throat, and the hard dents of two
sharp teeth, just touching and pausing there. I closed my eyes in languorous
ecstasy and waited, waited with beating heart.
But at that instant, another sensation swept through me as quick as
lightning. I was conscious of the presence of the Count, and of his
being as if lapped in a storm of fury. As my eyes opened involuntarily
I saw his strong hand grasp the slender neck of the fair woman and with
giant's power draw it back, the blue eyes transformed with fury, the white
teeth champing with rage, and the fair cheeks blazing red with
passion. But the Count! Never did I imagine such wrath and
fury, even to the demons of the pit. His eyes were positively
blazing. The red light in them was lurid, as if the flames of hell
fire blazed behind them. His face was deathly pale, and the lines of
it were hard like drawn wires. The thick eyebrows that met over the
nose now seemed like a heaving bar of whitehot metal. With a fierce sweep of
his arm, he hurled the woman from him, and then motioned to the others, as
though he were beating them back. It was the same imperious gesture that I
had seen used to the wolves. In a voice which, though low and almost in a
whisper seemed to cut through the air and then ring in the room he
said,
"How dare you touch him, any of you? How dare you cast eyes on him
when I had forbidden it? Back, I tell you all! This man belongs to
me! Beware how you meddle with him, or you'll have to deal with
me."
The fair girl, with a laugh of ribald coquetry, turned to answer
him. "You yourself never loved. You never love!" On this the
other women joined,and such a mirthless, hard, soulless laughter rang
through the room that it almost made me faint to hear. It seemed like the
pleasure of fiends.
Then the Count turned, after looking at my face attentively, and said in
a soft whisper, "Yes, I too can love. You yourselves can tell it from the
past. Is it not so? Well, now I promise you that when I am done with
him you shall kiss him at your will. Now go! Go! I must
awaken him, for there is work to be done."
"Are we to have nothing tonight?" said one of them, with a low laugh, as
she pointed to the bag which he had thrown upon the floor, and which moved as
though there were some living thing within it. For answer he nodded his
head. One of the women jumped forward and opened it. If my ears
did not deceive me there was a gasp and a low wail, as of a half smothered
child. The women closed round, whilst I was aghast with horror. But as I
looked, they disappeared, and with them the dreadful bag. There was no door
near them, and they could not have passed me without my noticing. They
simply seemed to fade into the rays of the moonlight and pass out through the
window, for I could see outside the dim, shadowy forms for a moment before
they entirely faded away.
Then the horror overcame me,and I sank down unconscious.
CHAPTER 4
Jonathan Harker's Journal Continued
I awoke in my own bed. If it be that I had not dreamt, the
Count must have carried me here. I tried to satisfy myself on the
subject, but could not arrive at any unquestionable result. To be sure, there
were certain small evidences, such as that my clothes were folded and laid by
in a manner which was not my habit. My watch was still unwound, and I am
rigorously accustomed to wind it the last thing before going to bed, and many
such details. But these things are no proof, for they may have been evidences
that my mind was not as usual, and, for some cause or another, I had
certainly been much upset. I must watch for proof. Of one thing I
am glad. If it was that the Count carried me here and undressed me, he
must have been hurried in his task, for my pockets are intact. I am sure this
diary would have been a mystery to him which he would not have brooked.
He would have taken or destroyed it. As I look round this room, although it
has been to me so full of fear, it is now a sort of sanctuary, for nothing
can be more dreadful than those awful women, who were, who are, waiting to
suck my blood.
18 May.—I have been down to look at that room again in
daylight, for I must know the truth. When I got to the doorway at the
top of the stairs I found it closed. It had been so forcibly
driven against the jamb that part of the woodwork was splintered. I could
see that the bolt of the lock had not been shot, but the door is fastened
from the inside. I fear it was no dream, and must act on this
surmise.
19 May.—I am surely in the toils. Last night the Count asked
me in the sauvest tones to write three letters, one saying that my work here
was nearly done, and that I should start for home within a few days,another
that I was starting on the next morning from the time of the letter, and
the third that I had left the castle and arrived at Bistritz. I would fain
have rebelled, but felt that in the present state of things it would be
madness to quarrel openly with the Count whilst I am so absolutely in his
power. And to refuse would be to excite his suspicion and to arouse his
anger. He knows that I know too much, and that I must not live, lest I
be dangerous to him. My only chance is to prolong my
opportunities. Something may occur which will give ma a chance to
escape. I saw in his eyes something of that gathering wrath which was
manifest when he hurled that fair woman from him. He explained to me that
posts were few and uncertain, and that my writing now would ensure ease of
mind to my friends. And he assured me with so much impressiveness that he
would countermand the later letters, which would be held over at
Bistritz until due time in case chance would admit of my prolonging my
stay, that to oppose him would have been to create new suspicion. I
therefore pretended to fall in with his views, and asked him what dates I
should put on the letters.
He calculated a minute, and then said, "The first should be June 12, the
second June 19,and the third June 29."
I know now the span of my life. God help me!
28 May.—There is a chance of escape, or at any rate of being
able to send word home. A band of Szgany have come to the
castle, and are encamped in the courtyard. These are gipsies. I have
notes of them in my book. They are peculiar to this part of the world,
though allied to the ordinary gipsies all the world over. There are thousands
of them in Hungary and Transylvania, who are almost outside all law.
They attach themselves as a rule to some great noble or boyar, and call
themselves by his name. They are fearless and without religion, save
superstition, and they talk only their own varieties of the Romany
tongue.
I shall write some letters home, and shall try to get them to have them
posted. I have already spoken to them through my window to begin
acquaintanceship. They took their hats off and made obeisance and many
signs, which however, I could not understand any more than I could their
spoken language. . .
I have written the letters. Mina's is in shorthand, and I
simply ask Mr. Hawkins to communicate with her. To her I have
explained my situation, but without the horrors which I may only
surmise. It would shock and frighten her to death were I to expose my heart
to her. Should the letters not carry, then the Count shall not yet know my
secret or the extent of my knowledge. . .
I have given the letters. I threw them through the bars of my
window with a gold piece, and made what signs I could to have them
posted. The man who took them pressed them to his heart and bowed, and
then put them in his cap. I could do no more. I stole back to the
study, and began to read. As the Count did not come in, I have written
here. . .
The Count has come. He sat down beside me, and said in
his smoothest voice as he opened two letters, "The Szgany has given me
these, of which, though I know not whence they come, I shall, of course, take
care. See!"—He must have looked at it.—"One is from you, and to my
friend Peter Hawkins. The other,"—here he caught sight of the strange
symbols as he opened the envelope, and the dark look came into his face,
and his eyes blazed wickedly,—"The other is a vile thing, an outrage upon
friendship and hospitality! It is not signed. Well! So it cannot
matter to us."And he calmly held letter and envelope in the flame of the
lamp till they were consumed.
Then he went on, "The letter to Hawkins, that I shall, of course send
on, since it is yours. Your letters are sacred to me. Your pardon, my
friend, that unknowingly I did break the seal. Will you not cover it
again?" He held out the letter to me, and with a courteous bow handed
me a clean envelope.
I could only redirect it and hand it to him in silence. When he went out
of the room I could hear the key turn softly. A minute later I went over and
tried it, and the door was locked.
When, an hour or two after, the Count came quietly into the room, his
coming awakened me, for I had gone to sleep on the sofa. He was very
courteous and very cheery in his manner, and seeing that I had been sleeping,
he said, "So, my friend, you are tired? Get to bed. There is the
surest rest. I may not have the pleasure of talk tonight, since there
are many labours to me, but you will sleep, I pray."
I passed to my room and went to bed, and, strange to say, slept without
dreaming. Despair has its own calms.
31 May.—This morning when I woke I thought I would provide myself with
some papers and envelopes from my bag and keep them in my pocket, so that I
might write in case I should get an opportunity, but again a surprise, again
a shock!
Every scrap of paper was gone, and with it all my notes, my
memoranda, relating to railways and travel, my letter of credit, in
fact all that might be useful to me were I once outside the castle. I sat
and pondered awhile, and then some thought occurred to me, and I made search
of my portmanteau and in the wardrobe where I had placed my clothes.
The suit in which I had travelled was gone, and also my overcoat and
rug. I could find no trace of them anywhere. This looked like some new
scheme of villainy. . .
17 June.—This morning, as I was sitting on the edge of my
bed cudgelling my brains, I heard without a crackling of whips and
pounding and scraping of horses' feet up the rocky path beyond the
courtyard. With joy I hurried to the window, and saw drive into the
yard two great leiter-wagons, each drawn by eight sturdy horses, and at the
head of each pair a Slovak, with his wide hat, great nail-studded belt, dirty
sheepskin, and high boots. They had also their long staves in
hand. I ran to the door, intending to descend and try and join them
through the main hall, as I thought that way might be opened for
them. Again a shock, my door was fastened on the outside.
Then I ran to the window and cried to them. They looked up at
me stupidly and pointed, but just then the "hetman" of the Szgany came
out, and seeing them pointing to my window, said something, at which they
laughed.
Henceforth no effort of mine, no piteous cry or agonized entreaty, would
make them even look at me. They resolutely turned away. The
leiter-wagons contained great, square boxes, with handles of thick
rope. These were evidently empty by the ease with which the Slovaks handled
them, and by their resonance as they were roughly moved.
When they were all unloaded and packed in a great heap in one corner of
the yard, the Slovaks were given some money by the Szgany, and spitting on it
for luck, lazily went each to his horse's head. Shortly afterwards, I heard
the crackling of their whips die away in the distance.
24 June.—Last night the Count left me early, and locked
himself into his own room. As soon as I dared I ran up the winding
stair, and looked out of the window, which opened South. I thought
I would watch for the Count, for there is something going on. The Szgany
are quartered somewhere in the castle and are doing work of some kind.
I know it, for now and then, I hear a far-away muffled sound as of mattock
and spade, and, whatever it is, it must be the end of some ruthless
villainy.
I had been at the window somewhat less than half an hour, when I saw
something coming out of the Count's window. I drew back and watched
carefully, and saw the whole man emerge. It was a new shock to me to find
that he had on the suit of clothes which I had worn whilst travelling here,
and slung over his shoulder the terrible bag which I had seen the women take
away. There could be no doubt as to his quest, and in my garb, too! This,
then, is his new scheme of evil, that he will allow others to see me, as they
think, so that he may both leave evidence that I have been seen in the towns
or villages posting my own letters, and that any wickedness which he may do
shall by the local people be attributed to me.
It makes me rage to think that this can go on, and whilst I am shut up
here, a veritable prisoner, but without that protection of the law which is
even a criminal's right and consolation.
I thought I would watch for the Count's return, and for a long time sat
doggedly at the window. Then I began to notice that there were some
quaint little specks floating in the rays of the moonlight. They were like
the tiniest grains of dust,and they whirled round and gathered in clusters in
a nebulous sort of way. I watched them with a sense of soothing, and a
sort of calm stole over me. I leaned back in the embrasure in a more
comfortable position, so that I could enjoy more fully the aerial
gambolling.
Something made me start up, a low, piteous howling of dogs somewhere far
below in the valley, which was hidden from my sight. Louder it seemed to ring
in my ears, and the floating moats of dust to take new shapes to the sound as
they danced in the moonlight. I felt myself struggling to awake to some call
of my instincts. Nay, my very soul was struggling, and my half-remembered
sensibilities were striving to answer the call. I was becoming
hypnotised!
Quicker and quicker danced the dust. The moonbeams seemed to
quiver as they went by me into the mass of gloom beyond. More and more they
gathered till they seemed to take dim phantom shapes. And then I started,
broad awake and in full possession of my senses, and ran screaming from the
place.
The phantom shapes, which were becoming gradually materialised from the
moonbeams, were those three ghostly women to whom I was doomed.
I fled, and felt somewhat safer in my own room, where there was no
moonlight, and where the lamp was burning brightly.
When a couple of hours had passed I heard something stirring in the
Count's room, something like a sharp wail quickly suppressed. And then there
was silence, deep, awful silence, which chilled me. With a beating heart, I
tried the door, but I was locked in my prison, and could do nothing. I
sat down and simply cried.
As I sat I heard a sound in the courtyard without, the agonised cry of a
woman. I rushed to the window, and throwing it up, peered between the
bars.
There, indeed, was a woman with dishevelled hair, holding her hands over
her heart as one distressed with running. She was leaning against the corner
of the gateway. When she saw my face at the window she threw herself
forward, and shouted in a voice laden with menace, "Monster, give me my
child!"
She threw herself on her knees,and raising up her hands, cried the same
words in tones which wrung my heart. Then she tore her hair and beat her
breast, and abandoned herself to all the violences of extravagant
emotion. Finally, she threw herself forward, and though I could not see
her, I could hear the beating of her naked hands against the door.
Somewhere high overhead, probably on the tower, I heard the voice of the
Count calling in his harsh, metallic whisper. His call seemed to be
answered from far and wide by the howling of wolves. Before many minutes had
passed a pack of them poured, like a pent-up dam when liberated, through the
wide entrance into the courtyard.
There was no cry from the woman, and the howling of the wolves was but
short. Before long they streamed away singly, licking their lips.
I could not pity her, for I knew now what had become of her child, and
she was better dead.
What shall I do? What can I do? How can I escape from
this dreadful thing of night, gloom, and fear?
25 June.—No man knows till he has suffered from the night how sweet
and dear to his heart and eye the morning can be. When the sun grew so high
this morning that it struck the top of the great gateway opposite my window,
the high spot which it touched seemed to me as if the dove from the ark had
lighted there. My fear fell from me as if it had been a vaporous
garment which dissolved in the warmth.
I must take action of some sort whilst the courage of the day is upon
me. Last night one of my post-dated letters went to post, the first of that
fatal series which is to blot out the very traces of my existence from the
earth.
Let me not think of it. Action!
It has always been at night-time that I have been molested or
threatened, or in some way in danger or in fear. I have not yet seen the
Count in the daylight. Can it be that he sleeps when others wake, that
he may be awake whilst they sleep? If I could only get into his room!
But there is no possible way. The door is always locked, no way for me.
Yes, there is a way, if one dares to take it. Where his body
has gone why may not another body go? I have seen him myself crawl
from his window. Why should not I imitate him, and go in by his
window? The chances are desperate, but my need is more desperate still. I
shall risk it. At the worst it can only be death, and a man's death is
not a calf's, and the dreaded Hereafter may still be open to me. God help me
in my task! Goodbye, Mina, if I fail. Goodbye, my faithful friend
and second father. Goodbye, all, and last of all Mina!
Same day, later.—I have made the effort, and God helping me, have
come safely back to this room. I must put down every detail in
order. I went whilst my courage was fresh straight to the window on the south
side, and at once got outside on this side. The stones are big and
roughly cut, and the mortar has by process of time been washed away between
them. I took off my boots, and ventured out on the desperate way. I looked
down once, so as to make sure that a sudden glimpse of the awful depth would
not overcome me, but after that kept my eyes away from it. I know pretty well
the direction and distance of the Count's window, and made for it as well as
I could, having regard to the opportunities available. I did not feel dizzy,
I suppose I was too excited, and the time seemed ridiculously short till I
found myself standing on the window sill and trying to raise up the
sash. I was filled with agitation, however, when I bent down and slid
feet foremost in through the window. Then I looked around for the
Count, but with surprise and gladness, made a discovery. The room was
empty! It was barely furnished with odd things, which seemed to have
never been used.
The furniture was something the same style as that in the south rooms,
and was covered with dust. I looked for the key, but it was not in the
lock, and I could not find it anywhere. The only thing I found was a great
heap of gold in one corner, gold of all kinds, Roman, and British, and
Austrian,and Hungarian,and Greek and Turkish money, covered with a film of
dust, as though it had lain long in the ground. None of it that I noticed was
less than three hundred years old. There were also chains and ornaments, some
jewelled, but all of them old and stained.
At one corner of the room was a heavy door. I tried it, for, since
I could not find the key of the room or the key of the outer door, which
was the main object of my search, I must make further examination, or all my
efforts would be in vain. It was open, and led through a stone passage
to a circular stairway, which went steeply down.
I descended, minding carefully where I went for the stairs were dark,
being only lit by loopholes in the heavy masonry. At the bottom there was a
dark, tunnel-like passage, through which came a deathly, sickly odour, the
odour of old earth newly turned. As I went through the passage the smell grew
closer and heavier. At last I pulled open a heavy door which stood ajar, and
found myself in an old ruined chapel, which had evidently been used as a
graveyard. The roof was broken, and in two places were steps leading to
vaults, but the ground had recently been dug over, and the earth placed in
great wooden boxes, manifestly those which had been brought by the
Slovaks.
There was nobody about, and I made a search over every inch of the
ground, so as not to lose a chance. I went down even into the vaults,
where the dim light struggled,although to do so was a dread to my very
soul. Into two of these I went, but saw nothing except fragments of old
coffins and piles of dust. In the third, however, I made a discovery.
There, in one of the great boxes, of which there were fifty in all, on a
pile of newly dug earth, lay the Count! He was either dead or asleep. I
could not say which, for eyes were open and stony, but without the glassiness
of death,and the cheeks had the warmth of life through all their
pallor. The lips were as red as ever. But there was no sign of
movement, no pulse, no breath, no beating of the heart.
I bent over him, and tried to find any sign of life, but in vain. He
could not have lain there long, for the earthy smell would have passed
away in a few hours. By the side of the box was its cover, pierced with
holes here and there. I thought he might have the keys on him, but when
I went to search I saw the dead eyes, and in them dead though they were, such
a look of hate, though unconscious of me or my presence, that I fled from the
place, and leaving the Count's room by the window, crawled again up the
castle wall. Regaining my room, I threw myself panting upon the bed and tried
to think.
29 June.—Today is the date of my last letter, and the Count has
taken steps to prove that it was genuine, for again I saw him leave the
castle by the same window, and in my clothes. As he went down the wall,
lizard fashion, I wished I had a gun or some lethal weapon, that I might
destroy him. But I fear that no weapon wrought along by man's hand
would have any effect on him. I dared not wait to see him return, for I
feared to see those weird sisters. I came back to the library, and read there
till I fell asleep.
I was awakened by the Count, who looked at me as grimly as a man could
look as he said, "Tomorrow, my friend, we must part. You return to your
beautiful England, I to some work which may have such an end that we may
never meet. Your letter home has been despatched. Tomorrow I shall not
be here, but all shall be ready for your journey. In the morning come
the Szgany, who have some labours of their own here, and also come some
Slovaks. When they have gone, my carriage shall come for you, and shall bear
you to the Borgo Pass to meet the diligence from Bukovina to Bistritz. But
I am in hopes that I shall see more of you at Castle Dracula."
I suspected him, and determined to test his sincerity.
Sincerity! It seems like a profanation of the word to write it in
connection with such a monster, so I asked him point-blank, "Why may I not go
tonight?"
"Because, dear sir, my coachman and horses are away on a mission."
"But I would walk with pleasure. I want to get away at once."
He smiled, such a soft, smooth, diabolical smile that I knew there was
some trick behind his smoothness. He said, "And your baggage?"
"I do not care about it. I can send for it some other time."
The Count stood up, and said, with a sweet courtesy which made me rub my
eyes, it seemed so real, "You English have a saying which is close to my
heart, for its spirit is that which rules our boyars, `Welcome the coming,
speed the parting guest.' Come with me, my dear young friend. Not an
hour shall you wait in my house against your will, though sad am I at your
going,and that you so suddenly desire it. Come!" With a stately
gravity, he, with the lamp, preceded me down the stairs and along the
hall. Suddenly he stopped. "Hark!"
Close at hand came the howling of many wolves. It was almost as
if the sound sprang up at the rising of his hand, just as the music of a
great orchestra seems to leap under the baton of the conductor. After a pause
of a moment, he proceeded, in his stately way, to the door, drew back the
ponderous bolts, unhooked the heavy chains, and began to draw it open.
To my intense astonishment I saw that it was unlocked. Suspiciously, I
looked all round, but could see no key of any kind.
As the door began to open, the howling of the wolves without grew louder
and angrier. Their red jaws, with champing teeth, and
their blunt-clawed feet as they leaped, came in through the opening
door. I knew than that to struggle at the moment against the Count was
useless. With such allies as these at his command, I could do nothing.
But still the door continued slowly to open, and only the Count's body
stood in the gap. Suddenly it struck me that this might be the moment
and means of my doom. I was to be given to the wolves, and at my own
instigation. There was a diabolical wickedness in the idea great enough
for the Count, and as the last chance I cried out, "Shut the door! I shall
wait till morning." And I covered my face with my hands to hide my
tears of bitter disappointment.
With one sweep of his powerful arm, the Count threw the door shut, and
the great bolts clanged and echoed through the hall as they shot back into
their places.
In silence we returned to the library, and after a minute or two I went to
my own room. The last I saw of Count Dracula was his kissing his hand
to me, with a red light of triumph in his eyes, and with a smile that Judas
in hell might be proud of.
When I was in my room and about to lie down, I thought I heard a
whispering at my door. I went to it softly and listened. Unless my ears
deceived me, I heard the voice of the Count.
"Back! Back to your own place! Your time is not yet
come. Wait! Have patience! Tonight is mine. Tomorrow night
is yours!"
There was a low, sweet ripple of laughter, and in a rage I threw
open the door, and saw without the three terrible women licking their
lips. As I appeared, they all joined in a horrible laugh, and ran away.
I came back to my room and threw myself on my knees. It is then so near
the end? Tomorrow! Tomorrow! Lord, help me, and those to
whom I am dear!
30 June.—These may be the last words I ever write in this diary. I
slept till just before the dawn, and when I woke threw myself on my
knees, for I determined that if Death came he should find me ready.
At last I felt that subtle change in the air, and knew that the
morning had come. Then came the welcome cockcrow, and I felt that I was
safe. With a glad heart, I opened the door and ran down the hall. I had
seen that the door was unlocked, and now escape was before me. With hands
that trembled with eagerness, I unhooked the chains and threw back the
massive bolts.
But the door would not move. Despair seized me. I pulled and
pulled at the door, and shook it till, massive as it was, it rattled in its
casement. I could see the bolt shot. It had been locked after I left
the Count.
Then a wild desire took me to obtain the key at any risk,and I
determined then and there to scale the wall again, and gain the Count's
room. He might kill me, but death now seemed the happier choice of
evils. Without a pause I rushed up to the east window, and scrambled
down the wall,as before, into the Count's room. It was empty, but that
was as I expected. I could not see a key anywhere, but the heap of gold
remained. I went through the door in the corner and down the winding stair
and along the dark passage to the old chapel. I knew now well enough where to
find the monster I sought.
The great box was in the same place, close against the wall, but the lid
was laid on it, not fastened down, but with the nails ready in their places
to be hammered home.
I knew I must reach the body for the key, so I raised the lid, and laid
it back against the wall. And then I saw something which filled my very
soul with horror. There lay the Count, but looking as if his youth had
been half restored. For the white hair and moustache were changed to
dark iron-grey. The cheeks were fuller, and the white skin seemed ruby-red
underneath. The mouth was redder than ever, for on the lips were gouts
of fresh blood, which trickled from the corners of the mouth and ran down
over the chin and neck. Even the deep, burning eyes seemed set amongst
swollen flesh, for the lids and pouches underneath were bloated. It
seemed as if the whole awful creature were simply gorged with blood. He
lay like a filthy leech, exhausted with his repletion.
I shuddered as I bent over to touch him,and every sense in me revolted
at the contact, but I had to search, or I was lost. The coming night might
see my own body a banquet in a similar war to those horrid three. I
felt all over the body, but no sign could I find of the key. Then I
stopped and looked at the Count. There was a mocking smile on the bloated
face which seemed to drive me mad. This was the being I was helping to
transfer to London, where, perhaps, for centuries to come he
might, amongst its teeming millions, satiate his lust for blood, and
create a new and ever-widening circle of semi-demons to batten on the
helpless.
The very thought drove me mad. A terrible desire came upon me to
rid the world of such a monster. There was no lethal weapon at hand, but I
seized a shovel which the workmen had been using to fill the cases, and
lifting it high, struck, with the edge downward, at the hateful face. But
as I did so the head turned, and the eyes fell upon me, with all their blaze
of basilisk horror. The sight seemed to paralyze me, and the shovel
turned in my hand and glanced from the face, merely making a deep gash above
the forehead. The shovel fell from my hand across the box,and as I
pulled it away the flange of the blade caught the edge of the lid which
fell over again, and hid the horrid thing from my sight. The last glimpse I
had was of the bloated face, blood-stained and fixed with a grin of malice
which would have held its own in the nethermost hell.
I thought and thought what should be my next move, but my brain seemed
on fire,and I waited with a despairing feeling growing over me. As I
waited I heard in the distance a gipsy song sung by merry voices coming
closer, and through their song the rolling of heavy wheels and the cracking
of whips. The Szgany and the Slovaks of whom the Count had spoken were
coming. With a last look around and at the box which contained the vile
body, I ran from the place and gained the Count's room, determined to rush
out at the moment the door should be opened. With strained ears, I listened,
and heard downstairs the grinding of the key in the great lock and the
falling back of the heavy door. There must have been some other means of
entry, or some one had a key for one of the locked doors.
Then there came the sound of many feet tramping and dying away in some
passage which sent up a clanging echo. I turned to run down again towards the
vault, where I might find the new entrance, but at the moment there seemed to
come a violent puff of wind, and the door to the winding stair blew to
with a shock that set the dust from the lintels flying. When I ran to push it
open, I found that it was hopelessly fast. I was again a prisoner, and the
net of doom was closing round me more closely.
As I write there is in the passage below a sound of many tramping feet
and the crash of weights being set down heavily, doubtless the boxes, with
their freight of earth. There was a sound of hammering. It is the box
being nailed down. Now I can hear the heavy feet tramping again along the
hall, with with many other idle feet coming behind them.
The door is shut, the chains rattle. There is a grinding of the key
in the lock. I can hear the key withdrawn, then another door opens and
shuts. I hear the creaking of lock and bolt.
Hark! In the courtyard and down the rocky way the roll of heavy
wheels, the crack of whips, and the chorus of the Szgany as they pass into
the distance.
I am alone in the castle with those horrible women. Faugh! Mina
is a woman, and there is nought in common. They are devils of the
Pit!
I shall not remain alone with them. I shall try to scale the
castle wall farther than I have yet attempted. I shall take some of the gold
with me, lest I want it later. I may find a way from this dreadful
place.
And then away for home! Away to the quickest and nearest
train! Away from the cursed spot, from this cursed land, where the
devil and his children still walk with earthly feet!
At least God's mercy is better than that of those monsters, and the
precipice is steep and high. At its foot a man may sleep, as a
man. Goodbye, all. Mina!
CHAPTER 5
LETTER FROM MISS MINA MURRAY TO MISS LUCY WESTENRA
9 May.
My dearest Lucy,
Forgive my long delay in writing, but I have been simply
overwhelmed with work. The life of an assistant schoolmistress is
sometimes trying. I am longing to be with you, and by the sea, where we can
talk together freely and build our castles in the air. I have been
working very hard lately, because I want to keep up with Jonathan's
studies, and I have been practicing shorthand very assiduously. When we
are married I shall be able to be useful to Jonathan, and if I can stenograph
well enough I can take down what he wants to say in this way and write it out
for him on the typewriter, at which also I am practicing very hard.
He and I sometimes write letters in shorthand, and he is keeping a
stenographic journal of his travels abroad. When I am with you I shall
keep a diary in the same way. I don't mean one of
those two-pages-to-the-week-with-Sunday-squeezed-in-a-corner diaries, but
a sort of journal which I can write in whenever I feel inclined.
I do not suppose there will be much of interest to other people, but
it is not intended for them. I may show it to Jonathan some day if
there is in it anything worth sharing, but it is really an exercise
book. I shall try to do what I see lady journalists do, interviewing and
writing descriptions and trying to remember conversations. I am told
that, with a little practice, one can remember all that goes on or that
one hears said during a day.
However, we shall see. I will tell you of my little plans when we
meet. I have just had a few hurried lines from Jonathan from
Transylvania. He is well, and will be returning in about a week. I am
longing to hear all his news. It must be nice to see strange
countries. I wonder if we, I mean Jonathan and I, shall ever see them
together. There is the ten o'clock bell ringing. Goodbye.
Your loving
Mina
Tell me all the news when you write. You have not told
me anything for a long time. I hear rumours, and especially of a
tall, handsome, curly-haired man.???
LETTER, LUCY WESTENRA TO MINA MURRAY
17, Chatham Street
Wednesday
My dearest Mina,
I must say you tax me very unfairly with being a bad
correspondent. I wrote you twice since we parted, and your last letter was
only your second. Besides, I have nothing to tell you. There is really
nothing to interest you.
Town is very pleasant just now, and we go a great deal to
picture-galleries and for walks and rides in the park. As to the tall,
curly-haired man, I suppose it was the one who was with me at the last
Pop. Someone has evidently been telling tales.
That was Mr. Holmwood. He often comes to see us, and he and Mamma
get on very well together, they have so many things to talk about in
common.
We met some time ago a man that would just do for you, if you were not
already engaged to Jonathan. He is an excellant parti, being handsome,
well off, and of good birth. He is a doctor and really clever.
Just fancy! He is only nine-and twenty, and he has an immense lunatic
asylum all under his own care. Mr. Holmwood introduced him to me, and he
called here to see us, and often comes now. I think he is one of the
most resolute men I ever saw, and yet the most calm. He seems
absolutely imperturbable. I can fancy what a wonderful power he must have
over his patients. He has a curious habit of looking one straight in the
face, as if trying to read one's thoughts. He tries this on very
much with me, but I flatter myself he has got a tough nut to crack. I know
that from my glass.
Do you ever try to read your own face? I do, and I can tell you it
is not a bad study, and gives you more trouble than you can well fancy if you
have never tried it.
He say that I afford him a curious psychological study, and I humbly
think I do. I do not, as you know, take sufficient interest in dress to
be able to describe the new fashions. Dress is a bore. That is slang
again, but never mind. Arthur says that every day.
There, it is all out, Mina, we have told all our secrets to each
other since we were children. We have slept together and eaten
together, and laughed and cried together, and now, though I have spoken, I
would like to speak more. Oh, Mina, couldn't you guess? I love
him. I am blushing as I write, for although I think he loves me, he has
not told me so in words. But, oh, Mina, I love him. I love him!
There, that does me good.
I wish I were with you, dear, sitting by the fire undressing, as we used
to sit, and I would try to tell you what I feel. I do not know how I am
writing this even to you. I am afraid to stop, or I should tear up the
letter, and I don't want to stop, for I do so want to tell you all. Let me
hear from you at once, and tell me all that you think about it. Mina,
pray for my happiness.
Lucy
P.S.—I need not tell you this is a secret. Goodnight
again. L.
LETTER, LUCY WESTENRA TO MINA MURRAY
24 May
My dearest Mina,
Thanks, and thanks, and thanks again for your sweet letter. It was
so nice to be able to tell you and to have your sympathy.
My dear, it never rains but it pours. How true the old proverbs
are. Here am I, who shall be twenty in September, and yet I never had a
proposal till today, not a real proposal, and today I had three. Just
fancy! Three proposals in one day! Isn't it awful! I feel sorry,
really and truly sorry, for two of the poor fellows. Oh, Mina, I am so happy
that I don't know what to do with myself. And three proposals! But, for
goodness' sake, don't tell any of the girls, or they would be getting all
sorts of extravagant ideas, and imagining themselves injured and slighted if
in their very first day at home they did not get six at least. Some
girls are so vain! You and I, Mina dear, who are engaged and are going to
settle down soon soberly into old married women, can despise vanity. Well,
I must tell you about the three, but you must keep it a secret, dear, from
every one except, of course, Jonathan. You will tell him, because I would, if
I were in your place, certainly tell Arthur. A woman ought to tell her
husband everything. Don't you think so, dear? And I must be fair.
Men like women, certainly their wives, to be quite as fair as they are.
And women, I am afraid, are not always quite as fair as they should be.
Well, my dear, number One came just before lunch. I told you of him, Dr.
John Seward, the lunatic asylum man, with the strong jaw and the good
forehead. He was very cool outwardly, but was nervous all the same. He had
evidently been schooling himself as to all sorts of little things, and
remembered them, but he almost managed to sit down on his silk hat, which men
don't generally do when they are cool, and then when he wanted to appear at
ease he kept playing with a lancet in a way that made me nearly scream. He
spoke to me, Mina, very straightfordwardly. He told me how dear I was
to him, though he had known me so little, and what his life would be with me
to help and cheer him. He was going to tell me how unhappy he would be if
I did not care for him, but when he saw me cry he said he was a brute and
would not add to my present trouble. Then he broke off and asked if I could
love him in time, and when I shook my head his hands trembled, and then with
some hesitation he asked me if I cared already for any one else. He put it
very nicely, saying that he did not want to wring my confidence from me, but
only to know, because if a woman's heart was free a man might have
hope. And then, Mina, I felt a sort of duty to tell him that there was
some one. I only told him that much, and then he stood up, and he
looked very strong and very grave as he took both my hands in his and said
he hoped I would be happy, and that If I ever wanted a friend I must count
him one of my best.
Oh, Mina dear, I can't help crying, and you must excuse this letter
being all blotted. Being proposed to is all very nice and all that sort
of thing, but it isn't at all a happy thing when you have to see a poor
fellow, whom you know loves you honestly, going away and looking all broken
hearted, and to know that, no matter what he may say at the moment, you are
passing out of his life. My dear, I must stop here at present, I feel
so miserable, though I am so happy.
Evening.
Arthur has just gone, and I feel in better spirits than when I left
off, so I can go on telling you about the day.
Well, my dear, number Two came after lunch. He is such a nice
fellow,and American from Texas, and he looks so young and so fresh that it
seems almost impossible that he has been to so many places and has such
adventures. I sympathize with poor Desdemona when she had such a stream
poured in her ear, even by a black man. I suppose that we women are
such cowards that we think a man will save us from fears, and we marry
him. I know now what I would do if I were a man and wanted to make a
girl love me. No, I don't, for there was Mr. Morris telling us his
stories, and Arthur never told any, and yet. . .
My dear, I am somewhat previous. Mr. Quincy P. Morris found me
alone. It seems that a man always does find a girl alone. No, he
doesn't, for Arthur tried twice to make a chance, and I helping him all I
could, I am not ashamed to say it now. I must tell you beforehand that Mr.
Morris doesn't always speak slang, that is to say, he never does so to
strangers or before them, for he is really well educated and has exquisite
manners, but he found out that it amused me to hear him talk American
slang,and whenever I was present, and there was no one to be shocked, he said
such funny things. I am afraid, my dear, he has to invent it all, for it fits
exactly into whatever else he has to say. But this is a way slang
has. I do not know myself if I shall ever speak slang. I do not know if
Arthur likes it, as I have never heard him use any as yet.
Well, Mr. Morris sat down beside me and looked as happy and jolly as he
could, but I could see all the same that he was very nervous. He took my hand
in his, and said ever so sweetly. . .
"Miss Lucy, I know I ain't good enough to regulate the fixin's of
your little shoes, but I guess if you wait till you find a man that is
you will go join them seven young women with the lamps when you
quit. Won't you just hitch up alongside of me and let us go down the
long road together, driving in double harness?"
Well, he did look so hood humoured and so jolly that it didn't seem half
so hard to refuse him as it did poor Dr. Seward. So I said, as lightly as I
could, that I did not know anything of hitching, and that I wasn't broken to
harness at all yet. Then he said that he had spoken in a light manner, and he
hoped that if he had made a mistake in doing so on so grave, so momentous,
and occasion for him, I would forgive him. He really did look serious when he
was saying it, and I couldn't help feeling a sort of exultation that he was
number Two in one day. And then, my dear, before I could say a word he began
pouring out a perfect torrent of love-making, laying his very heart and
soul at my feet. He looked so earnest over it that I shall never again
think that a man must be playful always, and never earnest, because he is
merry at times. I suppose he saw something in my face which checked
him, for he suddenly stopped,and said with a sort of manly fervour that I
could have loved him for if I had been free. . .
