The cold passed reluctantly from the earth, and the retiring fogs
revealed an army stretched out on the hills, resting. As the landscape
changed from brown to green, the army awakened, and began to tremble with
eagerness at the noise of rumors. It cast its eyes upon the roads, which were
growing from long troughs of liquid mud to proper thoroughfares. A
river, amber-tinted in the shadow of its banks, purled at the army's feet;
and at night, when the stream had become of a sorrowful blackness, one could
see across it the red, eyelike gleam of hostile camp-fires set in the low
brows of distant hills.
Once a certain tall soldier developed virtues and went resolutely to
wash a shirt. He came flying back from a brook waving his garment
bannerlike. He was swelled with a tale he had heard from a reliable
friend, who had heard it from a truthful cavalryman, who had heard it from
his trustworthy brother, one of the orderlies at division headquarters.
He adopted the important air of a herald in red and gold.
"We're goin' t' move t'morrah--sure," he said pompously to a group in
the company street. "We're goin' 'way up the river, cut across, an'
come around in behint 'em."
To his attentive audience he drew a loud and elaborate plan of a very
brilliant campaign. When he had finished, the blue-clothed men
scattered into small arguing groups between the rows of squat brown
huts. A negro teamster who had been dancing upon a cracker box with the
hilarious encouragement of twoscore soldiers was deserted. He sat
mournfully down. Smoke drifted lazily from a multitude of quaint
chimneys.
"It's a lie! that's all it is--a thunderin' lie!" said
another private loudly. His smooth face was flushed, and his hands
were thrust sulkily into his trouser's pockets. He took the matter
as an affront to him. "I don't believe the derned old army's
ever going to move. We're set. I've got ready to move eight
times in the last two weeks, and we ain't moved yet."
The tall soldier felT called upon to defend the truth of a rumor he
himself had introduced. He and the loud one came near to fighting over
it.
A corporal began to swear before the assemblage. He had just put a
costly board floor in his house, he said. During the early spring he
had refrained from adding extensively to the comfort of his environment
because he had felt that the army might start on the march at any
moment. Of late, however, he had been impressed that they were in a
sort of eternal camp.
Many of the men engaged in a spirited debate. One outlined in
a peculiarly lucid manner all the plans of the commanding general. He was
opposed by men who advocated that there were other plans of campaign.
They clamored at each other, numbers making futile bids for the popular
attention. Meanwhile, the soldier who had fetched the rumor bustled
about with much importance. He was continually assailed by
questions.
"What's up, Jim?"
"Th'army's goin' t' move."
"Ah, what yeh talkin' about? How yeh know it is?"
"Well, yeh kin b'lieve me er not, jest as yeh like. I don't care a
hang."
There was much food for thought in the manner in which he replied. He
came near to convincing them by disdaining to produce proofs. They grew much
excited over it.
There was a youthful private who listened with eager ears to the words
of the tall soldier and to the varied comments of his comrades. After
receiving a fill of discussions concerning marches and attacks, he went to
his hut and crawled through an intricate hole that served it as a door.
He wished to be alone with some new thoughts that had lately come to
him.
He lay down on a wide bunk that stretched across the end of the room. In
the other end, cracker boxes were made to serve as furniture. They were
grouped about the fireplace. A picture from an illustrated weekly was
upon the log walls, and three rifles were paralleled on pegs. Equipments hung
on handy projections, and some tin dishes lay upon a small pile of
firewood. A folded tent was serving as a roof. The sunlight, without,
beating upon it, made it glow a light yellow shade. A small window shot an
oblique square of whiter light upon the cluttered floor. The smoke from
the fire at times neglected the clay chimney and wreathed into the room, and
this flimsy chimney of clay and sticks made endless threats to set ablaze the
whole establishment.
The youth was in a little trance of astonishment. So they were at
last going to fight. On the morrow, perhaps, there would be a battle,
and he would be in it. For a time he was obliged to labor to make
himself believe. He could not accept with assurance an omen that he was
about to mingle in one of those great affairs of the earth.
He had, of course, dreamed of battles all his life--of vague and bloody
conflicts that had thrilled him with their sweep and fire. In visions he had
seen himself in many struggles. He had imagined peoples secure in the
shadow of his eagle-eyed prowess. But awake he had regarded battles as
crimson blotches on the pages of the past. He had put them as things of
the bygone with his thought-images of heavy crowns and high castles.
There was a portion of the world's history which he had regarded as the
time of wars, but it, he thought, had been long gone over the horizon and
had disappeared forever.
From his home his youthful eyes had looked upon the war in his own
country with distrust. It must be some sort of a play affair. He had
long despaired of witnessing a Greeklike struggle. Such would be no
more, he had said. Men were better, or more timid. Secular and
religious education had effaced the throat-grappling instinct, or else firm
finance held in check the passions.
He had burned several times to enlist. Tales of great
movements shook the land. They might not be distinctly Homeric, but
there seemed to be much glory in them. He had read of marches,
sieges, conflicts, and he had longed to see it all. His busy mind
had drawn for him large pictures extravagant in color, lurid
with breathless deeds.
But his mother had discouraged him. She had affected to look with
some contempt upon the quality of his war ardor and patriotism. She could
calmly seat herself and with no apparent difficulty give him many hundreds of
reasons why he was of vastly more importance on the farm than on the field of
battle. She had had certain ways of expression that told him that her
statements on the subject came from a deep conviction. Moreover, on her
side, was his belief that her ethical motive in the argument was
impregnable.
At last, however, he had made firm rebellion against this yellow light
thrown upon the color of his ambitions. The newspapers, the gossip of
the village, his own picturings, had aroused him to an uncheckable
degree. They were in truth fighting finely down there. Almost
every day the newspaper printed accounts of a decisive victory.
One night, as he lay in bed, the winds had carried to him the clangoring
of the church bell as some enthusiast jerked the rope frantically to tell the
twisted news of a great battle. This voice of the people rejoicing in the
night had made him shiver in a prolonged ecstasy of excitement. Later,
he had gone down to his mother's room and had spoken thus: "Ma, I'm
going to enlist."
"Henry, don't you be a fool," his mother had replied. She had then
covered her face with the quilt. There was an end to the matter for
that night.
Nevertheless, the next morning he had gone to a town that was near his
mother's farm and had enlisted in a company that was forming there.
When he had returned home his mother was milking the brindle cow. Four
others stood waiting. "Ma, I've enlisted," he had said to her
diffidently. There was a short silence. "The Lord's will be done,
Henry," she had finally replied, and had then continued to milk the brindle
cow.
When he had stood in the doorway with his soldier's clothes on his back,
and with the light of excitement and expectancy in his eyes almost defeating
the glow of regret for the home bonds, he had seen two tears leaving their
trails on his mother's scarred cheeks.
Still, she had disappointed him by saying nothing whatever
about returning with his shield or on it. He had privately
primed himself for a beautiful scene. He had prepared certain
sentences which he thought could be used with touching effect. But
her words destroyed his plans. She had doggedly peeled potatoes
and addressed him as follows: "You watch out, Henry, an' take
good care of yerself in this here fighting business--you watch, an' take
good care of yerself. Don't go a-thinkin' you can lick the hull rebel
army at the start, because yeh can't. Yer jest one little feller
amongst a hull lot of others, and yeh've got to keep quiet an' do what they
tell yeh. I know how you are, Henry.
"I've knet yeh eight pair of socks, Henry, and I've put in all yer best
shirts, because I want my boy to be jest as warm and comf'able as anybody in
the army. Whenever they get holes in 'em, I want yeh to send 'em
right-away back to me, so's I kin dern 'em.
"An' allus be careful an' choose yer comp'ny. There's lots of bad
men in the army, Henry. The army makes 'em wild, and they like nothing
better than the job of leading off a young feller like you, as ain't never
been away from home much and has allus had a mother, an' a-learning 'em to
drink and swear. Keep clear of them folks, Henry. I don't want
yeh to ever do anything, Henry, that yeh would be 'shamed to let me know
about. Jest think as if I was a-watchin' yeh. If yeh keep that in
yer mind allus, I guess yeh'll come out about right.
"Yeh must allus remember yer father, too, child, an' remember he
never drunk a drop of licker in his life, and seldom swore a cross
oath.
"I don't know what else to tell yeh, Henry, excepting that yeh must
never do no shirking, child, on my account. If so be a time comes when
yeh have to be kilt of do a mean thing, why, Henry, don't think of anything
'cept what's right, because there's many a woman has to bear up 'ginst sech
things these times, and the Lord 'll take keer of us all.
"Don't forgit about the socks and the shirts, child; and I've put a cup
of blackberry jam with yer bundle, because I know yeh like it above all
things. Good-by, Henry. Watch out, and be a good boy."
He had, of course, been impatient under the ordeal of this speech. It
had not been quite what he expected, and he had borne it with an air of
irritation. He departed feeling vague relief.
Still, when he had looked back from the gate, he had seen his mother
kneeling among the potato parings. Her brown face, upraised, was stained with
tears, and her spare form was quivering. He bowed his head and went
on, feeling suddenly ashamed of his purposes.
From his home he had gone to the seminary to bid adieu to many
schoolmates. They had thronged about him with wonder and
admiration. He had felt the gulf now between them and had swelled with
calm pride. He and some of his fellows who had donned blue were quite
overwhelmed with privileges for all of one afternoon, and it had been a very
delicious thing. They had strutted.
A certain light-haired girl had made vivacious fun at his
martial spirit, but there was another and darker girl whom he had gazed at
steadfastly, and he thought she grew demure and sad at sight of his blue and
brass. As he had walked down the path between the rows of oaks, he had
turned his head and detected her at a window watching his departure. As
he perceived her, she had immediately begun to stare up through the high tree
branches at the sky. He had seen a good deal of flurry and haste in
her movement as she changed her attitude. He often thought of it.
On the way to Washington his spirit had soared. The regiment
was fed and caressed at station after station until the youth had believed
that he must be a hero. There was a lavish expenditure of bread and
cold meats, coffee, and pickles and cheese. As he basked in the smiles
of the girls and was patted and complimented by the old men, he had felt
growing within him the strength to do mighty deeds of arms.
After complicated journeyings with many pauses, there had come months of
monotonous life in a camp. He had had the belief that real war was a
series of death struggles with small time in between for sleep and meals; but
since his regiment had come to the field the army had done little but sit
still and try to keep warm.