"Lucy, you are an honest hearted girl, I know. I should not be
here speaking to you as I am now if I did not believe you clean
grit, right through to the very depths of your soul. Tell me, like
one good fellow to another, is there any one else that you care for? And
if there is I'll never trouble you a hair's breadth again, but will be, if
you will let me, a very faithful friend."
My dear Mina, why are men so noble when we women are so little worthy of
them? Here was I almost making fun of this great hearted, true
gentleman. I burst into tears, I am afraid, my dear, you will think this a
very sloppy letter in more ways than one, and I really felt very badly.
Why can't they let a girl marry three men, or as many as want her, and
save all this trouble? But this is heresy, and I must not say it. I am
glad to say that, though I was crying, I was able to look into Mr. Morris'
brave eyes, and I told him out straight. . .
"Yes, there is some one I love, though he has not told me yet that he
even loves me." I was right to speak to him so frankly, for quite a
light came into his face, and he put out both his hands and took mine, I
think I put them into his, and said in a hearty way. . .
"That's my brave girl. It's better worth being late for a chance
of winning you than being in time for any other girl in the world.
Don't cry, my dear. If it's for me, I'm a hard nut to crack, and I take
it standing up. If that other fellow doesn't know his happiness,
well, he'd better look for it soon, or he'll have to deal with me. Little
girl, your honesty and pluck have made me a friend, and that's rarer than a
lover, it's more selfish anyhow. My dear, I'm going to have a pretty lonely
walk between this and Kingdom Come. Won't you give me one
kiss? It'll be something to keep off the darkness now and then. You can,
you know, if you like, for that other good fellow, or you could not love him,
hasn't spoken yet."
That quite won me, Mina, for it was brave and sweet of him, and noble
too, to a rival, wasn't it? And he so sad, so I leant over and kissed
him.
He stood up with my two hands in his, and as he looked down into my
face, I am afraid I was blushing very much, he said, "Little girl, I hold
your hand, and you've kissed me, and if these things don't make us friends
nothing ever will. Thank you for your sweet honesty to me, and
goodbye."
He wrung my hand, and taking up his hat, went straight out of the
room without looking back, without a tear or a quiver or a pause, and I
am crying like a baby.
Oh, why must a man like that be made unhappy when there are lots of
girls about who would worship the very ground he trod on? I know I would if I
were free, only I don't want to be free My dear, this quite upset me, and I
feel I cannot write of happiness just at once, after telling you of it,and I
don't wish to tell of the number Three until it can be all happy. Ever
your loving. . .
Lucy
P.S.—Oh, about number Three, I needn't tell you of number Three, need
I? Besides, it was all so confused. It seemed only a moment from his
coming into the room till both his arms were round me, and he was kissing
me. I am very, very happy, and I don't know what I have done to deserve
it. I must only try in the future to show that I am not ungrateful to
God for all His goodness to me in sending to me such a lover, such a
husband, and such a friend.
Goodbye.
DR. SEWARD'S DIARY (Kept in phonograph)
25 May.—Ebb tide in appetite today. Cannot eat, cannot rest,
so diary instead. since my rebuff of yesterday I have a sort of empty
feeling. Nothing in the world seems of sufficient importance to be worth the
doing. As I knew that the only cure for this sort of thing was work, I went
amongst the patients. I picked out one who has afforded me a study of
much interest. He is so quaint that I am determined to understand him as well
as I can. Today I seemed to get nearer than ever before to the heart of his
mystery.
I questioned him more fully than I had ever done, with a view to making
myself master of the facts of his hallucination. In my manner of doing it
there was, I now see, something of cruelty. I seemed to wish to keep him to
the point of his madness, a thing which I avoid with the patients as I would
the mouth of hell.
(Mem., Under what circumstances would I not avoid the pit of hell?)
Omnia Romae venalia sunt. Hell has its price! If there be anything
behind this instinct it will be valuable to trace it afterwards accurately,
so I had better commence to do so, therefore. . .
R. M, Renfield, age 59. Sanguine temperament, great physical
strength, morbidly excitable, periods of gloom, ending in some fixed idea
which I cannot make out. I presume that the sanguine temperament
itself and the disturbing influence end in a mentally-accomplished
finish, a possibly dangerous man, probably dangerous if unselfish. In
selfish men caution is as secure an armour for their foes as for
themselves. What I think of on this point is, when self is the fixed
point the centripetal force is balanced with the centrifugal. When
duty, a cause, etc., is the fixed point, the latter force is
paramount, and only accident of a series of accidents can balance it.
LETTER, QUINCEY P. MORRIS TO HON. ARTHUR HOLMOOD
25 May.
My dear Art,
We've told yarns by the campfire in the prairies, and dressed one
another's wounds after trying a landing at the Marquesas, and drunk healths
on the shore of Titicaca. There are more yarns to be told,and other
wounds to be healed, and another health to be drunk. Won't you let this
be at my campfire tomorrow night? I have no hesitation in asking you, as I
know a certain lady is engaged to a certain dinner party, and that you are
free. There will only be one other, our old pal at the Korea, Jack
Seward. He's coming, too, and we both want to mingle our weeps over the wine
cup, and to drink a health with all our hearts to the happiest man in all
the wide world, who has won the noblest heart that God has made and best
worth winning. We promise you a hearty welcome, and a loving greeting,
and a health as true as your own right hand. We shall both swear to leave you
at home if you drink too deep to a certain pair of eyes. Come!
Yours, as ever and always,
Quincey P. Morris
TELEGRAM FROM ARTHUR HOLMWOOD TO QUINCEY P. MORRIS
26 May
Count me in every time. I bear messages which will make both
your ears tingle.
Art
CHAPTER 6
MINA MURRAY'S JOURNAL
24 July. Whitby.—Lucy met me at the station, looking
sweeter and lovlier than ever, and we drove up to the house at the
Crescent in which they have rooms. This is a lovely place. The
little river, the Esk, runs through a deep valley, which broadens out as it
comes near the harbour. A great viaduct runs across, with high
piers, through which the view seems somehow further away than it really
is. The valley is beautifully green, and it is so steep that when you are
on the high land on either side you look right across it, unless you are near
enough to see down. The houses of the old town— the side away from us,
are all red-roofed, and seem piled up one over the other anyhow, like the
pictures we see of Nuremberg. Right over the town is the ruin of Whitby
Abbey, which was sacked by the Danes, and which is the scene of part of
"Marmion," where the girl was built up in the wall. It is a most noble
ruin, of immense size, and full of beautiful and romantic bits. There is a
legend that a white lady is seen in one of the windows. Between it and the
town there is another church, the parish one, round which is a big graveyard,
all full of tombstones. This is to my mind the nicest spot in Whitby, for it
lies right over the town, and has a full view of the harbour and all up the
bay to where the headland called Kettleness stretches out into the sea. It
descends so steeply over the harbour that part of the bank has fallen away,
and some of the graves have been destroyed.
In one place part of the stonework of the graves stretches out over the
sandy pathway far below. There are walks, with seats beside
them, through the churchyard, and people go and sit there all day long
looking at the beautiful view and enjoying the breeze.
I shall come and sit here often myself and work. Indeed, I am writing
now, with my book on my knee, and listening to the talk of three old men who
are sitting beside me. They seem to do nothing all day but sit here and
talk.
The harbour lies below me, with, on the far side, one long granite wall
stretching out into the sea, with a curve outwards at the end of it, in the
middle of which is a lighthouse. A heavy seawall runs along outside of
it. On the near side, the seawall makes an elbow crooked inversely, and
its end too has a lighthouse. Between the two piers there is a narrow opening
into the harbour, which then suddenly widens.
It is nice at high water, but when the tide is out it shoals away to
nothing,and there is merely the stream of the Esk, running between banks of
sand, with rocks here and there. Outside the harbour on this side there rises
for about half a mile a great reef, the sharp of which runs straight out from
behind the south lighthouse. At the end of it is a buoy with a
bell, which swings in bad weather, and sends in a mournful sound on the
wind.
They have a legend here that when a ship is lost bells are heard out at
sea. I must ask the old man about this. He is coming this way. .
.
He is a funny old man. He must be awfully old, for his face is
gnarled and twisted like the bark of a tree. He tells me that he is nearly a
hundred, and that he was a sailor in the Greenland fishing fleet when
Waterloo was fought. He is, I am afraid, a very sceptical person, for when I
asked him about the bells at sea and the White Lady at the abbey he said
very brusquely,
"I wouldn't fash masel' about them, miss. Them things be all wore
out. Mind, I don't say that they never was, but I do say that they
wasn't in my time. They be all very well for comers and trippers, an'
the like, but not for a nice young lady like you. Them feet-folks from York
and Leeds that be always eatin'cured herrin's and drinkin' tea an' lookin'
out to buy cheap jet would creed aught. I wonder masel' who'd be bothered
tellin' lies to them, even the newspapers, which is full of fool-talk."
I thought he would be a good person to learn interesting things from, so
I asked him if he would mind telling me something about the whale fishing in
the old days. He was just settling himself to begin when the clock struck
six, whereupon he laboured to get up, and said,
"I must gang ageeanwards home now, miss. My grand-daughter
doesn't like to be kept waitin' when the tea is ready, for it takes me
time to crammle aboon the grees, for there be a many of `em, and miss, I
lack belly-timber sairly by the clock."
He hobbled away, and I could see him hurrying, as well as he could, down
the steps. The steps are a great feature on the place. They lead from
the town to the church, there are hundreds of them, I do not know how many,
and they wind up in a delicate curve. The slope is so gentle that a horse
could easily walk up and down them.
I think they must originally have had something to do with the abbey. I
shall go home too. Lucy went out, visiting with her mother, and as they
were only duty calls, I did not go.
1 August.—I came up here an hour ago with Lucy, and we had a most
interesting talk with my old friend and the two others who always come and
join him. He is evidently the Sir Oracle of them,and I should think must have
been in his time a most dictatorial person.
He will not admit anything, and down faces everybody. If he can't
out-argue them he bullies them,and then takes their silence for agreement
with his views.
Lucy was looking sweetly pretty in her white lawn frock. She has got a
beautiful colour since she has been here.
I noticed that the old men did not lose any time in coming and sitting
near her when we sat down. She is so sweet with old people, I think
they all fell in love with her on the spot. Even my old man succumbed and did
not contradict her, but gave me double share instead. I got him on the
subject of the legends , and he went off at once into a sort of sermon. I
must try to remember it and put it down.
"It be all fool-talk, lock, stock, and barrel, that's what it be and
nowt else. These bans an' wafts an' boh-ghosts an' bar-guests an'
bogles an' all anent them is only fit to set bairns an' dizzy women
a'belderin'. They be nowt but air-blebs. They, an' all grims an' signs an'
warnin's, be all invented by parsons an' illsome berk-bodies an' railway
touters to skeer an' scunner hafflin's, an' to get folks to do somethin' that
they don't other incline to. It makes me ireful to think o' them. Why,
it's them that, not content with printin' lies on paper an' preachin' them ou
t of pulpits, does want to be cuttin' them on the tombstones. Look here
all around you in what airt ye will. All them steans, holdin' up their
heads as well as they can out of their pride, is acant, simply
tumblin' down with the weight o' the lies wrote on them, `Here lies the
body' or `Sacred to the memory' wrote on all of them, an' yet in nigh half
of them there bean't no bodies at all, an' the memories of them bean't cared
a pinch of snuff about, much less sacred. Lies all of them, nothin' but lies
of one kind or another! My gog, but it'll be a quare scowderment at the Day
of Judgment when they come tumblin' up in their death-sarks, all
jouped together an' trying' to drag their tombsteans with them to
prove how good they was, some of them trimmlin' an' dithering, with
their hands that dozzened an' slippery from lyin' in the sea that
they can't even keep their gurp o' them."
I could see from the old fellow's self-satisfied air and the way in
which he looked round for the approval of his cronies that he was "showing
off," so I put in a word to keep him going.
"Oh, Mr. Swales, you can't be serious. Surely these tombstones are
not all wrong?"
"Yabblins! There may be a poorish few not wrong, savin' where
they make out the people too good, for there be folk that do think a
balm-bowl be like the sea, if only it be their own. The whole thing be only
lies. Now look you here. You come here a stranger, an' you see this
kirkgarth."
I nodded, for I thought it better to assent, though I did not quite
understand his dialect. I knew it had something to do with the
church.
He went on, "And you consate that all these steans be aboon folk that be
haped here, snod an' snog?" I assented again. "Then that be just where
the lie comes in. Why, there be scores of these laybeds that be toom as
old Dun's `baccabox on Friday night."
He nudged one of his companions, and they all laughed. "And, my
gog! How could they be otherwise? Look at that one, the aftest
abaft the bier-bank, read it!"
I went over and read, "Edward Spencelagh, master mariner, murdered by
pirates off the coast of Andres, April, 1854, age 30." When I came back Mr.
Swales went on,
"Who brought him home, I wonder, to hap him here? Murdered off the
coast of Andres! An' you consated his body lay under! Why, I could name
ye a dozen whose bones lie in the Greenland seas above," he pointed
northwards, "or where the currants may have drifted them. There be the steans
around ye. Ye can, with your young eyes, read the small print of the
lies from here. This Braithwaite Lowery, I knew his father, lost in the
Lively off Greenland in `20, or Andrew Woodhouse, drowned in the same seas in
1777, or John Paxton, drowned off Cape Farewell a year later, or old John
Rawlings, whose grandfather sailed with me, drowned in the Gulf of
Finland in `50. Do ye think that all these men will have to make a rush to
Whitby when the trumpet sounds? I have me antherums aboot it! I tell ye
that when they got here they'd be jommlin' and jostlin' one another that way
that it `ud be like a fight up on the ice in the old days, when we'd be at
one another from daylight to dark, an' tryin' to tie up our cuts by the
aurora borealis." This was evidently local pleasantry, for the old man
cackled over it, and his cronies joined in with gusto.
"But," I said, "surely you are not quite correct, for you start on the
assumption that all the poor people, or their spirits, will have to take
their tombstones with them on the Day of Judgment. Do you think that will be
really necessary?"
"Well, what else be they tombstones for? Answer me that, miss!"
"To please their relatives, I suppose."
"To please their relatives, you suppose!" This he said with intense
scorn. "How will it pleasure their relatives to know that lies is wrote over
them, and that everybody in the place knows that they be lies?"
He pointed to a stone at our feet which had been laid down as a slab, on
which the seat was rested, close to the edge of the cliff. "Read the lies on
that thruff-stone," he said.
The letters were upside down to me from where I sat, but Lucy was
more opposite to them, so she leant over and read, "Sacred to the
memory of George Canon, who died, in the hope of a glorious
resurrection, on July 29,1873, falling from the rocks at Kettleness. This
tomb was erected by his sorrowing mother to her dearly beloved son.`He was
the only son of his mother, and she was a widow.' Really, Mr. Swales, I don't
see anything very funny in that!" She spoke her comment very gravely and
somewhat severely.
"Ye don't see aught funny! Ha-ha! But that's because ye don't gawm
the sorrowin'mother was a hell-cat that hated him because he was acrewk'd, a
regular lamiter he was, an' he hated her so that he committed suicide in
order that she mightn't get an insurance she put on his life. He blew
nigh the top of his head off with an old musket that they had for
scarin' crows with. `twarn't for crows then, for it brought the
clegs and the dowps to him. That's the way he fell off the
rocks. And, as to hopes of a glorious resurrection, I've often heard him
say masel' that he hoped he'd go to hell, for his mother was so pious that
she'd be sure to go to heaven, an' he didn't want to addle where she
was. Now isn't that stean at any rate," he hammered it with his stick
as he spoke, "a pack of lies? And won't it make Gabriel keckle when Geordie
comes pantin' ut the grees with the tompstean balanced on his hump, and
asks to be took as evidence!"
I did not know what to say, but Lucy turned the conversation as she
said, rising up, "Oh, why did you tell us of this? It is my favorite seat,
and I cannot leave it, and now I find I must go on sitting over the grave of
a suicide."
"That won't harm ye, my pretty, an' it may make poor Geordie gladsome to
have so trim a lass sittin' on his lap. That won't hurt ye. Why, I've
sat here off an' on for nigh twenty years past, an' it hasn't done me no
harm. Don't ye fash about them as lies under ye, or that doesn' lie there
either! It'll be time for ye to be getting scart when ye see the
tombsteans all run away with, and the place as bare as a stubble-field.
There's the clock, and'I must gang. My service to ye, ladies!" And off
he hobbled.
Lucy and I sat awhile, and it was all so beautiful before us that we
took hands as we sat, and she told me all over again about Arthur and their
coming marriage. That made me just a little heart-sick, for I haven't
heard from Jonathan for a whole month.
The same day. I came up here alone, for I am very sad.
There was no letter for me. I hope there cannot be anything the matter
with Jonathan. The clock has just struck nine. I see the lights
scattered all over the town, sometimes in rows where the streets are, and
sometimes singly. They run right up the Esk and die away in the curve of the
valley. To my left the view is cut off by a black line of roof of the old
house next to the abbey. The sheep and lambs are bleating in the fields
away behind me, and there is a clatter of donkeys' hoofs up the paved road
below. The band on the pier is playing a harsh waltz in good time, and
further along the quay there is a Salvation Army meeting in a back
street. Neither of the bands hears the other, but up here I hear and
see them both. I wonder where Jonathan is and if he is thinking of
me! I wish he were here.
DR. SEWARD'S DIARY
5 June.—The case of Renfield grows more interesting the more I get to
understand the man. He has certain qualities very largely developed,
selfishness, secrecy, and purpose.
I wish I could get at what is the object of the latter. He
seems to have some settled scheme of his own, but what it is I do not
know. His redeeming quality is a love of animals, though, indeed, he has
such curious turns in it that I sometimes imagine he is only abnormally
cruel. His pets are of odd sorts.
Just now his hobby is catching flies. He has at present such a
quantity that I have had myself to expostulate. To my astonishment, he did
not break out into a fury, as I expected, but took the matter in simple
seriousness. He thought for a moment, and then said, "May I have three
days? I shall clear them away." Of course, I said that would do. I
must watch him.
18 June.—He has turned his mind now to spiders,and has got
several very big fellows in a box. He keeps feeding them his
flies, and the number of the latter is becoming sensibly
diminished, although he has used half his food in attracting more
flies from outside to his room.
1 July.—His spiders are now becoming as great a nuisance as his
flies, and today I told him that he must get rid of them.
He looked very sad at this, so I said that he must some of them, at all
events. He cheerfully acquiesced in this, and I gave him the same time
as before for reduction.
He disgusted me much while with him, for when a horrid blowfly, bloated
with some carrion food, buzzed into the room, he caught it, held it
exultantly for a few moments between his finger and thumb, and before I knew
what he was going to do, put it in his mouth and ate it.
I scolded him for it, but he argued quietly that it was very good
and very wholesome, that it was life, strong life, and gave life to
him. This gave me an idea, or the rudiment of one. I must watch how he
gets rid of his spiders.
He has evidently some deep problem in his mind, for he keeps a little
notebook in which he is always jotting down something. whole pages of it are
filled with masses of figures, generally single numbers added up in batches,
and then the totals added in batches again, as though he were focussing some
account, as the auditors put it.
8 July.—There is a method in his madness,and the rudimentary idea
in my mind is growing. It will be a whole idea soon, and then, oh,
unconscious cerebration, you will have to give the wall to your conscious
brother.
I kept away from my friend for a few days, so that I might notice if
there were any change. Things remain as they were except that he has
parted with some of his pets and got a new one.
He has managed to get a sparrow, and has already partially tamed it. His
means of taming is simple, for already the spiders have diminshed. Those that
do remain, however, are well fed, for he still brings in the flies by
tempting them with his food.
19 July—We are progressing. My friend has now a whole colony of
sparrows, and his flies and spiders are almost obliterated. When I came
in he ran to me and said he wanted to ask me a great favour, a very, very
great favour. And as he spoke, he fawned on me like a dog.
I asked him what it was, and he said, with a sort of rapture in
his voice and bearing, "A kitten, a nice, little, sleek playful
kitten, that I can play with, and teach, and feed, and feed, and feed!"
I was not unprepared for this request, for I had noticed how his pets
went on increasing in size and vivacity, but I did not care that his pretty
family of tame sparrows should be wiped out in the same manner as the flies
and spiders. So I said I would see about it, and asked him if he would not
rather have a cat than a kitten.
His eagerness betrayed him as he answered, "Oh, yes, I would like a
cat! I only asked for a kitten lest you should refuse me a cat. No one
would refuse me a kitten, would they?"
I shook my head, and said that at present I feared it would not be
possible, but that I would see about it. His face fell, and I could see a
warning of danger in it, for there was a sudden fierce, sidelong look which
meant killing. The man is an undeveloped homicidal maniac. I shall
test him with his present craving and see how it will work out, then I
shall know more.
10 pm.—I have visited him again and found him sitting in a corner
brooding. When I came in he threw himself on his knees before me and implored
me to let him have a cat, that his salvation depended upon it.
I was firm, however, and told him that he could not have it, whereupon
he went without a word, and sat down, gnawing his fingers, in the corner
where I had found him. I shall see him in the morning early.
20 July.—Visited Renfield very early, before attendant went his
rounds. Found him up and humming a tune. He was spreading out his
sugar, which he had saved, in the window, and was manifestly beginning his
fly catching again, and beginning it cheerfully and with a good grace.
I looked around for his birds,and not seeing them,asked him where they
were. He replied, without turning round, that they had all flown
away. There were a few feathers about the room and on his pillow a drop of
blood. I said nothing, but went and told the keeper to report to me if
there were anything odd about him during the day.
11 am.—The attendant has just been to see me to say that
Renfield has been very sick and has disgorged a whole lot of feathers. "My
belief is, doctor," he said, "that he has eaten his birds, and that he just
took and ate them raw!"
11 pm.—I gave Renfield a strong opiate tonight, enough to make even
him sleep, and took away his pocketbook to look at it. The thought that has
been buzzing about my brain lately is complete, and the theory proved.
My homicidal maniac is of a peculiar kind. I shall have to invent a
new classification for him, and call him a zoophagous (life-eating)
maniac. What he desires is to absorb as many lives as he can, and he has laid
himself out to achieve it in a cumulative way. He gave many flies to
one spider and many spiders to one bird, and then wanted a cat to eat the
many birds. What would have been his later steps?
It would almost be worth while to complete the experiment. It might be
done if there were only a sufficient cause. Men sneered at vivisection, and
yet look at its results today! Why not advance science in its most difficult
and vital aspect, the knowledge of the brain?
Had I even the secret of one such mind, did I hold the key to the fancy
of even one lunatic, I might advance my own branch of science to a pitch
compared with which Burdon-Sanderson's physiology or Ferrier's brain
knowledge would be as nothing. If only there were a sufficient
cause! I must not think too much of this, or I may be tempted. A good
cause might turn the scale with me, for may not I too be of an exceptional
brain, congenitally?
How well the man reasoned. Lunatics always do within their own
scope. I wonder at how many lives he values a man, or if at only one. He
has closed the account most accurately, and today begun a new record. How
many of us begin a new record with each day of our lives?
To me it seems only yesterday that my whole life ended with my new hope,
and that truly I began a new record. So it shall be until the Great Recorder
sums me up and closes my ledger account with a balance to profit or
loss.
Oh, Lucy, Lucy, I cannot be angry with you, nor can I be angry with my
friend whose happiness is yours, but I must only wait on hopeless and
work. Work! Work!
If I could have as strong a cause as my poor mad friend there, a
good, unselfish cause to make me work, that would be indeed happiness.
MINA MURRAY'S JOURNAL
26 July.—I am anxious,and it soothes me to express myself here. It
is like whispering to one's self and listening at the same time. And there is
also something about the shorthand symbols that makes it different from
writing. I am unhappy about Lucy and about Jonathan. I had not heard
from Jonathan for some time, and was very concerned, but yesterday dear Mr.
Hawkins, who is always so kind, sent me a letter from him. I had
written asking him if he had heard, and he said the enclosed had just been
received. It is only a line dated from Castle Dracula, and says that he
is just starting for home. That is not like Jonathan. I do not
understand it, and it makes me uneasy.
Then, too, Lucy , although she is so well, has lately taken to her
old habit of walking in her sleep. Her mother has spoken to me about
it, and we have decided that I am to lock the door of our room every
night.
Mrs. Westenra has got an idea that sleep-walkers always go out on
roofs of houses and along the edges of cliffs and then get suddenly
wakened and fall over with a despairing cry that echoes all over the
place.
Poor dear, she is naturally anxious about Lucy, and she tells me that
her husband, Lucy's father, had the same habit, that he would get up in the
night and dress himself and go out, if he were not stopped.
Lucy is to be married in the autumn, and she is already planning out her
dresses and how her house is to be arranged. I sympathise with her, for I do
the same, only Jonathan and I will start in life in a very simple way, and
shall have to try to make both ends meet.
Mr. Holmwood, he is the Hon. Arthur Holmwood, only son of Lord
Godalming, is coming up here very shortly, as soon as he can leave town, for
his father is not very well, and I think dear Lucy is counting the moments
till he comes.
She wants to take him up in the seat on the churchyard cliff and show
him the beauty of Whitby. I daresay it is the waiting which disturbs
her. She will be all right when he arrives.
27 July.—No news from Jonathan. I am getting quite uneasy about
him, though why I should I do not know, but I do wish that he would
write, if it were only a single line.
Lucy walks more than ever, and each night I am awakened by her moving
about the room. Fortunately, the weather is so hot that she cannot get
cold. But still, the anxiety and the perpetually being awakened is
beginning to tell on me, and I am getting nervous and wakeful
myself. Thank God, Lucy's health keeps up. Mr. Holmwood has been
suddenly called to Ring to see his father, who has been taken seriously
ill. Lucy frets at the postponement of seeing him, but it does not touch
her looks. She is a trifle stouter, and her cheeks are a lovely
rose-pink. She has lost the anemic look which she had. I pray it will all
last.
3 August.—Another week gone by, and no news from Jonathan, not even
to Mr. Hawkins, from whom I have heard. Oh, I do hope he is not
ill. He surely would have written. I look at that last letter of
his, but somehow it does not satisfy me. It does not read like him, and yet
it is his writing. There is no mistake of that.
Lucy has not walked much in her sleep the last week, but there is an odd
concentration about her which I do not understand, even in her sleep she
seems to be watching me. She tries the door, and finding it locked, goes
about the room searching for the key.
6 August.—Another three days, and no news. This suspense is getting
dreadful. If I only knew where to write to or where to go to, I should
feel easier. But no one has heard a word of Jonathan since that last
letter. I must only pray to God for patience.
Lucy is more excitable than ever, but is otherwise well. Last
night was very threatening, and the fishermen say that we are in for a
storm. I must try to watch it and learn the weather signs.
Today is a gray day,and the sun as I write is hidden in thick
clouds, high over Kettleness. Everything is gray except the green
grass, which seems like emerald amongst it, gray earthy rock, gray
clouds, tinged with the sunburst at the far edge, hang over the gray
sea, into which the sandpoints stretch like gray figures. The sea is
tumbling in over the shallows and the sandy flats with a roar, muffled
in the sea-mists drifting inland. The horizon is lost in a gray
mist. All vastness, the clouds are piled up like giant rocks, and there is
a `brool' over the sea that sounds like some passage of doom. Dark figures
are on the beach here and there, sometimes half shrouded in the mist, and
seem `men like trees walking'. The fishing boats are racing for home, and
rise and dip in the ground swell as they sweep into the harbour, bending to
the scuppers. Here comes old Mr. Swales. He is making straight for me,
and I can see, by the way he lifts his hat, that he wants to talk.
I have been quite touched by the change in the poor old man. When he
sat down beside me, he said in a very gentle way, "I want to say something to
you, miss."
I could see he was not at ease, so I took his poor old wrinkled hand in
mine and asked him to speak fully.
So he said, leaving his hand in mine, "I'm afraid, my deary, that I must
have shocked you by all the wicked things I've been sayin' about the dead,
and such like, for weeks past, but I didn't mean them, and I want ye to
remember that when I'm gone. We aud folks that be daffled, and with one
foot abaft the krok-hooal, don't altogether like to think of it, and we don't
want to feel scart of it, and that's why I've took to makin' light of it, so
that I'd cheer up my own heart a bit. But, Lord love ye, miss, I ain't afraid
of dyin', not a bit, only I don't want to die if I can help it. My time
must be nigh at hand now, for I be aud, and a hundred years is too much for
any man to expect. And I'm so nigh it that the Aud Man is already whettin'
his scythe. Ye see, I can't get out o' the habit of caffin' about it all at
once. The chafts will wag as they be used to. Some day soon the Angel
of Death will sound his trumpet for me. But don't ye dooal an' greet,
my deary!"— for he saw that I was crying—"if he should come this very night
I'd not refuse to answer his call. For life be, after all, only a
waitin' for somethin' else than what we're doin', and death be all that we
can rightly depend on. But I'm content, for it's comin' to me, my
deary, and comin' quick. It may be comin' while we be lookin' and
wonderin'. Maybe it's in that wind out over the sea that's bringin' with it
loss and wreck, and sore distress, and sad hearts. Look! Look!"
he cried suddenly. "There's something in that wind and in the hoast beyont
that sounds, and looks, and tastes, and smells like death. It's in the
air. I feel it comin'. Lord, make me answer cheerful, when my call
comes!" He held up his arms devoutly, and raised his hat. His mouth
moved as though he were praying. After a few minutes' silence, he got
up, shook hands with me, and blessed me, and said goodbye, and hobbled
off. It all touched me, and upset me very much.
I was glad when the coastguard came along, with his spyglass under his
arm. He stopped to talk with me, as he always does, but all the time kept
looking at a strange ship.
"I can't make her out," he said. "She's a Russian, by the look of
her. But she's knocking about in the queerest way. She doesn't
know her mind a bit. She seems to see the storm coming, but
can't decide whether to run up north in the open, or to put in here. Look
there again! She is steered mighty strangely, for she doesn't mind the
hand on the wheel, changes about with every puff of wind. We'll hear more of
her before this time tomorrow."
CHAPTER 7
CUTTING FROM "THE DAILYGRAPH," 8 AUGUST
(PASTED IN MINA MURRAY'S JOURNAL)
From a correspondent.
Whitby.
One of the greatest and suddenest storms on record has just been
experienced here, with results both strange and unique. The weather had been
somewhat sultry, but not to any degree uncommon in the month of August.
Saturday evening was as fine as was ever known, and the great body of
holiday-makers laid out yesterday for visits to Mulgrave Woods, Robin Hood's
Bay, Rig Mill, Runswick, Staithes, and the various trips in the
neighborhood of Whitby. The steamers Emma and Scarborough made trips up
and down the coast, and there was an unusual amount of `tripping' both to and
from Whitby. The day was unusually fine till the afternoon, when some of
the gossips who frequent the East Cliff churchyard, and from the commanding
eminence watch the wide sweep of sea visible to the north and east, called
attention to a sudden show of `mares tails' high in the sky to the
northwest. The wind was then blowing from the south-west in the mild
degree which in barometrical language is ranked `No. 2, light breeze.'
The coastguard on duty at once made report, and one old fisherman, who
for more than half a century has kept watch on weather signs from the East
Cliff, foretold in an emphatic manner the coming of a sudden storm. The
approach of sunset was so very beautiful, so grand in its masses of
splendidly coloured clouds, that there was quite an assemblage on the walk
along the cliff in the old churchyard to enjoy the beauty. Before the sun
dipped below the black mass of Kettleness, standing boldly athwart the
western sky, its downward was was marked by myriad clouds of every sunset
colour, flame, purple, pink, green, violet, and all the tints of gold, with
here and there masses not large, but of seemingly absolute blackness, in all
sorts of shapes, as well outlined as colossal silhouettes. The experience was
not lost on the painters, and doubtless some of the sketches of the `Prelude
to the Great Storm' will grace the R. A and R. I. walls in May next.
More than one captain made up his mind then and there that his `cobble'
or his `mule', as they term the different classes of boats, would remain in
the harbour till the storm had passed. The wind fell away entirely during the
evening, and at midnight there was a dead calm, a sultry heat, and that
prevailing intensity which, on the approach of thunder, affects persons of a
sensitive nature.
There were but few lights in sight at sea, for even the coasting
steamers, which usually hug the shore so closely, kept well to seaward,and
but few fishing boats were in sight. The only sail noticeable was a foreign
schooner with all sails set, which was seemingly going westwards. The
foolhardiness or ignorance of her officers was a prolific theme for comment
whilst she remained in sight, and efforts were made to signal her to reduce
sail in the face of her danger. Before the night shut down she was seen with
sails idly flapping as she gently rolled on the undulating swell of the
sea.
"As idle as a painted ship upon a painted ocean."
Shortly before ten o'clock the stillness of the air grew
quite oppressive,and the silence was so marked that the bleating of a
sheep inland or the barking of a dog in the town was distinctly heard, and
the band on the pier, with its lively French air, was like a dischord in the
great harmony of nature's silence. A little after midnight came a strange
sound from over the sea, and high overhead the air began to carry a strange,
faint, hollow booming.
Then without warning the tempest broke. With a rapidity which, at
the time, seemed incredible,and even afterwards is impossible to realize, the
whole aspect of nature at once became convulsed. The waves rose in growing
fury, each over-topping its fellow, till in a very few minutes the lately
glassy sea was like a roaring and devouring monster. White-crested
waves beat madly on the level sands and rushed up the shelving
cliffs. Others broke over the piers, and with their spume swept the
lanthorns of the lighthouses which rise from the end of either pier of Whitby
Harbour.
The wind roared like thunder, and blew with such force that it was with
difficulty that even strong men kept their feet, or clung with grim clasp to
the iron stanchions. It was found necessary to clear the entire pier
from the mass of onlookers, or else the fatalities of the night would have
increased manifold. To add to the difficulties and dangers of the
time, masses of sea-fog came drifting inland. White, wet
clouds, which swept by in ghostly fashion, so dank and damp and cold that
it needed but little effort of imagination to think that the spirits of those
lost at sea were touching their living brethren with the clammy hands of
death, and many a one shuddered at the wreaths of sea-mist swept by.
At times the mist cleared, and the sea for some distance could be seen
in the glare of the lightning, which came thick and fast, followed by such
peals of thunder that the whole sky overhead seemed trembling under the shock
of the footsteps of the storm.
Some of the scenes thus revealed were of immeasurable grandeur and of
absorbing interest. The sea, running mountains high, threw skywards
with each wave mighty masses of white foam, which the tempest seemed to
snatch at and whirl away into space. Here and there a fishing boat, with a
rag of sail, running madly for shelter before the blast, now and again the
white wings of a storm-tossed seabird. On the summit of the East Cliff
the new searchlight was ready for experiment, but had not yet been
tried. The officers in charge of it got it into working order, and in the
pauses of onrushing mist swept with it the surface of the sea. Once or twice
its service was most effective, as when a fishing boat, with gunwale under
water, rushed into the harbour, able, by the guidance of the sheltering
light, to avoid the danger of dashing against the piers. As each boat
achieved the safety of the port there was a shout of joy from the mass of
people on the shore,a shout which for a moment seemed to cleave the gale and
was then swept away in its rush.
Before long the searchlight discovered some distance away a
schooner with all sails set, apparently the same vessel which had been
noticed earlier in the evening. The wind had by this time backed to the
east, and there was a shudder amongst the watchers on the cliff as they
realized the terrible danger in which she now was.
Between her and the port lay the great flat reef on which so many
good ships have from time to time suffered, and, with the wind blowing
from its present quarter, it would be quite impossible that she should
fetch the entrance of the harbour.
It was now nearly the hour of high tide, but the waves were so
great that in their troughs the shallows of the shore were almost
visible, and the schooner, with all sails set, was rushing with such speed
that, in the words of one old salt, "she must fetch up somewhere, if it was
only in hell". Then came another rush of sea-fog, greater than any
hitherto, a mass of dank mist, which seemed to close on all things like a
gray pall, and left available to men only the organ of hearing, for the roar
of the tempest, and the crash of the thunder, and the booming of the
mighty billows came through the damp oblivion even louder than before. The
rays of the searchlight were kept fixed on the harbour mouth across the East
Pier, where the shock was expected, and men waited breathless.