He was brought then gradually back to his old ideas.
Greeklike struggles would be no more. Men were better, or more
timid. Secular and religious education had effaced the
throat-grappling instinct, or else firm finance held in check the
passions.
He had grown to regard himself merely as a part of a vast
blue demonstration. His province was to look out, as far as he
could, for his personal comfort. For recreation he could twiddle
his thumbs and speculate on the thoughts which must agitate the minds of
the generals. Also, he was drilled and drilled and reviewed, and
drilled and drilled and reviewed.
The only foes he had seen were some pickets along the river bank. They
were a sun-tanned, philosophical lot, who sometimes shot reflectively at the
blue pickets. When reproached for this afterward, they usually
expressed sorrow, and swore by their gods that the guns had exploded without
their permission. The youth, on guard duty one night, conversed across
the stream with one of them. He was a slightly ragged man, who spat
skillfully between his shoes and possessed a great fund of bland
and infantile assurance. The youth liked him personally.
"Yank," the other had informed him, "yer a right dum good feller." This
sentiment, floating to him upon the still air, had made him temporarily
regret war.
Various veterans had told him tales. Some talked of
gray, bewhiskered hordes who were advancing with relentless curses and
chewing tobacco with unspeakable valor; tremendous bodies of fierce soldiery
who were sweeping along like the Huns. Others spoke of tattered and
eternally hungry men who fired despondent powders. "They'll charge
through hell's fire an' brimstone t' git a holt on a haversack, an' sech
stomachs ain't a'lastin' long," he was told. From the stories, the
youth imagined the red, live bones sticking out through slits in the faded
uniforms.
Still, he could not put a whole faith in veteran's tales, for recruits
were their prey. They talked much of smoke, fire, and blood, but he
could not tell how much might be lies. They persistently yelled "Fresh fish!"
at him, and were in no wise to be trusted.
However, he perceived now that it did not greatly matter what kind of
soldiers he was going to fight, so long as they fought, which fact no one
disputed. There was a more serious problem. He lay in his bunk
pondering upon it. He tried to mathematically prove to himself that he
would not run from a battle.
Previously he had never felt obliged to wrestle too seriously with this
question. In his life he had taken certain things for granted, never
challenging his belief in ultimate success, and bothering little about means
and roads. But here he was confronted with a thing of moment. It
had suddenly appeared to him that perhaps in a battle he might run. He
was forced to admit that as far as war was concerned he knew nothing of
himself.
A sufficient time before he would have allowed the problem to kick its
heels at the outer portals of his mind, but now he felt compelled to give
serious attention to it.
A little panic-fear grew in his mind. As his imagination
went forward to a fight, he saw hideous possibilities. He
contemplated the lurking menaces of the future, and failed in an effort
to see himself standing stoutly in the midst of them. He
recalled his visions of broken-bladed glory, but in the shadow of
the impending tumult he suspected them to be impossible pictures.
He sprang from the bunk and began to pace nervously to and fro. "Good
Lord, what's th' matter with me?" he said aloud.
He felt that in this crisis his laws of life were useless. Whatever he
had learned of himself was here of no avail. He was an unknown
quantity. He saw that he would again be obliged to experiment as he had
in early youth. He must accumulate information of himself, and
meanwhile he resolved to remain close upon his guard lest those qualities of
which he knew nothing should everlastingly disgrace him. "Good
Lord!" he repeated in dismay.
After a time the tall soldier slid dexterously through the hole. The
loud private followed. They were wrangling.
"That's all right," said the tall soldier as he entered. He waved his
hand expressively. "You can believe me or not, jest as you like.
All you got to do is sit down and wait as quiet as you can. Then pretty
soon you'll find out I was right."
His comrade grunted stubbornly. For a moment he seemed to
be searching for a formidable reply. Finally he said: "Well,
you don't know everything in the world, do you?"
"Didn't say I knew everything in the world," retorted the other
sharply. He began to stow various articles snugly into his knapsack.
The youth, pausing in his nervous walk, looked down at the
busy figure. "Going to be a battle, sure, is there, Jim?" he
asked.
"Of course there is," replied the tall soldier. "Of course there
is. You jest wait 'til to-morrow, and you'll see one of the biggest
battles ever was. You jest wait."
"Thunder!" said the youth.
"Oh, you'll see fighting this time, my boy, what'll be
regular out-and-out fighting," added the tall soldier, with the air of
a man who is about to exhibit a battle for the benefit of his friends.
"Huh!" said the loud one from a corner.
"Well," remarked the youth, "like as not this story'll turn out jest
like them others did."
"Not much it won't," replied the tall soldier, exasperated. "Not much it
won't. Didn't the cavalry all start this morning?" He glared about
him. No one denied his statement. "The cavalry started this
morning," he continued. "They say there ain't hardly any cavalry left
in camp. They're going to Richmond, or some place, while we fight all
the Johnnies. It's some dodge like that. The regiment's got
orders, too. A feller what seen 'em go to headquarters told me a little
while ago. And they're raising blazes all over camp--anybody can see
that."
"Shucks!" said the loud one.
The youth remained silent for a time. At last he spoke to the tall
soldier. "Jim!"
"What?"
"How do you think the reg'ment 'll do?"
"Oh, they'll fight all right, I guess, after they once get into it,"
said the other with cold judgment. He made a fine use of the third
person. "There's been heaps of fun poked at 'em because they're new, of
course, and all that; but they'll fight all right, I guess."
"Think any of the boys 'll run?" persisted the youth.
"Oh, there may be a few of 'em run, but there's them kind in every
regiment, 'specially when they first goes under fire," said the other in a
tolerant way. "Of course it might happen that the hull kit-and-boodle
might start and run, if some big fighting came first-off, and then again they
might stay and fight like fun. But you can't bet on nothing. Of
course they ain't never been under fire yet, and it ain't likely they'll lick
the hull rebel army all-to-oncet the first time; but I think they'll fight
better than some, if worse than others. That's the way I figger.
They call the reg'ment 'Fresh fish' and everything; but the boys come of good
stock, and most of 'em 'll fight like sin after they oncet git shootin'," he
added, with a mighty emphasis on the last four words.
"Oh, you think you know--" began the loud soldier with scorn.
The other turned savagely upon him. They had a rapid altercation,
in which they fastened upon each other various strange epithets.
The youth at last interrupted them. "Did you ever think you might
run yourself, Jim?" he asked. On concluding the sentence he laughed as
if he had meant to aim a joke. The loud soldier also giggled.
The tall private waved his hand. "Well", said he profoundly, "I've
thought it might get too hot for Jim Conklin in some of them scrimmages, and
if a whole lot of boys started and run, why, I s'pose I'd start and
run. And if I once started to run, I'd run like the devil, and no
mistake. But if everybody was a-standing and a-fighting, why, I'd stand
and fight. Be jiminey, I would. I'll bet on it."
"Huh!" said the loud one.
The youth of this tale felt gratitude for these words of
his comrade. He had feared that all of the untried men
possessed great and correct confidence. He now was in a measure
reassured.
Chapter 2
The next morning the youth discovered that his tall comrade had been the
fast-flying messenger of a mistake. There was much scoffing at the
latter by those who had yesterday been firm adherents of his views, and there
was even a little sneering by men who had never believed the rumor. The
tall one fought with a man from Chatfield Corners and beat him
severely.
The youth felt, however, that his problem was in no wise lifted from
him. There was, on the contrary, an irritating prolongation. The tale
had created in him a great concern for himself. Now, with the newborn
question in his mind, he was compelled to sink back into his old place as
part of a blue demonstration.
For days he made ceaseless calculations, but they were all wondrously
unsatisfactory. He found that he could establish nothing. He
finally concluded that the only way to prove himself was to go into the
blaze, and then figuratively to watch his legs to discover their merits and
faults. He reluctantly admitted that he could not sit still and with a
mental slate and pencil derive an answer. To gain it, he must have
blaze, blood, and danger, even as a chemist requires this, that, and
the other. So he fretted for an opportunity.
Meanwhile, he continually tried to measure himself by
his comrades. The tall soldier, for one, gave him some
assurance. This man's serene unconcern dealt him a measure of
confidence, for he had known him since childhood, and from his
intimate knowledge he did not see how he could be capable of anything that
was beyond him, the youth. Still, he thought that his comrade might be
mistaken about himself. Or, on the other hand, he might be a man
heretofore doomed to peace and obscurity, but, in reality, made to shine in
war.
The youth would have liked to have discovered another who suspected
himself. A sympathetic comparison of mental notes would have been a joy
to him.
He occasionally tried to fathom a comrade with
seductive sentences. He looked about to find men in the proper
mood. All attempts failed to bring forth any statement which looked in any
way like a confession to those doubts which he privately acknowledged in
himself. He was afraid to make an open declaration of his concern,
because he dreaded to place some unscrupulous confidant upon the high plane
of the unconfessed from which elevation he could be derided.
In regard to his companions his mind wavered between two
opinions, according to his mood. Sometimes he inclined to believing
them all heroes. In fact, he usually admired in secret the
superior development of the higher qualities in others. He could
conceive of men going very insignificantly about the world bearing a
load of courage unseen, and although he had known many of his
comrades through boyhood, he began to fear that his judgment of them
had been blind. Then, in other moments, he flouted these theories,
and assured him that his fellows were all privately wondering and
quaking.
His emotions made him feel strange in the presence of men who
talked excitedly of a prospective battle as of a drama they were about to
witness, with nothing but eagerness and curiosity apparent in their
faces. It was often that he suspected them to be liars.
He did not pass such thoughts without severe condemnation of himself. He
dinned reproaches at times. He was convicted by himself of
many shameful crimes against the gods of traditions.
In his great anxiety his heart was continually clamoring at what he
considered the intolerable slowness of the generals. They seemed content to
perch tranquilly on the river bank, and leave him bowed down by the weight of
a great problem. He wanted it settled forthwith. He could not long bear
such a load, he said. Sometimes his anger at the commanders reached an
acute stage, and he grumbled about the camp like a veteran.
One morning, however, he found himself in the ranks of his prepared
regiment. The men were whispering speculations and recounting the old
rumors. In the gloom before the break of the day their uniforms glowed
a deep purple hue. From across the river the red eyes were still
peering. In the eastern sky there was a yellow patch like a rug laid
for the feet of the coming sun; and against it, black and patternlike, loomed
the gigantic figure of the colonel on a gigantic horse.