The wind suddenly shifted to the northeast, and the remnant of the sea
fog melted in the blast. And then, mirabile dictu, between the piers,
leaping from wave to wave as it rushed at headlong speed, swept the strange
schooner before the blast, with all sail set, and gained the safety of the
harbour. The searchlight followed her, and a shudder ran through all
who saw her, for lashed to the helm was a corpse, with drooping
head, which swung horribly to and fro at each motion of the ship. No other
form could be seen on the deck at all.
A great awe came on all as they realised that the ship, as if by a
miracle, had found the harbour, unsteered save by the hand of a dead
man! However, all took place more quickly than it takes to write these
words. The schooner paused not, but rushing across the harbour, pitched
herself on that accumulation of sand and gravel washed by many tides and
many storms into the southeast corner of the pier jutting under the East
Cliff, known locally as Tate Hill Pier.
There was of course a considerable concussion as the vessel drove up on
the sand heap. Every spar, rope, and stay was strained,and some of the
`top-hammer' came crashing down. But, strangest of all, the very instant the
shore was touched, an immense dog sprang up on deck from below,as if shot
up by the concussion, and running forward, jumped from the bow on the
sand.
Making straight for the steep cliff, where the churchyard hangs over the
laneway to the East Pier so steeply that some of the flat
tombstones, thruffsteans or through-stones, as they call them in Whitby
vernacular, actually project over where the sustaining cliff has fallen
away, it disappeared in the darkness, which seemed intensified just
beyond the focus of the searchlight.
It so happened that there was no one at the moment on Tate Hill Pier, as
all those whose houses are in close proximity were either in bed or were out
on the heights above. Thus the coastguard on duty on the eastern side of the
harbour, who at once ran down to the little pier, was the first to climb
aboard. The men working the searchlight, after scouring the entrance of
the harbour without seeing anything, then turned the light on the derelict
and kept it there. The coastguard ran aft, and when he came beside the
wheel, bent over to examine it,and recoiled at once as though under some
sudden emotion. This seemed to pique general curiosity, and quite a
number of people began to run.
It is a good way round from the West Cliff by the Draw-bridge to
Tate Hill Pier, but your correspondent is a fairly good runner, and came well
ahead of the crowd. When I arrived, however, I found already assembled
on the pier a crowd, whom the coastguard and police refused to allow to come
on board. By the courtesy of the chief boatman, I was, as your
correspondent, permitted to climb on deck, and was one of a small group who
saw the dead seaman whilst actually lashed to the wheel.
It was no wonder that the coastguard was surprised, or even awed, for
not often can such a sight have been seen. The man was simply fastened by his
hands, tied one over the other, to a spoke of the wheel. Between the
inner hand and the wood was a crucifix, the set of beads on which it was
fastened being around both wrists and wheel, and all kept fast by the binding
cords. The poor fellow may have been seated at one time, but the
flapping and buffeting of the sails had worked through the rudder of the
wheel and had dragged him to and fro, so that the cords with which he was
tied had cut the flesh to the bone.
Accurate note was made of the state of things, and a doctor, Surgeon J.
M. Caffyn, of 33, East Elliot Place, who came immediately after me, declared,
after making examination, that the man must have been dead for quite two
days.
In his pocket was a bottle, carefully corked, empty save for a
little roll of paper, which proved to be the addendum to the log.
The coastguard said the man must have tied up his own hands, fastening
the knots with his teeth. The fact that a coastguard was the first on
board may save some complications later on, in the Admiralty Court, for
coastguards cannot claim the salvage which is the right of the first civilian
entering on a derelict. Already, however, the legal tongues are wagging, and
one young law student is loudly asserting that the rights of the owner are
already completely sacrificed, his property being held in contravention of
the statues of mortmain, since the tiller, as emblemship, if not proof, of
delegated possession, is held in a dead hand.
It is needless to say that the dead steersman has been reverently
removed from the place where he held his honourable watch and ward till
death, a steadfastness as noble as that of the young Casabianca, and
placed in the mortuary to await inquest.
Already the sudden storm is passing,and its fierceness is
abating. Crowds are scattering backward, and the sky is beginning to
redden over the Yorkshire wolds.
I shall send, in time for your next issue, further details of the
derelict ship which found her way so miraculously into harbour in the
storm.
9 August.—The sequel to the strange arrival of the derelict in the
storm last night is almost more startling than the thing itself. It turns out
that the schooner is Russian from Varna, and is called the Demeter. She
is almost entirely in ballast of silver sand, with only a small amount of
cargo, a number of great wooden boxes filled with mould.
This cargo was consigned to a Whitby solicitor, Mr. S.F. Billington, of
7, The Crescent, who this morning went aboard and took formal possession of
the goods consigned to him.
The Russian consul, too, acting for the charter-party, took
formal possession of the ship, and paid all harbour dues, etc.
Nothing is talked about here today except the strange coincidence. The
officials of the Board of Trade have been most exacting in seeing that every
compliance has been made with existing regulations. As the matter is to be a
`nine days wonder', they are evidently determined that there shall be no
cause of other complaint.
A good deal of interest was abroad concerning the dog which landed when
the ship struck, and more than a few of the members of the S.P.C.A., which is
very strong in Whitby, have tried to befriend the animal. To the general
disappointment, however, it was not to be found. It seems to have disappeared
entirely from the town. It may be that it was frightened and made its way on
to the moors, where it is still hiding in terror.
There are some who look with dread on such a possibility, lest later on
it should in itself become a danger, for it is evidently a fierce
brute. Early this morning a large dog, a half-bred mastiff belonging to
a coal merchant close to Tate Hill Pier, was found dead in the roadway
opposite its master's yard. It had been fighting, and manifestly had had a
savage opponent, for its throat was torn away, and its belly was slit
open as if with a savage claw.
Later.—By the kindness of the Board of Trade inspector, I have been
permitted to look over the log book of the Demeter, which was in order up to
within three days, but contained nothing of special interest except as to
facts of missing men. The greatest interest, however, is with regard to the
paper found in the bottle, which was today produced at the inquest. And a
more strange narrative than the two between them unfold it has not been my
lot to come across.
As there is no motive for concealment, I am permitted to use them, and
accordingly send you a transcript, simply omitting technical details of
seamanship and supercargo. It almost seems as though the captain had been
seized with some kind of mania before he had got well into blue water, and
that this had developed persistently throughout the voyage. Of course my
statement must be taken cum grano, since I am writing from the dictation of a
clerk of the Russian consul, who kindly translated for me, time being
short.
LOG OF THE "DEMETER" Varna to Whitby
Written 18 July, things so strange happening, that I shall
keep accurate note henceforth till we land.
On 6 July we finished taking in cargo, silver sand and boxes of
earth. At noon set sail. East wind, fresh. Crew, five hands. .
.two mates, cook, and myself, (captain).
On 11 July at dawn entered Bosphorus. Boarded by
Turkish Customs officers. Backsheesh. All correct. Under
way at 4 p. m.
On 12 July through Dardanelles. More Customs officers and
flagboat of guarding squadron. Backsheesh again. Work of officers
thorough, but quick. Want us off soon. At dark passed into
Archipelago.
On 13 July passed Cape Matapan. Crew dissatisfied about
something. Seemed scared, but would not speak out.
On 14 July was somewhat anxious about crew. Men all steady
fellows, who sailed with me before. Mate could not make out what was
wrong. They only told him there was SOMETHING, and crossed
themselves. Mate lost temper with one of them that day and struck
him. Expected fierce quarrel, but all was quiet.
On 16 July mate reported in the morning that one of the crew,
Petrofsky, was missing. Could not account for it. Took larboard
watch eight bells last night, was relieved by Amramoff, but did not go to
bunk. Men more downcast than ever. All said they expected
something of the kind, but would not say more than there was SOMETHING
aboard. Mate getting very impatient with them. Feared some trouble
ahead.
On 17 July, yesterday, one of the men, Olgaren, came to my
cabin, and in an awestruck way confided to me that he thought there was a
strange man aboard the ship. He said that in his watch he had been
sheltering behind the deckhouse, as there was a rain storm, when he saw a
tall, thin man, who was not like any of the crew, come up the
companionway, and go along the deck forward and disappear. He followed
cautiously, but when he got to bows found no one, and the hatchways were all
closed. He was in a panic of superstitious fear, and I am afraid the
panic may spread. To allay it, I shall today search the entire ship
carefully from stem to stern.
Later in the day I got together the whole crew, and told them, as
they evidently thought there was some one in the ship, we would search from
stem to stern. First mate angry, said it was folly, and to yield to
such foolish ideas would demoralise the men, said he would engage to keep
them out of trouble with the handspike. I let him take the helm, while the
rest began a thorough search, all keeping abreast, with lanterns. We
left no corner unsearched. As there were only the big wooden boxes, there
were no odd corners where a man could hide. Men much relieved when
search over, and went back to work cheerfully. First mate scowled, but
said nothing.
22 July.—Rough weather last three days, and all hands busy with
sails, no time to be frightened. Men seem to have forgotten their
dread. Mate cheerful again, and all on good terms. Praised men for
work in bad weather. Passed Gibraltar and out through Straits.
All well.
24 July.—There seems some doom over this ship. Already a hand
short, and entering the Bay of Biscay with wild weather ahead, and yet last
night another man lost, disappeared. Like the first, he came off his watch
and was not seen again. Men all in a panic of fear, sent a round robin,
asking to have double watch, as they fear to be alone. Mate
angry. Fear there will be some trouble, as either he or the men will do
some violence.
28 July.—Four days in hell, knocking about in a sort of
malestrom, and the wind a tempest. No sleep for any one. Men all
worn out. Hardly know how to set a watch, since no one fit to go
on. Second mate volunteered to steer and watch, and let men snatch a
few hours sleep. Wind abating, seas still terrific, but feel them
less, as ship is steadier.
29 July.—Another tragedy. Had single watch tonight, as crew
too tired to double. When morning watch came on deck could find no one
except steersman. Raised outcry, and all came on deck. Thorough
search, but no one found. Are now without second mate, and crew in a
panic. Mate and I agreed to go armed henceforth and wait for any sign of
cause.
30 July.—Last night. Rejoiced we are nearing England. Weather
fine, all sails set. Retired worn out, slept soundly, awakened by mate
telling me that both man of watch and steersman missing. Only self and mate
and two hands left to work ship.
1 August.—Two days of fog, and not a sail sighted. Had hoped
when in the English Channel to be able to signal for help or get in
somewhere. Not having power to work sails, have to run before wind. Dare
not lower, as could not raise them again. We seem to be drifting to
some terrible doom. Mate now more demoralised than either of men. His
stronger nature seems to have worked inwardly against himself. Men are beyond
fear, working stolidly and patiently, with minds made up to worst. They
are Russian, he Roumanian.
2 August, midnight.—Woke up from few minutes sleep by hearing a
cry, seemingly outside my port. Could see nothing in fog. Rushed on
deck, and ran against mate. Tells me he heard cry and ran, but no sign
of man on watch. One more gone. Lord, help us! Mate says we must
be past Straits of Dover, as in a moment of fog lifting he saw North
Foreland, just as he heard the man cry out. If so we are now off in the North
Sea, and only God can guide us in the fog, which seems to move with us, and
God seems to have deserted us.
3 August.—At midnight I went to relieve the man at the wheel and
when I got to it found no one there. The wind was steady, and as we ran
before it there was no yawing. I dared not leave it, so shouted for the
mate. After a few seconds, he rushed up on deck in his flannels. He looked
wild-eyed and haggard, and I greatly fear his reason has given way. He
came close to me and whispered hoarsely, with his mouth to my ear, as though
fearing the very air might hear. "It is here. I know it now. On
the watch last night I saw It, like a man, tall and thin, and ghastly
pale. It was in the bows, and looking out. I crept behind It, and
gave it my knife, but the knife went through It, empty as the air." And as
he spoke he took the knife and drove it savagely into space. Then he went on,
"But It is here, and I'll find It. It is in the hold, perhaps in one of those
boxes. I'll unscrew them one by one and see. You work the helm." And
with a warning look and his finger on his lip, he went below. There was
springing up a choppy wind, and I could not leave the helm. I saw him
come out on deck again with a tool chest and lantern, and go down the forward
hatchway. He is mad, stark, raving mad, and it's no use my trying to stop
him. He can't hurt those big boxes, they are invoiced as clay, and to pull
them about is as harmless a thing as he can do. So here I stay and mind the
helm, and write these notes. I can only trust in God and wait till the fog
clears. Then, if I can't steer to any harbour with the wind that is, I
shall cut down sails, and lie by, and signal for help. . .
It is nearly all over now. Just as I was beginning to hope that
the mate would come out calmer, for I heard him knocking away at something in
the hold, and work is good for him, there came up the hatchway a sudden,
startled scream, which made my blood run cold, and up on the deck he came as
if shot from a gun, a raging madman, with his eyes rolling and his face
convulsed with fear. "Save me! Save me!" he cried, and then looked
round on the blanket of fog. His horror turned to despair, and in a steady
voice he said, "You had better come too, captain, before it is too
late. He is there! I know the secret now. The sea will save me
from Him, and it is all that is left!" Before I could say a word, or
move forward to seize him, he sprang on the bulwark and deliberately threw
himself into the sea. I suppose I know the secret too, now. It was this
madman who had got rid of the men one by one, and now he has followed them
himself. God help me! How am I to account for all these horrors when I
get to port? When I get to port! Will that ever be?
4 August.—Still fog, which the sunrise cannot pierce, I know there
is sunrise because I am a sailor, why else I know not. I dared not go below,
I dared not leave the helm, so here all night I stayed, and in the dimness of
the night I saw it, Him! God, forgive me, but the mate was right to jump
overboard. It was better to die like a man. To die like a sailor in
blue water, no man can object. But I am captain, and I must not leave
my ship. But I shall baffle this fiend or monster, for I shall tie
my hands to the wheel when my strength begins to fail, and along with them
I shall tie that which He, It, dare not touch. And then, come good wind or
foul, I shall save my soul, and my honour as a captain. I am growing
weaker, and the night is coming on. If He can look me in the face again, I
may not have time to act. . . If we are wrecked, mayhap this bottle may be
found, and those who find it may understand. If not. .
.well, then all men shall know that I have been true to my trust. God and
the Blessed Virgin and the Saints help a poor ignorant soul trying to do his
duty. . .
Of course the verdict was an open one. There is no evidence to
adduce, and whether or not the man himself committed the murders there is
now none to say. The folk here hold almost universally that the captain
is simply a hero, and he is to be given a public funeral. Already it is
arranged that his body is to be taken with a train of boats up the Esk for a
piece and then brought back to Tate Hill Pier and up the abbey steps, for he
is to be buried in the churchyard on the cliff. The owners of more than a
hundred boats have already given in their names as wishing to follow him to
the grave.
No trace has ever been found of the great dog, at which there is much
mourning, for, with public opinion in its present state, he would, I believe,
be adopted by the town. Tomorrow will see the funeral, and so will end this
one more `mystery of the sea'.
MINA MURRAY'S JOURNAL
8 August.—Lucy was very restless all night, and I too, could not
sleep. The storm was fearful, and as it boomed loudly among the chimney
pots, it made me shudder. When a sharp puff came it seemed to be like a
distant gun. Strangely enough, Lucy did not wake, but she got up twice
and dressed herself. Fortunately, each time I awoke in time and
managed to undress her without waking her, and got her back to bed. It is
a very strange thing, this sleep-walking, for as soon as her will is thwarted
in any physical way, her intention, if there be any, disappears, and she
yields herself almost exactly to the routine of her life.
Early in the morning we both got up and went down to the harbour to see
if anything had happened in the night. There were very few people about, and
though the sun was bright, and the air clear and fresh, the big, grim-looking
waves, that seemed dark themselves because the foam that topped them was
like snow, forced themselves in through the mouth of the harbour, like a
bullying man going through a crowd. Somehow I felt glad that Jonathan was not
on the sea last night, but on land. But, oh, is he on land or
sea? Where is he, and how? I am getting fearfully anxious about
him. If I only knew what to do, and could do anything!
10 August.—The funeral of the poor sea captain today was most
touching. Every boat in the harbour seemed to be there, and the coffin was
carried by captains all the way from Tate Hill Pier up to the
churchyard. Lucy came with me, and we went early to our old seat, whilst the
cortege of boats went up the river to the Viaduct and came down again. We
had a lovely view, and saw the procession nearly all the way. The poor fellow
was laid to rest near our seat so that we stood on it, when the time came and
saw everything.
Poor Lucy seemed much upset. She was restless and uneasy all the
time, and I cannot but think that her dreaming at night is telling on
her. She is quite odd in one thing. She will not admit to me that there
is any cause for restlessness, or if there be, she does not understand it
herself.
There is an additional cause in that poor Mr. Swales was found dead this
morning on our seat, his neck being broken. He had evidently, as the doctor
said, fallen back in the seat in some sort of fright, for there was a look of
fear and horror on his face that the men said made them shudder. Poor dear
old man!
Lucy is so sweet and sensitive that she feels influences more
acutely than other people do. Just now she was quite upset by a little
thing which I did not much heed, though I am myself very fond of
animals.
One of the men who came up here often to look for the boats was followed
by his dog. The dog is always with him. They are both quiet
persons, and I never saw the man angry, nor heard the dog bark. During the
service the dog would not come to its master, who was on the seat with us,
but kept a few yards off, barking and howling. Its master spoke to it gently,
and then harshly, and then angrily. But it would neither come nor cease to
make a noise. It was in a fury, with its eyes savage, and all its hair
bristling out like a cat's tail when puss is on the war path.
Finally the man too got angry, and jumped down and kicked the dog, and
then took it by the scruff of the neck and half dragged and half threw it on
the tombstone on which the seat is fixed. The moment it touched the stone the
poor thing began to tremble. It did not try to get away, but crouched down,
quivering and cowering, and was in such a pitiable state of terror that I
tried, though without effect, to comfort it.
Lucy was full of pity, too, but she did not attempt to touch the
dog, but looked at it in an agonised sort of way. I greatly fear that
she is of too super sensitive a nature to go through the world without
trouble. She will be dreaming of this tonight, I am sure. The whole
agglomeration of things, the ship steered into port by a dead man, his
attitude, tied to the wheel with a crucifix and beads, the touching funeral,
the dog, now furious and now in terror, will all afford material for her
dreams.
I think it will be best for her to go to bed tired out physically, so
I shall take her for a long walk by the cliffs to Robin Hood's Bay and
back. She ought not to have much inclination for sleep-walking then.
CHAPTER 8
MINA MURRAY'S JOURNAL
Same day, 11 o'clock P.M.—Oh, but I am tired! If it were
not that I had made my diary a duty I should not open it tonight. We had a
lovely walk. Lucy, after a while, was in gay spirits, owing, I think,
to some dear cows who came nosing towards us in a field close to the
lighthouse, and frightened the wits out of us. I believe we forgot
everything, except of course, personal fear, and it seemed to wipe the slate
clean and give us a fresh start. We had a capital `severe tea' at Robin
Hood's Bay in a sweet little old-fashioned inn, with a bow window right over
the seaweed-covered rocks of the strand. I believe we should have
shocked the `New Woman' with our appetites. Men are more tolerant,
bless them! Then we walked home with some, or rather many, stoppages to
rest, and with our hearts full of a constant dread of wild bulls.
Lucy was really tired, and we intended to creep off to bed as soon as we
could. The young curate came in, however, and Mrs. Westenra asked him
to stay for supper. Lucy and I had both a fight for it with the dusty
miller. I know it was a hard fight on my part, and I am quite heroic. I
think that some day the bishops must get together and see about breeding up a
new class of curates, who don't take supper, no matter how hard they may be
pressed to, and who will know when girls are tired.
Lucy is asleep and breathing softly. She has more color in her
cheeks than usual, and looks, oh so sweet. If Mr. Holmwood fell in love with
her seeing her only in the drawing room, I wonder what he would say if he saw
her now. Some of the `New Women' writers will some day start an idea that
men and women should be allowed to see each other asleep before proposing or
accepting. But I suppose the `New Woman' won't condescend in future to
accept. She will do the proposing herself. And a nice job she
will make of it too! There's some consolation in that. I am so happy
tonight, because dear Lucy seems better. I really believe she has
turned the corner, and that we are over her troubles with dreaming. I
should be quite happy if I only knew if Jonathan. . .God bless and keep
him.
11 August.—Diary again. No sleep now, so I may as well
write. I am too agitated to sleep. We have had such an
adventure, such an agonizing experience. I fell asleep as soon as I had
closed my diary. . . Suddenly I became broad awake, and sat up, with
a horrible sense of fear upon me, and of some feeling of emptiness around
me. The room was dark, so I could not see Lucy's bed. I stole across
and felt for her. The bed was empty. I lit a match and found that she
was not in the room. The door was shut, but not locked, as I had left
it. I feared to wake her mother, who has been more than usually ill
lately, so threw on some clothes and got ready to look for her. As I was
leaving the room it struck me that the clothes she wore might give me some
clue to her dreaming intention. Dressing-gown would mean house, dress
outside. Dressing-gown and dress were both in their places. "Thank God," I
said to myself, "she cannot be far, as she is only in her nightdress."
I ran downstairs and looked in the sitting room. Not there! Then I
looked in all the other rooms of the house, with an ever-growing fear
chilling my heart. Finally, I came to the hall door and found it open. It
was not wide open, but the catch of the lock had not caught. The people of
the house are careful to lock the door every night, so I feared that Lucy
must have gone out as she was. There was no time to think of what might
happen. A vague over-mastering fear obscured all details.
I took a big, heavy shawl and ran out. The clock was striking one
as I was in the Crescent, and there was not a soul in sight. I ran along the
North Terrace, but could see no sign of the white figure which I
expected. At the edge of the West Cliff above the pier I looked across
the harbour to the East Cliff, in the hope or fear, I don't know which, of
seeing Lucy in our favorite seat.
There was a bright full moon, with heavy black, driving clouds, which
threw the whole scene into a fleeting diorama of light and shade as they
sailed across. For a moment or two I could see nothing, as the shadow
of a cloud obscured St. Mary's Church and all around it. Then as the cloud
passed I could see the ruins of the abbey coming into view, and as the edge
of a narrow band of light as sharp as a sword-cut moved along, the church and
churchyard became gradually visible. Whatever my expectation was, it
was not disappointed, for there, on our favorite seat, the silver light of
the moon struck a half-reclining figure, snowy white. The coming of the cloud
was too quick for me to see much, for shadow shut down on light almost
immediately, but it seemed to me as though something dark stood behind the
seat where the white figure shone, and bent over it. What it was, whether man
or beast, I could not tell.
I did not wait to catch another glance, but flew down the steep steps
to the pier and along by the fish-market to the bridge, which was the only
way to reach the East Cliff. The town seemed as dead, for not a soul
did I see. I rejoiced that it was so, for I wanted no witness of poor Lucy's
condition. The time and distance seemed endless, and my knees trembled and my
breath came laboured as I toiled up the endless steps to the abbey. I
must have gone fast, and yet it seemed to me as if my feet were weighted with
lead, and as though every joint in my body were rusty.
When I got almost to the top I could see the seat and the white figure,
for I was now close enough to distinguish it even through the spells of
shadow. There was undoubtedly something, long and black, bending over
the half-reclining white figure. I called in fright, "Lucy! Lucy!" and
something raised a head, and from where I was I could see a white face and
red, gleaming eyes.
Lucy did not answer, and I ran on to the entrance of the churchyard. As
I entered, the church was between me and the seat, and for a minute or so I
lost sight of her. When I came in view again the cloud had passed, and
the moonlight struck so brilliantly that I could see Lucy half reclining with
her head lying over the back of the seat. She was quite alone, and there was
not a sign of any living thing about.
When I bent over her I could see that she was still asleep. Her lips
were parted, and she was breathing, not softly as usual with her, but in
long, heavy gasps, as though striving to get her lungs full at every
breath. As I came close, she put up her hand in her sleep and pulled
the collar of her nightdress close around her, as though she felt the
cold. I flung the warm shawl over her, and drew the edges tight around her
neck, for I dreaded lest she should get some deadly chill from the night air,
unclad as she was. I feared to wake her all at once, so, in order to
have my hands free to help her, I fastened the shawl at her throat with a big
safety pin. But I must have been clumsy in my anxiety and pinched or
pricked her with it, for by-and-by, when her breathing became quieter, she
put her hand to her throat again and moaned. When I had her carefully wrapped
up I put my shoes on her feet, and then began very gently to wake her.
At first she did not respond, but gradually she became more and more
uneasy in her sleep, moaning and sighing occasionally. At last, as time was
passing fast, and for many other reasons, I wished to get her home at once, I
shook her forcibly, till finally she opened her eyes and awoke. She did
not seem surprised to see me, as, of course, she did not realize all at
once where she was.
Lucy always wakes prettily, and even at such a time, when her body must
have been chilled with cold, and her mind somewhat appalled at waking unclad
in a churchyard at night, she did not lose her grace. She trembled a little,
and clung to me. When I told her to come at once with me home, she rose
without a word, with the obedience of a child. As we passed along, the gravel
hurt my feet, and Lucy noticed me wince. She stopped and wanted to insist
upon my taking my shoes, but I would not. However, when we got to the pathway
outside the chruchyard, where there was a puddle of water, remaining from the
storm, I daubed my feet with mud, using each foot in turn on the other, so
that as we went home, no one, in case we should meet any one, should notice
my bare feet.
Fortune favoured us, and we got home without meeting a soul. Once we
saw a man, who seemed not quite sober, passing along a street in front of
us. But we hid in a door till he had disappeared up an opening such as
there are here, steep little closes, or `wynds', as they call them in
Scotland. My heart beat so loud all the time sometimes I thought I should
faint. I was filled with anxiety about Lucy, not only for her health, lest
she should suffer from the exposure, but for her reputation in case the story
should get wind. When we got in, and had washed our feet, and had said
a prayer of thankfulness together, I tucked her into bed. Before falling
asleep she asked, even implored, me not to say a word to any one, even her
mother, about her sleep-walking adventure.
I hesitated at first, to promise, but on thinking of the state of
her mother's health, and how the knowledge of such a thing would fret
her, and think too, of how such a story might become distorted,
nay, infallibly would, in case it should leak out, I thought it wiser to do
so. I hope I did right. I have locked the door, and the key is tied to
my wrist, so perhaps I shall not be again disturbed. Lucy is sleeping
soundly. The reflex of the dawn is high and far over the sea. . .
Same day, noon.—All goes well. Lucy slept till I woke her and
seemed not to have even changed her side. The adventure of the night
does not seem to have harmed her, on the contrary, it has benefited
her, for she looks better this morning than she has done for weeks. I was
sorry to notice that my clumsiness with the safety-pin hurt her. Indeed, it
might have been serious, for the skin of her throat was pierced. I must have
pinched up a piece of loose skin and have transfixed it, for there are two
little red points like pin-pricks, and on the band of her nightdress was a
drop of blood. When I apologised and was concerned about it, she
laughed and petted me, and said she did not even feel it. Fortunately it
cannot leave a scar, as it is so tiny.
Same day, night.—We passed a happy day. The air was
clear, and the sun bright, and there was a cool breeze. We took our
lunch to Mulgrave Woods, Mrs. Westenra driving by the road and Lucy and I
walking by the cliff-path and joining her at the gate. I felt a little sad
myself, for I could not but feel how absolutely happy it would have been had
Jonathan been with me. But there! I must only be patient. In the
evening we strolled in the Casino Terrace, and heard some good music by
Spohr and Mackenzie, and went to bed early. Lucy seems more
restful than she has been for some time, and fell asleep at once. I shall
lock the door and secure the key the same as before, though I do not expect
any trouble tonight.
12 August.—My expectations were wrong, for twice during the night
I was wakened by Lucy trying to get out. She seemed, even in her
sleep, to be a little impatient at finding the door shut, and went back to
bed under a sort of protest. I woke with the dawn, and heard the birds
chirping outside of the window. Lucy woke, too, and I was glad to see,
was even better than on the previous morning. All her old gaiety of manner
seemed to have come back, and she came and snuggled in beside me and told me
all about Arthur. I told her how anxious I was about Jonathan, and then she
tried to comfort me. Well, she succeeded somewhat, for, though
sympathy can't alter facts, it can make them more bearable.
13 August.—Another quiet day, and to bed with the key on my wrist
as before. Again I awoke in the night, and found Lucy sitting up in
bed, still asleep, pointing to the window. I got up quietly, and pulling
aside the blind, looked out. It was brilliant moonlight, and the soft effect
of the light over the sea and sky, merged together in one great silent
mystery, was beautiful beyond words. Between me and the moonlight
flitted a great bat, coming and going in great whirling circles. Once or
twice it came quite close, but was, I suppose, frightened at seeing me, and
flitted away across the harbour towards the abbey. When I came back
from the window Lucy had lain down again, and was sleeping peacefully. She
did not stir again all night.
14 August.—On the East Cliff, reading and writing all day. Lucy
seems to have become as much in love with the spot as I am, and it is hard to
get her away from it when it is time to come home for lunch or tea or
dinner. This afternoon she made a funny remark. We were coming home for
dinner, and had come to the top of the steps up from the West Pier and
stopped to look at the view, as we generally do. The setting sun, low down in
the sky, was just dropping behind Kettleness. The red light was thrown over
on the East Cliff and the old abbey, and seemed to bathe everything in a
beautiful rosy glow. We were silent for a while, and suddenly Lucy
murmured as if to herself. . .
"His red eyes again! They are just the same." It was such
an odd expression, coming apropos of nothing, that it quite startled me. I
slewed round a little, so as to see Lucy well without seeming to stare at
her, and saw that she was in a half dreamy state, with an odd look on her
face that I could not quite make out, so I said nothing, but followed her
eyes. She appeared to be looking over at our own seat, whereon was a
dark figure seated alone. I was quite a little startled myself, for it seemed
for an instant as if the stranger had great eyes like burning flames, but
a second look dispelled the illusion. The red sunlight was shining on
the windows of St. Mary's Church behind our seat, and as the sun dipped there
was just sufficient change in the refraction and reflection to make it appear
as if the light moved. I called Lucy's attention to the peculiar effect, and
she became herself with a start, but she looked sad all the same. It may
have been that she was thinking of that terrible night up there. We never
refer to it, so I said nothing, and we went home to dinner. Lucy had a
headache and went early to bed. I saw her asleep, and went out for a
little stroll myself.
I walked along the cliffs to the westward, and was full of sweet
sadness, for I was thinking of Jonathan. When coming home, it was then
bright moonlight, so bright that, though the front of our part of the
Crescent was in shadow, everything could be well seen, I threw a glance up at
our window, and saw Lucy's head leaning out. I opened my handkerchief
and waved it. She did not notice or make any movement whatever. Just
then, the moonlight crept round an angle of the building, and the
light fell on the window. There distinctly was Lucy with her
head lying up against the side of the window sill and her eyes shut. She
was fast asleep, and by her, seated on the window sill, was something that
looked like a good-sized bird. I was afraid she might get a chill, so I ran
upstairs, but as I came into the room she was moving back to her bed, fast
asleep, and breathing heavily. She was holding her hand to her
throat, as though to protect if from the cold.
I did not wake her, but tucked her up warmly. I have taken
care that the door is locked and the window securely fastened.
She looks so sweet as she sleeps, but she is paler than is her wont, and
there is a drawn, haggard look under her eyes which I do not like. I fear she
is fretting about something. I wish I could find out what it is.
15 August.—Rose later than usual. Lucy was languid and tired,
and slept on after we had been called. We had a happy surprise at
breakfast. Arthur's father is better, and wants the marriage to come off
soon. Lucy is full of quiet joy, and her mother is glad and sorry at
once. Later on in the day she told me the cause. She is grieved to lose
Lucy as her very own, but she is rejoiced that she is soon to have some one
to protect her. Poor dear, sweet lady! She confided to me that
she has got her death warrant. She has not told Lucy, and made me
promise secrecy. Her doctor told her that within a few months, at most, she
must die, for her heart is weakening. At any time, even now, a sudden
shock would be almost sure to kill her. Ah, we were wise to keep from
her the affair of the dreadful night of Lucy's sleep-walking.
17 August.—No diary for two whole days. I have not had the heart
to write. Some sort of shadowy pall seems to be coming over our
happiness. No news from Jonathan, and Lucy seems to be growing
weaker, whilst her mother's hours are numbering to a close. I do not
understand Lucy's fading away as she is doing. She eats well and sleeps
well, and enjoys the fresh air, but all the time the roses in her
cheeks are fading, and she gets weaker and more languid day by day. At
night I hear her gasping as if for air.
I keep the key of our door always fastened to my wrist at night, but she
gets up and walks about the room, and sits at the open window. Last night I
found her leaning out when I woke up, and when I tried to wake her I could
not.
She was in a faint. When I managed to restore her, she was weak as
water, and cried silently between long, painful struggles for breath. When
I asked her how she came to be at the window she shook her head and turned
away.
I trust her feeling ill may not be from that unlucky prick of the
safety-pin. I looked at her throat just now as she lay asleep, and the tiny
wounds seem not to have healed. They are still open, and, if anything, larger
than before, and the edges of them are faintly white. They are like
little white dots with red centres. Unless they heal within a day or
two, I shall insist on the doctor seeing about them.
LETTER, SAMUEL F. BILLINGTON & SON, SOLICITORS WHITBY, TO
MESSRS. CARTER, PATERSON & CO., LONDON.
17 August
"Dear Sirs,—"Herewith please receive invoice of goods sent by Great
Northern Railway. Same are to be delivered at Carfax, near Purfleet,
immediately on receipt at goods station King's Cross. The house is at present
empty, but enclosed please find keys, all of which are labelled.
"You will please deposit the boxes, fifty in number, which form the
consignment, in the partially ruined building forming part of the house and
marked `A' on rough diagrams enclosed. Your agent will easily recognize the
locality, as it is the ancient chapel of the mansion. The goods leave
by the train at 9:30 tonight, and will be due at King's Cross at 4:30
tomorrow afternoon. As our client wishes the delivery made as soon as
possible, we shall be obliged by your having teams ready at King's Cross
at the time named and forthwith conveying the goods to destination. In
order to obviate any delays possible through any routine requirements as to
payment in your departments, we enclose cheque herewith for ten pounds,
receipt of which please acknowledge. Should the charge be less than this
amount, you can return balance, if greater, we shall at once send cheque for
difference on hearing from you. You are to leave the keys on coming
away in the main hall of the house, where the proprietor may get them on his
entering the house by means of his duplicate key.
"Pray do not take us as exceeding the bounds of business courtesy in
pressing you in all ways to use the utmost expedition.
"We are, dear Sirs, "Faithfully yours, "SAMUEL F. BILLINGTON &
SON"
LETTER, MESSRS. CARTER, PATERSON & CO., LONDON, TO
MESSRS. BILLINGTON & SON, WHITBY.
21 August.
"Dear Sirs,—"We beg to acknowledge 10 pounds received and to return cheque
of 1 pound, 17s, 9d, amount of overplus, as shown in receipted account
herewith. Goods are delivered in exact accordance with instructions, and keys
left in parcel in main hall, as directed.
"We are, dear Sirs, "Yours respectfully, "Pro CARTER, PATERSON &
CO."
MINA MURRAY'S JOURNAL.
18 August.—I am happy today, and write sitting on the seat in the
churchyard. Lucy is ever so much better. Last night she slept
well all night, and did not disturb me once.
The roses seem coming back already to her cheeks, though she is still
sadly pale and wan-looking. If she were in any way anemic I could understand
it, but she is not. She is in gay spirits and full of life and
cheerfulness. All the morbid reticence seems to have passed from her, and
she has just reminded me, as if I needed any reminding, of that night, and
that it was here, on this very seat, I found her asleep.
As she told me she tapped playfully with the heel of her boot on the
stone slab and said,
"My poor little feet didn't make much noise then! I daresay poor old Mr.
Swales would have told me that it was because I didn't want to wake up
Geordie."