From off in the darkness came the trampling of feet. The
youth could occasionally see dark shadows that moved like monsters. The
regiment stood at rest for what seemed a long time. The youth grew
impatient. It was unendurable the way these affairs were managed. He
wondered how long they were to be kept waiting.
As he looked all about him and pondered upon the mystic gloom, he began
to believe that at any moment the ominous distance might be aflare, and the
rolling crashes of an engagement come to his ears. Staring once at the red
eyes across the river, he conceived them to be growing larger, as the orbs of
a row of dragons advancing. He turned toward the colonel and saw him lift his
gigantic arm and calmly stroke his mustache.
At last he heard from along the road at the foot of the hill the clatter
of a horse's galloping hoofs. It must be the coming of orders. He bent
forward, scarce breathing. The exciting clickety-click, as it grew
louder and louder, seemed to be beating upon his soul. Presently a horseman
with jangling equipment drew rein before the colonel of the regiment.
The two held a short, sharp-worded conversation. The men in the foremost
ranks craned their necks.
As the horseman wheeled his animal and galloped away he turned to shout
over his shoulder, "Don't forget that box of cigars!" The colonel mumbled in
reply. The youth wondered what a box of cigars had to do with
war.
A moment later the regiment went swinging off into the darkness. It was
now like one of those moving monsters wending with many feet. The air was
heavy, and cold with dew. A mass of wet grass, marched upon, rustled
like silk.
There was an occasional flash and glimmer of steel from the backs of all
these huge crawling reptiles. From the road came creakings and
grumblings as some surly guns were dragged away.
The men stumbled along still muttering speculations. There was
a subdued debate. Once a man fell down, and as he reached for
his rifle a comrade, unseeing, trod upon his hand. He of the
injured fingers swore bitterly, and aloud. A low, tittering laugh
went among his fellows.
Presently they passed into a roadway and marched forward with easy
strides. A dark regiment moved before them, and from behind also came
the tinkle of equipments on the bodies of marching men.
The rushing yellow of the developing day went on behind their
backs. When the sunrays at last struck full and mellowingly upon the
earth, the youth saw that the landscape was streaked with two long,
thin, black columns which disappeared on the brow of a hill in front
and rearward vanished in a wood. They were like two serpents
crawling from the cavern of the night.
The river was not in view. The tall soldier burst into praises of
what he thought to be his powers of perception.
Some of the tall one's companions cried with emphasis that they,
too, had evolved the same thing, and they congratulated themselves upon
it. But there were others who said that the tall one's plan was not
the true one at all. They persisted with other theories.
There was a vigorous discussion.
The youth took no part in them. As he walked along in
careless line he was engaged with his own eternal debate. He could
not hinder himself from dwelling upon it. He was despondent
and sullen, and threw shifting glances about him. He looked
ahead, often expecting to hear from the advance the rattle of firing.
But the long serpents crawled slowly from hill to hill without bluster
of smoke. A dun-colored cloud of dust floated away to the right.
The sky overhead was of a fairy blue.
The youth studied the faces of his companions, ever on the watch to
detect kindred emotions. He suffered disappointment. Some ardor of the
air which was causing the veteran commands to move with glee--almost with
song--had infected the new regiment. The men began to speak of victory as of
a thing they knew. Also, the tall soldier received his vindication.
They were certainly going to come around in behind the enemy. They
expressed commiseration for that part of the army which had been left upon
the river bank, felicitating themselves upon being a part of a blasting
host.
The youth, considering himself as separated from the others, was
saddened by the blithe and merry speeches that went from rank to rank.
The company wags all made their best endeavors. The regiment tramped to the
tune of laughter.
The blatant soldier often convulsed whole files by his biting sarcasms
aimed at the tall one.
And it was not long before all the men seemed to forget their
mission. Whole brigades grinned in unison, and regiments laughed.
A rather fat soldier attempted to pilfer a horse from a dooryard. He
planned to load his knapsack upon it. He was escaping with his prize
when a young girl rushed from the house and grabbed the animal's mane.
There followed a wrangle. The young girl, with pink cheeks and shining
eyes, stood like a dauntless statue.
The observant regiment, standing at rest in the roadway, whooped at
once, and entered whole-souled upon the side of the maiden. The men became so
engrossed in this affair that they entirely ceased to remember their own
large war. They jeered the piratical private, and called attention to
various defects in his personal appearance; and they were wildly enthusiastic
in support of the young girl.
To her, from some distance, came bold advice. "Hit him with a
stick."
There were crows and catcalls showered upon him when he
retreated without the horse. The regiment rejoiced at his
downfall. Loud and vociferous congratulations were showered upon the
maiden, who stood panting and regarding the troops with defiance.
At nightfall the column broke into regimental pieces, and the
fragments went into the fields to camp. Tents sprang up like strange
plants. Camp fires, like red, peculiar blossoms, dotted the night.
The youth kept from intercourse with his companions as much
as circumstances would allow him. In the evening he wandered a
few paces into the gloom. From this little distance the many
fires, with the black forms of men passing to and fro before the crimson
rays, made weird and satanic effects.
He lay down in the grass. The blades pressed tenderly against his
cheek. The moon had been lighted and was hung in a treetop. The liquid
stillness of the night enveloping him made him feel vast pity for
himself. There was a caress in the soft winds; and the whole mood of
the darkness, he thought, was one of sympathy for himself in his
distress.
He wished, without reserve, that he was at home again making the endless
rounds from the house to the barn, from the barn to the fields, from the
fields to the barn, from the barn to the house. He remembered he had so often
cursed the brindle cow and her mates, and had sometimes flung milking
stools. But, from his present point of view, there was a halo of
happiness about each of their heads, and he would have sacrificed all the
brass buttons on the continent to have been enabled to return to them. He
told himself that he was not formed for a soldier. And he mused
seriously upon the radical differences between himself and those men who were
dodging implike around the fires.
As he mused thus he heard the rustle of grass, and, upon turning his
head, discovered the loud soldier. He called out, "Oh, Wilson!"
The latter approached and looked down. "Why, hello, Henry; is it
you? What are you doing here?"
"Oh, thinking," said the youth.
The other sat down and carefully lighted his pipe. "You're
getting blue my boy. You're looking thundering peek-ed. What the
dickens is wrong with you?"
"Oh, nothing," said the youth.
The loud soldier launched then into the subject of the anticipated
fight. "Oh, we've got 'em now!" As he spoke his boyish face was
wreathed in a gleeful smile, and his voice had an exultant ring. "We've
got 'em now. At last, by the eternal thunders, we'll like 'em
good!"
"If the truth was known," he added, more soberly, "they've licked US
about every clip up to now; but this time--this time--we'll lick 'em
good!"
"I thought you was objecting to this march a little while ago," said the
youth coldly.
"Oh, it wasn't that," explained the other. "I don't mind marching,
if there's going to be fighting at the end of it. What I hate is this getting
moved here and moved there, with no good coming of it, as far as I can see,
excepting sore feet and damned short rations."
"Well, Jim Conklin says we'll get plenty of fighting this time."
"He's right for once, I guess, though I can't see how it come. This time
we're in for a big battle, and we've got the best end of it, certain
sure. Gee rod! how we will thump 'em!"
He arose and began to pace to and fro excitedly. The thrill of his
enthusiasm made him walk with an elastic step. He was sprightly,
vigorous, fiery in his belief in success. He looked into the future
with clear proud eye, and he swore with the air of an old soldier.
The youth watched him for a moment in silence. When he
finally spoke his voice was as bitter as dregs. "Oh, you're going to
do great things, I s'pose!"
The loud soldier blew a thoughtful cloud of smoke from his pipe. "Oh, I
don't know," he remarked with dignity; "I don't know. I s'pose I'll do as
well as the rest. I'm going to try like thunder." He evidently
complimented himself upon the modesty of this statement.
"How do you know you won't run when the time comes?" asked the youth.
"Run?" said the loud one; "run?--of course not!" He laughed.
"Well," continued the youth, "lots of good-a-'nough men have thought
they was going to do great things before th fight, but when the time come
they skedaddled."
"Oh, that's all true, I s'pose," replied the other; "but I'm not going
to skedaddle. The man that bets on my running will lose his money,
that's all." He nodded confidently.
"Oh, shucks!" said the youth. "You ain't the bravest man in the
world, are you?"
"No, I ain't," exclaimed the loud soldier indignantly; "and I didn't say
I was the bravest man in the world, neither. I said I was going to do my
share of fighting--that's what I said. And I am, too. Who are you,
anyhow? You talk as if you thought you was Napoleon Bonaparte."
He glared at the youth for a moment, and then strode away.
The youth called in a savage voice after his comrade: "Well,
you needn't git mad about it!" But the other continued on his
way and made no reply.
He felt alone in space when his injured comrade had disappeared. His
failure to discover any mite of resemblance in their viewpoints made him more
miserable than before. No one seemed to be wrestling with such a
terrific personal problem. He was a mental outcast.
He went slowly to his tent and stretched himself on a blanket by the
side of the snoring tall soldier. In the darkness he saw visions of a
thousand-tongued fear that would babble at his back and cause him to flee,
while others were going coolly about their country's business. He
admitted that he would not be able to cope with this monster. He felt
that every nerve in his body would be an ear to hear the voices, while other
men would remain stolid and deaf.
And as he sweated with the pain of these thoughts, he could hear low,
serene sentences. "I'll bid five." "Make it six."
"Seven." "Seven goes."
He stared at the red, shivering reflection of a fire on the white wall
of his tent until, exhausted and ill from the monotony of his suffering, he
fell asleep.
Chapter 3
When another night came, the columns, changed to purple streaks, filed
across two pontoon bridges. A glaring fire wine-tinted the waters of
the river. Its rays, shining upon the moving masses of troops, brought
forth here and there sudden gleams of silver or gold. Upon the other shore a
dark and mysterious range of hills was curved against the sky. The
insect voices of the night sang solemnly.
After this crossing the youth assured himself that at any moment they
might be suddenly and fearfully assaulted from the caves of the lowering
woods. He kept his eyes watchfully upon the darkness.
But his regiment went unmolested to a camping place, and its soldiers
slept the brave sleep of wearied men. In the morning they were routed
out with early energy, and hustled along a narrow road that led deep into the
forest.
It was during this rapid march that the regiment lost many of the marks
of a new command.
The men had begun to count the miles upon their fingers, and they grew
tired. "Sore feet an' damned short rations, that's all," said the loud
soldier. There was perspiration and grumblings. After a time they began
to shed their knapsacks. Some tossed them unconcernedly down; others
hid them carefully, asserting their plans to return for them at some
convenient time. Men extricated themselves from thick shirts. Presently
few carried anything but their necessary clothing, blankets,
haversacks, canteens, and arms and ammunition. "You can now eat and
shoot," said the tall soldier to the youth. "That's all you want to
do."
There was sudden change from the ponderous infantry of theory to the
light and speedy infantry of practice. The regiment, relieved of a
burden, received a new impetus. But there was much loss of valuable
knapsacks, and, on the whole, very good shirts.
But the regiment was not yet veteranlike in appearance.
Veteran regiments in the army were likely to be very small aggregations of
men. Once, when the command had first come to the field, some
perambulating veterans, noting the length of their column, had accosted them
thus: "Hey, fellers, what brigade is that?" And when the men had
replied that they formed a regiment and not a brigade, the older soldiers had
laughed, and said, "O Gawd!"
Also, there was too great a similarity in the hats. The hats of a
regiment should properly represent the history of headgear for a period of
years. And, moreover, there were no letters of faded gold speaking from
the colors. They were new and beautiful, and the color bearer
habitually oiled the pole.
Presently the army again sat down to think. The odor of
the peaceful pines was in the men's nostrils. The sound
of monotonous axe blows rang through the forest, and the insects, nodding
upon their perches, crooned like old women. The youth returned to his
theory of a blue demonstration.
One gray dawn, however, he was kicked in the leg by the tall soldier,
and then, before he was entirely awake, he found himself running down a wood
road in the midst of men who were panting from the first effects of
speed. His canteen banged rythmically upon his thigh, and his haversack
bobbed softly. His musket bounced a trifle from his shoulder at each
stride and made his cap feel uncertain upon his head.
He could hear the men whisper jerky sentences: "Say--what's
all this--about?" "What th' thunder--we--skedaddlin' this way
fer?" "Billie--keep off m' feet. Yeh run--like a cow." And the
loud soldier's shrill voice could be heard: "What th'devil they
in sich a hurry for?"
The youth thought the damp fog of early morning moved from the rush of a
great body of troops. From the distance came a sudden spatter of
firing.
He was bewildered. As he ran with his comrades he
strenuously tried to think, but all he knew was that if he fell down
those coming behind would tread upon him. All his faculties
seemed to be needed to guide him over and past obstructions. He
felt carried along by a mob.
The sun spread disclosing rays, and, one by one, regiments burst into
view like armed men just born of the earth. The youth perceived that
the time had come. He was about to be measured. For a moment he felt in
the face of his great trial like a babe, and the flesh over his heart seemed
very thin. He seized time to look about him calculatingly.
But he instantly saw that it would be impossible for him to escape from
the regiment. It inclosed him. And there were iron laws of
tradition and law on four sides. He was in a moving box.
As he perceived this fact it occurred to him that he had never wished to
come to the war. He had not enlisted of his free will. He had been
dragged by the merciless government. And now they were taking him out
to be slaughtered.
The regiment slid down a bank and wallowed across a little stream. The
mournful current moved slowly on, and from the water, shaded black, some
white bubble eyes looked at the men.
As they climbed the hill on the farther side artillery began to
boom. Here the youth forgot many things as he felt a sudden impulse of
curiosity. He scrambled up the bank with a speed that could not be exceeded
by a bloodthirsty man.
He expected a battle scene.
There were some little fields girted and squeezed by a forest. Spread
over the grass and in among the tree trunks, he could see knots and waving
lines of skirmishers who were running hither and thither and firing at the
landscape. A dark battle line lay upon a sunstruck clearing that
gleamed orange color. A flag fluttered.
Other regiments floundered up the bank. The brigade was formed in
line of battle, and after a pause started slowly through the woods in the
rear of the receding skirmishers, who were continually melting into the scene
to appear again farther on. They were always busy as bees, deeply absorbed in
their little combats.
The youth tried to observe everything. He did not use care
to avoid trees and branches, and his forgotten feet were
constantly knocking against stones or getting entangled in briers. He
was aware that these battalions with their commotions were woven red and
startling into the gentle fabric of softened greens and browns. It looked to
be a wrong place for a battle field.
The skirmishers in advance fascinated him. Their shots
into thickets and at distant and prominent trees spoke to him
of tragedies--hidden, mysterious, solemn.
Once the line encountered the body of a dead soldier. He lay upon
his back staring at the sky. He was dressed in an awkward suit of
yellowish brown. The youth could see that the soles of his shoes had
been worn to the thinness of writing paper, and from a great rent in one the
dead foot projected piteously. And it was as if fate had betrayed the
soldier. In death it exposed to his enemies that poverty which in life
he had perhaps concealed from his friends.
The ranks opened covertly to avoid the corpse. The
invulnerable dead man forced a way for himself. The youth looked keenly
at the ashen face. The wind raised the tawny beard. It moved as
if a hand were stroking it. He vaguely desired to walk around
and around the body and stare; the impulse of the living to try to read in
dead eyes the answer to the Question.
During the march the ardor which the youth had acquired when out of view
of the field rapidly faded to nothing. His curiosity was quite easily
satisfied. If an intense scene had caught him with its wild swing as he
came to the top of the bank, he might have gone gone roaring on. This
advance upon Nature was too calm. He had opportunity to reflect. He had
time in which to wonder about himself and to attempt to probe his
sensations.
Absurd ideas took hold upon him. He thought that he did not relish
the landscape. It threatened him. A coldness swept over his back,
and it is true that his trousers felt to him that they were no fit for his
legs at all.
A house standing placidly in distant fields had to him an ominous
look. The shadows of the woods were formidable. He was certain that in
this vista there lurked fierce-eyed hosts. The swift thought came to
him that the generals did not know what they were about. It was all a
trap. Suddenly those close forests would bristle with rifle
barrels. Ironlike brigades would appear in the rear. They were all
going to be sacrificed. The generals were stupids. The enemy
would presently swallow the whole command. He glared about
him, expecting to see the stealthy approach of his death.
He thought that he must break from the ranks and harangue his
comrades. They must not all be killed like pigs; and he was sure it would
come to pass unless they were informed of these dangers. The generals
were idiots to send them marching into a regular pen. There was but
one pair of eyes in the corps. He would step forth and make a
speech. Shrill and passionate words came to his lips.
The line, broken into moving fragments by the ground, went calmly
on through fields and woods. The youth looked at the men nearest
him, and saw, for the most part, expressions of deep interest, as if they
were investigating something that had fascinated them. One or two stepped
with overvaliant airs as if they were already plunged into war. Others
walked as upon thin ice. The greater part of the untested men appeared quiet
and absorbed. They were going to look at war, the red animal--war, the
blood-swollen god. And they were deeply engrossed in this march.
As he looked the youth gripped his outcry at his throat. He saw that
even if the men were tottering with fear they would laugh at his
warning. They would jeer him, and, if practicable, pelt him with
missiles. Admitting that he might be wrong, a frenzied declamation of
the kind would turn him into a worm.
He assumed, then, the demeanor of one who knows that he is doomed alone
to unwritten responsibilities. He lagged, with tragic glances at the
sky.
He was surprised presently by the young lieutenant of his company, who
began heartily to beat him with a sword, calling out in a loud and insolent
voice: "Come, young man, get up into ranks there. No skulking 'll do
here." He mended his pace with suitable haste. And he hated the
lieutenant, who had no appreciation of fine minds. He was a mere brute.
After a time the brigade was halted in the cathedral light of a
forest. The busy skirmishers were still popping. Through the aisles of
the wood could be seen the floating smoke from their rifles. Sometimes it
went up in little balls, white and compact.
During this halt many men in the regiment began erecting tiny hills in
front of them. They used stones sticks, earth, and anything they
thought might turn a bullet. Some built comparatively large ones, while
others seems content with little ones.
This procedure caused a discussion among the men. Some wished
to fight like duelists, believing it to be correct to stand erect and
be, from their feet to their foreheads, a mark. They said they
scorned the devices of the cautious. But the others scoffed in
reply, and pointed to the veterans on the flanks who were digging at
the ground like terriers. In a short time there was quite a
barricade along the regimental fronts. Directly, however, they were
ordered to withdraw from that place.
This astounded the youth. He forgot his stewing over the advance
movement. "Well, then, what did they march us out here for?" he
demanded of the tall soldier. The latter with calm faith began a heavy
explanation, although he had been compelled to leave a little protection of
stones and dirt to which he had devoted much care and skill.
When the regiment was aligned in another position each man's regard for
his safety caused another line of small intrenchments. They ate their noon
meal behind a third one. They were moved from this one also. They
were marched from place to place with apparent aimlessness.
The youth had been taught that a man became another thing
in battle. He saw his salvation in such a change. Hence
this waiting was an ordeal to him. He was in a fever of
impatience. He considered that there was denoted a lack of purpose on
the part of the generals. He began to complain to the tall
soldier. "I can't stand this much longer," he cried. "I don't see
what good it does to make us wear out our legs for nothin'." He
wished to return to camp, knowing that this affair was a blue
demonstration; or else to go into a battle and discover that he had been a
fool in his doubts, and was, in truth, a man of traditional courage. The
strain of present circumstances he felt to be intolerable.
The philosophical tall soldier measured a sandwich of cracker and pork
and swallowed it in a nonchalant manner. "Oh, I suppose we must go
reconnoitering around the country jest to keep 'em from getting too close, or
to develop 'em, or something."
"Huh!" said the loud soldier.
"Well," cried the youth, still fidgeting, "I'd rather do anything 'most
than go tramping 'round the country all day doing no good to nobody and jest
tiring ourselves out."
"So would I," said the loud soldier. "It ain't right. I
tell you if anybody with any sense was a-runnin' this army it--"
"Oh, shut up!" roared the tall private. "You little fool.
You little damn' cuss. You ain't had that there coat and them
pants on for six months, and yet you talk as if--"
"Well, I wanta do some fighting anyway," interrupted the other. "I
didn't come here to walk. I could 'ave walked to home - 'round an'
'round the barn, if I jest wanted to walk."
The tall one, red-faced, swallowed another sandwich as if taking poison
in despair.