As she was in such a communicative humour, I asked her if she had
dreamed at all that night.
Before she answered, that sweet, puckered look came into her forehead,
which Arthur, I call him Arthur from her habit, says he loves, and indeed, I
don't wonder that he does. Then she went on in a half-dreaming kind of way,
as if trying to recall it to herself.
"I didn't quite dream, but it all seemed to be real. I only wanted to be
here in this spot. I don't know why, for I was afraid of something, I
don't know what. I remember, though I suppose I was asleep, passing
through the streets and over the bridge. A fish leaped as I went by, and I
leaned over to look at it, and I heard a lot of dogs howling. The whole
town seemed as if it must be full of dogs all howling at once, as I went up
the steps. Then I had a vague memory of something long and dark with red
eyes, just as we saw in the sunset, and something very sweet and very
bitter all around me at once. And then I seemed sinking into deep green
water, and there was a singing in my ears, as I have heard there is
to drowning men, and then everything seemed passing away from me. My soul
seemed to go out from my body and float about the air. I seem to remember
that once the West Lighthouse was right under me, and then there was a sort
of agonizing feeling, as if I were in an earthquake, and I came back and
found you shaking my body. I saw you do it before I felt you."
Then she began to laugh. It seemed a little uncanny to me, and I
listened to her breathlessly. I did not quite like it, and thought it
better not to keep her mind on the subject, so we drifted on to another
subject, and Lucy was like her old self again. When we got home the fresh
breeze had braced her up, and her pale cheeks were really more rosy.
Her mother rejoiced when she saw her, and we all spent a very happy evening
together.
19 August.—Joy, joy, joy! Although not all joy. At last,
news of Jonathan. The dear fellow has been ill, that is why he did not
write. I am not afraid to think it or to say it, now that I know. Mr.
Hawkins sent me on the letter, and wrote himself, oh so kindly. I am to leave
in the morning and go over to Jonathan, and to help to nurse him if
necessary, and to bring him home. Mr. Hawkins says it would not be a
bad thing if we were to be married out there. I have cried over the good
Sister's letter till I can feel it wet against my bosom, where it lies.
It is of Jonathan, and must be near my heart, for he is in my heart. My
journey is all mapped out, and my luggage ready. I am only taking one change
of dress. Lucy will bring my trunk to London and keep it till I send
for it, for it may be that. . .I must write no more. I must keep it to
say to Jonathan, my husband. The letter that he has seen and touched must
comfort me till we meet.
LETTER, SISTER AGATHA, HOSPITAL OF ST. JOSEPH AND STE. MARY
BUDA-PESTH, TO MISS WILLHELMINA MURRAY
12 August,
"Dear Madam.
"I write by desire of Mr. Jonathan Harker, who is himself not strong
enough to write, though progressing well, thanks to God and St. Joseph and
Ste. Mary. He has been under our care for nearly six weeks,
suffering from a violent brain fever. He wishes me to convey his love, and to
say that by this post I write for him to Mr. Peter Hawkins, Exeter, to say,
with his dutiful respects, that he is sorry for his delay, and that all of
his work is completed. He will require some few weeks' rest in our
sanatorium in the hills, but will then return. He wishes me to say that he
has not sufficient money with him, and that he would like to pay for his
staying here, so that others who need shall not be wanting for belp.
Believe me,
Yours, with sympathy
and all blessings. Sister Agatha"
"P.S.—My patient being asleep, I open this to let you know something
more. He has told me all about you, and that you are shortly to be his
wife. All blessings to you both! He has had some fearful shock, so says
our doctor, and in his delirium his ravings have been dreadful, of wolves and
poison and blood, of ghosts and demons, and I fear to say of what. Be
careful of him always that there may be nothing to excite him of this kind
for a long time to come. The traces of such an illness as his do not
lightly die away. We should have written long ago, but we knew nothing of his
friends, and there was nothing on him, nothing that anyone could
understand. He came in the train from Klausenburg, and the guard was told by
the station master there that he rushed into the station shouting for a
ticket for home. Seeing from his violent demeanor that he was English, they
gave him a ticket for the furthest station on the way thither that the train
reached.
"Be assured that he is well cared for. He has won all hearts by
his sweetness and gentleness. He is truly getting on well, and I have
no doubt will in a few weeks be all himself. But be careful of him for
safety's sake. There are, I pray God and St. Joseph and Ste.
Mary, many, many, happy years for you both."
DR. SEWARD'S DIARY
19 Agust.—Strange and sudden change in Renfield last night. About
eight o'clock he began to get excited and sniff about as a dog does when
setting. The attendant was struck by his manner, and knowing my
interest in him, encouraged him to talk. He is usually respectful to the
attendant and at times servile, but tonight, the man tells me, he was quite
haughty. Would not condescend to talk with him at all.
All he would say was, "I don't want to talk to you. You don't count
now. The master is at hand."
The attendant thinks it is some sudden form of religious mania which has
seized him. If so, we must look out for squalls, for a strong man with
homicidal and religious mania at once might be dangerous. The combination is
a dreadful one.
At Nine o'clock I visited him myself. His attitude to me was the same
as that to the attendant. In his sublime self-feeling the difference
between myself and the attendant seemed to him as nothing. It looks
like religious mania, and he will soon think that he himself is God.
These infinitesimal distinctions between man and man are too paltry for
an Omnipotent Being. How these madmen give themselves away! The real
God taketh heed lest a sparrow fall. But the God created from human
vanity sees no difference between an eagle and a sparrow. Oh, if men only
knew!
For half an hour or more Renfield kept getting excited in greater
and greater degree. I did not pretend to be watching him, but I kept
strict observation all the same. All at once that shifty look came into
his eyes which we always see when a madman has seized an idea, and with it
the shifty movement of the head and back which asylum attendants come to know
so well. He became quite quiet, and went and sat on the edge of his bed
resignedly, and looked into space with lack-luster eyes.
I thought I would find out if his apathy were real or only assumed, and
tried to lead him to talk of his pets, a theme which had never failed to
excite his attention.
At first he made no reply, but at length said testily, "Bother them
all! I don't care a pin about them."
"What" I said. "You don't mean to tell me you don't care about
spiders?" (Spiders at present are his hobby and the notebook is filling up
with columns of small figures.)
To this he answered enigmatically, "The Bride maidens rejoice the
eyes that wait the coming of the bride. But when the bride draweth
nigh, then the maidens shine not to the eyes that are filled."
He would not explain himself, but remained obstinately seated on his bed
all the time I remained with him.
I am weary tonight and low in spirits. I cannot but think of Lucy,
and how different things might have been. If I don't sleep at once, chloral,
the modern Morpheus! I must be careful not to let it grow into a
habit. No, I shall take none tonight! I have thought of Lucy, and I
shall not dishonour her by mixing the two. If need by, tonight shall be
sleepless.
Later.—Glad I made the resolution, gladder that I kept to it. I had
lain tossing about, and had heard the clock strike only twice, when the night
watchman came to me, sent up from the ward, to say that Renfield had
escaped. I threw on my clothes and ran down at once. My patient is too
dangerous a person to be roaming about. Those ideas of his might work out
dangerously with strangers.
The attendant was waiting for me. He said he had seen him not ten
minutes before, seemingly asleep in his bed, when he had looked through the
observation trap in the door. His attention was called by the sound of
the window being wrenched out. He ran back and saw his feet disappear through
the window, and had at once sent up for me. He was only in his night
gear, and cannot be far off.
The attendant thought it would be more useful to watch where he should
go than to follow him, as he might lose sight of him whilst getting out of
the building by the door. He is a bulky man, and couldn't get through the
window.
I am thin, so, with his aid, I got out, but feet foremost, and as we
were only a few feet above ground landed unhurt.
The attendant told me the patient had gone to the left, and had taken a
straight line, so I ran as quickly as I could. As I got through the belt of
trees I saw a white figure scale the high wall which separates our grounds
from those of the deserted house.
I ran back at once, told the watchman to get three or four men immediately
and follow me into the grounds of Carfax, in case our friend might be
dangerous. I got a ladder myself, and crossing the wall, dropped down on the
other side. I could see Renfield's figure just disappearing behind the angle
of the house, so I ran after him. On the far side of the house I found
him pressed close against the old iron-bound oak door of the chapel.
He was talking, apparently to some one, but I was afraid to go
near enough to hear what he was saying, les t I might frighten him, and he
should run off.
Chasing an errant swarm of bees is nothing to following a naked lunatic,
when the fit of escaping is upon him! After a few minutes, however, I could
see that he did not take note of anything around him, and so ventured to draw
nearer to him, the more so as my men had now crossed the wall and were
closing him in. I heard him say. . .
"I am here to do your bidding, Master. I am your slave, and you
will reward me, for I shall be faithful. I have worshipped you long and
afar off. Now that you are near, I await your commands, and you will not pass
me by, will you, dear Master, in your distribution of good things?"
He is a selfish old beggar anyhow. He thinks of the loaves and
fishes even when he believes his is in a real Presence. His manias make a
startling combination. When we closed in on him he fought like a
tiger. He is immensely strong, for he was more like a wild beast than a
man.
I never saw a lunatic in such a paroxysm of rage before, and I hope I
shall not again. It is a mercy that we have found out his strength and
his danger in good time. With strength and determination like his, he might
have done wild work before he was caged.
He is safe now, at any rate. Jack Sheppard himself couldn't get
free from the strait waistcoat that keeps him restrained, and he's chained to
the wall in the padded room.
His cries are at times awful, but the silences that follow are
more deadly still, for he means murder in every turn and movement.
Just now he spoke coherent words for the first time. "I shall be
patient, Master. It is coming, coming, coming!"
So I took the hint, and came too. I was too excited to sleep, but
this diary has quieted me, and I feel I shall get some sleep tonight.
CHAPTER 9
LETTER, MINA HARKER TO LUCY WESTENRA
Buda-Pesth, 24 August.
"My dearest Lucy,
"I know you will be anxious to hear all that has happened since
we parted at the railway station at Whitby.
"Well, my dear, I got to Hull all right, and caught the boat to Hamburg,
and then the train on here. I feel that I can hardly recall anything of
the journey, except that I knew I was coming to Jonathan, and that as I
should have to do some nursing, I had better get all the sleep I could. I
found my dear one, oh, so thin and pale and weak-looking. All the resolution
has gone out of his dear eyes, and that quiet dignity which I told you was in
his face has vanished. He is only a wreck of himself, and he does not
remember anything that has happened to him for a long time past. At least,
he wants me to believe so, and I shall never ask.
"He has had some terrible shock, and I fear it might tax his poor brain
if he were to try to recall it. Sister Agatha, who is a good creature and a
born nurse, tells me that he wanted her to tell me what they were, but she
would only cross herself, and say she would never tell. That the ravings of
the sick were the secrets of God, and that if a nurse through her vocation
should hear them, she should respect her trust..
"She is a sweet, good soul, and the next day, when she saw I was
troubled, she opened up the subject my poor dear raved about, added, `I can
tell you this much, my dear. That it was not about anything which he has done
wrong himself, and you, as his wife to be, have no cause to be
concerned. He has not forgotten you or what he owes to you. His fear was
of great and terrible things, which no mortal can treat of.'
"I do believe the dear soul thought I might be jealous lest my poor dear
should have fallen in love with any other girl. The idea of my being jealous
about Jonathan! And yet, my dear, let me whisper, I felt a thrill of
joy through me when I knew that no other woman was a cause for trouble.
I am now sitting by his bedside, where I can see his face while he
sleeps. He is waking!
"When he woke he asked me for his coat, as he wanted to get
something from the pocket. I asked Sister Agatha, and she brought all
his things. I saw amongst them was his notebook, and was was going to ask him
to let me look at it, for I knew that I might find some clue to his
trouble, but I suppose he must have seen my wish in my eyes, for he sent
me over to the window, saying he wanted to be quite alone for a moment.
"Then he called me back, and he said to me very solemnly, `Wilhelmina',
I knew then that he was in deadly earnest, for he has never called me by that
name since he asked me to marry him, `You know, dear, my ideas of the trust
between husband and wife. There should be no secret, no concealment. I
have had a great shock, and when I try to think of what it is I feel my head
spin round, and I do not know if it was real of the dreaming of a
madman. You know I had brain fever, and that is to be mad. The secret is
here, and I do not want to know it. I want to take up my life here, with our
marriage.' For, my dear, we had decided to be married as soon as the
formalities are complete. `Are you willing, Wilhelmina, to share my
ignorance? Here is the book. Take it and keep it, read it if you
will, but never let me know unless, indeed, some solemn duty should come
upon me to go back to the bitter hours, asleep or awake, sane or mad,
recorded here.' He fell back exhausted, and I put the book under his
pillow, and kissed him. have asked Sister Agatha to beg the Superior to let
our wedding be this afternoon, and am waiting her reply. . ."
"She has come and told me that the Chaplain of the English
mission church has been sent for. We are to be married in an
hour, or as soon after as Jonathan awakes."
"Lucy, the time has come and gone. I feel very solemn, but
very, very happy. Jonathan woke a little after the hour, and all was
ready, and he sat up in bed, propped up with pillows. He answered his `I
will' firmly and strong. I could hardly speak. My heart was so full
that even those words seemed to choke me.
"The dear sisters were so kind. Please, God, I shall never, never
forget them, nor the grave and sweet responsibilities I have taken upon
me. I must tell you of my wedding present. When the chaplain and the
sisters had left me alone with my husband— oh, Lucy, it is the first time I
have written the words `my husband'— left me alone with my husband, I took
the book from under his pillow, and wrapped it up in white paper, and tied it
with a little bit of pale blue ribbon which was round my neck, and sealed it
over the knot with sealing wax, and for my seal I used my wedding
ring. Then I kissed it and showed it to my husband, and told him that I
would keep it so, and then it would be an outward and visible sign for us all
our lives that we trusted each other, that I would never open it unless it
were for his own dear sake or for the sake of some stern duty. Then he
took my hand in his, and oh, Lucy, it was the first time he took his wifes'
hand, and said that it was the dearest thing in all the wide world, and
that he would go through all the past again to win it, if need be. The
poor dear meant to have said a part of the past, but he cannot think of time
yet, and I shall not wonder if at first he mixes up not only the month, but
the year.
"Well, my dear, could I say? I could only tell him that I was the
happiest woman in all the wide world, and that I had nothing to give him
except myself, my life, and my trust, and that with these went my love and
duty for all the days of my life. And, my dear, when he kissed me, and
drew me to him with his poor weak hands, it was like a solemn pledge between
us.
"Lucy dear, do you know why I tell you all this? It is not only
because it is all sweet to me, but because you have been, and are, very dear
to me. It was my privilege to be your friend and guide when you came
from the schoolroom to prepare for the world of life. I want you to see
now, and with the eyes of a very happy wife, whither duty has led me, so
that in your own married life you too may be all happy, as I am. My dear,
please Almighty God, your life may be all it promises, a long day of
sunshine, with no harsh wind, no forgetting duty, no distrust. I must not
wish you no pain, for that can never be, but I do hope you will be always as
happy as I am now. Goodbye, my dear. I shall post this at once, and
perhaps, write you very soon again. I must stop, for Jonathan is
waking. I must attend my husband!
"Your ever-loving "Mina Harker."
LETTER, LUCY WESTENRA TO MINA HARKER.
Whitby, 30 August.
"My dearest Mina,
"Oceans of love and millions of kisses, and may you soon be in your own
home with your husband. I wish you were coming home soon enough to stay
with us here. The strong air would soon restore Jonathan. It has
quite restored me. I have an appetite like a cormorant, am full of
life, and sleep well. You will be glad to know that I have quite given
up walking in my sleep. I think I have not stirred out of my bed for a week,
that is when I once got into it at night. Arthur says I am getting
fat. By the way, I forgot to tell you that Arthur is here. We have such
walks and drives, and rides, and rowing, and tennis, and fishing together,
and I love him more than ever. He tells me that he loves me more, but I doubt
that, for at first he told me that he couldn't love me more than he did
then. But this is nonsense. There he is, calling to me. So no more
just at present from your loving,
"Lucy.
"P.S.—Mother sends her love. She seems better, poor dear.
"P.P.S.—We are to be married on 28 September."
DR. SEWARDS DIARY
20 August.—The case of Renfield grows even more interesting. He has
now so far quieted that there are spells of cessation from his passion.
For the first week after his attack he was perpetually violent. Then
one night, just as the moon rose, he grew quiet, and kept murmuring to
himself. "Now I can wait. Now I can wait."
The attendant came to tell me, so I ran down at once to have a look at
him. He was still in the strait waistcoat and in the padded room, but the
suffused look had gone from his face, and his eyes had something of their old
pleading. I might almost say, cringing, softness. I was satisfied
with his present condition, and directed him to be relieved. The attendants
hesitated, but finally carried out my wishes without protest.
It was a strange thing that the patient had humour enough to see their
distrust, for, coming close to me, he said in a whisper, all the while
looking furtively at them, "They think I could hurt you! Fancy me hurting
you! The fools!"
It was soothing, somehow, to the feelings to find myself disassociated
even in the mind of this poor madman from the others, but all the same I do
not follow his thought. Am I to take it that I have anything in common with
him, so that we are, as it were, to stand together. Or has he to gain
from me some good so stupendous that my well being is needful to Him? I
must find out later on. Tonight he will not speak. Even the offer of a
kitten or even a full-grown cat will not tempt him.
He will only say, "I don't take any stock in cats. I have more to think
of now, and I can wait. I can wait."
After a while I left him. The attendant tells me that he was quiet
until just before dawn, and that then he began to get uneasy, and at length
violent, until at last he fell into a paroxysm which exhausted him so that he
swooned into a sort of coma.
. . . Three nights has the same thing happened, violent all day then
quiet from moonrise to sunrise. I wish I could get some clue to the
cause. It would almost seem as if there was some influence which came and
went. Happy thought! We shall tonight play sane wits against mad
ones. He escaped before without our help. Tonight he shall escape with
it. We shall give him a chance, and have the men ready to follow in
case they are required.
23 August.—"The expected always happens." How well Disraeli knew
life. Our bird when he found the cage open would not fly, so all
our subtle arrangements were for nought. At any rate, we have
proved one thing, that the spells of quietness last a reasonable time. We
shall in future be able to ease his bonds for a few hours each day. I have
given orders to the night attendant merely to shut him in the padded room,
when once he is quiet, until the hour before sunrise. The poor soul's body
will enjoy the relief even if his mind cannot appreciate it.
Hark! The unexpected again! I am called. The patient has once
more escaped.
Later.—Another night adventure. Renfield artfully
waited until the attendant was entering the room to inspect. Then he
dashed out past him and flew down the passage. I sent word for the attendants
to follow. Again he went into the grounds of the deserted house, and we
found him in the same place, pressed against the old chapel door. When he
saw me he became furious, and had not the attendants seized him in time, he
would have tried to kill me. As we sere holding him a strange thing
happened. He suddenly redoubled his efforts, and then as suddenly grew
calm. I looked round instinctively, but could see nothing. Then I caught
the patient's eye and followed it, but could trace nothing as it looked into
the moonlight sky, except a big bat, which was flapping its silent and
ghostly way to the west. Bats usually wheel about, but this one seemed to go
straight on, as if it knew where it was bound for or had some intention of
its own.
The patient grew calmer every instant, and presently said, "You needn't
tie me. I shall go quietly!" Without trouble, we came back to the
house. I feel there is something ominous in his calm, and shall not
forget this night.
LUCY WESTENRA'S DIARY
Hillingham, 24 August.—I must imitate Mina, and keep writing things
down. Then we can have long talks when we do meet. I wonder when
it will be. I wish she were with me again, for I feel so
unhappy. Last night I seemed to be dreaming again just as I was at
Whitby. Perhaps it is the change of air, or getting home again. It is all
dark and horrid to me, for I can remember nothing. But I am full of vague
fear, and I feel so weak and worn out. When Arthur came to lunch he looked
quite grieved when he saw me, and I hadn't the spirit to try to be
cheerful. I wonder if I could sleep in mother's room tonight. I
shall make an excuse to try.
25 August.—Another bad night. Mother did not seem to take to my
proposal. She seems not too well herself, and doubtless she fears to worry
me. I tried to keep awake, and succeeded for a while, but when the clock
struck twelve it waked me from a doze, so I must have been falling
asleep. There was a sort of scratching or flapping at the window, but I did
not mind it, and as I remember no more, I suppose I must have fallen
asleep. More bad dreams. I wish I could remember them. This
morning I am horribly weak. My face is ghastly pale, and my throat
pains me. It must be something wrong with my lungs, for I don't seem to be
getting air enough. I shall try to cheer up when Arthur comes, or else
I know he will be miserable to see me so.
LETTER, ARTHUR TO DR. SEWARD
"Albemarle Hotel, 31 August "My dear Jack,
"I want you to do me a favour. Lucy is ill, that is she has no
special disease, but she looks awful, and is getting worse every day. I
have asked her if there is any cause, I not dare to ask her mother, for to
disturb the poor lady's mind about her daughter in her present state of
health would be fatal. Mrs. Westenra has confided to me that her doom is
spoken, disease of the heart, though poor Lucy does not know it yet. I am
sure that there is something preying on my dear girl's mind. I am almost
distracted when I think of her. To look at her gives me a pang. I
told her I should ask you to see her, and though she demurred at first, I
know why, old fellow, she finally consented. It will be a painful task for
you, I know, old friend, but it is for her sake, and I must not hesitate to
ask, or you to act. You are to come to lunch at Hillingham tomorrow, two
o'clock, so as not to arouse any suspicion in Mrs. Westenra, and
after lunch Lucy will take an opportunity of being alone with you. I am
filled with anxiety, and want to consult with you alone as soon as I can
after you have seen her. Do not fail!
"Arthur."
TELEGRAM, ARTHUR HOLMWOOD TO SEWARD
1 September
"Am summoned to see my father, who is worse. Am writing. Write
me fully by tonight's post to Ring. Wire me if necessary."
LETTER FROM DR. SEWARD TO ARTHUR HOLMWOOD
2 September
"My dear old fellow,
"With regard to Miss Westenra's health I hasten to let you know at once
that in my opinion there is not any functal disturbance or any malady that I
know of. At the same time, I am not by any means satisfied with her
appearance. She is woefully different from what she was when I saw her
last. Of course you must bear in mind that I did not have full
opportunity of examination such as I should wish. Our very friendship
makes a little difficulty which not even medical science or custom can
bridge over. I had better tell you exactly what happened, leaving you
to draw, in a measure, your own conclusions. I shall then say what I have
done and propose doing.
"I found Miss Westenra in seemingly gay spirits. Her mother was
present, and in a few seconds I made up my mind that she was trying all
she knew to mislead her mother and prevent her from being anxious. I have
no doubt she guesses, if she does not know, what need of caution there
is.
"We lunched alone, and as we all exerted ourselves to be cheerful, we
got, as some kind of reward for our labours, some real cheerfulness amongst
us. Then Mrs. Westenra went to lie down, and Lucy was left with me. We
went into her boudoir, and till we got there her gaiety remained, for the
servants were coming and going.
"As soon as the door was closed, however, the mask fell from her face, and
she sank down into a chair with a great sigh, and hid her eyes with her
hand. When I saw that her high spirits had failed, I at once took advantage
of her reaction to make a diagnosis.
"She said to me very sweetly, `I cannot tell you how I loathe talking
about myself.' I reminded her that a doctor's confidence was sacred,
but that you were grievously anxious about her. She caught on to my meaning
at once, and settled that matter in a word. `Tell Arthur everything you
choose. I do not care for myself, but for him!' So I am quite
free.
"I could easily see that she was somewhat bloodless, but I could not see
the usual anemic signs, and by the chance , I was able to test the actual
quality of her blood, for in opening a window which was stiff a cord gave
way, and she cut her hand slightly with broken glass. It was a slight matter
in itself, but it gave me an evident chance, and I secured a few drops of the
blood and have analysed them.
"The qualitative analysis give a quite normal condition, and shows, I
should infer, in itself a vigorous state of health. In other physical matters
I was quite satisfied that there is no need for anxiety, but as there must be
a cause somewhere, I have come to the conclusion that it must be something
mental.
"She complains of difficulty breathing satisfactorily at times, and of
heavy, lethargic sleep, with dreams that frighten her, but regarding which
she can remember nothing. She says that as a child, she used to walk in
her sleep, and that when in Whitby the habit came back, and that once she
walked out in the night and went to East Cliff, where Miss Murray found
her. But she assures me that of late the habit has not returned.
"I am in doubt, and so have done the best thing I know of. I have
written to my old friend and master, Professor Van Helsing, of Amsterdam, who
knows as much about obscure diseases as any one in the world. I have
asked him to come over, and as you told me that all things were to be at your
charge, I have mentioned to him who you are and your relations to Miss
Westenra. This, my dear fellow, is in obedience to your wishes, for I am
only too proud and happy to do anything I can for her.
"Van Helsing would, I know, do anything for me for a personal reason, so
no matter on what ground he comes, we must accept his wishes. He is a
seemingly arbitrary man, this is because he knows what he is talking about
better than any one else. He is a philosopher and a metaphysician, and
one of the most advanced scientists of his day, and he has, I believe, an
absolutely open mind. This, with an iron nerve, a temper of the
ice-brook, and indomitable resolution, self-command, and toleration exalted
from virtues to blessings, and the kindliest and truest heart that beats,
these form his equipment for the noble work that he is doing for mankind,
work both in theory and practice, for his views are as wide as his
all-embracing sympathy. I tell you these facts that you may know why I have
such confidence in him. I have asked him to come at once. I shall see
Miss Westenra tomorrow again. She is to meet me at the Stores, so that I may
not alarm her mother by too early a repetition of my call.
"Yours always."
John Seward
LETTER, ABRAHAM VAN HELSING, MD, DPh, D. LiT, ETC, ETC, TO DR.
SEWARD
2 September.
"My good Friend,
"When I received your letter I am already coming to you. By good
fortune I can leave just at once, without wrong to any of those who have
trusted me. Were fortune other, then it were bad for those who have
trusted, for I come to my friend when he call me to aid those he holds
dear. Tell your friend that when that time you suck from my wound so
swiftly the poison of the gangrene from that knife that our other
friend, too nervous, let slip, you did more for him when he wants my aids and
you call for them than all his great fortune could do. But it is
pleasure added to do for him, your friend, it is to you that I come.
Have near at hand, and please it so arrange that we may see the young lady
not too late on tomorrow, for it is likely that I may have to return here
that night. But if need be I shall come again in three days, and stay longer
if it must. Till then goodbye, my friend John.
"Van Helsing."
LETTER, DR. SEWARD TO HON. ARTHUR HOLMWOOD
3 September
"My dear Art,
"Van Helsing has come and gone. He came on with me to
Hillingham, and found that, by Lucy's discretion, her mother was lunching
out, so that we were alone with her.
"Van Helsing made a very careful examination of the patient. He is to
report to me, and I shall advise you, for of course I was not present all the
time. He is, I fear, much concerned, but says he must think. When
I told him of our friendship and how you trust to me in the matter, he said,
`You must tell him all you think. Tell him him what I think, if you can guess
it, if you will. Nay, I am not jesting. This is no jest, but life
and death, perhaps more.' I asked what he meant by that, for he was very
serious. This was when we had come back to town, and he was having a cup of
tea before starting on his return to Amsterdam. He would not give
me any further clue. You must not be angry with me, Art, because
his very reticence means that all his brains are working for her good. He
will speak plainly enough when the time comes, be sure. So I told him I would
simply write an account of our visit, just as if I were doing a descriptive
special article for THE DAILY TELEGRAPH. He seemed not to notice, but
remarked that the smuts of London were not quite so bad as they used to be
when he was a student here. I am to get his report tomorrow if he can
possibly make it. In any case I am to have a letter.
"Well, as to the visit, Lucy was more cheerful than on the day I first
saw her, and certainly looked better. She had lost something of the ghastly
look that so upset you, and her breathing was normal. She was very
sweet to the Professor (as she always is), and tried to make him feel at
ease, though I could see the poor girl was making a hard struggle for
it.
"I believe Van Helsing saw it, too, for I saw the quick look under
his bushy brows that I knew of old. Then he began to chat of all
things except ourselves and diseases and with such an infinite
geniality that I could see poor Lucy's pretense of animation merge into
reality. Then, without any seeming change, he brought the conversation
gently round to his visit, and sauvely said,
"`My dear young miss, I have the so great pleasure because you are so
much beloved. That is much, my dear, even were there that which I do
not see. They told me you were down in the spirit, and that you were of
a ghastly pale. To them I say "Pouf!" ' And he snapped his fingers at
me and went on. `But you and I shall show them how wrong they are. How
can he', and he pointed at me with the same look and gesture as that with
which he pointed me out in his class, on, or rather after, a particular
occasion which he never fails to remind me of, `know anything of a young
ladies? He has his madmen to play with, and to bring them back to
happiness, and to those that love them. It is much to do, and, oh, but there
are rewards in that we can bestow such happiness. But the young
ladies! He has no wife nor daughter, and the young do not tell
themselves to the young, but to the old, like me, who have known so many
sorrows and the causes of them. So, my dear, we will send him away to smoke
the cigarette in the garden, whiles you and I have little talk all to
ourselves.' I took the hint, and strolled about, and presently the
professor came to the window and called me in. He looked grave, but
said, ` I have made careful examination, but there is no functional
cause. With you I agree that there has been much blood lost, it has
been but is not. But the conditions of her are in no way anemic. I
have asked her to send me her maid, that I may ask just one or two questions,
that so I may not chance to miss nothing. I know well what she will
say. And yet there is cause. There is always cause for
everything. I must go back home and think. You must send me the
telegram every day, and if there be cause I shall come again. The
disease, for not to be well is a disease, interest me, and the sweet, young
dear, she interest me too. She charm me, and for her, if not for you or
disease, I come.'
"As I tell you, he would not say a word more, even when we were
alone. And so now, Art, you know all I know. I shall keep stern
watch. I trust your poor father is rallying. It must be a
terrible thing to you, my dear old fellow, to be placed in such a
position between two people who are both so dear to you. I know
your idea of duty to your father, and you are right to stick to it. But if
need be, I shall send you word to come at once to Lucy, so do not be
over-anxious unless you hear from me."
DR. SEWARD'S DIARY
4 September.—Zoophagous patient still keeps up our interest in
him. He had only one outburst and that was yesterday at an unusual
time. Just before the stroke of noon he began to grow restless. The
attendant knew the symptoms, and at once summoned aid. Fortunately the men
came at a run, and were just in time, for at the stroke of noon he became so
violent that it took all their strength to hold him. In about five minutes,
however, he began to get more quiet, and finally sank into a sort of
melancholy, in which state he has remained up to now. The attendant
tells me that his screams whilst in the paroxysm were really appalling.
I found my hands full when I got in, attending to some of the other patients
who were frightened by him. Indeed, I can quite understand the
effect, for the sounds disturbed even me, though I was some distance
away. It is now after the dinner hour of the asylum, and as yet my patient
sits in a corner brooding, with a dull, sullen, woe-begone look in his
face, which seems rather to indicate than to show something directly. I
cannot quite understand it.
Later.—Another change in my patient. At five o'clock I looked in
on him, and found him seemingly as happy and contented as he used to
be. He was catching flies and eating them, and was keeping note of his
capture by making nailmarks on the edge of the door between the ridges of
padding. When he saw me, he came over and apologized for his bad
conduct, and asked me in a very humble, cringing way to be led back to his
own room, and to have his notebook again. I thought it well to humour
him, so he is back in his room with the window open. He has the sugar
of his tea spread out on the window sill, and is reaping quite a harvest of
flies. He is not now eating them, but putting them into a box, as of
old, and is already examining the corners of his room to find a spider. I
tried to get him to talk about the past few days, for any clue to his
thoughts would be of immense help to me, but he would not rise. For a moment
or two he looked very sad, and said in a sort of far away voice, as though
saying it rather to himself than to me.
"All over! All over! He has deserted me. No hope for me
now unless I do it myself!" Then suddenly turning to me in a resolute
way, he said, "Doctor, won't you be very good to me and let me have a little
more sugar? I think it would be very good for me."
"And the flies?" I said.
"Yes! The flies like it, too, and I like the flies, therefore I like
it."And there are people who know so little as to think that madmen do not
argue. I procured him a double supply, and left him as happy a man as, I
suppose, any in the world. I wish I could fathom his mind.
Midnight.—Another change in him. I had been to see Miss
Westenra, whom I found much better, and had just returned, and was standing
at our own gate looking at the sunset, when once more I heard him
yelling. As his room is on this side of the house, I could hear it
better than in the morning. It was a shock to me to turn from the
wonderful smoky beauty of a sunset over London, with its lurid lights and
inky shadows and all the marvellous tints that come on foul clouds even as on
foul water, and to realize all the grim sternness of my own cold stone
building, with its wealth of breathing misery, and my own desolate heart to
endure it all. I reached him just as the sun was going down, and from
his window saw the red disc sink. As it sank he became less and less
frenzied, and just as it dipped he slid from the hands that held him, an
inert mass, on the floor. It is wonderful, however, what intellectual
recuperative power lunatics have, for within a few minutes he stood up
quite calmly and looked around him. I signalled to the
attendants not to hold him, for I was anxious to see what he would do. He
went straight over to the window and brushed out the crumbs of sugar. Then he
took his fly box, and emptied it outside, and threw away the box. Then he
shut the window, and crossing over, sat down on his bed. All this surprised
me, so I asked him, "Are you going to keep flies any more?"
"No," said he. "I am sick of all that rubbish!" He certainly is a
wonderfully interesting study. I wish I could get some glimpse of his mind or
of the cause of his sudden passion. Stop. There may be a clue
after all, if we can find why today his paroxysms came on at high noon and at
sunset. Can it be that there is a malign influence of the sun at
periods which affects certain natures, as at times the moon does
others? We shall see.
TELEGRAM. SEWARD, LONDON, TO VAN HELSING, AMSTERDAM
"4 September.—Patient still better today."
TELEGRAM, SEWARD, LONDON, TO VAN HELSING, AMSTERDAM
"5 September.—Patient greatly improved. Good appetite, sleeps
naturally, good spirits, color coming back."
TELEGRAM, SEWARD, LONDON, TO VAN HELSING, AMSTERDAM
"6 September.—Terrible change for the worse. Come at once. Do
not lose an hour. I hold over telegram to Holmwood till have seen
you."
CHAPTER 10
LETTER, DR. SEWARD TO HON. ARTHUR HOLMWOOD
6 September
"My dear Art,
"My news today is not so good. Lucy this morning had gone back a
bit. There is, however, one good thing which has arisen from it. Mrs.
Westenra was naturally anxious concerning Lucy, and has consulted me
professionally about her. I took advantage of the opportunity, and told
her that my old master, Van Helsing, the great specialist, was coming to stay
with me, and that I would put her in his charge conjointly with myself.
So now we can come and go without alarming her unduly, for a shock to her
would mean sudden death, and this, in Lucy's weak condition, might be
disastrous to her. We are hedged in with difficulties, all of us, my poor
fellow, but, please God, we shall come through them all right. If any need
I shall write, so that, if you do not hear from me, take it for granted that
I am simply waiting for news, In haste,
"Yours ever,"
John Seward
DR. SEWARD'S DIARY
7 September.—The first thing Van Helsing said to me when we met at
Liverpool Street was, "Have you said anything to our young friend, to lover
of her?"
"No," I said. "I waited till I had seen you, as I said in my
telegram. I wrote him a letter simply telling him that you were coming, as
Miss Westenra was not so well, and that I should let him know if need
be."
"Right, my friend," he said. "Quite right! Better he not know
as yet. Perhaps he will never know. I pray so, but if it be
needed, then he shall know all. And, my good friend John, let me
caution you. You deal with the madmen. All men are mad in some way
or the other, and inasmuch as you deal discreetly with your madmen, so
deal with God's madmen too, the rest of the world. You tell not your madmen
what you do nor why you do it. You tell them not what you think.
So you shall keep knowledge in its place, where it may rest, where it may
gather its kind around it and breed. You and I shall keep as yet what we know
here, and here." He touched me on the heart and on the forehead, and then
touched himself the same way. "I have for myself thoughts at the
present. Later I shall unfold to you."