But gradually, as he chewed, his face became again quiet
and contented. He could not rage in fierce argument in the
presence of such sandwiches. During his meals he always wore an air
of blissful contemplation of the food he had swallowed. His
spirit seemed then to be communing with the viands.
He accepted new environment and circumstance with great coolness, eating
from his haversack at every opportunity. On the march he went along
with the stride of a hunter, objecting to neither gait nor distance.
And he had not raised his voice when he had been ordered away from three
little protective piles of earth and stone, each of which had been an
engineering feat worthy of being made sacred to the name of his
grandmother.
In the afternoon, the regiment went out over the same ground it had
taken in the morning. The landscape then ceased to threaten the
youth. He had been close to it and become familiar with it.
When, however, they began to pass into a new region, his old fears of
stupidity and incompetence reassailed him, but this time he doggedly let them
babble. He was occupied with his problem, and in his deperation he
concluded that the stupidity did not greatly matter.
Once he thought he had concluded that it would be better to get killed
directly and end his troubles. Regarding death thus out of the corner
of his eye, he conceived it to be nothing but rest, and he was filled with a
momentary astonishment that he should have made an extraordinary commotion
over the mere matter of getting killed. He would die; he would go to some
place where he would be understood. It was useless to expect appreciation of
his profound and fine sense from such men as the lieutenant. He must
look to the grave for comprehension.
The skirmish fire increased to a long clattering sound. With
it was mingled far-away cheering. A battery spoke.
Directly the youth could see the skirmishers running. They
were pursued by the sound of musketry fire. After a time the
hot, dangerous flashes of the rifles were visible. Smoke clouds
went slowly and insolently across the fields like observant phantoms. The
din became crescendo, like the roar of an oncoming train.
A brigade ahead of them and on the right went into action with a rending
roar. It was as if it had exploded. And thereafter it lay
stretched in the distance behind a long gray wall, that one was obliged to
look twice at to make sure that it was smoke.
The youth, forgetting his neat plan of getting killed, gazed spell
bound. His eyes grew wide and busy with the action of the scene. His
mouth was a little ways open.
Of a sudden he felt a heavy and sad hand laid upon his
shoulder. Awakening from his trance of observation he turned and
beheld the loud soldier.
"It's my first and last battle, old boy," said the latter, with intense
gloom. He was quite pale and his girlish lip was trembling.
"Eh?" murmured the youth in great astonishment.
"It's my first and last battle, old boy," continued the
loud soldier. "Something tells me--"
"What?"
"I'm a gone coon this first time and--and I w-want you to take these
here things--to--my--folks." He ended in a quavering sob of pity for
himself. He handed the youth a little packet done up in a yellow
envelope.
"Why, what the devil--" began the youth again.
But the other gave him a glance as from the depths of a tomb, and raised
his limp hand in a prophetic manner and turned away.
Chapter 4
The brigade was halted in the fringe of a grove. The men
crouched among the trees and pointed their restless guns out at the
fields. They tried to look beyond the smoke.
Out of this haze they could see running men. Some
shouted information and gestured as the hurried.
The men of the new regiment watched and listened eagerly, while their
tongues ran on in gossip of the battle. They mouthed rumors that had flown
like birds out of the unknown.
"They say Perry has been driven in with big loss."
"Yes, Carrott went t' th' hospital. He said he was sick.
That smart lieutenant is commanding 'G' Company. Th' boys say
they won't be under Carrott no more if they all have t' desert. They allus
knew he was a--"
"Hannises' batt'ry is took."
"It ain't either. I saw Hannises' batt'ry off on th' left
not more'n fifteen minutes ago."
"Well--"
"Th' general, he ses he is goin' t' take th' hull command of th' 304th
when we go inteh action, an' then he ses we'll do sech fightin' as never
another one reg'ment done."
"They say we're catchin' it over on th' left. They say th'
enemy driv' our line inteh a devil of a swamp an' took Hannises'
batt'ry."
"No sech thing. Hannises' batt'ry was 'long here 'bout a minute
ago."
"That young Hasbrouck, he makes a good off'cer. He ain't afraid 'a
nothin'."
"I met one of th' 148th Maine boys an' he ses his brigade fit th' hull
rebel army fer four hours over on th' turnpike road an' killed about five
thousand of 'em. He ses one more sech fight as that an' th' war 'll be
over."
"Bill wasn't scared either. No, sir! It wasn't that. Bill
ain't a-gittin' scared easy. He was jest mad, that's what he
was. When that feller trod on his hand, he up an' sed that he was willin'
t' give his hand t' his country, but he be dumbed if he was goin' t' have
every dumb bushwhacker in th' kentry walkin' 'round on it. So he went
t' th' hospital disregardless of th' fight. Three fingers was crunched.
Th' dern doctor wanted t' amputate 'm, an' Bill, he raised a heluva row, I
hear. He's a funny feller."
The din in front swelled to a tremendous chorus. The youth and his
fellows were frozen to silence. They could see a flag that tossed in
the smoke angrily. Near it were the blurred and agitated forms of
troops. There came a turbulent stream of men across the fields. A
battery changing position at a frantic gallop scattered the stragglers right
and left.
A shell screaming like a storm banshee went over the huddled heads of
the reserves. It landed in the grove, and exploding redly flung the
brown earth. There was a little shower of pine needles.
Bullets began to whistle among the branches and nip at the trees. Twigs
and leaves came sailing down. It was as if a thousand axes, wee and
invisible, were being wielded. Many of the men were constantly dodging
and ducking their heads.
The lieutenant of the youth's company was shot in the hand. He began to
swear so wondrously that a nervous laugh went along the regimental
line. The officer's profanity sounded conventional. It relieved the
tightened senses of the new men. It was as if he had hit his fingers
with a tack hammer at home.
He held the wounded member carefully away from his side so that the
blood would not drip upon his trousers.
The captain of the company, tucking his sword under his arm, produced a
handkerchief and began to bind with it the lieutenant's wound. And they
disputed as to how the binding should be done.
The battle flag in the distance jerked about madly. It seemed
to be struggling to free itself from an agony. The billowing
smoke was filled with horizontal flashes.
Men rushing swiftly emerged from it. They grew in numbers until it
was seen that the whole command was fleeing. The flag suddenly sank
down as if dying. Its motion as it fell was a gesture of despair.
Wild yells came from behind the walls of smoke. A sketch in
gray and red dissolved into a moblike body of men who galloped like wild
horses. The veteran regiments on the right and left of the 304th
immediately began to jeer. With the passionate song of the bullets and
the banshee shrieks of shells were mingled loud catcalls and bits of
facetious advice concerning places of safety.
But the new regiment was breathless with horror. "Gawd! Saunders's
got crushed!" whispered the man at the youth's elbow. They shrank back and
crouched as if compelled to await a flood.
The youth shot a swift glance along the blue ranks of the regiment. The
profiles were motionless, carven; and afterward he remembered that the color
sergeant was standing with his legs apart, as if he expected to be pushed to
the ground.
The following throng went whirling around the flank. Here and
there were officers carried along on the stream like exasperated
chips. They were striking about them with their swords and with their left
fists, punching every head they could reach. They cursed like
highwaymen.
A mounted officer displayed the furious anger of a spoiled child. He
raged with his head, his arms, and his legs.
Another, the commander of the brigade, was galloping about bawling. His
hat was gone and his clothes were awry. He resembled a man who has come
from bed to go to a fire. The hoofs of his horse often threatened the
heads of the running men, but they scampered with singular fortune. In
this rush they were apparently all deaf and blind. They heeded not the
largest and longest of the oaths that were thrown at them from all
directions.
Frequently over this tumult could be heard the grim jokes of
the critical veterans; but the retreating men apparently were not even
conscious of the presence of an audience.
The battle reflection that shone for an instant in the faces on the mad
current made the youth feel that forceful hands from heaven would not have
been able to have held him in place if he could have got intelligent control
of his legs.
There was an appalling imprint upon these faces. The struggle
in the smoke had pictured an exaggeration of itself on the bleached cheeks
and in the eyes wild with one desire.
The sight of this stampede exerted a floodlike force that seemed able to
drag sticks and stones and men from the ground. They of the
reserves had to hold on. They grew pale and firm, and red and
quaking.
The youth achieved one little thought in the midst of this chaos. The
composite monster which had caused the other troops to flee had not then
appeared. He resolved to get a view of it, and then, he thought he
might very likely run better than the best of them.
Chapter 5
There were moments of waiting. The youth thought of the
village street at home before the arrival of the circus parade on a day in
the spring. He remembered how he had stood, a small, thrillful boy,
prepared to follow the dingy lady upon the white horse, or the band in its
faded chariot. He saw the yellow road, the lines of expectant people,
and the sober houses. He particularly remembered an old fellow who used to
sit upon a cracker box in front of the store and feign to despise such
exhibitions. A thousand details of color and form surged in his
mind. The old fellow upon the cracker box appeared in middle
prominence.
Some one cried, "Here they come!"
There was rustling and muttering among the men. They displayed
a feverish desire to have every possible cartridge ready to their
hands. The boxes were pulled around into various positions, and
adjusted with great care. It was as if seven hundred new bonnets
were being tried on.
The tall soldier, having prepared his rifle, produced a red handkerchief
of some kind. He was engaged in knotting it about his throat with
exquisite attention to its position, when the cry was repeated up and down
the line in a muffled roar of sound.
"Here they come! Here they come!" Gun locks clicked.
Across the smoke-infested fields came a brown swarm of running men who
were giving shrill yells. They came on, stooping and swinging their
rifles at all angles. A flag, tilted forward, sped near the
front.
As he caught sight of them the youth was momentarily startled by a
thought that perhaps his gun was not loaded. He stood trying to rally
his faltering intellect so that he might recollect the moment when he had
loaded, but he could not.
A hatless general pulled his dripping horse to a stand near the colonel
of the 304th. He shook his fist in the other's face. "You've got to
hold 'em back!" he shouted, savagely; "you've got to hold 'em back!"
In his agitation the colonel began to stammer. "A-all
r-right, General, all right, by Gawd! We-we 'll do our--we-we 'll
d-d-do-do our best, General." The general made a passionate gesture
and galloped away. The colonel, perchance to relieve his
feelings, began to scold like a wet parrot. The youth, turning
swiftly to make sure that the rear was unmolested, saw the
commander regarding his men in a highly resentful manner, as if
he regretted above everything his association with them.
The man at the youth's elbow was mumbling, as if to himself: "Oh, we 're
in for it now! oh, we 're in for it now!"
The captain of the company had been pacing excitedly to and fro in the
rear. He coaxed in schoolmistress fashion, as to a congregation of boys
with primers. His talk was an endless repetition. "Reserve your
fire, boys--don't shoot till I tell you--save your fire--wait till they get
close up--don't be damned fools--"
Perspiration streamed down the youth's face, which was soiled like that
of a weeping urchin. He frequently, with a nervous movement, wiped his
eyes with his coat sleeve. His mouth was still a little ways ope.
He got the one glance at the foe-swarming field in front of him, and
instantly ceased to debate the question of his piece being loaded. Before he
was ready to begin--before he had announced to himself that he was about to
fight--he threw the obedient well-balanced rifle into position and fired a
first wild shot. Directly he was working at his weapon like an automatic
affair.
He suddenly lost concern for himself, and forgot to look at a menacing
fate. He became not a man but a member. He felt that something of
which he was a part--a regiment, an army, a cause, or a country--was in
crisis. He was welded into a common personality which was dominated by
a single desire. For some moments he could not flee no more than a little
finger can commit a revolution from a hand.
If he had thought the regiment was about to be annihilated perhaps he
could have amputated himself from it. But its noise gave him
assurance. The regiment was like a firework that, once ignited,
proceeds superior to circumstances until its blazing vitality fades. It
wheezed and banged with a mighty power. He pictured the ground before it as
strewn with the discomfited.
There was a consciousness always of the presence of his comrades about
him. He felt the subtle battle brotherhood more potent even than the
cause for which they were fighting. It was a mysterious fraternity born
of the smoke and danger of death.
He was at a task. He was like a carpenter who has made many
boxes, making still another box, only there was furious haste in his
movements. He, in his thoughts, was careering off in other places, even
as the carpenter who as he works whistles and thinks of his friend or his
enemy, his home or a saloon. And these jolted dreams were never perfect to
him afterward, but remained a mass of blurred shapes.
Presently he began to feel the effects of the war
atmosphere--a blistering sweat, a sensation that his eyeballs were about
to crack like hot stones. A burning roar filled his ears.
Following this came a red rage. He developed the acute
exasperation of a pestered animal, a well-meaning cow worried by dogs.
He had a mad feeling against his rifle, which could only be used against
one life at a time. He wished to rush forward and strangle with his
fingers. He craved a power that would enable him to make a world-sweeping
gesture and brush all back. His impotency appeared to him, and made his
rage into that of a driven beast.
Buried in the smoke of many rifles his anger was directed not so much
against the men whom he knew were rushing toward him as against the swirling
battle phantoms which were choking him, stuffing their smoke robes down his
parched throat. He fought frantically for respite for his senses, for
air, as a babe being smothered attacks the deadly blankets.
There was a blare of heated rage mingled with a certain expression of
intentness on all faces. Many of the men were making low-toned noises
with their mouths, and these subdued cheers, snarls, imprecations, prayers,
made a wild, barbaric these subdued cheers, snarls, imprecations, prayers,
made a wild, barbaric these subdued cheers, snarls, imprecations,
prayers, made a wild, barbaric these subdued cheers, snarls,
imprecations, prayers, made a wild, barbaric song that went as an
undercurrent of sound, strange and chantlike with the resounding chords of
the war march. The man at the youth's elbow was babbling. In
it there was something soft and tender like the monologue of a babe. The
tall soldier was swearing in a loud voice. From his lips came a black
procession of curious oaths. Of a sudden another broke out in a
querulous way like a man who has mislaid his hat. "Well, why don't they
support us? Why don't they send supports? Do they think--"
The youth in his battle sleep heard this as one who dozes hears.
There was a singular absence of heroic poses. The men bending
and surging in their haste and rage were in every impossible attitude. The
steel ramrods clanked and clanged with incessant din as the men pounded them
furiously into the hot rifle barrels. The flaps of the cartridge boxes were
all unfastened, and bobbed idiotically with each movement. The
rifles, once loaded, were jerked to the shoulder and fired
without apparent aim into the smoke or at one of the blurred and shifting
forms which upon the field before the regiment had been growing larger and
larger like puppets under a magician's hand.
The officers, at their intervals, rearward, neglected to stand
in picturesque attitudes. They were bobbing to and fro
roaring directions and encouragements. The dimensions of their
howls were extraordinary. They expended their lungs with prodigal
wills. And often they nearly stood upon their heads in their anxiety to
observe the enemy on the other side of the tumbling smoke.
The lieutenant of the youth's company had encountered a soldier who had
fled screaming at the first volley of his comrades. Behind the lines these
two were acting a little isolated scene. The man was blubbering and staring
with sheeplike eyes at the lieutenant, who had seized him by the collar and
was pommeling him. He drove him back into the ranks with many blows.
The soldier went mechanically, dully, with his animal-like eyes upon the
officer. Perhaps there was to him a divinity expressed in the voice of the
other--stern, hard, with no reflection of fear in it. He tried to reload his
gun, but his shaking hands prevented. The lieutenant was obliged to assist
him.
The men dropped here and there like bundles. The captain of
the youth's company had been killed in an early part of the action. His
body lay stretched out in the position of a tired man resting, but upon his
face there was an astonished and sorrowful look, as if he thought some friend
had done him an ill turn. The babbling man was grazed by a shot that made the
blood stream widely down his face. He clapped both hand to his
head. "Oh!" he said, and ran. Another grunted suddenly as if he had
been struck by a club in the stomach. He sat down and gazed
ruefully. In his eyes there was mute, indefinite reproach. Farther up
the line a man, standing behind a tree, had had his knee joint splintered
by a ball. Immediately he had dropped his rifle and gripped the tree
with both arms. And there he remained, clinging desperately and crying
for assistance that he might withdraw his hold upon the tree.
At last an exultant yell went along the quivering line. The
firing dwindled from an uproar to a last vindictive popping. As the
smoke slowly eddied away, the youth saw that the charge had been
repulsed. The enemy were scattered into reluctant groups. He saw a man
climb to the top of the fence, straddle the rail, and fire a parting
shot. The waves had receded, leaving bits of dark "debris" upon the
ground.
Some in the regiment began to whoop frenziedly. Many were
silent. Apparently they were trying to contemplate themselves.
After the fever had left his veins, the youth thought that at last he
was going to suffocate. He became aware of the foul atmosphere in which
he had been struggling. He was grimy and dripping like a laborer in a
foundry. He grasped his canteen and took a long swallow of the warmed
water.
A sentence with variations went up and down the line. "Well,
we 've helt 'em back. We 've helt 'em back; derned if we
haven't." The men said it blissfully, leering at each other with dirty
smiles.
The youth turned to look behind him and off to the right and off to the
left. He experienced the joy of a man who at last finds leisure in
which to look about him.
Under foot there were a few ghastly forms motionless. They
lay twisted in fantastic contortions. Arms were bent and heads
were turned in incredible ways. It seemed that the dead men must
have fallen from some great height to get into such positions.
They looked to be dumped out upon the ground from the sky.
From a position in the rear of the grove a battery was throwing shells
over it. The flash of the guns startled the youth at first. He thought
they were aimed directly at him. Through the trees he watched the black
figures of the gunners as they worked swiftly and intently. Their labor
seemed a complicated thing. He wondered how they could remember its
formula in the midst of confusion.
The guns squatted in a row like savage chiefs. They argued
with abrupt violence. It was a grim pow-wow. Their busy servants
ran hither and thither.
A small procession of wounded men were going drearily toward the
rear. It was a flow of blood from the torn body of the brigade.
To the right and to the left were the dark lines of other troops. Far in
front he thought he could see lighter masses protruding in points from the
forest. They were suggestive of unnumbered thousands.
Once he saw a tiny battery go dashing along the line of the horizon. The
tiny riders were beating the tiny horses.
From a sloping hill came the sound of cheerings and clashes. Smoke
welled slowly through the leaves.
Batteries were speaking with thunderous oratorical effort. Here and
there were flags, the red in the stripes dominating. They splashed bits of
warm color upon the dark lines of troops.
The youth felt the old thrill at the sight of the emblems. They were
like beautiful birds strangely undaunted in a storm.
As he listened to the din from the hillside, to a deep pulsating thunder
that came from afar to the left, and to the lesser clamors which came from
many directions, it occurred to him that they were fighting, too, over there,
and over there, and over there. Heretofore he had supposed that all the
battle was directly under his nose.
As he gazed around him the youth felt a flash of astonishment at the
blue, pure sky and the sun gleamings on the trees and fields. It was
surprising that Nature had gone tranquilly on with her golden process in the
midst of so much devilment.
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The youth awakened slowly. He came gradually back to a
position from which he could regard himself. For moments he had
been scrutinizing his person in a dazed way as if he had never before seen
himself. Then he picked up his cap from the ground. He wriggled in his
jacket to make a more comfortable fit, and kneeling relaced his shoe.
He thoughtfully mopped his reeking features.
So it was all over at last! The supreme trial had been passed. The
red, formidable difficulties of war had been vanquished.
He went into an ecstasy of self-satisfaction. He had the
most delightful sensations of his life. Standing as if apart
from himself, he viewed that last scene. He perceived that the
man who had fought thus was magnificent.
He felt that he was a fine fellow. He saw himself even with those
ideals which he had considered as far beyond him. He smiled in deep
gratification.
Upon his fellows he beamed tenderness and good will. "Gee! ain't it hot,
hey?" he said affably to a man who was polishing his streaming face with his
coat sleeves.
"You bet!" said the other, grinning sociably. "I never seen sech
dumb hotness." He sprawled out luxuriously on the ground. "Gee,
yes! An' I hope we don't have no more fightin' till a week from
Monday."
There were some handshakings and deep speeches with men whose features
were familiar, but with whom the youth now felt the bonds of tied
hearts. He helped a cursing comrade to bind up a wound of the
shin.
But, of a sudden, cries of amazement broke out along the ranks of the
new regiment. "Here they come ag'in! Here they come ag'in!" The
man who had sprawled upon the ground started up and said, "Gosh!"
The youth turned quick eyes upon the field. He discerned
forms begin to swell in masses out of a distant wood. He again saw
the tilted flag speeding forward.
The shells, which had ceased to trouble the regiment for a time, came
swirling again, and exploded in the grass or among the leaves of the
trees. They looked to be strange war flowers bursting into fierce
bloom.