"Why not now?" I asked. "It may do some good. We may arrive
at some decision."He looked at me and said, "My friend John, when the corn is
grown, even before it has ripened, while the milk of its mother earth is in
him, and the sunshine has not yet begun to paint him with his gold, the
husbandman he pull the ear and rub him between his rough hands, and blow away
the green chaff, and say to you, 'Look! He's good corn, he will make a good
crop when the time comes.' "
I did not see the application and told him so. For reply he
reached over and took my ear in his hand and pulled it playfully, as he
used long ago to do at lectures, and said, "The good husbandman tell you so
then because he knows, but not till then. But you do not find the good
husbandman dig up his planted corn to see if he grow. That is for the
children who play at husbandry, and not for those who take it as of the work
of their life. See you now, friend John? I have sown my corn, and
Nature has her work to do in making it sprout, if he sprout at
all, there's some promise, and I wait till the ear begins to swell." He
broke off, for he evidently saw that I understood. Then he went on gravely,
"You were always a careful student, and your case book was ever more full
than the rest. And I trust that good habit have not fail. Remember, my
friend, that knowledge is stronger than memory, and we should not
trust the weaker. Even if you have not kept the good practice, let
me tell you that this case of our dear miss is one that may be, mind, I say
may be, of such interest to us and others that all the rest may not make him
kick the beam, as your people say. Take then good note of it. Nothing
is too small. I counsel you, put down in record even your doubts and
surmises. Hereafter it may be of interest to you to see how true you
guess. We learn from failure, not from success!"
When I described Lucy's symptoms, the same as before, but infinitely
more marked, he looked very grave, but said nothing. He took with him a bag
in which were many instruments and drugs, "the ghastly paraphernalia of our
beneficial trade," as he once called, in one of his lectures, the
equipment of a professor of the healing craft.
When we were shown in, Mrs. Westenra met us. She was alarmed, but
not nearly so much as I expected to find her. Nature in one of her
beneficient moods has ordained that even death has some antidote to its own
terrors. Here, in a case where any shock may prove fatal, matters are
so ordered that, from some cause or other, the things not personal, even the
terrible change in her daughter to whom she is so attached, do not seem to
reach her. It is something like the way dame Nature gathers round a
foreign body an envelope of some insensitive tissue which can protect from
evil that which it would otherwise harm by contact. If this be an ordered
selfishness, then we should pause before we condemn any one for the vice of
egoism, for there may be deeper root for its causes than we have knowledge
of.
I used my knowledge of this phase of spiritual pathology, and set down a
rule that she should not be present with Lucy, or think of her illness more
than was absolutely required. She assented readily, so readily that I saw
again the hand of Nature fighting for life. Van Helsing and I were
shown up to Lucy's room. If I was shocked when I saw her
yesterday, I was horrified when I saw her today.
She was ghastly, chalkily pale. The red seemed to have gone even
from her lips and gums, and the bones of her face stood out
prominently. Her breathing was painful to see or hear. Van Helsing's
face grew set as marble, and his eyebrows converged till they almost touched
over his nose. Lucy lay motionless, and did not seem to have strength to
speak, so for a while we were all silent. Then Van Helsing beckoned to
me, and we went gently out of the room. The instant we had closed the
door he stepped quickly along the passage to the next door, which was
open. Then he pulled me quickly in with him and closed the door. "My god!"
he said. "This is dreadful. There is not time to be lost. She
will die for sheer want of blood to keep the heart's action as it should
be. There must be a transfusion of blood at once. Is it you or
me?"
"I am younger and stronger, Professor. It must be me."
"Then get ready at once. I will bring up my bag. I am
prepared."
I went downstairs with him, and as we were going there was a knock at
the hall door. When we reached the hall, the maid had just opened the
door, and Arthur was stepping quickly in. He rushed up to me, saying in an
eager whisper,
"Jack, I was so anxious. I read between the lines of your
letter, and have been in an agony. The dad was better, so I ran
down here to see for myself. Is not that gentleman Dr. Van
Helsing? I am so thankful to you, sir, for coming."
When first the Professor's eye had lit upon him, he had been angry at
his interruption at such a time, but now, as he took in his stalwart
proportions and recognized the strong young manhood which seemed to emanate
from him, his eyes gleamed. Without a pause he said to him as he held out his
hand,
"Sir, you have come in time. You are the lover of our dear
miss. She is bad, very, very bad. Nay, my child, do not go like
that."For he suddenly grew pale and sat down in a chair almost
fainting. "You are to help her. You can do more than any that
live, and your courage is your best help."
"What can I do?" asked Arthur hoarsely. "Tell me, and I shall do
it. My life is hers' and I would give the last drop of blood in my body for
her."
The Professor has a strongly humorous side, and I could from
old knowledge detect a trace of its origin in his answer.
"My young sir, I do not ask so much as that, not the last!"
"What shall I do?" There was fire in his eyes, and his open
nostrils quivered with intent. Van Helsing slapped him on the
shoulder.
"Come!" he said. "You are a man, and it is a man we want. You are
better than me, better than my friend John." Arthur looked bewildered, and
the Professor went on by explaining in a kindly way.
"Young miss is bad, very bad. She wants blood, and blood she must
have or die. My friend John and I have consulted, and we are about to
perform what we call transfusion of blood, to transfer from full veins of one
to the empty veins which pine for him. John was to give his blood, as he is
the more young and strong than me."—Here Arthur took my hand and wrung it
hard in silence.—"But now you are here, you are more good than us, old or
young, who toil much in the world of thought. Our nerves are not so calm and
our blood so bright than yours!"
Arthur turned to him and said, "If you only knew how gladly I would die
for her you would understand. . ." He stopped with a sort of choke in
his voice.
"Good boy!" said Van Helsing. "In the not-so-far-off you will be
happy that you have done all for her you love. Come now and be silent.
You shall kiss her once before it is done, but then you must go, and you must
leave at my sign. Say no word to Madame. You know how it is with
her. There must be no shock, any knowledge of this would be one.
Come!"
We all went up to Lucy's room. Arthur by direction remained
outside. Lucy turned her head and looked at us, but said nothing. She was
not asleep, but she was simply too weak to make the effort. Her eyes spoke to
us, that was all.
Van Helsing took some things from his bag and laid them on a
little table out of sight. Then he mixed a narcotic, and coming over
to the bed, said cheerily, "Now, little miss, here is your medicine. Drink
it off, like a good child. See, I lift you so that to swallow is
easy. Yes." She had made the effort with success.
It astonished me how long the drug took to act. This, in fact, marked
the extent of her weakness. The time seemed endless until sleep began
to flicker in her eyelids. At last, however, the narcotic began to manifest
its potency, and she fell into a deep sleep. When the Professor was
satisfied, he called Arthur into the room, and bade him strip off his
coat. Then he added, "You may take that one little kiss whiles I bring
over the table. Friend John, help to me!" So neither of us looked
whilst he bent over her.
Van Helsing, turning to me, said, "He is so young and strong, and of
blood so pure that we need not defibrinate it."
Then with swiftness, but with absolute method, Van Helsing performed the
operation. As the transfusion went on, something like life seemed to
come back to poor Lucy's cheeks, and through Arthur's growing pallor the joy
of his face seemed absolutely to shine. After a bit I began to grow anxious,
for the loss of blood was telling on Arthur, strong man as he was. It
gave me an idea of what a terrible strain Lucy's system must have undergone
that what weakened Arthur only partially restored her.
But the Professor's face was set, and he stood watch in hand, and with
his eyes fixed now on the patient and now on Arthur. I could hear my own
heart beat. Presently, he said in a soft voice, "Do not stir an
instant. It is enough. You attend him. I will look to her."
When all was over, I could see how much Arthur was weakened. I dressed
the wound and took his arm to bring him away, when Van Helsing spoke without
turning round, the man seems to have eyes in the back of his head, "The brave
lover, I think, deserve another kiss, which he shall have presently." And
as he had now finished his operation, he adjusted the pillow to the patient's
head. As he did so the narrow black velvet band which she seems always
to wear round her throat, buckled with an old diamond buckle which her lover
had given her, was dragged a little up, and showed a red mark on her
throat.
Arthur did not notice it, but I could hear the deep hiss of
indrawn breath which is one of Van Helsing's ways of betraying emotion. He
said nothing at the moment, but turned to me, saying, "Now take down
our brave young lover, give him of the port wine, and let him lie down a
while. He must then go home and rest, sleep much and eat much, that he may
be recruited of what he has so given to his love. He must not stay
here. Hold a moment! I may take it, sir, that you are anxious of
result. Then bring it with you, that in all ways the operation is
successful. You have saved her life this time, and you can go home and rest
easy in mind that all that can be is. I shall tell her all when she is
well. She shall love you none the less for what you have done.
Goodbye."
When Arthur had gone I went back to the room. Lucy was sleeping gently,
but her breathing was stronger. I could see the counterpane move as her
breast heaved. By the bedside sat Van Helsing, looking at her
intently. The velvet band again covered the red mark. I asked the
Professor in a whisper, "What do you make of that mark on her throat?"
"What do you make of it?"
"I have not examined it yet," I answered, and then and there proceeded
to loose the band. Just over the external jugular vein there were two
punctures, not large, but not wholesome looking. There was no sign of
disease, but the edges were white and worn looking, as if by some
trituration. It at once occurred to me that that this wound, or
whatever it was, might be the means of that manifest loss of blood. But I
abandoned the idea as soon as it formed, for such a thing could not be. The
whole bed would have been drenched to a scarlet with the blood which the girl
must have lost to leave such a pallor as she had before the
transfusion.
"Well?" said Van Helsing.
"Well," said I. "I can make nothing of it."
The Professor stood up. "I must go back to Amsterdam tonight," he
said "There are books and things there which I want. You must remain here all
night, and you must not let your sight pass from her."
"Shall I have a nurse?" I asked.
"We are the best nurses, you and I. You keep watch all night. See that
she is well fed, and that nothing disturbs her. You must not sleep all the
night. Later on we can sleep, you and I. I shall be back as soon as
possible. And then we may begin."
"May begin?" I said. "What on earth do you mean?"
"We shall see!" he answered, as he hurried out. He came back a moment
later and put his head inside the door and said with a warning finger held
up, "Remember, she is your charge. If you leave her, and harm
befall, you shall not sleep easy hereafter!"
DR. SEWARD'S DIARY—CONTINUED
8 September.—I sat up all night with Lucy. The opiate
worked itself off towards dusk, and she waked naturally. She
looked a different being from what she had been before the operation. Her
spirits even were good, and she was full of a happy vivacity, but I could see
evidences of the absolute prostration which she had undergone. When I told
Mrs. Westenra that Dr. Van Helsing had directed that I should sit up with
her, she almost pooh-poohed the idea, pointing out her daughter's renewed
strength and excellent spirits. I was firm, however, and made preparations
for my long vigil. When her maid had prepared her for the night I came in,
having in the meantime had supper, and took a seat by the bedside.
She did not in any way make objection, but looked at me gratefully
whenever I caught her eye. After a long spell she seemed sinking off to
sleep, but with an effort seemed to pull herself together and shook it
off. It was apparent that she did not want to sleep, so I tackled
the subject at once.
"You do not want to sleep?"
"No. I am afraid."
"Afraid to go to sleep! Why so? It is the boon we all crave
for."
"Ah, not if you were like me, if sleep was to you a presage of
horror!"
"A presage of horror! What on earth do you mean?"
"I don't know. Oh, I don't know. And that is what is so
terrible. All this weakness comes to me in sleep, until I dread the very
thought."
"But, my dear girl, you may sleep tonight. I am here watching
you, and I can promise that nothing will happen."
"Ah, I can trust you!" she said.
I seized the opportunity, and said, "I promise that if I see any
evidence of bad dreams I will wake you at once."
"You will? Oh, will you really? How good you are to me. Then
I will sleep!" And almost at the word she gave a deep sigh of relief,
and sank back, asleep.
All night long I watched by her. She never stirred, but slept on
and on in a deep, tranquil, life-giving, health-giving sleep. Her lips were
slightly parted, and her breast rose and fell with the regularity of a
pendulum. There was a smile on her face, and it was evident that no bad
dreams had come to disturb her peace of mind.
In the early morning her maid came, and I left her in her care and took
myself back home, for I was anxious about many things. I sent a short
wire to Van Helsing and to Arthur, telling them of the excellent result of
the operation. My own work, with its manifold arrears, took me all day to
clear off. It was dark when I was able to inquire about my zoophagous
patient. The report was good. He had been quite quiet for the past day
and night. A telegram came from Van Helsing at Amsterdam whilst I was at
dinner, suggesting that I should be at Hillingham tonight, as it might be
well to be at hand, and stating that he was leaving by the night mail and
would join me early in the morning.
9 September.—I was pretty tired and worn out when I got to
Hillingham. For two nights I had hardly had a wink of sleep, and my brain
was beginning to feel that numbness which marks cerebral exhaustion. Lucy
was up and in cheerful spirits. When she shook hands with me she looked
sharply in my face and said,
"No sitting up tonight for you. You are worn out. I am quite well
again. Indeed, I am, and if there is to be any sitting up, it is I who
will sit up with you."
I would not argue the point, but went and had my supper. Lucy came with
me, and, enlivened by her charming presence, I made an excellent meal, and
had a couple of glasses of the more than excellent port. Then Lucy took
me upstairs, and showed me a room next her own, where a cozy fire was
burning.
"Now," she said. "You must stay here. I shall leave this door
open and my door too. You can lie on the sofa for I know that nothing
would induce any of you doctors to go to bed whilst there is a patient above
the horizon. If I want anything I shall call out, and you can come to me at
once."
I could not but acquiesce, for I was dog tired, and could not have sat
up had I tried. So, on her renewing her promise to call me if she
should want anything, I lay on the sofa, and forgot all about
everything.
LUCY WESTENRA'S DIARY
9 September.—I feel so happy tonight. I have been so miserably
weak, that to be able to think and move about is like feeling sunshine
after a long spell of east wind out of a steel sky. Somehow Arthur feels
very, very close to me. I seem to feel his presence warm about
me. I suppose it is that sickness and weakness are selfish things and
turn our inner eyes and sympathy on ourselves, whilst health and strength
give love rein, and in thought and feeling he can wander where he wills. I
know where my thoughts are. If only Arthur knew! My dear, my dear, your
ears must tingle as you sleep, as mine do waking. Oh, the blissful rest
of last night! How I slept, with that dear, good Dr. Seward watching
me. And tonight I shall not fear to sleep, since he is close at hand and
within call. Thank everybody for being so good to me. Thank God!
Goodnight Arthur.
DR. SEWARD'S DIARY
10 September.—I was conscious of the Professor's hand on my head, and
started awake all in a second. That is one of the things that we learn
in an asylum, at any rate.
"And how is our patient?"
"Well, when I left her, or rather when she left me," I answered.
"Come, let us see," he said. And together we went into the
room.
The blind was down, and I went over to raise it gently, whilst Van
Helsing stepped, with his soft, cat-like tread, over to the bed.
As I raised the blind, and the morning sunlight flooded the room, I
heard the Professor's low hiss of inspiration, and knowing its rarity, a
deadly fear shot through my heart. As I passed over he moved back, and his
exclamation of horror, "Gott in Himmel!" needed no enforcement from his
agonized face. He raised his hand and pointed to the bed, and his iron
face was drawn and ashen white. I felt my knees begin to tremble.
There on the bed, seemingly in a swoon, lay poor Lucy, more
horribly white and wan-looking than ever. Even the lips were
white, and the gums seemed to have shrunken back from the teeth, as we
sometimes see in a corpse after a prolonged illness.
Van Helsing raised his foot to stamp in anger, but the instinct of his
life and all the long years of habit stood to him, and he put it down again
softly.
"Quick!" he said. "Bring the brandy."
I flew to the dining room, and returned with the decanter. He wetted the
poor white lips with it, and together we rubbed palm and wrist and
heart. He felt her heart, and after a few moments of agonizing suspense
said,
"It is not too late. It beats, though but feebly. All our
work is undone. We must begin again. There is no young Arthur
here now. I have to call on you yourself this time, friend John." As he
spoke, he was dipping into his bag, and producing the instruments of
transfusion. I had taken off my coat and rolled up my shirt sleeve.
There was no possibility of an opiate just at present, and no need of
one. and so, without a moment's delay, we began the operation.
After a time, it did not seem a short time either, for the draining away
of one's blood, no matter how willingly it be given, is a terrible feeling,
Van Helsing held up a warning finger. "Do not stir," he said. "But I
fear that with growing strength she may wake, and that would make danger, oh,
so much danger. But I shall precaution take. I shall give
hypodermic injection of morphia." He proceeded then, swiftly and
deftly, to carry out his intent.
The effect on Lucy was not bad, for the faint seemed to merge subtly
into the narcotic sleep. It was with a feeling of personal pride that I
could see a faint tinge of color steal back into the pallid cheeks and
lips. No man knows, till he experiences it, what it is to feel his own
lifeblood drawn away into the veins of the woman he loves.
The Professor watched me critically. "That will do," he
said. "Already?" I remonstrated. "You took a great
deal more from Art." To which he smiled a sad sort of smile as he
replied,
"He is her lover, her fiance. You have work, much work to do for
her and for others, and the present will suffice.
When we stopped the operation, he attended to Lucy, whilst I applied
digital pressure to my own incision. I laid down, while I waited his leisure
to attend to me, for I felt faint and a little sick. By and by he bound
up my wound, and sent me downstairs to get a glass of wine for myself. As
I was leaving the room, he came after me, and half whispered.
"Mind, nothing must be said of this. If our young lover should
turn up unexpected, as before, no word to him. It would at once frighten him
and enjealous him, too. There must be none. So!"
When I came back he looked at me carefully, and then said, "You are not
much the worse. Go into the room, and lie on your sofa, and rest
awhile, then have much breakfast and come here to me."
I followed out his orders, for I knew how right and wise they were. I
had done my part, and now my next duty was to keep up my strength. I felt
very weak, and in the weakness lost something of the amazement at what had
occurred. I fell asleep on the sofa, however, wondering over and over
again how Lucy had made such a retrograde movement, and how she could have
been drained of so much blood with no sign any where to show for it. I think
I must have continued my wonder in my dreams, for, sleeping and waking my
thoughts always came back to the little punctures in her throat and the
ragged, exhausted appearance of their edges, tiny though they were.
Lucy slept well into the day, and when she woke she was fairly well and
strong, though not nearly so much so as the day before. When Van Helsing had
seen her, he went out for a walk, leaving me in charge, with strict
injunctions that I was not to leave her for a moment. I could hear his
voice in the hall, asking the way to the nearest telegraph office.
Lucy chatted with me freely, and seemed quite unconscious that anything
had happened. I tried to keep her amused and interested. When her
mother came up to see her, she did not seem to notice any change whatever,
but said to me gratefully,
"We owe you so much, Dr. Seward, for all you have done, but you really
must now take care not to overwork yourself. You are looking pale
yourself. You want a wife to nurse and look after you a bit, that you
do!" As she spoke, Lucy turned crimson, though it was only momentarily, for
her poor wasted veins could not stand for long an unwonted drain to the
head. The reaction came in excessive pallor as she turned imploring eyes on
me. I smiled and nodded, and laid my finger on my lips. With a
sigh, she sank back amid her pillows.
Van Helsing returned in a couple of hours, and presently said to
me. "Now you go home, and eat much and drink enough. Make yourself
strong. I stay here tonight, and I shall sit up with little miss
myself. You and I must watch the case, and we must have none other to
know. I have grave reasons. No, do not ask the. Think what you
will. Do not fear to think even the most not-improbable. Goodnight."
In the hall two of the maids came to me, and asked if they or either of
them might not sit up with Miss Lucy. They implored me to let them, and when
I said it was Dr. Van Helsing's wish that either he or I should sit up, they
asked me quite piteously to intercede with the`foreign gentleman'. I was
much touched by their kindness. Perhaps it is because I am weak at
present, and perhaps because it was on Lucy's account, that their devotion
was manifested. For over and over again have I seen similar instances
of woman's kindness. I got back here in time for a late dinner, went my
rounds, all well, and set this down whilst waiting for sleep. It is
coming.
11 September.—This afternoon I went over to Hillingham. Found Van
Helsing in excellent spirits, and Lucy much better. Shortly after I had
arrived, a big parcel from abroad came for the Professor. He opened it
with much impressment, assumed, of course, and showed a great bundle of white
flowers.
"These are for you, Miss Lucy," he said.
"For me? Oh, Dr. Van Helsing!"
"Yes, my dear, but not for you to play with. These are
medicines." Here Lucy made a wry face. "Nay, but they are not to take
in a decoction or in nauseous form, so you need not snub that so charming
nose, or I shall point out to my friend Arthur what woes he may have
to endure in seeing so much beauty that he so loves so much distort. Aha,
my pretty miss, that bring the so nice nose all straight again. This is
medicinal, but you do not know how. I put him in your window, I make
pretty wreath, and hang him round your neck, so you sleep well. Oh,
yes! They, like the lotus flower, make your trouble forgotten. It smell
so like the waters of Lethe, and of that fountain of youth that the
Conquistadores sought for in the Floridas, and find him all too late."
Whilst he was speaking, Lucy had been examining the flowers and smelling
them. Now she threw them down saying, with half laughter, and half
disgust,
"Oh, Professor, I believe you are only putting up a joke on me. Why,
these flowers are only common garlic."
To my surprise, Van Helsing rose up and said with all his sternness, his
iron jaw set and his bushy eyebrows meeting,
"No trifling with me! I never jest! There is grim purpose in
what I do, and I warn you that you do not thwart me. Take care, for the sake
of others if not for your own." Then seeing poor Lucy scared, as she might
well be, he went on more gently, "Oh, little miss, my dear, do not fear
me. I only do for your good, but there is much virtue to you in those so
common flowers. See, I place them myself in your room. I make myself
the wreath that you are to wear. But hush! No telling to others that
make so inquisitive questions. We must obey, and silence is a part of
obedience, and obedience is to bring you strong and well into loving arms
that wait for you. Now sit still a while. Come with me, friend John,
and you shall help me deck the room with my garlic, which is all the
war from Haarlem, where my friend Vanderpool raise herb in his glass
houses all the year. I had to telegraph yesterday, or they would not
have been here."
We went into the room, taking the flowers with us. The Professor's
actions were certainly odd and not to be found in any pharmacopeia that I
ever heard of. First he fastened up the windows and latched them
securely. Next, taking a handful of the flowers, he rubbed them all over
the sashes, as though to ensure that every whiff of air that might get in
would be laden with the garlic smell. Then with the wisp he rubbed all over
the jamb of the door, above, below, and at each side, and round the
fireplace in the same way. It all seemed grotesque to me, and
presently I said, "Well, Professor, I know you always have a reason for what
you do, but this certainly puzzles me. It is well we have no sceptic here, or
he would say that you were working some spell to keep out an evil
spirit."
"Perhaps I am!" He answered quietly as he began to make the
wreath which Lucy was to wear round her neck.
We then waited whilst Lucy made her toilet for the night, and when
she was in bed he came and himself fixed the wreath of garlic round her
neck. The last words he said to her were,
"Take care you do not disturb it, and even if the room feel close, do
not tonight open the window or the door."
"I promise," said Lucy. "And thank you both a thousand times for all
your kindness to me! Oh, what have I done to be blessed with such
friends?"
As we left the house in my fly, which was waiting, Van Helsing
said, "Tonight I can sleep in peace, and sleep I want, two nights of
travel, much reading in the day between, and much anxiety on the day to
follow, and a night to sit up, without to wink. Tomorrow in the
morning early you call for me, and we come together to see our pretty
miss, so much more strong for my `spell' which I have work. Ho,
ho!"
He seemed so confident that I, remembering my own confidence two
nights before and with the baneful result, felt awe and vague terror. It
must have been my weakness that made me hesitate to tell it to my friend, but
I felt it all the more, like unshed tears.
CHAPTER 11
LUCY WESTENRA'S DIARY
12 September.—How good they all are to me. I quite love that
dear Dr. Van Helsing. I wonder why he was so anxious about these
flowers. He positively frightened me, he was so fierce. And yet he
must have been right, for I feel comfort from them already. Somehow, I
do not dread being alone tonight, and I can go to sleep without fear. I
shall not mind any flapping outside the window. Oh, the
terrible struggle that I have had against sleep so often of late, the
pain of sleeplessness, or the pain of the fear of sleep, and with
such unknown horrors as it has for me! How blessed are some
people, whose lives have no fears, no dreads, to whom sleep is a
blessing that comes nightly, and brings nothing but sweet dreams. Well,
here I am tonight, hoping for sleep, and lying like Ophelia in the
play, with`virgin crants and maiden strewments.' I never liked garlic
before, but tonight it is delightful! There is peace in its smell. I
feel sleep coming already. Goodnight, everybody.
DR. SEWARD'S DIARY
13 September.—Called at the Berkeley and found Van Helsing, as
usual, up to time. The carriage ordered from the hotel was
waiting. The Professor took his bag, which he always brings with him
now.
Let all be put down exactly. Van Helsing and I arrived at
Hillingham at eight o'clock. It was a lovely morning. The bright sunshine and
all the fresh feeling of early autumn seemed like the completion of nature's
annual work. The leaves were turning to all kinds of beautiful colors, but
had not yet begun to drop from the trees. When we entered we met Mrs.
Westenra coming out of the morning room. She is always an early riser.
She greeted us warmly and said,
"You will be glad to know that Lucy is better. The dear child is
still asleep. I looked into her room and saw her, but did not go in,
lest I should disturb her." The Professor smiled, and looked quite
jubilant. He rubbed his hands together, and said, "Aha! I thought
I had diagnosed the case. My treatment is working."
To which she replied, "You must not take all the credit to yourself,
doctor. Lucy's state this morning is due in part to me."
"How do you mean, ma'am?" asked the Professor.
"Well, I was anxious about the dear child in the night, and went into
her room. She was sleeping soundly, so soundly that even my coming did
not wake her. But the room was awfully stuffy. There were a lot of
those horrible, strong-smelling flowers about everywhere, and she had
actually a bunch of them round her neck. I feared that the heavy odor
would be too much for the dear child in her weak state, so I took them all
away and opened a bit of the window to let in a little fresh air. You will
be pleased with her, I am sure."
She moved off into her boudoir, where she usually breakfasted early.
As she had spoken, I watched the Professor's face, and saw it turn ashen
gray. He had been able to retain his self-command whilst the poor lady was
present, for he knew her state and how mischievous a shock would be. He
actually smiled on her as he held open the door for her to pass into her
room. But the instant she had disappeared he pulled me, suddenly and
forcibly, into the dining room and closed the door.
Then, for the first time in my life, I saw Van Helsing break down. He
raised his hands over his head in a sort of mute despair, and then beat his
palms together in a helpless way. Finally he sat down on a chair, and putting
his hands before his face, began to sob, with loud, dry sobs that seemed to
come from the very racking of his heart.
Then he raised his arms again, as though appealing to the whole
universe. "God! God! God!" he said. "What have we
done, what has this poor thing done, that we are so sore beset? Is there
fate amongst us still, send down from the pagan world of old, that such
things must be, and in such way? This poor mother, all unknowing, and all for
the best as she think, does such thing as lose her daughter body and soul,
and we must not tell her, we must not even warn her, or she die, then both
die. Oh, how we are beset! How are all the powers of the devils
against us!"
Suddenly he jumped to his feet. "Come," he said."come, we must see
and act. Devils or no devils, or all the devils at once, it matters
not. We must fight him all the same." He went to the hall door for his
bag, and together we went up to Lucy's room.
Once again I drew up the blind, whilst Van Helsing went towards the
bed. This time he did not start as he looked on the poor face with the same
awful, waxen pallor as before. He wore a look of stern sadness and
infinite pity.
"As I expected," he murmured, with that hissing inspiration of his which
meant so much. Without a word he went and locked the door, and then
began to set out on the little table the instruments for yet another
operation of transfusion of blood. I had long ago recognized the necessity,
and begun to take off my coat, but he stopped me with a warning
hand. "No!" he said. "Today you must operate. I shall
provide. You are weakened already." As he spoke he took off his
coat and rolled up his shirtsleeve.
Again the operation. Again the narcotic. Again some return of
color to the ashy cheeks, and the regular breathing of healthy sleep. This
time I watched whilst Van Helsing recruited himself and rested.
Presently he took an opportunity of telling Mrs. Westenra that she must
not remove anything from Lucy's room without consulting him. That the flowers
were of medicinal value, and that the breathing of their odor was a part of
the system of cure. Then he took over the care of the case himself,
saying that he would watch this night and the next, and would send me word
when to come.
After another hour Lucy waked from her sleep, fresh and bright and
seemingly not much the worse for her terrible ordeal.
What does it all mean? I am beginning to wonder if my long
habit of life amongst the insane is beginning to tell upon my own
brain.
LUCY WESTENRA'S DIARY
17 September.—Four days and nights of peace. I am getting so
strong again that I hardly know myself. It is as if I had passed
through some long nightmare, and had just awakened to see the beautiful
sunshine and feel the fresh air of the morning around me. I have a dim
half remembrance of long, anxious times of waiting and fearing, darkness in
which there was not even the pain of hope to make present distress more
poignant. And then long spells of oblivion, and the rising back to life as a
diver coming up through a great press of water. Since, however, Dr. Van
Helsing has been with me, all this bad dreaming seems to have passed
away. The noises that used to frighten me out of my wits, the flapping
against the windows, the distant voices which seemed so close to me, the
harsh sounds that came from I know not where and commanded me to do I
know not what, have all ceased. I go to bed now without any fear of
sleep. I do not even try to keep awake. I have grown quite fond of the
garlic, and a boxful arrives for me every day from Haarlem. Tonight Dr.
Van Helsing is going away, as he has to be for a day in Amsterdam. But I
need not be watched. I am well enough to be left alone.
Thank God for Mother's sake, and dear Arthur's, and for all our friends
who have been so kind! I shall not even feel the change, for last night
Dr. Van Helsing slept in his chair a lot of the time. I found him asleep
twice when I awoke. But I did not fear to go to sleep again, although
the boughs or bats or something flapped almost angrily against the window
panes.
THE PALL MALL GAZETTE 18 September.
THE ESCAPED WOLF PERILOUS ADVENTURE OF OUR INTERVIEWER
INTERVIEW WITH THE KEEPER IN THE ZOOLOGICAL GARDENS
After many inquiries and almost as many refusals, and
perpetually using the words `PALL MALL GAZETTE ' as a sort of talisman, I
managed to find the keeper of the section of the Zoological Gardens in which
the wold department is included. Thomas Bilder lives in one of the
cottages in the enclosure behind the elephant house, and was just sitting
down to his tea when I found him. Thomas and his wife are hospitable folk,
elderly, and without children, and if the specimen I enjoyed of their
hospitality be of the average kind, their lives must be pretty
comfortable. The keeper would not enter on what he called business until
the supper was over, and we were all satisfied. Then when the table was
cleared, and he had lit his pipe, he said,
"Now, Sir, you can go on and arsk me what you want. You'll
excoose me refoosin' to talk of perfeshunal subjucts afore meals. I gives
the wolves and the jackals and the hyenas in all our section their tea afore
I begins to arsk them questions."
"How do you mean, ask them questions?" I queried, wishful to
get him into a talkative humor.
" `Ittin' of them over the `ead with a pole is one way. Scratchin' of
their ears in another, when gents as is flush wants a bit of a show-orf to
their gals. I don't so much mind the fust, the `ittin of the pole part
afore I chucks in their dinner, but I waits till they've `ad their
sherry and kawffee, so to speak, afore I tries on with the ear scratchin'.
Mind you," he added philosophically, "there's a deal of the same nature in us
as in them theer animiles. Here's you a-comin' and arskin' of me questions
about my business, and I that grump-like that only for your
bloomin' `arf-quid I'd `a' seen you blowed fust `fore I'd answer. Not even
when you arsked me sarcastic like if I'd like you to arsk the Superintendent
if you might arsk me questions. Without offence did I tell yer to go to
`ell?"
"You did."
"An' when you said you'd report me for usin' obscene language that was
`ittin' me over the `ead. But the `arf-quid made that all right. I
weren't a-goin' to fight, so I waited for the food, and did with my `owl as
the wolves and lions and tigers does. But, lor' love yer `art, now that
the old `ooman has stuck a chunk of her tea-cake in me, an' rinsed me out
with her bloomin' old teapot, and I've lit hup, you may scratch my ears for
all you're worth, and won't even get a growl out of me. Drive along
with your questions. I know what yer a-comin' at, that `ere escaped
wolf."
"Exactly. I want you to give me your view of it. Just tell me how
it happened, and when I know the facts I'll get you to say what you consider
was the cause of it, and how you think the whole affair will end."
"All right, guv'nor. This `ere is about the `ole story. That`ere wolf
what we called Bersicker was one of three gray ones that came from Norway to
Jamrach's, which we bought off him four years ago. He was a nice well-behaved
wolf, that never gave no trouble to talk of. I'm more surprised at `im for
wantin' to get out nor any other animile in the place. But, there, you
can't trust wolves no more nor women."
"Don't you mind him, Sir!" broke in Mrs. Tom, with a cheery laugh. "
`E's got mindin' the animiles so long that blest if he ain't like a old wolf
`isself! But there ain't no `arm in `im."
"Well, Sir, it was about two hours after feedin' yesterday when I first
hear my disturbance. I was makin' up a litter in the monkey house for a
young puma which is ill. But when I heard the yelpin' and `owlin' I kem away
straight. There was Bersicker a-tearin' like a mad thing at the bars as
if he wanted to get out. There wasn't much people about that
day, and close at hand was only one man, a tall, thin chap, with a
`ook nose and a pointed beard, with a few white hairs runnin' through
it. He had a `ard, cold look and red eyes, and I took a sort of mislike to
him, for it seemed as if it was `im as they was hirritated at. He `ad white
kid gloves on `is `ands, and he pointed out the animiles to me and says,
`Keeper, these wolves seem upset at something.'
"`Maybe it's you,' says I, for I did not like the airs as he
give `isself. He didn't get angry, as I `oped he would, but he smiled a
kind of insolent smile, with a mouth full of white, sharp teeth. `Oh no, they
wouldn't like me,' `e says.
" `Ow yes, they would,' says I, a-imitatin'of him.`They always like a
bone or two to clean their teeth on about tea time, which you `as a
bagful.'
"Well, it was a odd thing, but when the animiles see us a-talkin' they
lay down, and when I went over to Bersicker he let me stroke his ears same as
ever. That there man kem over, and blessed but if he didn't put in his
hand and stroke the old wolf's ears too!
" `Tyke care,' says I. `Bersicker is quick.'
" `Never mind,' he says. I'm used to `em!'
" `Are you in the business yourself?" I says, tyking off my `at, for
a man what trades in wolves, anceterer, is a good friend to keepers.
" `Nom' says he, `not exactly in the business, but I `ave made pets of
several.' and with that he lifts his `at as perlite as a lord, and
walks away. Old Bersicker kep' a-lookin' arter `im till `e was out of
sight, and then went and lay down in a corner and wouldn't come hout the `ole
hevening. Well, larst night, so soon as the moon was hup, the wolves
here all began a-`owling. There warn't nothing for them to `owl at. There
warn't no one near, except some one that was evidently a-callin' a dog
somewheres out back of the gardings in the Park road. Once or twice I went
out to see that all was right, and it was, and then the `owling
stopped. Just before twelve o'clock I just took a look round afore
turnin' in, an', bust me, but when I kem opposite to old Bersicker's cage I
see the rails broken and twisted about and the cage empty. And that's all
I know for certing."
"Did any one else see anything?"
"One of our gard`ners was a-comin' `ome about that time from a
`armony, when he sees a big gray dog comin' out through the garding `edges.
At least, so he says, but I don't give much for it myself, for if he did `e
never said a word about it to his missis when `e got `ome, and it was only
after the escape of the wolf was made known, and we had been up all night
a-huntin' of the Park for Bersicker, that he remembered seein'
anything. My own belief was that the `armony `ad got into his
`ead."