The men groaned. The luster faded from their eyes. Their smudged
countenances now expressed a profound dejection. They moved their stiffened
bodies slowly, and watched in sullen mood the frantic approach of the
enemy. The slaves toiling in the temple of this god began to feel
rebellion at his harsh tasks.
They fretted and complained each to each. "Oh, say, this is
too much of a good thing! Why can't somebody send us supports?"
"We ain't never goin' to stand this second banging. I didn't come
here to fight the hull damn' rebel army."
There was one who raised a doleful cry. "I wish Bill Smithers had
trod on my hand, insteader me treddin' on his'n." The sore joints of
the regiment creaked as it painfully floundered into position to
repulse.
The youth stared. Surely, he thought, this impossible thing
was not about to happen. He waited as if he expected the enemy
to suddenly stop, apologize, and retire bowing. It was all a
mistake.
But the firing began somewhere on the regimental line and ripped along
in both directions. The level sheets of flame developed great clouds of
smoke that tumbled and tossed in the mild wind near the ground for a moment,
and then rolled through the ranks as through a gate. The clouds were
tinged an earthlike yellow in the sunrays and in the shadow were a sorry
blue. The flag was sometimes eaten and lost in this mass of vapor, but
more often it projected, sun-touched, resplendent.
Into the youth's eyes there came a look that one can see in the orbs of
a jaded horse. His neck was quivering with nervous weakness and the
muscles of his arms felt numb and bloodless. His hands, too, seemed large and
awkward as if he was wearing invisible mittens. And there was a great
uncertainty about his knee joints.
The words that comrades had uttered previous to the firing began to
recur to him. "Oh, say, this is too much of a good thing! What do they
take us for--why don't they send supports? I didn't come here to fight the
hull damned rebel army."
He began to exaggerate the endurance, the skill, and the valor of those
who were coming. Himself reeling from exhaustion, he was astonished
beyond measure at such persistency. They must be machines of
steel. It was very gloomy struggling against such affairs, wound up
perhaps to fight until sundown.
He slowly lifted his rifle and catching a glimpse of the thickspread
field he blazed at a cantering cluster. He stopped then and began to
peer as best as he could through the smoke. He caught changing views of the
ground covered with men who were all running like pursued imps, and
yelling.
To the youth it was an onslaught of redoubtable dragons. He became
like the man who lost his legs at the approach of the red and green
monster. He waited in a sort of a horrified, listening attitude. He seemed
to shut his eyes and wait to be gobbled.
A man near him who up to this time had been working feverishly at his
rifle suddenly stopped and ran with howls. A lad whose face had borne
an expression of exalted courage, the majesty of he who dares give his life,
was, at an instant, smitten abject. He blanched like one who has come to the
edge of a cliff at midnight and is suddenly made aware. There was a
revelation. He, too, threw down his gun and fled. There was no shame in
his face. He ran like a rabbit.
Others began to scamper away through the smoke. The youth
turned his head, shaken from his trance by this movement as if
the regiment was leaving him behind. He saw the few fleeting
forms.
He yelled then with fright and swung about. For a moment, in
the great clamor, he was like a proverbial chicken. He lost
the direction of safety. Destruction threatened him from all
points.
Directly he began to speed toward the rear in great leaps. His rifle and
cap were gone. His unbuttoned coat bulged in the wind. The flap of his
cartridge box bobbed wildly, and his canteen, by its slender cord, swung out
behind. On his face was all the horror of those things which he
imagined.
The lieutenant sprang forward bawling. The youth saw his features
wrathfully red, and saw him make a dab with his sword. His one thought of the
incident was that the lieutenant was a peculiar creature to feel interested
in such matters upon this occasion.
He ran like a blind man. Two or three times he fell down. Once
he knocked his shoulder so heavily against a tree that he went
headlong.
Since he had turned his back upon the fight his fears had
been wondrously magnified. Death about to thrust him between
the shoulder blades was far more dreadful than death about to smite
him between the eyes. When he thought of it later, he conceived
the impression that it is better to view the appalling than to be merely
within hearing. The noises of the battle were like stones; he believed
himself liable to be crushed.
As he ran on he mingled with others. He dimly saw men on his right
and on his left, and he heard footsteps behind him. He thought that all the
regiment was fleeing, pursued by those ominous crashes.
In his flight the sound of these following footsteps gave him his one
meager relief. He felt vaguely that death must make a first choice of
the men who were nearest; the initial morsels for the dragons would be then
those who were following him. So he displayed the zeal of an insane
sprinter in his purpose to keep them in the rear. There was a
race.
As he, leading, went across a little field, he found himself in a region
of shells. They hurtled over his head with long wild screams. As he
listened he imagined them to have rows of cruel teeth that grinned at
him. Once one lit before him and the livid lightning of the explosion
effectually barred the way in his chosen direction. He groveled on the ground
and then springing up went careering off through some bushes.
He experienced a thrill of amazement when he came within view of
a battery in action. The men there seemed to be in conventional
moods, altogether unaware of the impending annihilation. The battery
was disputing with a distant antagonist and the gunners were wrapped in
admiration of their shooting. They were continually bending in coaxing
postures over the guns. They seemed to be patting them on the back and
encouraging them with words. The guns, stolid and undaunted, spoke with
dogged valor.
The precise gunners were coolly enthusiastic. They lifted
their eyes every chance to the smoke-wreathed hillock from whence
the hostile battery addressed them. The youth pitied them as he
ran. Methodical idiots! Machine-like fools! The refined joy
of planting shells in the midst of the other battery's formation would
appear a little thing when the infantry came swooping out of the woods.
The face of a youthful rider, who was jerking his frantic horse with an
abandon of temper he might display in a placid barnyard, was impressed deeply
upon his mind. He knew that he looked upon a man who would presently be
dead.
Too, he felt a pity for the guns, standing, six good comrades, in a bold
row.
He saw a brigade going to the relief of its pestered fellows. He
scrambled upon a wee hill and watched it sweeping finely, keeping formation
in difficult places. The blue of the line was crusted with steel color,
and the brilliant flags projected. Officers were shouting.
This sight also filled him with wonder. The brigade was
hurrying briskly to be gulped into the infernal mouths of the war
god. What manner of men were they, anyhow? Ah, it was some wondrous
breed! Or else they didn't comprehend--the fools.
A furious order caused commotion in the artillery. An officer on a
bounding horse made maniacal motions with his arms. The teams went
swinging up from the rear, the guns were whirled about, and the battery
scampered away. The cannon with their noses poked slantingly at the
ground grunted and grumbled like stout men, brave but with objections to
hurry.
The youth went on, moderating his pace since he had left the place of
noises.
Later he came upon a general of division seated upon a horse
that pricked its ears in an interested way at the battle. There was
a great gleaming of yellow and patent leather about the saddle
and bridle. The quiet man astride looked mouse-colored upon such
a splendid charger.
A jingling staff was galloping hither and thither. Sometimes
the general was surrounded by horsemen and at other times he was quite
alone. He looked to be much harassed. He had the appearance of a
business man whose market is swinging up and down.
The youth went slinking around this spot. He went as near as
he dared trying to overhear words. Perhaps the general, unable
to comprehend chaos, might call upon him for information. And
he could tell him. He knew all concerning it. Of a surety
the force was in a fix, and any fool could see that if they did
not retreat while they had opportunity--why--
He felt that he would like to thrash the general, or at least approach
and tell him in plain words exactly what he thought him to be. It was
criminal to stay calmly in one spot and make no effort to stay
destruction. He loitered in a fever of eagerness for the division
commander to apply to him.
As he warily moved about, he heard the general call out irritably:
"Tompkins, go over an' see Taylor, an' tell him not t' be in such an
all-fired hurry; tell him t' halt his brigade in th' edge of th' woods; tell
him t' detach a reg'ment--say I think th' center 'll break if we don't help
it out some; tell him t' hurry up."
A slim youth on a fine chestnut horse caught these swift words from the
mouth of his superior. He made his horse bound into a gallop almost
from a walk in his haste to go upon his mission. There was a cloud of
dust.
A moment later the youth saw the general bounce excitedly in his
saddle.
"Yes, by heavens, they have!" The officer leaned forward. His
face was aflame with excitement. "Yes, by heavens, they 've held
'im! They 've held 'im!"
He began to blithely roar at his staff: "We 'll wallop 'im now. We
'll wallop 'im now. We 've got 'em sure." He turned suddenly upon
an aide: "Here--you--Jons--quick--ride after Tompkins--see Taylor--tell
him t' go in--everlastingly--like blazes--anything."
As another officer sped his horse after the first messenger, the general
beamed upon the earth like a sun. In his eyes was a desire to chant a
paean. He kept repeating, "They 've held 'em, by heavens!"
His excitement made his horse plunge, and he merrily kicked and swore at
it. He held a little carnival of joy on horseback.
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The youth cringed as if discovered in a crime. By heavens, they
had won after all! The imbecile line had remained and become
victors. He could hear cheering.
He lifted himself upon his toes and looked in the direction of the
fight. A yellow fog lay wallowing on the treetops. From beneath it came
the clatter of musketry. Hoarse cries told of an advance.
He turned away amazed and angry. He felt that he had been
wronged.
He had fled, he told himself, because annihilation approached. He had
done a good part in saving himself, who was a little piece of the army.
He had considered the time, he said, to be one in which it was the duty of
every little piece to rescue itself if possible. Later the officers
could fit the little pieces together again, and make a battle front. If
none of the little pieces were wise enough to save themselves from the flurry
of death at such a time, why, then, where would be the army? It
was all plain that he had proceeded according to very correct
and commendable rules. His actions had been sagacious things.
They had been full of strategy. They were the work of a master's
legs.
Thoughts of his comrades came to him. The brittle blue line
had withstood the blows and won. He grew bitter over it. It
seemed that the blind ignorance and stupidity of those little pieces had
betrayed him. He had been overturned and crushed by their lack of sense
in holding the position, when intelligent deliberation would have convinced
them that it was impossible. He, the enlightened man who looks afar in the
dark, had fled because of his superior perceptions and knowledge. He
felt a great anger against his comrades. He knew it could be
proved that they had been fools.
He wondered what they would remark when later he appeared in camp. His
mind heard howls of derision. Their density would not enable them to
understand his sharper point of view.
He began to pity himself acutely. He was ill used. He
was trodden beneath the feet of an iron injustice. He had
proceeded with wisdom and from the most righteous motives under
heaven's blue only to be frustrated by hateful circumstances.