"Now, Mr. Bilder, can you account in any way for the escape of the
wolf?"
"Well, Sir," he said, with a suspicious sort of modesty, "I think I
can, but I don't know as `ow you'd be satisfied with the theory."
"Certainly I shall. If a man like you, who knows the animals from
experience, can't hazard a good guess at any rate, who is even to try?"
"well then, Sir, I accounts for it this way. It seems to me that
`ere wolf escaped—simply because he wanted to get out."
From the hearty way that both Thomas and his wife laughed at the joke I
could see that it had done service before, and that the whole explanation was
simply an elaborate sell. I couldn't cope in badinage with the worthy Thomas,
but I thought I knew a surer way to his heart, so I said, "Now, Mr.
Bilder, we'll consider that first half-sovereign worked off, and
this brother of his is waiting to be claimed when you've told me what you
think will happen."
"Right y`are, Sir," he said briskly. "Ye`ll excoose me, I
know, for a-chaffin' of ye, but the old woman her winked at me, which was
as much as telling me to go on."
"Well, I never!" said the old lady.
"My opinion is this. That `ere wolf is a`idin' of, somewheres. The
gard`ner wot didn't remember said he was a-gallopin' northward faster than a
horse could go, but I don't believe him, for, yer see, Sir, wolves don't
gallop no more nor dogs does, they not bein' built that way. Wolves is
fine things in a storybook, and I dessay when they gets in packs and
does be chivyin' somethin' that's more afeared than they is they can make
a devil of a noise and chop it up, whatever it is. But, Lor' bless you, in
real life a wolf is only a low creature, not half so clever or bold as a good
dog, and not half a quarter so much fight in `im. This one ain't been used to
fightin' or even to providin' for hisself, and more like he's
somewhere round the Park a'hidin' an' a'shiverin' of, and if he thinks at
all, wonderin' where he is to get his breakfast from. Or maybe he's got down
some area and is in a coal cellar. My eye, won't some cook get a rum start
when she sees his green eyes a-shinin' at her out of the dark! If he can't
get food he's bound to look for it, and mayhap he may chance to light on a
butcher's shop in time. If he doesn't, and some nursemaid goes out walkin' or
orf with a soldier, leavin' of the hinfant in the perambulator— well,
then I shouldn't be surprised if the census is one babby the less.
That's all."
I was handing him the half-sovereign, when something came bobbing up
against the window, and Mr. Bilder's face doubled its natural length with
surprise.
"God bless me!" he said. "If there ain't old Bersicker come back
by `isself!"
He went to the door and opened it, a most unnecessary proceeding
it seemed to me. I have always thought that a wild animal never
looks so well as when some obstacle of pronounced durability is between
us. A personal experience has intensified rather than diminished that
idea.
After all, however, there is nothing like custom, for neither Bilder nor
his wife thought any more of the wolf than I should of a dog. The animal
itself was a peaceful and well-behaved as that father of all picture-wolves,
Red Riding Hood's quondam friend, whilst moving her confidence in
masquerade.
The whole scene was a unutterable mixture of comedy and pathos. The
wicked wolf that for a half a day had paralyzed London and set all the
children in town shivering in their shoes, was there in a sort of penitent
mood, and was received and petted like a sort of vulpine prodigal son. Old
Bilder examined him all over with most tender solicitude, and when he had
finished with his penitent said,
"There, I knew the poor old chap would get into some kind of
trouble. Didn't I say it all along? Here's his head all cut and full of
broken glass. `E's been a-gettin' over some bloomin' wall or other.
It's a shyme that people are allowed to top their walls with broken
bottles. This `ere's what comes of it. Come along, Bersicker."
He took the wolf and locked him up in a cage, with a piece of meat that
satisfied, in quantity at any rate, the elementary conditions of the fatted
calf, and went off to report.
I came off too, to report the only exclusive information that is
given today regarding the strange escapade at the Zoo.
DR. SEWARD'S DIARY
17 September.—I was engaged after dinner in my study posting up my
books, which, through press of other work and the many visits to Lucy, had
fallen sadly into arrear. Suddenly the door was burst open, and in
rushed my patient, with his face distorted with passion. I was thunderstruck,
for such a thing as a patient getting of his own accord into the
Superintendent's study is almost unknown.
Without an instant's notice he made straight at me. He had a dinner
knife in his hand, and as I saw he was dangerous, I tried to keep the table
between us. He was too quick and too strong for me, however, for before
I could get my balance he had struck at me and cut my left wrist rather
severely.
Before he could strike again, however, I got in my right hand and he was
sprawling on his back on the floor. My wrist bled freely, and quite a little
pool trickled on to the carpet. I saw that my friend was not
intent on further effort, and occupied myself binding up my wrist, keeping
a wary eye on the prostrate figure all the time. When the attendants rushed
in, and we turned our attention to him, his employment positively sickened
me. He was lying on his belly on the floor licking up, like a dog, the
blood which had fallen from my wounded wrist. He was easily
secured, and to my surprise, went with the attendants quite
placidly, simply repeating over and over again, "The blood is the
life! The blood is the life!"
I cannot afford to lose blood just at present. I have lost
too much of late for my physical good, and then the prolonged strain of
Lucy's illness and its horrible phases is telling on me. I am over excited
and weary, and I need rest, rest, rest. Happily Van Helsing has not summoned
me, so I need not forego my sleep. Tonight I could not well do without
it.
TELEGRAM, VAN HELSING, ANTWERP, TO SEWARD, CARFAX
(Sent to Carfax, Sussex, as no county given, delivered late by
twenty-two hours.)
17 September.—Do not fail to be at Hilllingham tonight. If not watching
all the time, frequently visit and see that flowers are as placed, very
important, do not fail. Shall be with you as soon as possible after
arrival.
DR. SEWARD'S DIARY
18 September.—Just off train to London. The arrival of
Van Helsing's telegram filled me with dismay. A whole night
lost, and I know by bitter experience what may happen in a night. Of
course it is possible that all may be well, but what may have happened?
Surely there is some horrible doom hanging over us that every possible
accident should thwart us in all we try to do. I shall take this cylinder
with me, and then I can complete my entry on Lucy's phonograph.
MEMORANDUM LEFT BY LUCY WESTENRA
17 September, Night.—I write this and leave it to be seen, so that no
one may by any chance get into trouble through me. This is an exact record of
what took place tonight. I feel I am dying of weakness, and have barely
strength to write, but it must be done if I die in the doing.
I went to bed as usual, taking care that the flowers were placed as Dr.
Van Helsing directed, and soon fell asleep.
I was waked by the flapping at the window, which had begun after that
sleep-walking on the cliff at Whitby when Mina saved me, and which now I know
so well. I was not afraid, but I did wish that Dr. Seward was in the
next room, as Dr. Van Helsing said he would be, so that I might have called
him. I tried to sleep, but I could not. Then there came to me the
old fear of sleep, and I determined to keep awake. Perversely sleep would try
to come then when I did not want it. So, as I feared to be alone, I opened my
door and called out. "Is there anybody there?" There was no
answer. I was afraid to wake mother, and so closed my door again. Then
outside in the shrubbery I heard a sort of howl like a dog's, but more fierce
and deeper. I went to the window and looked out, but could see nothing,
except a big bat, which had evidently been buffeting its wings against the
window. So I went back to bed again, but determined not to go to
sleep. Presently the door opened, and mother looked in. Seeing by
my moving that I was not asleep, she came in and sat by me. She said to me
even more sweetly and softly than her wont,
"I was uneasy about you, darling, and came in to see that you were all
right."
I feared she might catch cold sitting there, and asked her to come in
and sleep with me, so she came into bed, and lay down beside me. She did not
take off her dressing gown, for she said she would only stay a while and then
go back to her own bed. As she lay there in my arms, and I in hers the
flapping and buffeting came to the window again. She was startled and a
little frightened, and cried out, "What is that?"
I tried to pacify her, and at last succeeded, and she lay quiet. But I
could hear her poor dear heart still beating terribly. After a while there
was the howl again out in the shrubbery, and shortly after there was a crash
at the window, and a lot of broken glass was hurled on the floor. The
window blind blew back with the wind that rushed in, and in the aperture of
the broken panes there was the head of a great, gaunt gray wolf.
Mother cried out in a fright, and struggled up into a sitting posture,
and clutched wildly at anything that would help her. Amongst other things,
she clutched the wreath of flowers that Dr. Van Helsing insisted on my
wearing round my neck, and tore it away from me. For a second or two
she sat up, pointing at the wolf, and there was a strange and horrible
gurgling in her throat. Then she fell over, as if struck with lightning, and
her head hit my forehead and made me dizzy for a moment or two.
The room and all round seemed to spin round. I kept my eyes
fixed on the window, but the wolf drew his head back, and a whole
myriad of little specks seems to come blowing in through the broken
window, and wheeling and circling round like the pillar of dust that
travellers describe when there is a simoon in the desert. I tried to
stir, but there was some spell upon me, and dear Mother's poor body, which
seemed to grow cold already, for her dear heart had ceased to beat, weighed
me down, and I remembered no more for a while.
The time did not seem long, but very, very awful, till I
recovered consciousness again. Somewhere near, a passing bell was
tolling. The dogs all round the neighborhood were howling, and in our
shrubbery, seemingly just outside, a nightingale was singing. I was dazed and
stupid with pain and terror and weakness, but the sound of the nightingale
seemed like the voice of my dead mother come back to comfort me. The
sounds seemed to have awakened the maids, too, for I could hear their
bare feet pattering outside my door. I called to them, and they came
in, and when they saw what had happened, and what it was that lay over me on
the bed, they screamed out. The wind rushed in through the broken
window, and the door slammed to. They lifted off the body of my dear mother,
and laid her, covered up with a sheet, on the bed after I had got up. They
were all so frightened and nervous that I directed them to go to the dining
room and each have a glass of wine. The door flew open for an instant and
closed again. The maids shrieked, and then went in a body to the dining
room, and I laid what flowers I had on my dear mother's breast. When they
were there I remembered what Dr. Van Helsing had told me, but I didn't like
to remove them, and besides, I would have some of the servants to sit up with
me now. I was surprised that the maids did not come back. I called them,
but got no answer, so I went to the dining room to look for them.
My heart sank when I saw what had happened. They all four lay
helpless on the floor, breathing heavily. The decanter of sherry was on
the table half full, but there was a queer, acrid smell about. I was
suspicious, and examined the decanter. It smelt of laudanum, and looking on
the sideboard, I found that the bottle which Mother's doctor uses for
her— oh! did use—was empty. What am I to do? What am I to
do? I am back in the room with Mother. I cannot leave her, and I am
alone, save for the sleeping servants, whom some one has drugged. Alone with
the dead! I dare not go out, for I can hear the low howl of the wolf
through the broken window.
The air seems full of specks, floating and circling in the draught from
the window, and the lights burn blue and dim. What am I to do? God
shield me from harm this night! I shall hide this paper in my breast, where
they shall find it when they come to lay me out. My dear mother
gone! It is time that I go too. Goodbye, dear Arthur, if I
should not survive this night. God keep you, dear, and God help
me!
CHAPTER 12
DR. SEWARD'S DIARY
18 September.—I drove at once to Hillingham and arrived
early. Keeping my cab at the gate, I went up the avenue alone. I knocked
gently and rang as quietly as possible, for I feared to disturb Lucy or her
mother, and hoped to only bring a servant to the door. After a while,
finding no response, I knocked and rang again, still no answer. I
cursed the laziness of the servants that they should lie abed at such an
hour, for it was now ten o'clock, and so rang and knocked again, but more
impatiently, but still without response. Hitherto I had blamed only the
servants, but now a terrible fear began to assail me. Was this
desolation but another link in the chain of doom which seemed drawing tight
round us? Was it indeed a house of death to which I had come, too late? I
know that minutes, even seconds of delay, might mean hours of danger to Lucy,
if she had had again one of those frightful relapses, and I went round the
house to try if I could find by chance an entry anywhere.
I could find no means of ingress. Every window and door
was fastened and locked, and I returned baffled to the porch. As I did so,
I heard the rapid pit-pat of a swiftly driven horse's feet. They stopped at
the gate, and a few seconds later I met Van Helsing running up the
avenue. When he saw me, he gasped out, "Then it was you, and just
arrived. How is she? Are we too late? Did you not get my
telegram?"
I answered as quickly and coherently as I could that I had only got his
telegram early in the morning, and had not a minute in coming here, and that
I could not make any one in the house hear me. He paused and raised his
hat as he said solemnly, "Then I fear we are too late. God's will be
done!"
With his usual recuperative energy, he went on, "Come. If there be no
way open to get in, we must make one. Time is all in all to us now."
We went round to the back of the house, where there was a kitchen
window. The Professor took a small surgical saw from his case, and
handing it to me, pointed to the iron bars which guarded the window. I
attacked them at once and had very soon cut through three of them. Then with
a long, thin knife we pushed back the fastening of the sashes and opened the
window. I helped the Professor in, and followed him. There was no one
in the kitchen or in the servants' rooms, which were close at hand. We
tried all the rooms as we went along, and in the dining room, dimly lit by
rays of light through the shutters, found four servant women lying on the
floor. There was no need to think them dead, for their stertorous
breathing and the acrid smell of laudanum in the room left no doubt as to
their condition.
Van Helsing and I looked at each other, and as we moved away he
said, "We can attend to them later."Then we ascended to Lucy's room. For
an instant or two we paused at the door to listen, but there was no sound
that we could hear. With white faces and trembling hands, we opened the
door gently, and entered the room.
How shall I describe what we saw? On the bed lay two women, Lucy
and her mother. The latter lay farthest in, and she was covered with a
white sheet, the edge of which had been blown back by the drought through the
broken window, showing the drawn, white, face, with a look of terror fixed
upon it. By her side lay Lucy, with face white and still more drawn. The
flowers which had been round her neck we found upon her mother's bosom, and
her throat was bare, showing the two little wounds which we had noticed
before, but looking horribly white and mangled. Without a word the
Professor bent over the bed, his head almost touching poor Lucy's
breast. Then he gave a quick turn of his head, as of one who listens, and
leaping to his feet, he cried out to me, "It is not yet too late!
Quick! Quick! Bring the brandy!"
I flew downstairs and returned with it, taking care to smell and taste
it, lest it, too, were drugged like the decanter of sherry which I found on
the table. The maids were still breathing, but more restlessly, and I
fancied that the narcotic was wearing off. I did not stay to make sure, but
returned to Van Helsing. He rubbed the brandy, as on another occasion, on her
lips and gums and on her wrists and the palms of her hands. He said to me,
"I can do this, all that can be at the present. You go wake those
maids. Flick them in the face with a wet towel, and flick them
hard. Make them get heat and fire and a warm bath. This poor soul is
nearly as cold as that beside her. She will need be heated before we can do
anything more."
I went at once, and found little difficulty in waking three of the
women. The fourth was only a young girl, and the drug had evidently
affected her more strongly so I lifted her on the sofa and let her
sleep.
The others were dazed at first, but as remembrance came back to them
they cried and sobbed in a hysterical manner. I was stern with them, however,
and would not let them talk. I told them that one life was bad enough to
lose, and if they delayed they would sacrifice Miss Lucy. So, sobbing
and crying they went about their way, half clad as they were, and prepared
fire and water. Fortunately, the kitchen and boiler fires were still
alive, and there was no lack of hot water. We got a bath and carried Lucy out
as she was and placed her in it. Whilst we were busy chafing her limbs there
was a knock at the hall door. One of the maids ran off, hurried on some more
clothes, and opened it. Then she returned and whispered to us that there was
a gentleman who had come with a message from Mr. Holmwood. I bade her
simply tell him that he must wait, for we could see no one now. She went
away with the message, and, engrossed with our work, I clean forgot all about
him.
I never saw in all my experience the Professor work in such deadly
earnest. I knew, as he knew, that it was a stand-up fight with death, and in
a pause told him so. He answered me in a way that I did not
understand, but with the sternest look that his face could wear.
"If that were all, I would stop here where we are now, and let her fade
away into peace, for I see no light in life over her horizon." He went on
with his work with, if possible, renewed and more frenzied vigour.
Presently we both began to be conscious that the heat was beginning to
be of some effect. Lucy's heart beat a trifle more audibly to the
stethoscope, and her lungs had a perceptible movement. Van Helsing's face
almost beamed, and as we lifted her from the bath and rolled her in a hot
sheet to dry her he said to me, "The first gain is ours! Check to the
King!"
We took Lucy into another room, which had by now been prepared, and laid
her in bed and forced a few drops of brandy down her throat. I noticed that
Van Helsing tied a soft silk handkerchief round her throat. She was still
unconscious, and was quite as bad as, if not worse than, we had ever seen
her.
Van Helsing called in one of the women, and told her to stay with her
and not to take her eyes off her till we returned, and then beckoned me out
of the room.
"We must consult as to what is to be done," he said as we descended the
stairs. In the hall he opened the dining room door, and we passed in,
he closing the door carefully behind him. The shutters had been opened, but
the blinds were already down, with that obedience to the etiquette of death
which the British woman of the lower classes always rigidly observes.
The room was, therefore, dimly dark. It was, however, light enough for
our purposes. Van Helsing's sternness was somewhat relieved by a look of
perplexity. He was evidently torturing his mind about something, so I
waited for an instant, and he spoke.
"What are we to do now? Where are we to turn for help? We must
have another transfusion of blood, and that soon, or that poor girl's life
won't be worth an hour's purchase. You are exhausted already. I am
exhausted too. I fear to trust those women, even if they would have
courage to submit. What are we to do for some one who will open his veins for
her?"
"What's the matter with me, anyhow?"
The voice came from the sofa across the room, and its tones brought
relief and joy to my heart, for they were those of Quincey Morris.
Van Helsing started angrily at the first sound, but his face
softened and a glad look came into his eyes as I cried out, "Quincey
Morris!" and rushed towards him with outstretched hands.
"What brought you her?" I cried as our hands met.
"I guess Art is the cause."
He handed me a telegram.—`Have not heard from Seward for three days,
and am terribly anxious. Cannot leave. Father still in same
condition. Send me word how Lucy is. Do not delay.—Holmwood.'
"I think I came just in the nick of time. You know you have only to
tell me what to do."
Van Helsing strode forward, and took his hand, looking him straight in
the eyes as he said, "A brave man's blood is the best thing on this earth
when a woman is in trouble. You're a man and no mistake. Well, the
devil may work against us for all he's worth, but God sends us men when we
want them."
Once again we went through that ghastly operation. I have not the heart
to go through with the details. Lucy had got a terrible shock and it told on
her more than before, for though plenty of blood went into her veins, her
body did not respond to the treatment as well as on the other
occasions. Her struggle back into life was something frightful to see and
hear. However, the action of both heart and lungs improved, and
Van Helsing made a sub-cutaneous injection of morphia, as before, and with
good effect. Her faint became a profound slumber. The Professor watched
whilst I went downstairs with Quincey Morris, and sent one of the maids to
pay off one of the cabmen who were waiting.
I left Quincey lying down after having a glass of wine, and told the
cook to get ready a good breakfast. Then a thought struck me, and I
went back to the room where Lucy now was. When I came softly in, I found Van
Helsing with a sheet or two of note paper in his hand. He had evidently
read it, and was thinking it over as he sat with his hand to his
brow. There was a look of grim satisfaction in his face, as of one who has
had a doubt solved. He handed me the paper saying only, "It dropped
from Lucy's breast when we carried her to the bath."
When I had read it, I stook looking at the Professor, and after a pause
asked him, "In God's name, what does it all mean? Was she, or is she, mad, or
what sort of horrible danger is it?" I was so bewildered that I did not know
what to say more. Van Helsing put out his hand and took the paper,
saying,
"Do not trouble about it now. Forget if for the present. You shall
know and understand it all in good time, but it will be later. And now
what is it that you came to me to say?" This brought me back to fact, and I
was all myself again.
"I came to speak about the certificate of death. If we do not
act properly and wisely, there may be an inquest, and that paper
would have to be produced. I am in hopes that we need have no
inquest, for if we had it would surely kill poor Lucy, if nothing else
did. I know, and you know, and the other doctor who attended her
knows, that Mrs. Westenra had disease of the heart, and we can
certify that she died of it. Let us fill up the certificate at once,
and I shall take it myself to the registrar and go on to the
undertaker."
"Good, oh my friend John! Well thought of! Truly Miss Lucy, if
she be sad in the foes that beset her, is at least happy in the
friends thatlove her. One, two, three, all open their veins for
her, besides one old man. Ah, yes, I know, friend John. I am not
blind! I love you all the more for it! Now go."
In the hall I met Quincey Morris, with a telegram for Arthur telling him
that Mrs. Westenra was dead, that Lucy also had been ill, but was now going
on better, and that Van Helsing and I were with her. I told him where I was
going, and he hurried me out, but as I was going said,
"When you come back, Jack, may I have two words with you all to
ourselves?" I nodded in reply and went out. I found no difficulty about
the registration, and arranged with the local undertaker to come up in the
evening to measure for the coffin and to make arrangements.
When I got back Quincey was waiting for me. I told him I would see
him as soon as I knew about Lucy, and went up to her room. She was still
sleeping, and the Professor seemingly had not moved from his seat at her
side. From his putting his finger to his lips, I gathered that he
expected her to wake before long and was afraid of fore-stalling
nature. So I went down to Quincey and took him into the breakfast room,
where the blinds were not drawn down, and which was a little more cheerful,
or rather less cheerless, than the other rooms.
When we were alone, he said to me, "Jack Seward, I don't want to
shove myself in anywhere where I've no right to be, but this is no ordinary
case. You know I loved that girl and wanted to marry her, but although
that's all past and gone, I can't help feeling anxious about her all the
same. What is it that's wrong with her? The Dutchman, and a fine old
fellow is is, I can see that, said that time you two came into the room, that
you must have another transfusion of blood, and that both you and he were
exhausted. Now I know well that you medical men speak in camera, and that
a man must not expect to know what they consult about in private. But this
is no common matter, and whatever it is, I have done my part. Is not that
so?"
"That's so," I said, and he went on.
"I take it that both you and Van Helsing had done already what I did
today. Is not that so?"
"That's so."
"And I guess Art was in it too. When I saw him four days ago down
at his own place he looked queer. I have not seen anything pulled down
so quick since I was on the Pampas and had a mare that I was fond of go to
grass all in a night. One of those big bats that they call vampires had got
at her in the night, and what with his gorge and the vein left open, there
wasn't enough blood in her to let her stand up, and I had to put a bullet
through her as she lay. Jack, if you may tell me without betraying
confidence, Arthur was the first, is not that so?"
As he spoke the poor fellow looked terribly anxious. He was in a
torture of suspense regarding the woman he loved, and his utter ignorance
of the terrible mystery which seemed to surround her intensified his
pain. His very heart was bleeding, and it took all the manhood of him, and
there was a royal lot of it, too, to keep him from breaking down. I paused
before answering, for I felt that I must not betray anything which the
Professor wished kept secret, but already he knew so much, and guessed so
much, that there could be no reason for not answering, so I answered in the
same phrase.
"That's so."
"And how long has this been going on?"
"About ten days."
"Ten days! Then I guess, Jack Seward, that that poor pretty
creature that we all love has had put into her veins within that time the
blood of four strong men. Man alive, her whole body wouldn't hold
it." Then coming close to me, he spoke in a fierce half-whisper.
"What took it out?"
I shook my head. "That," I said, "is the crux. Van Helsing is
simply frantic about it, and I am at my wits' end. I can't even hazard
a guess. There has been a series of little circumstances which have
thrown out all our calculations as to Lucy being properly watched. But
these shall not occur again. Here we stay until all be well, or
ill."
Quincey held out his hand. "Count me in," he said. "You and the
Dutchman will tell me what to do, and I'll do it."
When she woke late in the afternoon, Lucy's first movement was to
feel in her breast, and to my surprise, produced the paper which
Van Helsing had given me to read. The careful Professor had
replaced it where it had come from, lest on waking she should be
alarmed. Her eyes then lit on Van Helsing and on me too, and
gladdened. Then she looked round the room, and seeing where she was,
shuddered. She gave a loud cry, and put her poor thin hands before her pale
face.
We both understood what was meant, that she had realized to the full her
mother's death. So we tried what we could to comfort her. Doubtless
sympathy eased her somewhat, but she was very low in thought and spirit, and
wept silently and weakly for a long time. We told her that either or both of
us would now remain with her all the time, and that seemed to comfort
her. Towards dusk she fell into a doze. Here a very odd thing
occurred. Whilst still asleep she took the paper from her breast and tore
it in two. Van Helsing stepped over and took the pieces from
her. All the same, however, she went on with the action of tearing, as
though the material were still in her hands. Finally she lifted her
hands and opened them as though scattering the fragments. Van Helsing seemed
surprised, and his brows gathered as if in thought, but he said
nothing.
19 September.—All last night she slept fitfully, being
always afraid to sleep, and something weaker when she woke from it. The
Professor and I took in turns to watch, and we never left her for a moment
unattended. Quincey Morris said nothing about his intention, but I knew
that all night long he patrolled round and round the house.
When the day came, its searching light showed the ravages in poor Lucy's
strength. She was hardly able to turn her head, and the
little nourishment which she could take seemed to do her no good. At times
she slept, and both Van Helsing and I noticed the difference in her, between
sleeping and waking. Whilst asleep she looked stronger, although more
haggard, and her breathing was softer. Her open mouth showed the pale gums
drawn back from the teeth, which looked positively longer and sharper than
usual. When she woke the softness of her eyes evidently changed the
expression, for she looked her own self, although a dying one. In the
afternoon she asked for Arthur, and we telegraphed for him. Quincey went off
to meet him at the station.
When he arrived it was nearly six o'clock, and the sun was setting full
and warm, and the red light streamed in through the window and gave more
color to the pale cheeks. When he saw her, Arthur was simply choking
with emotion, and none of us could speak. In the hours that had passed, the
fits of sleep, or the comatose condition that passed for it, had grown more
frequent, so that the pauses when conversation was possible were
shortened. Arthur's presence, however, seemed to act as a stimulant. She
rallied a little, and spoke to him more brightly than she had done since we
arrived. He too pulled himself together, and spoke as cheerily as he
could, so that the best was made of everything.
It is now nearly one o'clock, and he and Van Helsing are sitting with
her. I am to relieve them in a quarter of an hour, and I am entering
this on Lucy's phonograph. Until six o'clock they are to try to
rest. I fear that tomorrow will end our watching, for the shock has been too
great. The poor child cannot rally. God help us all.
LETTER MINA HARKER TO LUCY WESTENRA
(Unopened by her)
17 September
My dearest Lucy,
"It seems an age since I heard from you, or indeed since I wrote. You
will pardon me, I know, for all my faults when you have read all my budget of
news. Well, I got my husband back all right. When we arrived at Exeter
there was a carriage waiting for us, and in it, though he had an attack of
gout, Mr. Hawkins. He took us to his house, where there were rooms for
us all nice and comfortable, and we dined together. After dinner Mr.
Hawkins said,
" `My dears, I want to drink your health and prosperity, and may
every blessing attend you both. I know you both from children, and
have, with love and pride, seen you grow up. Now I want you to
make your home here with me. I have left to me neither chick nor
child. All are gone, and in my will I have left you everything.' I cried,
Lucy dear, as Jonathan and the old man clasped hands. Our evening was a very,
very happy one.
"So here we are, installed in this beautiful old house, and from both my
bedroom and the drawing room I can see the great elms of the cathedral close,
with their great black stems standing out against the old yellow stone of the
cathedral, and I can hear the rooks overhead cawing and cawing and chattering
and chattering and gossiping all day, after the manner of rooks—and
humans. I am busy, I need not tell you, arranging things and
housekeeping. Jonathan and Mr. Hawkins are busy all day, for now that
Jonathan is a partner, Mr. Hawkins wants to tell him all about the
clients.
"How is your dear mother getting on? I wish I could run up to town
for a day or two to see you, dear, but I, dare not go yet, with so much on my
shoulders, and Jonathan wants looking after still. He is beginning to put
some flesh on his bones again, but he was terribly weakened by the long
illness. Even now he sometimes starts out of his sleep in a sudden way
and awakes all trembling until I can coax him back to his usual
placidity. However, thank God, these occasions grow less frequent as the
days go on, and they will in time pass away altogether, I trust. And now I
have told you my news, let me ask yours. When are you to be married,
and where, and who is to perform the ceremony, and what are you to wear, and
is it to be a public or private wedding? Tell me all about it, dear, tell me
all about everything, for there is nothing which interests you which will not
be dear to me. Jonathan asks me to send his `respectful duty', but I do not
think that is good enough from the junior partner of the important firm
Hawkins & Harker. And so, as you love me, and he loves me, and I
love you with all the moods and tenses of the verb, I send you simply his
`love' instead. Goodbye, my dearest Lucy, and blessings on you."
Yours, Mina Harker
REPORT FROM PATRICK HENNESSEY, MD, MRCSLK, QCPI, ETC, ETC, TO JOHN SEWARD,
MD
20 September
My dear Sir:
"In accordance with your wishes, I enclose report of the conditions of
everything left in my charge. With regard to patient, Renfield, there is more
to say. He has had another outbreak, which might have had a dreadful
ending, but which, as it fortunately happened, was unattended with
any unhappy results. This afternoon a carrier's cart with two
men made a call at the empty house whose grounds abut on ours, the house
to which, you will remember, the patient twice ran away. The men stopped at
our gate to ask the porter their way, as they were strangers.
"I was myself looking out of the study window, having a smoke after
dinner, and saw one of them come up to the house. As he passed the window of
Renfield's room, the patient began to rate him from within, and called him
all the foul names he could lay his tongue to. The man, who seemed a
decent fellow enough, contented himself by telling him to `shut up for a
foul-mouthed beggar', whereon our man accused him of robbing him and wanting
to murder him and said that he would hinder him if he were to swing for
it. I opened the window and signed to the man not to notice, so he
contented himself after looking the place over and making up his mind as to
what kind of place he had got to by saying, `Lor' bless yer, sir, I wouldn't
mind what was said to me in a bloomin' madhouse. I pity ye and the
guv'nor for havin' to live in the house with a wild beast like that.'
"Then he asked his way civilly enough, and I told him where the gate of
the empty house was. He went away followed by threats and curses and
revilings from our man. I went down to see if I could make out any cause for
his anger, since he is usually such a well-behaved man, and except his
violent fits nothing of the kind had ever occurred. I found him, to my
astonishment, quite composed and most genial in his manner. I tried to
get him to talk of the incident, but he blandly asked me questions as to what
I meant, and led me to believe that he was completely oblivious of the
affair. It was, I am sorry to say, however, only another instance of his
cunning, for within half an hour I heard of him again. This time he had
broken out through the window of his room, and was running down the
avenue. I called to the attendants to follow me, and ran after him, for
I feared he was intent on some mischief. My fear was justified when I
saw the same cart which had passed before coming down the road, having on
it some great wooden boxes. The men were wiping their foreheads, and
were flushed in the face, as if with violent exercise. Before I could get up
to him, the patient rushed at them, and pulling one of them off the cart,
began to knock his head against the ground. If I had not seized him
just at the moment, I believe he would have killed the man there and
then. The other fellow jumped down and struck him over the head with the
butt end of his heavy whip. It was a horrible blow, but he did not seem
to mind it, but seized him also, and struggled with the three of us, pulling
us to and fro as if we were kittens. You know I am no lightweight, and the
others were both burly men. At first he was silent in his fighting, but as we
began to master him, and the attendants were putting a strait waistcoat on
him, he began to shout, `I'll frustrate them! They shan't rob
me! They shan't murder me by inches! I'll fight for my Lord and
Master!'and all sorts of similar incoherent ravings. It was with very
considerable difficulty that they got him back to the house and put him in
the padded room. One of the attendants, Hardy, had a finger
broken. However, I set it all right, and he is going on well.
"The two carriers were at first loud in their threats of actions for
damages, and promised to rain all the penalties of the law on us. Their
threats were, however, mingled with some sort of indirect apology for the
defeat of the two of them by a feeble madman. They said that if it had not
been for the way their strength had been spent in carrying and raising the
heavy boxes to the cart they would have made short work of him. They gave
as another reason for their defeat the extraordinary state of drouth to which
they had been reduced by the dusty nature of their occupation and the
reprehensible distance from the scene of their labors of any place of public
entertainment. I quite understood their drift, and after a stiff glass of
strong grog, or rather more of the same, and with each a sovereign in hand,
they made light of the attack, and swore that they would encounter a worse
madman any day for the pleasure of meeting so `bloomin' good a bloke' as your
correspondent. I took their names and addresses, in case they might be
needed. They are as follows: Jack Smollet, of Dudding's Rents, King
George's Road, Great Walworth, and Thomas Snelling, Peter Farley's Row, Guide
Court, Bethnal Green. They are both in the employment of Harris &
Sons, Moving and Shipment Company, Orange Master's Yard, Soho.
"I shall report to you any matter of interest occurring here, and shall
wire you at once if there is anything of importance.
"Believe me, dear Sir,
"Yours faithfully,
"Patrick Hennessey."
LETTER, MINA HARKER TO LUCY WESTENRA (Unopened by her)
18 September
"My dearest Lucy,
"Such a sad blow has befallen us. Mr. Hawkins has died very
suddenly. Some may not think it so sad for us, but we had both come to
so love him that it really seems as though we had lost a father. I never
knew either father or mother, so that the dear old man's death is a real blow
to me. Jonathan is greatly distressed. It is not only that he feels
sorrow, deep sorrow, for the dear, good man who has befriended him all his
life, and now at the end has treated him like his own son and left him a
fortune which to people of our modest bringing up is wealth beyond the
dream of avarice, but Jonathan feels it on another account. He says the
amount of responsibility which it puts upon him makes him nervous. He
begins to doubt himself. I try to cheer him up, and my belief in him
helps him to have a belief in himself. But it is here that the grave shock
that he experienced tells upon him the most. Oh, it is too hard that a
sweet, simple, noble, strong nature such as his, a nature which enabled him
by our dear, good friend's aid to rise from clerk to master in a few
years, should be so injured that the very essence of its strength is
gone. Forgive me, dear, if I worry you with my troubles in the midst of
your own happiness, but Lucy dear, I must tell someone, for the strain of
keeping up a brave and cheerful appearance to Jonathan tries me, and I have
no one here that I can confide in. I dread coming up to London, as we
must do that day after tomorrow, for poor Mr. Hawkins left in his will that
he was to be buried in the grave with his father. As there are no relations
at all, Jonathan will have to be chief mourner. I shall try to run over to
see you, dearest, if only for a few minutes. Forgive me for troubling
you. With all blessings,
"Your loving
Mina Harker"
DR. SEWARD' DIARY
20 September.—Only resolution and habit can let me make an entry
tonight. I am too miserable, too low spirited, too sick of the world and
all in it, including life itself, that I would not care if I heard this
moment the flapping of the wings of the angel of death. And he has been
flapping those grim wings to some purpose of late, Lucy's mother and Arthur's
father, and now. . . Let me get on with my work.
I duly relieved Van Helsing in his watch over Lucy. We wanted Arthur to
go to rest also, but he refused at first. It was only when I told him that we
should want him to help us during the day, and that we must not all break
down for want of rest, lest Lucy should suffer, that he agreed to go.
Van Helsing was very kind to him. "Come, my child," he said. "Come
with me. You are sick and weak, and have had much sorrow and
much mental pain, as well as that tax on your strength that we know
of. You must not be alone, for to be alone is to be full of fears and
alarms. Come to the drawing room, where there is a big fire, and there are
two sofas. You shall lie on one, and I on the other, and our sympathy will be
comfort to each other, even though we do not speak, and even if we
sleep."
Arthur went off with him, casting back a longing look on Lucy's
face, which lay in her pillow, almost whiter than the lawn. She lay quite
still, and I looked around the room to see that all was as it should
be. I could see that the Professor had carried out in this room, as in
the other, his purpose of using the garlic. The whole of the window sashes
reeked with it, and round Lucy's neck, over the silk handkerchief which Van
Helsing made her keep on, was a rough chaplet of the same odorous
flowers.