A dull, animal-like rebellion against his fellows, war in the abstract,
and fate grew within him. He shambled along with bowed head, his brain
in a tumult of agony and despair. When he looked loweringly up,
quivering at each sound, his eyes had the expression of those of a criminal
who thinks his guilt little and his punishment great, and knows that he can
find no words.
He went from the fields into a thick woods, as if resolved to bury
himself. He wished to get out of hearing of the crackling shots which
were to him like voices.
The ground was cluttered with vines and bushes, and the trees grew close
and spread out like bouquets. He was obliged to force his way with much
noise. The creepers, catching against his legs, cried out harshly as
their sprays were torn from the barks of trees. The swishing saplings
tried to make known his presence to the world. He could not conciliate
the forest. As he made his way, it was always calling out
protestations. When he separated embraces of trees and vines the
disturbed foliages waved their arms and turned their face leaves toward
him. He dreaded lest these noisy motions and cries should bring men to
look at him. So he went far, seeking dark and intricate places.
After a time the sound of musketry grew faint and the cannon boomed in
the distance. The sun, suddenly apparent, blazed among the trees.
The insects were making rhythmical noises. They seemed to be grinding
their teeth in unison. A woodpecker stuck his impudent head around the
side of a tree. A bird flew on lighthearted wing.
Off was the rumble of death. It seemed now that Nature had no
ears.
This landscape gave him assurance. A fair field holding life. It
was the religion of peace. It would die if its timid eyes were
compelled to see blood. He conceived Nature to be a woman with a deep
aversion to tragedy.
He threw a pine cone at a jovial squirrel, and he ran with chattering
fear. High in a treetop he stopped, and, poking his head cautiously
from behind a branch, looked down with an air of trepidation.
The youth felt triumphant at this exhibition. There was the
law, he said. Nature had given him a sign. The squirrel,
immediately upon recognizing danger, had taken to his legs without ado. He
did not stand stolidly baring his furry belly to the missile, and die with an
upward glance at the sympathetic heavens. On the contrary, he had fled
as fast as his legs could carry him; and he was but an ordinary squirrel,
too--doubtless no philosopher of his race. The youth wended, feeling
that Nature was of his mind. She re-enforced his argument with proofs that
lived where the sun shone.
Once he found himself almost into a swamp. He was obliged to walk
upon bog tufts and watch his feet to keep from the oily mire. Pausing at one
time to look about him he saw, out at some black water, a small animal pounce
in and emerge directly with a gleaming fish.
The youth went again into the deep thickets. The brushed branches
made a noise that drowned the sounds of cannon. He walked on, going from
obscurity into promises of a greater obscurity.
At length he reached a place where the high, arching boughs made a
chapel. He softly pushed the green doors aside and entered. Pine
needles were a gentle brown carpet. There was a religious half light.
Near the threshold he stopped, horror-stricken at the sight of a
thing.
He was being looked at by a dead man who was seated with his
back against a columnlike tree. The corpse was dressed in a
uniform that had once been blue, but was now faded to a melancholy
shade of green. The eyes, staring at the youth, had changed to the
dull hue to be seen on the side of a dead fish. The mouth was
open. Its red had changed to an appalling yellow. Over the gray skin
of the face ran little ants. One was trundling some sort of
bundle along the upper lip.
The youth gave a shriek as he confronted the thing. He was
for moments turned to stone before it. He remained staring into
the liquid-looking eyes. The dead man and the living man exchanged
a long look. Then the youth cautiously put one hand behind him
and brought it against a tree. Leaning upon this he retreated, step
by step, with his face still toward the thing. He feared that if
he turned his back the body might spring up and stealthily pursue him.
The branches, pushing against him, threatened to throw him over upon
it. His unguided feet, too, caught aggravatingly in brambles; and with
it all he received a subtle suggestion to touch the corpse. As he thought of
his hand upon it he shuddered profoundly.
At last he burst the bonds which had fastened him to the spot and
fled, unheeding the underbrush. He was pursued by the sight of black
ants swarming greedily upon the gray face and venturing horribly near
to the eyes.
After a time he paused, and, breathless and panting, listened. He
imagined some strange voice would come from the dead throat and squawk after
him in horrible menaces.
The trees about the portal of the chapel moved soughingly in a soft
wind. A sad silence was upon the little guarding edifice.
Chapter 8
The trees began softly to sing a hymn of twilight. The sun
sank until slanted bronze rays struck the forest. There was a lull
in the noises of insects as if they had bowed their beaks and were making
a devotional pause. There was silence save for the chanted chorus of
the trees.
Then, upon this stillness, there suddenly broke a tremendous clangor of
sounds. A crimson roar came from the distance.
The youth stopped. He was transfixed by this terrific medley
of all noises. It was as if worlds were being rended. There was
the ripping sound of musketry and the breaking crash of the artillery.
His mind flew in all directions. He conceived the two armies to be
at each other panther fashion. He listened for a time. Then he began to
run in the direction of the battle. He saw that it was an ironical
thing for him to be running thus toward that which he had been at such pains
to avoid. But he said, in substance, to himself that if the earth and
the moon were about to clash, many persons would doubtless plan to get upon
the roofs to witness the collision.
As he ran, he became aware that the forest had stopped its music, as if
at last becoming capable of hearing the foregin sounds. The trees hushed and
stood motionless. Everything seemed to be listening to the crackle and
clatter and earthshaking thunder. The chorus peaked over the still
earth.
It suddenly occurred to the youth that the fight in which he had been
was, after all, but perfunctory popping. In the hearing of this present
din he was doubtful if he had seen real battle scenes. This uproar explained
a celestial battle; it was tumbling hordes a-struggle in the air.
Reflecting, he saw a sort of a humor in the point of view of himself and
his fellows during the late encounter. They had taken themselves and
the enemy very seriously and had imagined that they were deciding the
war. Individuals must have supposed that they were cutting the letters
of their names deep into everlasting tablets of brass, or enshrining their
reputations forever in the hearts of their countrymen, while, as to
fact, the affair would appear in printed reports under a meek
and immaterial title. But he saw that it was good, else, he said,
in battle every one would surely run save forlorn hopes and their ilk.
He went rapidly on. He wished to come to the edge of the
forest that he might peer out.
As he hastened, there passed through his mind pictures of stupendous
conflicts. His accumulated thought upon such subjects was used to form
scenes. The noise was as the voice of an eloquent being,
describing.
Sometimes the brambles formed chains and tried to hold him back. Trees,
confronting him, stretched out their arms and forbade him to pass.
After its previous hostility this new resistance of the forest filled him
with a fine bitterness. It seemed that Nature could not be quite ready
to kill him.
But he obstinately took roundabout ways, and presently he was where he
could see long gray walls of vapor where lay battle lines. The voices
of cannon shook him. The musketry sounded in long irregular surges that
played havoc with his ears. He stood regardant for a moment. His
eyes had an awestruck expression. He gawked in the direction of th
fight.
Presently he proceeded again on his forward way. The battle was
like the grinding of an immense and terrible machine to him. Its complexities
and powers, its grim processes, fascinated him. He must go close and see it
produce corpses.
He came to a fence and clambered over it. On the far side,
the ground was littered with clothes and guns. A newspaper, folded
up, lay in the dirt. A dead soldier was stretched with his face
hidden in his arm. Farther off there was a group of four or five
corpses keeping mournful company. A hot sun had blazed upon this
spot.
In this place the youth felt that he was an invader.
This forgotten part of the battle ground was owned by the dead men, and he
hurried, in the vague apprehension that one of the swollen forms would rise
and tell him to begone.
He came finally to a road from which he could see in the distance dark
and agitated bodies of troops, smoke-fringed. In the lane was a
blood-stained crowd streaming to the rear. The wounded men were
cursing, groaning, and wailing. In the air, always, was a mighty swell
of sound that it seemed could sway the earth. With the courageous words
of the artillery and the spiteful sentences of the musketry mingled red
cheers. And from this region of noises came the steady current of the
maimed.
One of the wounded men had a shoeful of blood. He hopped like
a schoolboy in a game. He was laughing hysterically.
One was swearing that he had been shot in the arm through the commanding
general's mismanagement of the army. One was marching with an air
imitative of some sublime drum major. Upon his features was an unholy
mixture of merriment and agony. As he marched he sang a bit of doggerel
in a high and quavering voice:
"Sing a song 'a vic'try, A pocketful 'a bullets, Five an' twenty
dead men Baked in a--pie."
Parts of the procession limped and staggered to this tune.
Another had the gray seal of death already upon his face. His lips were
curled in hard lines and his teeth were clinched. His hands were bloody from
where he had pressed them upon his wound. He seemed to be awaiting the moment
when he should pitch headlong. He stalked like the specter of a soldier, his
eyes burning with the power of a stare into the unknown.
There were some who proceeded sullenly, full of anger at their
wounds, and ready to turn upon anything as an obscure cause.
An officer was carried along by two privates. He was
peevish. "Don't joggle so, Johnson, yeh fool," he cried. "Think m' leg
is made of iron? If yeh can't carry me decent, put me down an'
let some one else do it."
He bellowed at the tottering crowd who blocked the quick march of his
bearers. "Say, make way there, can't yeh? Make way, dickens take
it all."
They sulkily parted and went to the roadsides. As he was
carried past they made pert remarks to him. When he raged in reply
and threatened them, they told him to be damned.
The shoulder of one of the tramping bearers knocked heavily against the
spectral soldier who was staring into the unknown.
The youth joined this crowd and marched along with it. The
torn bodies expressed the awful machinery in which the men had been
entangled.
Orderlies and couriers occasionally broke through the throng in the
roadway, scattering wounded men right and left, galloping on followed by
howls. The melancholy march was continually disturbed by the
messengers, and sometimes by bustling batteries that came swinging and
thumping down upon them, the officers shouting orders to clear the way.
There was a tattered man, fouled with dust, blood and powder stain from
hair to shoes, who trudged quietly at the youth's side. He was listening with
eagerness and much humility to the lurid descriptions of a bearded
sergeant. His lean features wore an expression of awe and
admiration. He was like a listener in a country store to wondrous tales
told among the sugar barrels. He eyed the story-teller with unspeakable
wonder. His mouth was agape in yokel fashion.
The sergeant, taking note of this, gave pause to his elaborate history
while he administered a sardonic comment. "Be ke