Lucy was breathing somewhat stertorously, and her face was at its
worst, for the open mouth showed the pale gums. Her teeth, in the
dim, uncertain light, seemed longer and sharper than they had been in the
morning. In particular, by some trick of the light, the canine teeth looked
longer and sharper than the rest.
I sat down beside her, and presently she moved uneasily. At the
same moment there came a sort of dull flapping or buffeting at the
window. I went over to it softly, and peeped out by the corner of the
blind. There was a full moonlight, and I could see that the noise was
made by a great bat, which wheeled around, doubtless attracted by the
light, although so dim, and every now and again struck the window with its
wings. When I came back to my seat, I found that Lucy had moved
slightly, and had torn away the garlic flowers from her throat. I
replaced them as well as I could, and sat watching her.
Presently she woke, and I gave her food, as Van Helsing had
prescribed. She took but a little, and that languidly. There did not
seem to be with her now the unconscious struggle for life and strength that
had hitherto so marked her illness. It struck me as curious that the moment
she became conscious she pressed the garlic flowers close to her. It was
certainly odd that whenever she got into that lethargic state, with the
stertorous breathing, she put the flowers from her, but that when she waked
she clutched them close, There was no possibility of making amy mistake about
this, for in the long hours that followed, she had many spells of sleeping
and waking and repeated both actions many times.
At six o'clock Van Helsing came to relieve me. Arthur had then
fallen into a doze, and he mercifully let him sleep on. When he saw Lucy's
face I could hear the sissing indraw of breath, and he said to me in a sharp
whisper."Draw up the blind. I want light!" Then he bent down, and, with
his face almost touching Lucy's, examined her carefully. He
removed the flowers and lifted the silk handkerchief from her throat. As
he did so he started back and I could hear his ejaculation, "Mein Gott!" as
it was smothered in his throat. I bent over and looked, too, and as I
noticed some queer chill came over me. The wounds on the throat had
absolutely disappeared.
For fully five minutes Van Helsing stood looking at her, with his face
at its sternest. Then he turned to me and said calmly, "She is
dying. It will not be long now. It will be much difference, mark
me, whether she dies conscious or in her sleep. Wake that poor boy, and let
him come and see the last. He trusts us, and we have promised him."
I went to the dining room and waked him. He was dazed for a
moment, but when he saw the sunlight streaming in through the edges of the
shutters he thought he was late, and expressed his fear. I assured him that
Lucy was still asleep, but told him as gently as i could that both Van
Helsing and I feared that the end was near. He covered his face with his
hands, and slid down on his knees by the sofa, where he remained, perhaps a
minute, with his head buried, praying, whilst his shoulders shook with
grief. I took him by the hand and raised him up. "Come," I said, "my
dear old fellow, summon all your fortitude. It will be best and easiest for
her."
When we came into Lucy's room I could see that Van Helsing had, with his
usual forethought, been putting matters straight and making everything look
as pleasing as possible. He had even brushed Lucy's hair, so that it
lay on the pillow in its usual sunny ripples. When we came into the room she
opened her eyes, and seeing him, whispered softly, "Arthur! Oh, my
love, I am so glad you have come!"
He was stooping to kiss her, when Van Helsing motioned him back. "No,"
he whispered, "not yet! Hold her hand, it will comfort her more."
So Arthur took her hand and knelt beside her, and she looked her
best, with all the soft lines matching the angelic beauty of her
eyes. Then gradually her eyes closed, and she sank to sleep. For a little
bit her breast heaved softly, and her breath came and went like a tired
child's.
And then insensibly there came the strange change which I had noticed in
the night. Her breathing grew stertorous, the mouth opened, and
the pale gums, drawn back, made the teeth look longer and sharper than
ever. In a sort of sleep-waking, vague, unconscious way she opened her
eyes, which were now dull and hard at once, and said in a soft, voluptuous
voice, such as I had never heard from her lips, "Arthur! Oh, my
love, I am so glad you have come! Kiss me!"
Arthur bent eagerly over to kiss her, but at that instant Van Helsing,
who, like me, had been startled by her voice, swooped upon him, and catching
him by the neck with both hands, dragged him back with a fury of strength
which I never thought he could have possessed, and actually hurled him
almost across the room.
"Not on your life!" he said, "not for your living soul and hers!" And he
stood between them like a lion at bay.
Arthur was so taken aback that he did not for a moment know what to do or
say, and before any impulse of violence could seize him he realized the
place and the occasion, and stood silent, waiting.
I kept my eyes fixed on Lucy, as did Van Helsing, and we saw a spasm as
of rage flit like a shadow over her face. The sharp teeth clamped
together. Then her eyes closed, and she breathed heavily.
Very shortly after she opened her eyes in all their softness, and
putting out her poor, pale, thin hand, took Van Helsing's great brown one,
drawing it close to her, she kissed it. "My true friend," she said, in a
faint voice, but with untellable pathos, "My true friend, and his! Oh,
guard him, and give me peace!"
"I swear it!" he said solemnly, kneeling beside her and holding up his
hand, as one who registers an oath. Then he turned to Arthur, and said
to him, "Come, my child, take her hand in yours, and kiss her on the
forehead, and only once."
Their eyes met instead of their lips, and so they parted. Lucy's eyes
closed, and Van Helsing, who had been watching closely, took Arthur's arm,
and drew him away.
And then Lucy's breathing became stertorous again, and all at once it
ceased.
"It is all over," said Van Helsing. "She is dead!"
I took Arthur by the arm, and led him away to the drawing room, where he
sat down, and covered his face with his hands, sobbing in a way that nearly
broke me down to see.
I went back to the room, and found Van Helsing looking at poor Lucy, and
his face was sterner than eve. Some change had come over her
body. Death had given back part of her beauty, for her brow and cheeks had
recovered some of their flowing lines. Even the lips had lost their
deadly pallor. It was as if the blood, no longer needed for the working of
the heart, had gone to make the harshness of death as little rude as might
be.
"We thought her dying whilst she slept, And sleeping when she died."
I stood beside Van Helsing, and said, "Ah well, poor girl, there is
peace for her at last. It is the end!"
He turned to me, and said with grave solemnity, "Not so, alas! Not
so. It is only the beginning!"
When I asked him what he meant, he only shook his head and answered, "We
can do nothing as yet. Wait and see."
CHAPTER 13
DR. SEWARD'S DIARY—cont.
The funeral was arranged for the next succeeding day, so that Lucy
and her mother might be buried together. I attended to all the ghastly
formalities, and the urbane undertaker proved that his staff was afflicted,
or blessed, with something of his own obsequious suavity. Even the
woman who performed the last offices for the dead remarked to me, in a
confidential, brother-professional way, when she had come out from the death
chamber,
"She makes a very beautiful corpse, sir. It's quite a privilege to
attend on her. It's not too much to say that she will do credit to our
establishment!"
I noticed that Van Helsing never kept far away. This was possible
from the disordered state of things in the household. There were no relatives
at hand, and as Arthur had to be back the next day to attend at his father's
funeral, we were unable to notify any one who should have been bidden.
Under the circumstances, Van Helsing and I took it upon ourselves to examine
papers, etc. He insisted upon looking over Lucy's papers himself. I asked
him why, for I feared that he, being a foreigner, might not be quite aware of
English legal requirements, and so might in ignorance make some unnecessary
trouble.
He answered me, "I know, I know. You forget that I am a lawyer as
well as a doctor. But this is not altogether for the law. You
knew that, when you avoided the coroner. I have more than him to avoid.
There may be papers more, such as this."
As he spoke he took from his pocket book the memorandum which had
been in Lucy's breast, and which she had torn in her sleep.
"When you find anything of the solicitor who is for the late Mrs.
Westenra, seal all her papers, and write him tonight. For me, I watch
here in the room and in Miss Lucy's old room all night, and I myself search
for what may be. It is not well that her very thoughts go into the hands of
strangers."
I went on with my part of the work, and in another half hour had found
the name and address of Mrs. Westenra's solicitor and had written to
him. All the poor lady's papers were in order. Explicit directions
regarding the place of burial were given. I had hardly sealed the letter,
when, to my surprise, Van Helsing walked into the room, saying,
"Can I help you friend John? I am free, and if I may, my service
is to you."
"Have you got what you looked for?" I asked.
To which he replied, "I did not look for any specific thing. I only
hoped to find, and find I have, all that there was, only some letters and a
few memoranda, and a diary new begun. But I have them here, and we shall for
the present say nothing of them. I shall see that poor lad tomorrow evening,
and, with his sanction, I shall use some."
When we had finished the work in hand, he said to me, "And now, friend
John, I think we may to bed. We want sleep, both you and I, and rest to
recuperate. Tomorrow we shall have much to do, but for the tonight
there is no need of us. Alas!"
Before turning in we went to look at poor Lucy. The undertaker had
certainly done his work well, for the room was turned into a small chapelle
ardente. There was a wilderness of beautiful white flowers, and death
was made as little repulsive as might be. The end of the winding sheet was
laid over the face. When the Professor bent over and turned it gently
back, we both started at the beauty before us. The tall wax candles
showing a sufficient light to note it well. All Lucy's loveliness had come
back to her in death, and the hours that had passed, instead of leaving
traces of `decay's effacing fingers', had but restored the beauty of
life, till positively I could not believe my eyes that I was looking at a
corpse.
The Professor looked sternly grave. He had not loved her as I had,
and there was no need for tears in his eyes. He said to me, "Remain till I
return," and left the room. He came back with a handful of wild garlic from
the box waiting in the hall, but which had not been opened, and placed the
flowers amongst the others on and around the bed. Then he took from his
neck, inside his collar, a little gold crucifix, and placed it over the
mouth. He restored the sheet to its place, and we came away.
I was undressing in my own room, when, with a premonitory tap at the
door, he entered, and at once began to speak.
"Tomorrow I want you to bring me, before night, a set of post-mortem
knives."
"Must we make an autopsy?" I asked.
"Yes and no. I want to operate, but not what you think. Let me
tell you now, but not a word to another. I want to cut off her head and
take out her heart. Ah! You a surgeon, and so shocked! You,
whom I have seen with no tremble of hand or heart, do operations of life and
death that make the rest shudder. Oh, but I must not forget, my
dear friend John, that you loved her, and I have not forgotten it for is I
that shall operate, and you must not help. I would like to do it tonight, but
for Arthur I must not. He will be free after his father's funeral tomorrow,
and he will want to see her, to see it. Then, when she is coffined
ready for the next day, you and I shall come when all sleep. We shall
unscrew the coffin lid, and shall do our operation, and then replace all, so
that none know, save we alone."
"But why do it at all? The girl is dead. Why mutilate her poor
body without need? And if there is no necessity for a post-mortem and
nothing to gain by it, no good to her, to us, to science, to human knowledge,
why do it? Without such it is monstrous."
For answer he put his hand on my shoulder, and said, with infinite
tenderness, "Friend John, I pity your poor bleeding heart, and I love you the
more because it does so bleed. If I could, I would take on myself the burden
that you do bear. But there are things that you know not, but that you shall
know, and bless me for knowing, though they are not pleasant things. John,
my child, you have been my friend now many years, and yet did you ever know
me to do any without good cause? I may err, I am but man, but I believe in
all I do. Was it not for these causes that you send for me when the
great trouble came? Yes! Were you not amazed, nay
horrified, when I would not let Arthur kiss his love, though she was
dying, and snatched him away by all my strength? Yes! And yet
you saw how she thanked me, with her so beautiful dying eyes, her voice,
too, so weak, and she kiss my rough old hand and bless me? Yes!
And did you not hear me swear promise to her, that so she closed her eyes
grateful? Yes!
"Well, I have good reason now for all I want to do. You have for many
years trust me. You have believe me weeks past, when there be things so
strange that you might have well doubt. Believe me yet a little, friend
John. If you trust me not, then I must tell what I think, and that is
not perhaps well. And if I work, as work I shall, no matter trust or no
trust, without my friend trust in me, I work with heavy heart and feel, oh
so lonely when I want all help and courage that may be!" He paused a moment
and went on solemnly, "Friend John, there are strange and terrible days
before us. Let us not be two, but one, that so we work to a good end. Will
you not have faith in me?"
I took his hand, and promised him. I held my door open as he went
away, and watched him go to his room and close the door. As I stood without
moving, I saw one of the maids pass silently along the passage, she had her
back to me, so did not see me, and go into the room where Lucy lay. The
sight touched me. Devotion is so rare, and we are so grateful to those who
show it unasked to those we love. Here was a poor girl putting
aside the terrors which she naturally had of death to go watch alone by
the bier of the mistress whom she loved, so that the poor clay might not be
lonely till laid to eternal rest.
I must have slept long and soundly, for it was broad daylight when Van
Helsing waked me by coming into my room. He came over to my bedside and
said, "You need not trouble about the knives. We shall not do it."
"Why not?" I asked. For his solemnity of the night
before had greatly impressed me.
"Because," he said sternly, "it is too late, or too early.
See!" Here he held up the little golden crucifix.
"This was stolen in the night."
"How stolen, "I asked in wonder, "since you have it now?"
"Because I get it back from the worthless wretch who stole it, from the
woman who robbed the dead and the living. Her punishment will surely come,
but not through me. She knew not altogether what she did, and thus
unknowing, she only stole. Now we must wait." He went away on the
word, leaving me with a new mystery to think of, a new puzzle to grapple
with.
The forenoon was a dreary time, but at noon the solicitor came, Mr.
Marquand, of Wholeman, Sons, Marquand & Lidderdale. He was very genial
and very appreciative of what we had done, and took off our hands all cares
as to details. During lunch he told us that Mrs. Westenra had for some
time expected sudden death from her heart, and had put her affairs in
absolute order. He informed us that, with the exception of a certain
entailed property of Lucy's father which now, in default of direct
issue, went back to a distant branch of the family, the whole estate, real
and personal, was left absolutely to Arthur Holmwood. When he had told us so
much he went on,
"Frankly we did our best to prevent such a testamentary disposition, and
pointed out certain contingencies that might leave her daughter either
penniless or not so free as she should be to act regarding a matrimonial
alliance. Indeed, we pressed the matter so far that we almost came into
collision, for she asked us if we were or were not prepared to carry out her
wishes. Of course, we had then no alternative but to accept. We were right
in principle, and ninety-nine times out of a hundred we should have proved,
by the logic of events, the accuracy of our judgment.
"Frankly, however, I must admit that in this case any other form
of disposition would have rendered impossible the carrying out of her
wishes. For by her predeceasing her daughter the latter would have come
into possession of the property, and, even had she only survived her
mother by five minutes, her property would, in case there were no
will, and a will was a practical impossibility in such a case, have
been treated at her decease as under intestacy. In which case Lord
Godalming, though so dear a friend, would have had no claim in the
world. And the inheritors, being remote, would not be likely to abandon
their just rights, for sentimental reasons regarding an entire stranger. I
assure you, my dear sirs, I am rejoiced at the result, perfectly
rejoiced."
He was a good fellow, but his rejoicing at the one little part, in which
he was officially interested, of so great a tragedy, was an object-lesson in
the limitations of sympathetic understanding.
He did not remain long, but said he would look in later in the day and
see Lord Godalming. His coming, however, had been a certain comfort to
us, since it assured us that we should not have to dread hostile criticism as
to any of our acts. Arthur was expected at five o'clock, so a little
before that time we visited the death chamber. It was so in very truth, for
now both mother and daughter lay in it. The undertaker, true to his craft,
had made the best display he could of his goods, and there was a mortuary air
about the place that lowered our spirits at once.
Van Helsing ordered the former arrangement to be adhered to, explaining
that, as Lord Godalming was coming very soon, it would be less harrowing to
his feelings to see all that was left of his fiancee quite alone.
The undertaker seemed shocked at his own stupidity and exerted himself
to restore things to the condition in which we left them the night before, so
that when Arthur came such shocks to his feelings as we could avoid were
saved.
Poor fellow! He looked desperately sad and broken. Even his
stalwart manhood seemed to have shrunk somewhat under the strain of his
much-tried emotions. He had, I knew, been very genuinely and devotedly
attached to his father, and to lose him, and at such a time, was a bitter
blow to him. With me he was warm as ever, and to Van Helsing he was sweetly
courteous. But I could not help seeing that there was some constraint with
him. The professor noticed it too, and motioned me to bring him
upstairs. I did so, and left him at the door of the room, as I felt he would
like to be quite alone with her, but he took my arm and led me in, saying
huskily,
"You loved her too, old fellow. She told me all about it, and
there was no friend had a closer place in her heart than you. I don't know
how to thank you for all you have done for her. I can't think yet. .
."
Here he suddenly broke down, and threw his arms round my shoulders and
laid his head on my breast, crying, "Oh, Jack! Jack! What shall I
do? The whole of life seems gone from me all at once, and there is
nothing in the wide world for me to live for."
I comforted him as well as I could. In such cases men do not
need much expression. A grip of the hand, the tightening of an
arm over the shoulder, a sob in unison, are expressions of sympathy
dear to a man's heart. I stood still and silent till his sobs died
away, and then I said softly to him, "Come and look at her."
Together we moved over to the bed, and I lifted the lawn from her
face. God! How beautiful she was. Every hour seemed to be
enhancing her loveliness. It frightened and amazed me somewhat. And as
for Arthur, he fell to trembling, and finally was shaken with doubt as with
an ague. At last, after a long pause, he said to me in a faint
whisper, "Jack, is she really dead?"
I assured him sadly that it was so, and went on to suggest, for I
felt that such a horrible doubt should not have life for a moment longer than
I could help, that it often happened that after death faces become
softened and even resolved into their youthful beauty, that this was
especially so when death had been preceded by any acute or prolonged
suffering. I seemed to quite do away with any doubt, and after kneeling
beside the couch for a while and looking at her lovingly and long, he turned
aside. I told him that that must be goodbye, as the coffin had to be
prepared, so he went back and took her dead hand in his and kissed it, and
bent over and kissed her forehead. He came away, fondly looking back
over his shoulder at her as he came.
I left him in the drawing room, and told Van Helsing that he had said
goodbye, so the latter went to the kitchen to tell the undertaker's men to
proceed with the preperations and to screw up the coffin. When he came
out of the room again I told him of Arthur's question, and he replied, "I am
not surprised. Just now I doubted for a moment myself!"
We all dined together, and I could see that poor Art was trying to make
the best of things. Van Helsing had been silent all dinner time, but
when we had lit our cigars he said, "Lord. . ., but Arthur interrupted
him.
"No, no, not that, for God's sake! Not yet at any rate. Forgive
me, sir. I did not mean to speak offensively. It is only because my
loss is so recent."
The Professor answered very sweetly, "I only used that name because I
was in doubt. I must not call you `Mr.' and I have grown to love you,
yes, my dear boy, to love you, as Arthur."
Arthur held out his hand, and took the old man's warmly. "Call me what
you will," he said. "I hope I may always have the title of a
friend. And let me say that I am at a loss for words to thank you for
your goodness to my poor dear." He paused a moment, and went on, "I know that
she understood your goodness even better than I do. And if I was rude
or in any way wanting at that time you acted so, you remember,"— the
Professor nodded—"You must forgive me."
He answered with a grave kindness, "I know it was hard for you to quite
trust me then, for to trust such violence needs to understand, and I take it
that you do not, that you cannot, trust me now, for you do not yet
understand. And there may be more times when I shall want you to trust
when you cannot, and may not, and must not yet understand. But the time will
come when your trust shall be whole and complete in me, and when you shall
understand as though the sunlight himself shone through. Then you shall bless
me from first to last for your own sake, and for the sake of others, and for
her dear sake to whom I swore to protect."
"And indeed, indeed, sir," said Arthur warmly. "I shall in all
ways trust you. I know and believe you have a very noble heart, and you
are Jack's friend, and you were hers. You shall do what you like."
The Professor cleared his throat a couple of times, as though about to
speak, and finally said, "May I ask you something now?"
"Certainly."
"You know that Mrs. Westenra left you all her property?"
"No, poor dear. I never thought of it."
"And as it is all yours, you have a right to deal with it as you will. I
want you to give me permission to read all Miss Lucy's papers and
letters. Believe me, it is no idle curiosity. I have a motive of which,
be sure, she would have approved. I have them all here. I took
them before we knew that all was yours, so that no strange hand might touch
them, no strange eye look through words into her soul. I shall keep
them, if I may. Even you may not see them yet, but I shall keep them
safe. No word shall be lost, and in the good time I shall give them back to
you. It is a hard thing that I ask, but you will do it, will you not, for
Lucy's sake?"
Arthur spoke out heartily, like his old self, "Dr. Van Helsing, you may
do what you will. I feel that in saying this I am doing what my dear
one would have approved. I shall not trouble you with questions till
the time comes."
The old Professor stood up as he said solemnly, "And you are
right. There will be pain for us all, but it will not be all pain, nor
will this pain be the last. We and you too, you most of all, dear
boy, will have to pass through the bitter water before we reach the
sweet. But we must be brave of heart and unselfish, and do our duty, and
all will be well!"
I slept on a sofa in Arthur's room that night. Van Helsing did
not go to bed at all. He went to and fro, as if patroling the
house, and was never out of sight of the room where Lucy lay in her
coffin, strewn with the wild garlic flowers, which sent through the
odor of lily and rose, a heavy, overpowering smell into the night.
MINA HARKER'S JOURNAL
22 September.—In the train to Exeter. Jonathan sleeping. It
seems only yesterday that the last entry was made, and yet how much between
then, in Whitby and all the world before me, Jonathan away and no news of
him, and now, married to Jonathan, Jonathan a solicitor, a partner, rich,
master of his business, Mr. Hawkins dead and buried, and Jonathan with
another attack that may harm him. Some day he may ask me about
it. Down it all goes. I am rusty in my shorthand, see what
unexpected prosperity does for us, so it may be as well to freshen it
up again with an exercise anyhow.
The service was very simple and very solemn. There were
only ourselves and the servants there, one or two old friends of his from
Exeter, his London agent, and a gentleman representing Sir John Paxton, the
President of the Incorporated Law Society. Jonathan and I stood hand in hand,
and we felt that our best and dearest friend was gone from us.
We came back to town quietly, taking a bus to Hyde Park Corner. Jonathan
thought it would interest me to go into the Row for a while, so we sat
down. But there were very few people there, and it was sad-looking and
desolate to see so many empty chairs. It made us think of the empty chair at
home. So we got up and walked down Piccadilly. Jonathan was
holding me by the arm, the way he used to in the old days before I went to
school. I felt it very improper, for you can't go on for some
years teaching etiquette and decorum to other girls without the
pedantry of it biting into yourself a bit. But it was Jonathan, and
he was my husband, and we didn't know anybody who saw us, and we didn't care
if they did, so on we walked. I was looking at a very beautiful girl, in a
big cart-wheel hat, sitting in a victoria outside Guiliano's, when I felt
Jonathan clutch my arm so tight that he hurt me, and he said under his
breath, "My God!"
I am always anxious about Jonathan, for I fear that some nervous fit may
upset him again. So I turned to him quickly, and asked him what it was
that disturbed him.
He was very pale, and his eyes seemed bulging out as, half in terror and
half in amazement, he gazed at a tall, thin man, with a beaky nose and black
moustache and pointed beard, who was also observing the pretty girl. He
was looking at her so hard that he did not see either of us, and so I had a
good view of him. His face was not a good face. It was hard, and
cruel, and sensual, and big white teeth, that looked all the
whiter because his lips were so red, were pointed like an
animal's. Jonathan kept staring at him, till I was afraid he would
notice. I feared he might take it ill, he looked so fierce and nasty. I
asked Jonathan why he was disturbed, and he answered, evidently thinking that
I knew as much about it as he did, "Do you see who it is?"
"No, dear," I said. "I don't know him, who is it?" His answer
seemed to shock and thrill me, for it was said as if he did not know that it
was me, Mina, to whom he was speaking. "It is the man himself!"
The poor dear was evidently terrified at something, very greatly
terrified. I do believe that if he had not had me to lean on and to support
him he would have sunk down. He kept staring. A man came out of
the shop with a small parcel, and gave it to the lady, who then drove
off. Th e dark man kept his eyes fixed on her, and when the carriage
moved up Piccadilly he followed in the same direction, and hailed a
hansom. Jonathan kept looking after him, and said, as if to himself,
"I believe it is the Count, but he has grown young. My God, if
this be so! Oh, my God! My God! If only I knew! If
only I knew!" He was distressing himself so much that I feared to keep his
mind on the subject by asking him any questions, so I remained silent. I
drew away quietly, and he, holding my arm, came easily. We walked a little
further, and then went in and sat for a while in the Green Park. It was
a hot day for autumn, and there was a comfortable seat in a shady
place. After a few minutes' staring at nothing, Jonathan's eyes
closed, and he went quickly into a sleep, with his head on my shoulder. I
thought it was the best thing for him, so did not disturb him. In about
twenty minutes he woke up, and said to me quite cheerfully,
"Why, Mina, have I been asleep! Oh, do forgive me for being so
rude. Come, and we'll have a cup of tea somewhere."
He had evidently forgotten all about the dark stranger, as in his
illness he had forgotten all that this episode had reminded him of. I
don't like this lapsing into forgetfulness. It may make or continue some
injury to the brain. I must not ask him, for fear I shall do more harm than
good, but I must somehow learn the facts of his journey abroad. The time
is come, I fear, when I must open the parcel, and know what is written.
Oh, Jonathan, you will, I know, forgive me if I do wrong, but it is for your
own dear sake.
Later.—A sad homecoming in every way, the house empty of the dear
soul who was so good to us. Jonathan still pale and dizzy under a
slight relapse of his malady, and now a telegram from Van Helsing, whoever he
may be. "You will be grieved to hear that Mrs. Westenra died five days
ago, and that Lucy died the day before yesterday. They were both buried
today."
Oh, what a wealth of sorrow in a few words! Poor Mrs.
Westenra! Poor Lucy! Gone, gone, never to return to us! And
poor, poor Arthur, to have lost such a sweetness out of his life! God help
us all to bear our troubles.
DR. SEWARD'S DIARY-CONT.
22 September.—It is all over. Arthur has gone back to
Ring, and has taken Quincey Morris with him. What a fine fellow is
Quincey! I believe in my heart of hearts that he suffered as much about
Lucy's death as any of us, but he bore himself through it like a moral
Viking. If America can go on breeding men like that, she will be a
power in the world indeed. Van Helsing is lying down, having a rest
preparatory to his journey. He goes to Amsterdam tonight, but says he returns
tomorrow night, that he only wants to make some arrangements which can
only be made personally. He is to stop with me then, if he can. He
says he has work to do in London which may take him some time. Poor old
fellow! I fear that the strain of the past week has broken down even
his iron strength. All the time of the burial he was, I could see,
putting some terrible restraint on himself. When it was all over, we were
standing beside Arthur, who, poor fellow, was speaking of his part in the
operation where his blood had been transfused to his Lucy's veins. I could
see Van Helsing's face grow white and purple by turns. Arthur was saying that
he felt since then as if they two had been really married, and that she was
his wife in the sight of God. None of us said a word of the other operations,
and none of us ever shall. Arthur and Quincey went away together to
the station, and Van Helsing and I came on here. The moment we were alone in
the carriage he gave way to a regular fit of hysterics. He has denied
to me since that it was hysterics, and insisted that it was only his
sense of humor asserting itself under very terrible conditions. He laughed
till he cried, and I had to draw down the blinds lest any one should see us
and misjudge. And then he cried, till he laughed again, and laughed and
cried together, just as a woman does. I tried to be stern with him, as
one is to a woman under the circumstances, but it had no effect. Men and
women are so different in manifestations of nervous strength or
weakness! Then when his face grew grave and stern again I asked him why
his mirth, and why at such a time. His reply was in a way characteristic of
him, for it was logical and forceful and mysterious. He said,
"Ah, you don't comprehend, friend John. Do not think that I am not
sad, though I laugh. See, I have cried even when the laugh did choke
me. But no more think that I am all sorry when I cry, for the laugh he
come just the same. Keep it always with you that laughter who knock at
your door and say, `May I come in?' is not true laughter. No! He
is a king, and he come when and how he like. He ask no person, he
choose no time of suitability. He say, `I am here.' Behold, in example
I grieve my heart out for that so sweet young girl. I give my blood for
her, though I am old and worn. I give my time, my skill, my sleep. I
let my other sufferers want that she may have all. And yet I can laugh at her
very grave, laugh when the clay from the spade of the sexton drop upon her
coffin and say `Thud, thud!' to my heart, till it send back the blood from my
cheek. My heart bleed for that poor boy, that dear boy, so of the age of
mine own boy had I been so blessed that he live, and with his hair and eyes
the same.
"There, you know now why I love him so. And yet when he say things
that touch my husband-heart to the quick, and make my father-heart yearn to
him as to no other man, not even you, friend John, for we are more level in
experiences than father and son, yet even at such a moment King Laugh he
come to me and shout and bellow in my ear,`Here I am! Here I am!' till the
blood come dance back and bring some of the sunshine that he carry with him
to my cheek. Oh, friend John, it is a strange world, a sad world, a
world full of miseries, and woes, and troubles. And yet when
King Laugh come, he make them all dance to the tune he play. Bleeding
hearts, and dry bones of the churchyard, and tears that burn as they fall,
all dance together to the music that he make with that smileless mouth of
him. And believe me, friend John, that he is good to come, and
kind. Ah, we men and women are like ropes drawn tight with strain that
pull us different ways. Then tears come, and like the rain on the ropes, they
brace us up, until perhaps the strain become too great, and we break. But
King Laugh he come like the sunshine, and he ease off the strain again, and
we bear to go on with our labor, what it may be."
I did not like to wound him by pretending not to see his idea, but as I
did not yet understand the cause of his laughter, I asked him. As he answered
me his face grew stern, and he said in quite a different tone,
"Oh, it was the grim irony of it all, this so lovely lady garlanded with
flowers, that looked so fair as life, till one by one we wondered if she were
truly dead, she laid in that so fine marble house in that lonely churchyard,
where rest so many of her kin, laid there with the mother who loved her, and
whom she loved, and that sacred bell going "Toll! Toll! Toll!' so
sad and slow, and those holy men, with the white garments of the
angel, pretending to read books, and yet all the time their eyes never
on the page, and all of us with the bowed head. And all for
what? She is dead, so! Is it not?"
"Well, for the life of me, Professor," I said, "I can't see anything to
laugh at in all that. Why, your expression makes it a harder puzzle
than before. But even if the burial service was comic, what about poor
Art and his trouble? Why his heart was simply breaking."
"Just so. Said he not that the transfusion of his blood to her
veins had made her truly his bride?"
"Yes, and it was a sweet and comforting idea for him."
"Quite so. But there was a difficulty, friend John. If so that,
then what about the others? Ho, ho! Then this so sweet maid is a
polyandrist, and me, with my poor wife dead to me, but alive by Church's law,
though no wits, all gone, even I, who am faithful husband to this
now-no-wife, am bigamist."
"I don't see where the joke comes in there either!" I said, and
I did not feel particularly pleased with him for saying such things. He
laid his hand on my arm, and said,
"Friend John, forgive me if I pain. I showed not my feeling to
others when it would wound, but only to you, my old friend, whom I can
trust. If you could have looked into my heart then when I want to
laugh, if you could have done so when the laugh arrived, if you could do so
now, when King Laugh have pack up his crown, and all that is to him, for
he go far, far away from me, and for a long, long time, maybe you would
perhaps pity me the most of all."
I was touched by the tenderness of his tone, and asked why.
"Because I know!"
And now we are all scattered, and for many a long day loneliness will
sit over our roofs with brooding wings. Lucy lies in the tomb of her
kin, a lordly death house in a lonely churchyard, away from teeming
London, where the air is fresh, and the sun rises over Hampstead Hill, and
where wild flowers grow of their own accord.
So I can finish this diary, and God only knows if I shall ever begin
another. If I do, or if I even open this again, it will be to deal with
different people and different themes, for here at the end, where the romance
of my life is told, ere I go back to take up the thread of my life-work, I
say sadly and without hope, "FINIS".
THE WESTMINSTER GAZETTE, 25 SEPTEMBER A HAMPSTEAD MYSTERY
The neighborhood of Hampstead is just at present exercised with a
series of events which seem to run on lines parallel to those of what was
known to the writers of headlines and "The Kensington Horror," or "The
Stabbing Woman," or "The Woman in Black." During the past two or three
days several cases have occurred of young children straying from home or
neglecting to return from their playing on the Heath. In all these cases the
children were too young to give any properly intelligible account of
themselves, but the consensus of their excuses is that they had been with a
"bloofer lady." It has always been late in the evening when they have been
missed, and on two occasions the children have not been found until early in
the following morning. It is generally supposed in the neighborhood
that, as the first child missed gave as his reason for being away that a
"bloofer lady" had asked him to come for a walk, the others had picked up the
phrase and used it as occasion served. This is the more natural as the
favorite game of the little ones at present is luring each other away by
wiles. A correspondent writes us that to see some of the tiny
tots pretending to be the"bloofer lady" is supremely funny. Some of our
caricaturists might, he says, take a lesson in the irony of grotesque by
comparing the reality and the picture. It is only in accordance with general
principles of human nature that the "bloofer lady" should be the popular
role at these al fresco performances. Our correspondent naively says
that even Ellen Terry could not be so winningly attractive as some of these
grubby-faced little children pretend, and even imagine themselves, to
be.
There is, however, possibly a serious side to the question, for some of
the children, indeed all who have been missed at night, have been slightly
torn or wounded in the throat. The wounds seem such as might be made by a rat
or a small dog, and although of not much importance individually, would
tend to show that whatever animal inflicts them has a system or method of
its own. The police of the division have been instructed to keep a
sharp lookout for straying children, especially when very young, in and
around Hampstead Heath, and for any stray dog which may be about.
THE WESTMINSTER GAZETTE, 25 SEPTEMBER EXTRA SPECIAL
THE HAMPSTEAD HORROR
ANOTHER CHILD INJURED
THE "BLOOFER LADY"
We have just received intelligence that another child, missed last
night, was only discovered late in the morning under a furze bush at the
Shooter's Hill side of Hampstead Heath, which is perhaps, less frequented
than the other parts. It has the same tiny wound in the throat as has been
noticed in other cases. It was terribly weak, and looked quite
emaciated. It too, when partially restored, had the common story to
tell of being lured away by the "bloofer lady".
CHAPTER 14
MINA HARKER'S JOURNAL
23 September.—Jonathan is better after a bad night. I am so glad
that he has plenty of work to do, for that keeps his mind off the terrible
things, and oh, I am rejoiced that he is not now weighed down with the
responsibility of his new position. I knew he would be true to himself, and
now how proud I am to see my Jonathan rising to the height of his advancement
and keeping pace in all ways with the duties that come upon him. He
will be away all day till late, for he said he could not lunch at home. My
household work is done, so I shall take his foreign journal, and lock myself
up in my room and read it.
24 September.—I hadn't the heart to write last night, that terrible
record of Jonathan's upset me so. Poor dear! How he must have suffered,
whether it be true or only imagination. I wonder if there is any truth in it
at all. Did he get his brain fever, and then write all those terrible
things, or had he some cause for it all? I suppose I shall never
know, for I dare not open the subject to him. And yet that man
we saw yesterday! He seemed quite certain of him, poor fellow! I
suppose it was the funeral upset him and sent his mind back on some train of
thought.
He believes it all himself. I remember how on our wedding day he
said "Unless some solemn duty come upon me to go back to the bitter hours,
asleep or awake, mad or sane. . ." There seems to be through it all some
thread of continuity. That fearful Count was coming to London. If it
should be, and he came to London, with its teeming millions. . .There
may be a solemn duty, and if it come we must not shrink from it. I shall
be prepared. I shall get my typewriter this very hour and begin
transcribing. Then we shall be ready for other eyes if required.
And if it be wanted, then, perhaps, if I am ready, poor Jonathan may not be
upset, for I can speak for him and never let him be troubled or worried with
it at all. If ever Jonathan quite gets over the nervousness he may want to
tell me of it all, and I can ask him questions and find out things, and see
how I may comfort him.
LETTER, VAN HELSING TO MRS. HARKER
24 September
(Confidence)
"Dear Madam,
"I pray you to pardon my writing, in that I am so far friend as that I
sent to you sad news of Miss Lucy Westenra's death. By the kindness of Lord
Godalming, I am empowered to read her letters and papers, for I am deeply
concerned about certain matters vitally important. In them I find some
letters from you, which show how great friends you were and how you love
her. Oh, Madam Mina, by that love, I implore you, help me. It is for
others' good that I ask, to redress great wrong, and to lift much and
terrible troubles, that may be more great than you can know. May it be
that I see you? You can trust me. I am friend of Dr. John Seward and of
Lord Godalming (that was Arthur of Miss Lucy). I must keep it private
for the present from all. I should come to Exeter to see you at
once if you tell me I am privilege to come, and where and when. I implore
your pardon, Madam. I have read your letters to poor Lucy, and know how
good you are and how your husband suffer. So I pray you, if it may be,
enlighten him not, least it may harm. Again your pardon, and forgive
me.
"VAN HELSING"
TELEGRAM, MRS. HARKER TO VAN HELSING
25 September.—Come today by quarter past ten train if you can catch
it. Can see you any time you call. "WILHELMINA HARKER"
MINA HARKER'S JOURNAL
25 September.—I cannot help feeling terribly excited as the
time draws near for the visit of Dr. Van Helsing, for somehow I
expect that it will throw some light upon Jonathan's sad experience, and
as he attended poor dear Lucy in her last illness, he can tell me all about
her. That is the reason of his coming. It is concerning Lucy and her
sleep-walking, and not about Jonathan. Then I shall never know the real truth
now! How silly I am. That awful journal gets hold of my imagination and
tinges everything with something of its own color. Of course it is
about Lucy. That habit came back to the poor dear, and that awful night
on the cliff must have made her ill. I had almost forgotten in my own affairs
how ill she was afterwards. She must have told him of her sleep-walking
adventure on the cliff, and that I knew all about it, and now he wants me
to tell him what I know, so that he may understand. I hope I did right in not
saying anything of it to Mrs. Westenra. I should never forgive myself if any
act of mine, were it even a negative one, brought harm on poor dear
Lucy. I hope too, Dr. Van Helsing will not blame me. I have had so much
trouble and anxiety of late that I feel I cannot bear more just at
present.
I suppose a cry does us all good at times, clears the air as other rain
does. Perhaps it was reading the journal yesterday that upset me, and
then Jonathan went away this morning to stay away from me a whole day and
night, the first time we have been parted since our marriage. I do hope
the dear fellow will take care of himself, and that nothing will occur to
upset him. It is two o'clock, and the doctor will be here soon now. I
shall say nothing of Jonathan's journal unless he asks me. I am so glad I
have typewritten out my own journal, so that, in case he asks about Lucy, I
can hand it to him. It will save much questioning.
Later.—He has come and gone. Oh, what a strange meeting, and how
it all makes my head whirl round. I feel like one in a dream. Can
it be all possible, or even a part of it? If I had not read Jonathan's
journal first, I should never have accepted even a possibility. Poor,
poor, dear Jonathan! How he must have suffered. Please the good God,
all this may not upset him again. I shall try to save him from
it. But it may be even a consolation and a help to him, terrible though it
be and awful in its consequences, to know for certain that his eyes and ears
and brain did not deceive him, and that it is all true. It may be that
it is the doubt which haunts him, that when the doubt is removed, no
matter which, waking or dreaming, may prove the truth, he will be more
satisfied and better able to bear the shock. Dr. Van Helsing must be a good
man as well as a clever one if he is Arthur's friend and Dr. Seward's, and if
they brought him all the way from Holland to look after Lucy. I feel
from having seen him that he is good and kind and of a noble nature. When
he comes tomorrow I shall ask him about Jonathan. And then, please God,
all this sorrow and anxiety may lead to a good end. I used to think I would
like to practice interviewing. Jonathan's friend on "The Exeter News" told
him that memory is everything in such work, that you must be able to
put down exactly almost every word spoken, even if you had to refine some
of it afterwards. Here was a rare interview. I shall try to record it
verbatim.
It was half-past two o'clock when the knock came. I took my courage a
deux mains and waited. In a few minutes Mary opened the door, and
announced "Dr. Van Helsing".
I rose and bowed, and he came towards me, a man of medium
weight, strongly built, with his shoulders set back over a broad, deep
chest and a neck well balanced on the trunk as the head is on the
neck. The poise of the head strikes me at once as indicative of thought and
power. The head is noble, well-sized, broad, and large behind the
ears. The face, clean-shaven, shows a hard, square chin, a large
resolute, mobile mouth, a good-sized nose, rather straight, but with
quick, sensitive nostrils, that seem to broaden as the big bushy brows come
down and the mouth tightens. The forehead is broad and fine, rising at
first almost straight and then sloping back above two bumps or ridges wide
apart, such a forehead that the reddish hair cannot possibly tumble over
it, but falls naturally back and to the sides. Big, dark blue eyes are
set widely apart, and are quick and tender or stern with the man's
moods. He said to me,
"Mrs. Harker, is it not?" I bowed assent.
"That was Miss Mina Murray?" Again I assented.
"It is Mina Murray that I came to see that was friend of that poor dear
child Lucy Westenra. Madam Mina, it is on account of the dead that I
come."
"Sir," I said, "you could have no better claim on me than that you were
a friend and helper of Lucy Westenra."And I held out my hand. He took it and
said tenderly,
"Oh, Madam Mina, I know that the friend of that poor little girl must be
good, but I had yet to learn. . ." He finished his speech with a
courtly bow. I asked him what it was that he wanted to see me about, so he at
once began.
"I have read your letters to Miss Lucy. Forgive me, but I had to
begin to inquire somewhere, and there was none to ask. I know that you were
with her at Whitby. She sometimes kept a diary, you need not look
surprised, Madam Mina. It was begun after you had left, and was an imitation
of you, and in that diary she traces by inference certain things to a
sleep-walking in which she puts down that you saved her. In great perplexity
then I come to you, and ask you out of your so much kindness to tell me all
of it that you can remember."
"I can tell you, I think, Dr. Van Helsing, all about it."
"Ah, then you have good memory for facts, for details? It is not always
so with young ladies."
"No, doctor, but I wrote it all down at the time. I can show it to you
if you like."
"Oh, Madam Mina, I well be grateful. You will do me much
favor."
I could not resist the temptation of mystifying him a bit, I suppose it
is some taste of the original apple that remains still in our mouths, so I
handed him the shorthand diary. He took it with a grateful bow, and said,
"May I read it?"
"If you wish," I answered as demurely as I could. He opened it, and for
an instant his face fell. Then he stood up and bowed.
"Oh, you so clever woman!" he said. "I knew long that Mr. Jonathan
was a man of much thankfulness, but see, his wife have all the good
things. And will you not so much honor me and so help me as to read it for
me? Alas! I know not the shorthand."
By this time my little joke was over, and I was almost ashamed. So I
took the typewritten copy from my work basket and handed it to him.
"Forgive me," I said. "I could not help it, but I had
been thinking that it was of dear Lucy that you wished to ask, and so that
you might not have time to wait, not on my account, but because I know your
time must be precious, I have written it out on the typewriter for
you."
He took it and his eyes glistened. "You are so good," he
said. "And may I read it now? I may want to ask you some things when
I have read."
"By all means," I said. "read it over whilst I order lunch, and
then you can ask me questions whilst we eat."
He bowed and settled himself in a chair with his back to the light, and
became so absorbed in the papers, whilst I went to see after lunch chiefly in
order that he might not be disturbed. When I came back, I found him walking
hurriedly up and down the room, his face all ablaze with excitement. He
rushed up to me and took me by both hands.
"Oh, Madam Mina," he said, "how can I say what I owe to you? This
paper is as sunshine. It opens the gate to me. I am dazed, I am
dazzled, with so much light, and yet clouds roll in behind the light every
time. But that you do not, cannot comprehend. Oh, but I am grateful to
you, you so clever woman. Madame," he said this very solemnly, "if ever
Abraham Van Helsing can do anything for you or yours, I trust you will let me
know. It will be pleasure and delight if I may serve you as a friend, as a
friend, but all I have ever learned, all I can ever do, shall be for you
and those you love. There are darknesses in life, and there are
lights. You are one of the lights. You will have a happy life and a
good life, and your husband will be blessed in you."
"But, doctor, you praise me too much, and you do not know me."
"Not know you, I, who am old, and who have studied all my life men and
women, I who have made my specialty the brain and all that belongs to him and
all that follow from him! And I have read your diary that you have so goodly
written for me, and which breathes out truth in every line. I, who have
read your so sweet letter to poor Lucy of your marriage and your
trust, not know you! Oh, Madam Mina, good women tell all their
lives, and by day and by hour and by minute, such things that angels can
read. And we men who wish to know have in us something of angels'
eyes. Your husband is noble nature, and you are noble too, for you
trust, and trust cannot be where there is mean nature. And your husband, tell
me of him. Is he quite well? Is all that fever gone, and is he strong
and hearty?"
I saw here an opening to ask him about Jonathan, so I said, "He was
almost recovered, but he has been greatly upset by Mr. Hawkins death."
He interrupted, "Oh, yes. I know. I know. I have
read your last two letters."
I went on, "I suppose this upset him, for when we were in town on
Thursday last he had a sort of shock."
"A shock, and after brain fever so soon! That is not good. What
kind of shock was it?"
"He thought he saw some one who recalled something terrible, something
which led to his brain fever." And here the whole thing seemed to
overwhelm me in a rush. The pity for Jonathan, the horror which he
experienced, the whole fearful mystery of his diary, and the fear that has
been brooding over me ever since, all came in a tumult. I suppose I was
hysterical, for I threw myself on my knees and held up my hands to him, and
implored him to make my husband well again. He took my hands and raised me
up, and made me sit on the sofa, and sat by me. He held my hand in his,
and said to me with, oh, such infinite sweetness,
"My life is a barren and lonely one, and so full of work that I have not
had much time for friendships, but since I have been summoned to here by my
friend John Seward I have known so many good people and seen such nobility
that I feel more than ever, and it has grown with my advancing years, the
loneliness of my life. Believe me, then, that I come here full of respect for
you, and you have given me hope, hope, not in what I am seeking of, but
that there are good women still left to make life happy, good women, whose
lives and whose truths may make good lesson for the children that are to
be. I am glad, glad, that I may here be of some use to you. For
if your husband suffer, he suffer within the range of my study and
experience. I promise you that I will gladly do all for him that I
can, all to make his life strong and manly, and your life a happy one. Now
you must eat. You are overwrought and perhaps over-anxious. Husband
Jonathan would not like to see you so pale, and what he like not where he
love, is not to his good. Therefore for his sake you must eat and
smile. You have told me about Lucy, and so now we shall not speak of
it, lest it distress. I shall stay in Exeter tonight, for I want to think
much over what you have told me, and when I have thought I will ask you
questions, if I may. And then too, you will tell me of husband
Jonathan's trouble so far as you can, but not yet. You must eat now,
afterwards you shall tell me all."
After lunch, when we went back to the drawing room, he said to me, "And
now tell me all about him."
When it came to speaking to this great learned man, I began to fear that
he would think me a weak fool, and Jonathan a madman, that journal is all so
strange, and I hesitated to go on. But he was so sweet and kind, and he had
promised to help, and I trusted him, so I said,
"Dr. Van Helsing, what I have to tell you is so queer that you must not
laugh at me or at my husband. I have been since yesterday in a sort of fever
of doubt. You must be kind to me, and not think me foolish that I
have even half believed some very strange things."
He reassured me by his manner as well as his words when he said, "Oh, my
dear, if you only know how strange is the matter regarding which I am here,
it is you who would laugh. I have learned not to think little of any one's
belief, no matter how strange it may be. I have tried to keep an open
mind, and it is not the ordinary things of life that could close it, but
the strange things, the extraordinary things, the things that make one doubt
if they be mad or sane."
"Thank you, thank you a thousand times! You have taken a weight off
my mind. If you will let me, I shall give you a paper to read. It is
long, but I have typewritten it out. It will tell you my trouble and
Jonathan's. It is the copy of his journal when abroad, and all that
happened. I dare not say anything of it. You will read for yourself and
judge. And then when I see you, perhaps, you will be very kind and tell
me what you think."
"I promise," he said as I gave him the papers. "I shall in the
morning, as soon as I can, come to see you and your husband, if I may."
"Jonathan will be here at half-past eleven, and you must come to lunch
with us and see him then. You could catch the quick 3:34 train, which
will leave you at Paddington before eight." He was surprised at my knowledge
of the trains offhand, but he does not know that I have made up all the
trains to and from Exeter, so that I may help Jonathan in case he is in a
hurry.
So he took the papers with him and went away, and I sit here
thinking, thinking I don't know what.
LETTER (by hand), VAN HELSING TO MRS. HARKER
25 September, 6 o'clock
"Dear Madam Mina,
"I have read your husband's so wonderful diary. You may sleep without
doubt. Strange and terrible as it is, it is true! I will pledge my life
on it. It may be worse for others, but for him and you there is no
dread. He is a noble fellow, and let me tell you from experience of men, that
one who would do as he did in going down that wall and to that room,
aye, and going a second time, is not one to be injured in permanence by a
shock. His brain and his heart are all right, this I swear, before I have
even seen him, so be at rest. I shall have much to ask him of other
things. I am blessed that today I come to see you, for I have learn all at
once so much that again I am dazzled, dazzled more than ever, and I must
think.
"Yours the most faithful,
"Abraham Van Helsing."
LETTER, MRS. HARKER TO VAN HELSING
25 September, 6:30 P.M.
"My dear Dr. Van Helsing,
"A thousand thanks for your kind letter, which has taken a great weight
off my mind. And yet, if it be true, what terrible things there are in
the world, and what an awful thing if that man, that monster, be really in
London! I fear to think. I have this moment, whilst writing, had a wire
from Jonathan, saying that he leaves by the 6:25 tonight from Launceston
and will be here at 10:18, so that I shall have no fear tonight. Will you,
therefore, instead of lunching with us, please come to breakfast at eight
o'clock, if this be not too early for you? You can get away, if you are in a
hurry, by the 10:30 train, which will bring you to Paddington by 2:35. Do not
answer this, as I shall take it that, if I do not hear, you will come to
breakfast.
"Believe me,
"Your faithful and grateful friend,
"Mina Harker."
JONATHAN HARKER'S JOURNAL
26 September.—I thought never to write in this diary again, but the
time has come. When I got home last night Mina had supper ready, and
when we had supped she told me of Van Helsing's visit, and of her having
given him the two diaries copied out, and of how anxious she has been about
me. She showed me in the doctor's letter that all I wrote down was
true. It seems to have made a new man of me. It was the doubt as to
the reality of the whole thing that knocked me over. I felt impotent, and in
the dark, and distrustful. But, now that I know, I am not afraid, even of the
Count. He has succeeded after all, then, in his design in getting to
London, and it was he I saw. He has got younger, and how? Van Helsing
is the man to unmask him and hunt him out, if he is anything like what Mina
says. We sat late, and talked it over. Mina is dressing, and I shall
call at the hotel in a few minutes and bring him over.
He was, I think, surprised to see me. When I came into the room
whee he was, and introduced myself, he took me by the shoulder, and turned my
face round to the light, and said, after a sharp scrutiny,
"But Madam Mina told me you were ill, that you had had a shock."
It was so funny to hear my wife called `Madam Mina' by this
kindly, strong-faced old man. I smiled, and said, "I was ill, I have
had a shock, but you have cured me already."
"And how?"
"By your letter to Mina last night. I was in doubt, and then
everything took a hue of unreality, and I did not know what to trust, even
the evidence of my own senses. Not knowing what to trust, I did not
know what to do, and so had only to keep on working in what had hitherto been
the groove of my life. The groove ceased to avail me, and I mistrusted
myself. Doctor, you don't know what it is to doubt everything, even
yourself. No, you don't, you couldn't with eyebrows like yours."
He seemed pleased, and laughed as he said, "So! You are a
physiognomist. I learn more here with each hour. I am with so much
pleasure coming to you to breakfast, and, oh, sir, you will pardon praise
from an old man, but you are blessed in your wife."
I would listen to him go on praising Mina for a day, so I simply nodded
and stood silent.
"She is one of God's women, fashioned by His own hand to show us men and
other women that there is a heaven where we can enter, and that its light can
be here on earth. So true, so sweet, so noble, so little an egoist, and
that, let me tell you, is much in this age, so sceptical and selfish. And
you, sir. . . I have read all the letters to poor Miss Lucy, and some
of them speak of you, so I know you since some days from the knowing of
others, but I have seen your true self since last night. You will give
me your hand, will you not? And let us be friends for all our lives."
We shook hands, and he was so earnest and so kind that it made me quite
choky.
"and now," he said, "may I ask you for some more help? I have a great
task to do, and at the beginning it is to know. You can help me here.
Can you tell me what went before your going to Transylvania? Later on I
may ask more help, and of a different kind, but at first this will do."
"Look here, Sir," I said, "does what you have to do concern the
Count?"
"It does," he said solemnly."
"Then I am with you heart and soul. As you go by the 10:30
train, you will not have time to read them, but I shall get the bundle of
papers. You can take them with you and read them in the train."
After breakfast I saw him to the station. When we were parting he
said, "Perhaps you will come to town if I send for you, and take Madam Mina
too."
"We shall both come when you will," I said.
I had got him the morning papers and the London papers of the previous
night, and while we were talking at the carriage window, waiting for the
train to start, he was turning them over. His eyes suddenly seemed to catch
something in one of them, "The Westminster Gazette", I knew it by the
color, and he grew quite white. He read something intently, groaning
to himself, "Mein Gott! Mein Gott! So soon! So soon!" I do
not think he remembered me at the moment. Just then the whistle blew, and the
train moved off. This recalled him to himself, and he leaned out of the
window and waved his hand, calling out, "Love to Madam Mina. I shall write
so soon as ever I can."
DR. SEWARD'S DIARY
26 September.—Truly there is no such thing as finality. Not a week
since I said "Finis," and yet here I am starting fresh again, or rather going
on with the record. Until this afternoon I had no cause to think of what is
done. Renfield had become, to all intents, as sane as he ever was. He was
already well ahead with his fly business, and he had just started in the
spider line also, so he had not been of any trouble to me. I had a
letter from Arthur, written on Sunday, and from it I gather that he is
bearing up wonderfully well. Quincey Morris is with him, and that is much of
a help, for he himself is a bubbling well of good spirits. Quincey wrote
me a line too, and from him I hear that Arthur is beginning to recover
something of his old buoyancy, so as to them all my mind is at rest. As
for myself, I was settling down to my work with the enthusiasm which I used
to have for it, so that I might fairly have said that the wound which
poor Lucy left on me was becoming cicatrised.
Everything is, however, now reopened, and what is to be the end God only
knows. I have an idea that Van Helsing thinks he knows, too, but he
will only let out enough at a time to whet curiosity. He went to Exeter
yesterday, and stayed there all night. Today he came back, and almost bounded
into the room at about half-past five o'clock, and thrust last night's
"Westminster Gazette" into my hand.
"What do you think of that?" he asked as he stood back and folded his
arms.
I looked over the paper, for I really did not know what he meant, but he
took it from me and pointed out a paragraph about children being decoyed away
at Hampstead. It did not convey much to me, until I reached a passage
where it described small puncture wounds on their throats. An idea struck me,
and I looked up.
"Well?" he said.
"It is like poor Lucy's."
"And what do you make of it?"
"Simply that there is some cause in common. Whatever it was that
injured her has injured them." I did not quite understand his
answer.
"That is true indirectly, but not directly."
"How do you mean, Professor?" I asked. I was a little
inclined to take his seriousness lightly, for, after all, four days of
rest and freedom from burning, harrowing, anxiety does help to restore one's
spirits, but when I saw his face, it sobered me. Never, even in the midst of
our despair about poor Lucy, had he looked more stern.
"Tell me!" I said. "I can hazard no opinion. I do not
know what to think, and I have no data on which to found a conjecture."
"Do you mean to tell me, friend John, that you have no suspicion as to
what poor Lucy died of, not after all the hints given, not only by events,
but by me?"
"Of nervous prostration following a great loss or waste of blood."
"And how was the blood lost or wasted?" I shook my head.
He stepped over and sat down beside me, and went on, "You are a clever
man, friend John. You reason well, and your wit is bold, but you
are too prejudiced. You do not let your eyes see nor your ears
hear, and that which is outside your daily life is not of account to
you. Do you not think that there are things which you cannot
understand, and yet which are, that some people see things that others
cannot? But there are things old and new which must not be contemplated by
men's eyes, because they know, or think they know, some things which other
men have told them. Ah, it is the fault of our science that it wants to
explain all, and if it explain not, then it says there is nothing to
explain. But yet we see around us every day the growth of new beliefs, which
think themselves new, and which are yet but the old, which pretend to be
young, like the fine ladies at the opera. I suppose now you do not
believe in corporeal transference. No? Nor in
materialization. No? Nor in astral bodies. No? Nor in
the reading of thought. No? Nor in hypnotism. . ."
"Yes," I said. "Charcot has proved that pretty well."
He smiled as he went on, "Then you are satisfied as to it. Yes?
And of course then you understand how it act, and can follow the mind of
the great Charcot, alas that he is no more, into the very soul of the patient
that he influence. No? Then, friend John, am I to take it that
you simply accept fact, and are satisfied to let from premise to conclusion
be a blank? No? Then tell me, for I am a student of the brain,
how you accept hypnotism and reject the thought reading. Let me tell
you, my friend, that there are things done today in electrical science which
would have been deemed unholy by the very man who discovered
electricity, who would themselves not so long before been burned as
wizards. There are always mysteries in life. Why was it that
Methuselah lived nine hundred years, and `Old Parr'one hundred and
sixty-nine, and yet that poor Lucy, with four men's blood in her poor
veins, could not live even one day? For, had she live one more
day, we could save her. Do you know all the mystery of life and
death? Do you know the altogether of comparative anatomy and can
say wherefore the qualities of brutes are in some men, and not in
others? Can you tell me why, when other spiders die small and soon, that
one great spider lived for centuries in the tower of the old Spanish church
and grew and grew, till, on descending, he could drink the oil of all the
church lamps? Can you tell me why in the Pampas, ay and elsewhere,
there are bats that come out at night and open the veins of cattle and horses
and suck dry their veins, how in some islands of the Western seas there are
bats which hang on the trees all day, and those who have seen describe as
like giant nuts or pods, and that when the sailors sleep on the deck, because
that it is hot, flit down on them and then, and then in the morning are found
dead men, white as even Miss Lucy was?"
"Good God, Professor!" I said, starting up. "Do you mean to
tell me that Lucy was bitten by such a bat, and that such a thing is here in
London in the nineteenth century?"
He waved his hand for silence, and went on, "Can you tell me why the
tortoise lives more long than generations of men, why the elephant goes on
and on till he have sees dynasties, and why the parrot never die only of bite
of cat of dog or other complaint? Can you tell me why men believe in
all ages and places that there are men and women who cannot die? We all
know, because science has vouched for the fact, that there have been toads
shut up in rocks for thousands of years, shut in one so small hole that only
hold him since the youth of the world. Can you tell me how the Indian fakir
can make himself to die and have been buried, and his grave sealed and corn
sowed on it, and the corn reaped and be cut and sown and reaped and cut
again, and then men come and take away the unbroken seal and that
there lie the Indian fakir, not dead, but that rise up and walk amongst
them as before?"
Here I interrupted him. I was getting bewildered. He so crowded on
my mind his list of nature's eccentricities and possible impossibilities that
my imagination was getting fired. I had a dim idea that he was teaching me
some lesson, as long ago he used to do in his study at Amsterdam. But he
used them to tell me the thing, so that I could have the object of thought in
mind all the time. But now I was without his help, yet I wanted to follow
him, so I said,
"Professor, let me be your pet student again. Tell me the thesis,
so that I may apply your knowledge as you go on. At present I am going in my
mind from point to point as a madman, and not a sane one, follows an
idea. I feel like a novice lumbering through a bog in a midst, jumping
from one tussock to another in the mere blind effort to move on without
knowing where I am going."
"That is a good image," he said. "Well, I shall tell you. My
thesis is this, I want you to believe."
"To believe what?"
"To believe in things that you cannot. Let me illustrate. I heard
once of an American who so defined faith, `that faculty which enables us to
believe things which we know to be untrue.' For one, I follow that man.
He meant that we shall have an open mind, and not let a little bit of truth
check the rush of the big truth, like a small rock does a railway
truck. We get the small truth first. Good! We keep him, and
we value him, but all the same we must not let him think himself all the
truth in the universe."
"Then you want me not to let some previous conviction inure the
receptivity of my mind with regard to some strange matter. Do I read your
lesson aright?"
"Ah, you are my favorite pupil still. It is worth to teach you.
Now that you are willing to understand, you have taken the first step to
understand. You think then that those so small holes in the children's
throats were made by the same that made the holes in Miss Lucy?"
"I suppose so."
He stood up and said solemnly, "Then you are wrong. Oh, would it were
so! But alas! No. It is worse, far, far worse."
"In God's name, Professor Van Helsing, what do you mean?" I
cried.
He threw himself with a despairing gesture into a chair, and placed his
elbows on the table, covering his face with his hands as he spoke.
"They were made by Miss Lucy!"
CHAPTER 15
DR. SEWARD'S DIARY-cont.
For a while sheer anger mastered me. It was as if he had during
her life struck Lucy on the face. I smote the table hard and rose up as
I said to him, "Dr. Van Helsing, are you mad?"
He raised his head and looked at me, and somehow the tenderness of his
face calmed me at once. "Would I were!" he said. "Madness were easy to
bear compared with truth like this. Oh, my friend, whey, think you, did I go
so far round, why take so long to tell so simple a thing? Was it because I
hate you and have hated you all my life? Was it because I wished to give you
pain? Was it that I wanted, no so late, revenge for that time when you
saved my life, and from a fearful death? Ah no!"
"Forgive me," said I.
He went on, "My friend, it was because I wished to be gentle in the
breaking to you, for I know you have loved that so sweet lady. But even yet I
do not expect you to believe. It is so hard to accept at once any
abstract truth, that we may doubt such to be possible when we have always
believed the `no' of it. It is more hard still to accept so sad a concrete
truth, and of such a one as Miss Lucy. Tonight I go to prove
it. Dare you come with me?"
This staggered me. A man does not like to prove such a
truth, Byron excepted from the catagory, jealousy.
"And prove the very truth he most abhorred."
He saw my hesitation, and spoke, "The logic is simple, no
madman's logic this time, jumping from tussock to tussock in a misty
bog. If it not be true, then proof will be relief. At worst it will not
harm. If it be true! Ah, there is the dread. Yet every dread
should help my cause, for in it is some need of belief. Come, I tell
you what I propose. First, that we go off now and see that child in the
hospital. Dr. Vincent, of the North Hospital, where the papers say the
child is, is a friend of mine, and I think of yours since you were in class
at Amsterdam. He will let two scientists see his case, if he will not let two
friends. We shall tell him nothing, but only that we wish to learn. And
then. . ."
"And then?"
He took a key from his pocket and held it up. "And then we spend
the night, you and I, in the churchyard where Lucy lies. This is the key that
lock the tomb. I had it from the coffin man to give to Arthur."
My heart sank within me, for I felt that there was some fearful ordeal
before us. I could do nothing, however, so I plucked up what heart I
could and said that we had better hasten, as the afternoon was passing.
We found the child awake. It had had a sleep and taken some
food, and altogether was going on well. Dr, Vincent took the
bandage from its throat, and showed us the punctures. There was
no mistaking the similarity to those which had been on Lucy's throat. They
were smaller, and the edges looked fresher, that was all. We asked Vincent to
what he attributed them, and he replied that it must have been a bite of some
animal, perhaps a rat, but for his own part, he was inclined to think it was
one of the bats which are so numerous on the northern heights of
London. "Out of so many harmless ones," he said, "there may be some wild
specimen from the South of a more malignant species. Some sailor may have
brought one home, and it managed to escape, or even from the Zoological
Gardens a young one may have got loose, or one be bred there from a
vampire. These things do occur, you, know. Only ten days ago a
wolf got out, and was, I believe, traced up in this direction. For a week
after, the children were playing nothing but Red Riding Hood on the Heath and
in every alley in the place until this `bloofer lady' scare came along, since
then it has been quite a gala time with them. Even this poor little
mite, when he woke up today, asked the nurse if he might go away. When she
asked him why he wanted to go, he said he wanted to play with the `bloofer
lady'."
"I hope," said Van Helsing, "that when you are sending the child home
you will caution its parents to keep strict watch over it. These fancies to
stray are most dangerous, and if the child were to remain out another night,
it would probably be fatal. But in any case I suppose you will not let it
away for some days?"
"Certainly not, not for a week at least, longer if the wound is not
healed."
Our visit to the hospital took more time than we had reckoned on, and
the sun had dipped before we came out. When Van Helsing saw how dark it was,
he said,
"There is not hurry. It is more late than I thought. Come, let us
seek somewhere that we may eat, and then we shall go on our way."
We dined at `Jack Straw's Castle' along with a little crowd of bicyclists
and others who were genially noisy. About ten o'clock we started from
the inn. It was then very dark, and the scattered lamps made the darkness
greater when we were once outside their individual radius. The
Professor had evidently noted the road we were to go, for he went on
unhesitatingly, but, as for me, I was in quite a mixup as to locality.
As we went further, we met fewer and fewer people, till at last we were
somewhat surprised when we met even the patrol of horse police going their
usual suburban round. At last we reached the wall of the churchyard, which we
climbed over. With some little difficulty, for it was very dark, and the
whole place seemed so strange to us, we found the Westenra tomb. The
Professor took the key, opened the creaky door, and standing back, politely,
but quite unconsciously, motioned me to precede him. There was a
delicious irony in the offer, in the courtliness of giving preference on such
a ghastly occasion. My companion followed me quickly, and cautiously drew the
door to, after carefully ascertaining that the lock was a falling, and not
a spring one. In the latter case we should have been in a bad
plight. Then he fumbled in his bag, and taking out a matchbox and a piece of
candle, proceeded to make a light. The tomb in the daytime, and when
wreathed with fresh flowers, had looked grim and gruesome enough, but
now, some days afterwards, when the flowers hung lank and dead, their
whites turning to rust and their greens to browns, when the spider and the
beetle had resumed their accustomed dominance, when the time-discolored
stone, and dust-encrusted mortar, and rusty, dank iron, and tarnished
brass, and clouded silver-plating gave back the feeble glimmer of a
candle, the effect was more miserable and sordid than could have been
imagined. It conveyed irresistibly the idea that life, animal life, was not
the only thing which could pass away.
Van Helsing went about his work systematically. Holding his candle
so that he could read the coffin plates, and so holding it that the sperm
dropped in white patches which congealed as they touched the metal, he made
assurance of Lucy's coffin. Another search in his bag, and he took out a
turnscrew.
"What are you going to do?" I asked.
"To open the coffin. You shall yet be convinced."
Straightway he began taking out the screws, and finally lifted off the
lid, showing the casing of lead beneath. The sight was almost too much
for me. It seemed to be as much an affront to the dead as it would have
been to have stripped off her clothing in her sleep whilst living. I
actually took hold of his hand to stop him.
He only said, "You shall see, "and again fumbling in his bag took out a
tiny fret saw. Striking the turnscrew through the lead with a swift
downward stab, which made me wince, he made a small hole, which was, however,
big enough to admit the point of the saw. I had expected a rush of gas from
the week-old corpse. We doctors, who have had to study our dangers, have to
become accustomed to such things, and I drew back towards the door. But
the Professor never stopped for a moment. He sawed down a couple of
feet along one side of the lead coffin, and then across, and down the other
side. Taking the edge of the loose flange, he bent it back towards the
foot of the coffin, and holding up the candle into the aperture, motioned to
me to look.
I drew near and looked. The coffin was empty. It was certainly
a surprise to me, and gave me a considerable shock, but Van Helsing was
unmoved. He was now more sure than ever of his ground, and so emboldened to
proceed in his task."Are you satisfied now, friend John?" he asked.
I felt all the dogged argumentativeness of my nature awake within me as
I answered him, "I am satisfied that Lucy's body is not in that
coffin, but that only proves one thing."
"And what is that, friend John?"
"That it is not there."
"That is good logic," he said, "so far as it goes. But how do you, how
can you, account for it not being there?"
"Perhaps a body-snatcher," I suggested. "Some of the
undertaker's people may have stolen it." I felt that I was speaking
folly, and yet it was the only real cause which I could suggest.
The Professor sighed. "Ah well!" he said," we must have more
proof. Come with me."
He put on the coffin lid again, gathered up all his things and placed
them in the bag, blew out the light, and placed the candle also in the
bag. We opened the door, and went out. Behind us he closed the
door and locked it. He handed me the key, saying, "Will you keep
it? You had better be assured."
I laughed, it was not a very cheerful laugh, I am bound to say, as I
motioned him to keep it. "A key is nothing," I said, "thee are many
duplicates, and anyhow it is not difficult to pick a lock of this
kind."
He said nothing, but put the key in his pocket. Then he told me to watch
at one side of the churchyard whilst he would watch at the other.
I took up my place behind a yew tree, and I saw his dark figure move
until the intervening headstones and trees hid it from my sight.
It was a lonely vigil. Just after I had taken my place I heard a
distant clock strike twelve, and in time came one and two. I was chilled and
unnerved, and angry with the Professor for taking me on such an errand and
with myself for coming. I was too cold and too sleepy to be keenly
observant, and not sleepy enough to betray my trust, so altogether I had a
dreary, miserable time.
Suddenly, as I turned round, I thought I saw something like a white
streak, moving between two dark yew trees at the side of the churchyard
farthest from the tomb. At the same time a dark mass moved from the
Professor's side of the ground, and hurriedly went towards it. Then I
too moved, but I had to go round headstones and railed-off tombs, and I
stumbled over graves. The sky was overcast, and somewhere far off an early
cock crew. A little ways off, beyond a line of scattered juniper
trees, which marked the pathway to the church, a white dim figure flitted
in the direction of the tomb. The tomb itself was hidden by trees, and
I could not see where the figure had disappeared. I heard the rustle of
actual movement where I had first seen the white figure, and coming over,
found the Professor holding in his arms a tiny child. When he saw me he
held it out to me, and said, "Are you satisfied now?"
"No," I said, in a way that I felt was aggressive.
"Do you not see the child?"
"Yes, it is a child, but who brought it here? And is it
wounded?"
"We shall see," said the Professor, and with one impulse we took our way
out of the churchyard, he carrying the sleeping child.
When we had got some little distance away, we went into a clump of
trees, and struck a match, and looked at the child's throat. It was without a
scratch or scar of any kind.
"Was I right?" I asked triumphantly.
"We were just in time," said the Professor thankfully.
We had now to decide what we were to do with the child, and so consulted
about it. If we were to take it to a police station we should have to
give some account of our movements during the night. At least, we should have
had to make some statement as to how we had come to find the child. So
finally we decided that we would take it to the Heath, and when we heard a
policeman coming, would leave it where he could not fail to find it. We
would then seek our way home as quickly as we could. All fell out
well. At the edge of Hampstead Heath we heard a policeman's heavy
tramp, and laying the child on the pathway, we waited and watched until he
saw it as he flashed his lantern to and fro. We heard his exclamation
of astonishment, and then we went away silently. By good chance we got a cab
near the `Spainiards,' and drove to town.
I cannot sleep, so I make this entry. But I must try to get a few
hours' sleep, as Van Helsing is to call for me at noon. He insists that I go
with him on another expedition.
27 September.—It was two o'clock before we found a
suitable opportunity for our attempt. The funeral held at noon
was all completed, and the last stragglers of the mourners had
taken themselves lazily away, when, looking carefully from behind a
clump of alder trees, we saw the sexton lock the gate after him. We knew
that we were safe till morning did we desire it, but the Professor told me
that we should n